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Tomorrow makes 4 months since that horrible day my baby was taken from me. I have had a particularly difficult time this week. It's funny how you can be okay for awhile and then it comes back and hits you like a ton of bricks. I've had alot of flashbacks this week. I was outside hosing and I remembered how Kaldi would always sit under the tree while I did my yard work and at Christmas he would watch us put up the outside decorations. I walk in the backyard and remember how he would lay out and sniff the air. I remember how he would grab one of our socks and shake it in his mouth. I also remember how when I walked him that last weekend he layed on the grass because he was so tired. I remember our last cuddle on the bed at my father in laws house. I never dreamed that would be the last time I ever saw him. I just still don't understand how God could take him away from me at just 5 yrs old. I don't have any human children (yet), so why would he take away my furchild. What is the purpose of taking a young animal away from it's loved ones? This is one thing I don't think I'll ever understand. I loved him so much and still do. I still greive for him so much. I still have alot of what ifs (these are also listed in my post to Becky57) What if I had brought him to the doctor sooner? What if I would have exercised him more or watched his diet more? Maybe he wouldn't have gotten pancreatic cancer. What if someone else had adopted him? Maybe they would have exercised him and fed him better and he'd be alive and well. I also have guilt. Guilt I didn't know he was sick. Guilt i wasn't there when he died. I worry that when my day comes, he will be reluctant to greet me or not want to see me at all because I wasn't there when he passed on to the next life. I just hope he knows that I loved him very much, but that is one thing I could not have handled. My father in law was there and he told me he feels it was a blessing that he was able to shield us from that horrific day at least somewhat. I just hope my n that he still loves me. I still haven't gotten a sign that he's okay. I wish God would send me one. Sorry to ramble on, but I'm having a very difficult week. I'm sure all of your furbabies will help Kaldi celebrate his bridge day tomorrow. Happy 4 month Bridge Day Kaldi! God bless you all and thanks for listening.
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Happy 4 month Bridge Day darling Kaldi! Invite Mr. Meowgy to your party, he loves parties. Let Mommy know you are alright, she misses you so. Donna, Mr. Meowgy's mom
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HAPPY 4TH MONTH BRIDGEDAY, BELOVED KALDI!! MAY YOUR DAY BE FILLED WITH JOY, GREAT TREATS AND MANY FRIENDS. PLEASE VISIT YOUR MOM IN HER DREAMS. SHE NEEDS TO KNOW YOU ARE OKAY. SHE LOVES AND MISSES YOU SO VERY MUCH. Dear Michelle, May Kaldi soon send you a beautiful sign that he is thriving and happy at the Bridge, and may your heart be comforted by memories of the happier times the two of you shared. Melissa Betsy's forever grateful mom