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I lost my little Willie almost a month ago and the pain is still as raw as it was that day. I can’t breathe when I stop and think about him, which is all of the time. I feel constant guilt and wonder if I let him go too soon. I wish I could go back and change my mind about that day. He was my baby for 10 years, my constant shadow, my lapdog and my bedmate. I’m lost without his little self. I love my other dogs so much, but I miss Willie to the point of constant pain.
Registered: 1573178002 Posts: 7
Today marks 4 weeks since my little boy, Ash, departed from this world. Like you, I feel an immense pain in my heart. I have cried every day, and there is not a day that goes by that I don’t wish to rewind time, to have the opportunity to change what happened. As I have mentioned before in other posts, when I step out of my house, I still feel like a hope to see him. As if he would come out of nowhere and just be there, but I know that’s not going to happen. The same as when I wish I could turn back time. Today, I managed to somewhat keep my composure by keeping myself busy. The truth is I miss my little boy. It has been very hard to deal with his passing. He was always with me and my husband. He was our company since our girls don’t tag along with us anymore. When my husband would cut the grass, Ash would be out there with him. When I say to watch T.V. , he was right next to me. He was the little boy I didn’t have. I wish this would have never happened, but I guess that I’m beginning to understand and accept what happened. Ash was attacked by two strays. Ash would be in and out of the house as he pleased. My neighbors loved him and spoiled him too. I wish I would have never let him out that morning on November 3rd. Little did I know I would never see him alive. I’ve cried so much and it hurts a lot. I too, feel like if I can’t breath when I think about him, and this is every day and almost every second of the day. The mornings are harder, when I open my eyes, Ash is in my mind that instant. This have been my days. Today like I mentioned I managed, only because I decided to clean my daughters room thoroughly. I literally sat down to look at my little boys pictures. The only thing I wish for and that I remain hopeful for is to see him when time is up. I really do. This message board helps me in not feeling alone. There are those who think it was just a pet, but then there is us who know that they were part of our family. For me, he was my little boy. Ash, mommy loves you and misses you tons. You’ll always be a part of my life baby boy. I hope God let’s me see you again at the rainbow bridge. love you mommy and daddy
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Thinking of you during this difficult time,