Registered: 1544453687 Posts: 7
I went on this message board when I accidentally ran over my cat Boo. Now I have a kitten I rescued during hurricane florence that passed away this morning. I can't handle this much loss in such a short amount of time. I named the kitten Dumpling, and she really took to and followed me everywhere. She acted healthy and happy. She always slept on my chest so I thought things were off last night when she wasn't sleeping on me, she was sleeping in the closet. This morning I picked her up to eat and she collapsed, struggling to breathe. I called the emergency vet and before I could get there she died. I can't understand what I've done to deserve the loss of 2 pets in 2 weeks. My animals are literally all I have. I'm having a hard time dealing with these feelings of grief and guilt and being that it's the holidays makes it worse. I can't stop crying. I'm completely emotionally exhausted and I don't know what to do. If anyone has any advice for me I would love to hear it and I'd greatly appreciate it.
Registered: 1545096789 Posts: 32
My words are not enough to express my condolences. You don't deserve this. I have seen that cats disappear when they know it is their time. There is nothing you could have done to save her but this on top of your guilt and trauma from Boo is just more than anyone could bare
Registered: 1546301230 Posts: 2
I wish there was something I could say that would lessen the pain. One piece of advice I give is let the emotions out. Don't try to hold them inside to appear sociable or whatever it is that people expect from someone grieving. If you want to cry, scream, get angry then do so. It's healthier than holding it in and grieving in silence. It's normal to feel guilt and feel you missed something. Everyone grieves in their own way. But there was nothing you should have done to prevent this. You are going to question your every move and ask yourself what should I have done differently? What signs did I miss? You didn't miss anything. You did your best.