Registered: 1517879684 Posts: 5
It's been 2 months since we had to put my baby girl down. Shelby was a cockapoo, we got her and her sister Maggie when I was only 11, and they made me the happiest ever. Shelby was the alpha of their little pack (we have one other pup named Mudge). I always felt like she was my "spirit animal" we both got sick quite frequently and had weird health problems, and were both awkward around strangers. I loved that little pup so so much.
Sometimes I feel normal, but other times (like now) I break down with the knowledge that I won't get to hold my baby girl for a very long time. The day we put her down is so vivid in my mind. I still remember so clearly what it felt like to hold her and to snuggle with her. Just knowing that she isn't waiting at home for me when I come home from college wrecks me. I try and talk to her in the same way that I pray and talk to relatives that have passed, but relationships with pets are so complicated because so much of it is unspoken so I don't feel like I get the same response. I've been desperately writing down stories, terrified that I'll forget a moment of my baby's 11 years with us. I know I helped giver her an amazing life. I know we put her down at the right time (she had cancer and hadn't eaten for 10 days when we finally decided that she had had enough). I know all these things logically, but it doesn't change the fact that I miss her so much it aches. Shelby baby, I miss you and wish we could hang out again. I don't know if there's a way puppy angels can come back down from heaven, but if you can you should come by because it's been pretty lonely without you. It's been really snowy at home, and as annoying as it is to have snow in April, I know you liked the snow (I like to think that's why we've had so much of it). WE tried to take maggie and mudge to the dog park the other day, but they just sniff around and don't like playing fetch like you did (they get scared of the other dogs without you around). Now we have all these tiny puppy tennis balls and no one who wants to play with them. Hope you're having fun in dog heaven, I miss you baby bear--love your best friend <3
Registered: 1516890861 Posts: 92
I'm sorry for the loss of your beloved Shelby. I just want to say that I understand your pain and am thinking of you at this difficult time. ((hugs))