Registered: 1282484757 Posts: 72
It is 23:54 here. I have been dreading this time for the past 2 weeks. I can't stand the thought of a new month starting and Megan wont be here for it. I am always the person who remembers to say "white rabbits" or "kalo mina" (Greek for good month) on the first of every month, I am always optimistic of what the new month might bring, but this time for the first time I can remember, I don't want the new month to come, it seems wrong for time to continue without Megan being here.
Maybe it is because September also means the winter is on its way and winter was the best for us because our business is seasonal and shuts for the winter, we don't work for 6 months and we would spend our days out walking, playing on the beaches, or snuggled up by the fire. I will have cold feet this winter without Megan to sit on them. Oh Megs, I so wish you hadn't had to go. xx
Registered: 1276822789 Posts: 66
I am so sorry to hear of your loss of Megan. I lost my baby in May and it's hard to believe an entire summer had gone without him. Sept. is his bday month and I dread that day next week. I found where I'd written it in the calendar the other day, surrounded by little starts. I didn't even have my husbands written down. lol. It's really hard without them. They're such a huge part of our lives. But I'm sure Cooper and Megan are somewhere wonderful.
Registered: 1279850525 Posts: 282
I know what you mean. I don't want the new season to start either. It seems wrong. My little guy was here during the summer, but a new season starting that he never lived to see just seems wrong. I really had a good cry the other day when my husband mentioned that the summer would soon be gone. I said "worst summer of my life" and he said "why? because of the little guy" and I just felt so lost. But it's important for us to remember that we are all here for only a short while. Any one of us could be next to leave and we would not want the ones we left behind to feel so sad.
Registered: 1272934724 Posts: 308
i too agree the oncoming new month is bringing alot of sadness. I had to go thru spring ( april and May) and now the summer has past. Fall brings another season with out Len, i loved Fall with him long cooler walks.. i guess what hurts is that I didnt know that was our last "fall" our last winter..ugh all the things to come.. good luck to you with this journey ..one we are all on here on PL... sometimes these wonderful people help me in my darkest hour. I wish i had some words of comfort, something that will make you feel better, but im told its only TIME that will help. Time hasnt found its way to me just yet.. Lets hope we get thru this next season the best we can.