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Sorry, I haven't been on in awhile, but I've been at the hospital alot with my friend whose fiance got in a car accident and is still in a coma. Tomorow will make 3 months since my beautiful boy left my life. I still can't believe he is no longer here. I loved him so much and feel so lost without him. He was my child and my best friend. I still don't understand why he was taken from me so young. Only 5 yrs old. He should have had many more years with us. I don't think I will ever understand what happened to him, even though the autopsy says it was cancer.But, all those symptoms started after he ate the frozen chicken neck, so I'll always wonder if the doctor lied and said it was cancer to spare us blaming ourselves.They've assured me a million times, it had nothing to do with him geting sick, but I will always wonder. How could he be fine one month and gone the next? I don't think I will ever be able to accept that he's gone, I also don't think I'll ever get another pet because I'll worry that something will happen to them too. I miss you Kaldi and I am so sorry that you are no longer with us. Please forgive me if I was in any way responsible for your illness or departure.. Mommy will always love you and miss you. Happy 3 month bridgeday.
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Have a great party. Please send your Mum a big kiss too. Di xxx
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I know how much you miss your Kaldi and for me also it's gotten harder as each month goes by. It is hard to accept that they're gone.
Please don't blame yourself for anything. Animals hide discomfort and most times we don't realize until what they are suffering with has progressed.
I'm also very sorry to hear about your friend's fiance and will say a prayer for them.
Your Kaldi is flying free now and will always be a part of your soul.
Registered: 1211242652 Posts: 355
I am sorry for the loss of your precious Kaldi.Happy 3rd month Bridge Day Kaldi - you are loved and never forgotten.
These "anniversaries" are tough - it's hard to believe they are gone no matter how much time passes. My cat Cheeseburger's illness came on so suddenly too - he was fine, and I just had him to the vet's about 2 months before, but then he got so sick. We found out he had lung cancer. He was 10 years old. I too thought my baby boy would be with me many more years. I miss him so much. The pain, hurt and sadness is still there, but I do try so hard to find peace and comfort in all the memories I have of, and with Cheese. I was blessed to have him in my life. Their love is so deep and pure that it never leaves us. They will always be in our hearts. Dee Cheeseburger's Mom email@example.com Dee + Cheeseburger = LOVE
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The intensity of the pain and sorrow in your words just breaks my heart. I think it is so very, very difficult when a pup passes when they are still very young. And, your loss of Kaldi is still so fresh, just three months. I know you miss Kaldi with all of your heart. Losing him was so traumatic for you. You say you are afraid to ever adopt and take another another furbaby into your heart. Oh, I hope your feelings eventually change because you seem to have SO MUCH LOVE to give a furbaby. I think of all the little pups who are in need of a loving home...and I think of you and others on this site and what wonderful furparents you are. Your pain reminds me of a beautiful song by Garth Brooks that I am sure you have heard. It is called "The Dance". Before I had Betsy put to sleep I took her outside and danced with her in my arms under the stars. I think this song is a beautiful metaphor for all the love we feel for our furbabies. We all knew that it would eventually end, but we would have never, ever missed that dance. This is for you and Kaldi: "The Dance" Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared 'neath the stars above For a moment all the world was right How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss the dance Holding you I held everything For a moment wasn't I a king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have had to miss the dance Yes my life is better left to chance I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance HAPPY THREE MONTH BRIDGEDAY PRECIOUS KALDI. PLEASE VISIT YOUR MOM IN HER DREAMS. SHE MISSES AND LOVES YOU SO. Many hugs, Melissa Betsy's forever mom