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It is just after the Monday Candle Ceremony on Oct 11. It is getting harder and harder for me as the days move toward the 17th.
Last October 17, we got the terrible call from the kennel to tell us our wonderful, sweet Springer Spaniel, Jack was dead. It is all so fresh in my mind once again. We had to go out of town for a funeral and put our 3 dogs into the kennel we'd always used. We were only going to be gone 3 days. Nothing bad had ever happened there before and I was confident they would all be fine, just like always. On the drive to the kennel, Jack stood on the back seat behind me and rested his chin on my shoulder, like he always did when he was in the car. I didn't even think it would be the last time he'd stick his cold wet nose in my ear, or drool on my neck like he often did. I didn't like it when he did that, but now I miss it terribly. Tonight, during the Candle Ceremony, our other Springer Chloe was lying in the same spot where Jack always laid. I glanced quickly and saw her there, for a split second thought it was Jack laying there like he did during so many Candle Ceremonies over the years. He was 10 years old and deep down I knew that he would not be with us for many more years. But I wasn't ready for him to leave us yet. I miss him so much. Words just can't describe it, but I know those PetLoss friends who read this will know exactly how I feel. Jim
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I wanted to post a photo of Jack, but I forgot how to do it. So I copied one from my post last year when we lost him.
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Dear Jim, I read your post with great sorrow. It is one of my greatest fears of leaving my sweet dog in a kennel and something horrible happening to her while we are gone.
It must have been your worst nightmare. Once when we went on vacation, we left our Beagle, Bonnie Lou at the vet's kennel we always used. We knew she was in good hands. We called everyday to check on her. We actually cut our vacation trip short and had to pay a penalty on our tickets to change our flight. But we did not care; we just wanted to get back to Bonnie. When our daughter moved to Houston, about 4 hours away from us and we would go there on Friday and come back on Sunday, we would leave Bonnie here at the house with plenty of food and water. We had a doggie door and if we were lucky, she would go out to do her duty!!!! Then i would worry about a fire, a tornado, etc. I am so sorry that you lost your sweet dog like this. It must have been heart breaking for you and your family. Grief has no time limits. We lost our Bonnie this past June. We had her for 13 years and the void she left in this house is unbelievable. I know as the anniversary approaches, the memories come flooding back. Know that you are in my prayers. Clara
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Yes, we know exactly how you feel.
I am so sorry for your loss of Jack. It is so hard to lose our friends, no matter how long it has been.
I miss my buddy too. I have two new rescue's in my life but sometimes I still sit there and cry and miss Foster. I don't think I will ever forget him, the memories will fade but the smiling face I see in pictures won't.