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brenrae

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Harry, I don't know how it happened, but I was thinking about how it will be your 27th month soon, in just a few days, and my mind went back to you laying on the towel on the examination table at the vet's after you was PTS, and I could just see you laying there, and how I had to leave you there for them to send to the place for the cremation. Now, I am crying, why did my thoughts go there, that is something that I try not to think about. Having to leave you like that. Oh, Harry, I wish that I had just been able to bring you home, and you would be all better. I guess sometimes it happens this way, I don't know, our minds go down the dark path we don't want to go down. I try to just think about the things you did when you was well, not dwell on the days leading to when I had to let you go. But, sometimes, it seems that that is where I end up. I love you always, and I wish you was here in body, not just spirit. Love you now and forever, and sending you some hugs, cuddles, and kisses on the wind, but I sure wish that I could hold you in my arms again. Love, Mommy
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Dear Brenrae,

It's so hard when our thoughts take us down these sad roads and lead us to memories we'd rather just leave be. I am struggling with that too, coming up on Buddy's first year in 10 days from now, trying not to think about the awful day when we said our earthly good-byes. It is so emotional sometimes because we just want to connect with our babies and as you say, hold them again in our arms and never let them go. One day, that will happen for you and Harry, and it will be the best day ever.

Sending hugs to you and sweet Harry,

Elise, Buddy's mom
brenrae

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Har Har, Well here it is, another week. Perhaps I shouldn't write each week, but, it makes me feel better when I do, for I believe that you can see how much I love you and miss you. I will miss you until the day we are together again. Perhaps on that day, you can show me all the fun things that you do. I bet you have a ball jumping on things, and playing with the other fur angels. You probably have so many friends up there. But, things will never be the same for me without you. You brought so much light into my world, just by being you. And that is all I ever wanted. I try to stay off those dark paths that lead to where I had to let you go, but they do creep in every so often. Maybe some people think it is weird that I write to you, I don't know, but, they are not me, and they don't have the bond that we had, and still have. I still tell you good night every night, and I always tell you that I will see you later. I know that one day I will. I don't know when, but it will come, until then, I will continue my life's journey, and try to remember you with a smile. I was thinking about how you would do the head bobbing when something was not in its usual spot. I am sure you knew what it was but it was misplaced, and for you everything had a place to be. That is one of the things I remember about you. There is so much more in my memories of you, and sometimes i bring them out just because they are special to me, and then I put them back so that I can bring them out again. I love you, always and forever. You are my sweet, handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy     
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Dear Brenrae,
   You wrote such a beautiful and touching letter to your little boy. Your words spoke so much from the heart, and showed how lucky your little one was to have been loved by you. I know words can't comfort the ache your heart feels or take away the emptiness, but know people do care and understand. Wishing blessings and comfort to you.
Pam
brenrae

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Har Har, 

It has been another hard week for me. It started Saturday when I rang up a Chicken Soup book. This one was for dogs, but I was thinking about the stories I read in the ones they have for cats. I was thinking how some of these cats in the stories were so very sick, and close to death, but a miracle happened and they were better. I was thinking how there was no miracle cure for you. I prayed every day for you to be able to come back home, but it wasn't meant to be. I know that it says there is a season for everything, but, I wish that your season for going back to your heavenly home could of been later rather than sooner. I guess to me, 12 years just doesn't seem old, though I know in human years, it was about 60 some years. You just never seemed old, and you still loved to play once in a while, and you would get those bursts of energy when you ran all through the house. But, since Saturday,it seems that I have been having those moments again. I know you don't want me to, but, I can't help it. It is because I love you so much, and I miss you. But, on Monday, there was a black and gold butterfly that flew around me, and then landed on my arm and sat there for several moments. Perhaps it was a visit from you telling me not to feel so sad. Perhaps you was letting me know that you are still here, and you have never left my side. And then Tuesday night, I was sitting outside, and the black and gold butterfly was back, It just flew around me as I was sitting out back, and landed on my leg. I have not seen it today, but I have seen either this butterfly, or others of the same color, and they fly close to me before they take off for parts unknown. I like to think it is you sending me a message. I will always love you, my sweet handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent on the wind. Love, Mommy ps, I am sorry if my being sad makes you sad, I try not to be, 
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Another week, another Thursday. I got up early to get some things done. It is a nice day here today, and I know you would of enjoyed the time outside. Its one of those days that the sun is shining, and the weather is just right, not too hot, or too cold. I am sure that every day is nice where you are at. It won't be too long and the leaves will be falling from the trees. I wish you was here to see that, and I was remembering how you would chase the leaves as they fell from the trees, and pounce them as they hit the ground. You always did love to pounce things, even your friend cats. I guess that was your way of playing, but you was always careful not to hurt them. To you it was a game, and though they might not of enjoyed it, you did. But, then, when Baby Kitty got sick, you never pounced her again, and you always left most of your canned food for her, though you really wanted it. You were and are such a caring boy. You always tried to take care of the others, even though you was the youngest. I guess that comes from being the alpha cat, they were under your protection, and you would always be there to make sure they were all right. I guess you are up there taking care of all of them now. I am sure that you are keeping a watchful eye on all those you feel are yours to protect. I think that I have seen your shadow a few times this past week. Are you checking up on me? I am doing all right, but, I still miss you, and there is still a sadness in my heart and soul. I think there always will be, for you brought in so much light to my life, You and my daughter are the two most important part of who I am. I love you always and forever. You will always be my sweet and handsome boy. Until we meet again, her is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent on the wind to where you are.  Love, Mommy 
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Brenrae,
what beautiful words to your sweet boy Harry. He had a loving, wonderful mommy.Reading your posts made me very emotional. I am going through so much pain over losing my Bella. I just can not be normal any more. Hugs to you and Harry

Donna
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Brenrae, we know you are missing Harry terribly,  just wanted to say that their memories never go away, you always hold them close to your heart no matter how many years go by but you never stop missing them. ((hugs ))   maxsMandD
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Dear Brenrae,

There is always so much love in the words you write to your sweetest boy. He sure knows how much he is loved and cared for by his sweet mom. I bet he's been checking up on you, letting you know he's never far from mommy.

Sending hugs and prayers for peace and comfort,

Elise, Buddy's mom
NancyMarie

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Dearest Brenrae,

Your letters to your beloved Harry are always so beautiful and so very touching, they always bring tears to my eyes. 

I love your post about the butterflies, I do believe our love ones send us message letting us know they are OK and thinking about us.

Harry will forever live in your heart where you keep him safe and close until the day you are reunited with him.

I wish you peace, comfort and continued butterfiles sightings from your Harry.

Hugs to you.......

Nancy

brenrae

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Hi Harry, another week has passed. Soon it will be another month of you being gone, 28 months, come Tuesday. I can't believe that so many months have gone by, so many months that I have been missing you. I remember how you would fit so well in our arms, you was a good size cat, at 18 pounds. I often think about the things that you would do. I remember how you would wake me up just so that I could pet you, and cuddle with you, then you was happy, and would go back to sleep, with my arms over you. I guess that I will never get over you being gone, though I have gotten used to being without you here with me. I know that you are still near, but not in flesh, only spirit, and though I know that you are in a good place, it still doesn't stop me wanting you here. I still cry because you are not with me, though not every day. I still think about all your antics, and they can bring a smile to my face, and sometimes tears, for I will never see them again, not till we are reunited. It seems like the time has flown by since I last got to hold you. But, at times, it seems like it has been forever, and time just creeps by. Perhaps that is the way it is when you are missing a special family member. You will live forever in my heart and soul. I have caught your scent in the wind today when I go outside, are you sending me messages and letting me know you are near? I always loved your scent, though you probably thought I was a bit strange, because I would have to lay my head on you, and breathe in your scent from time to time. It always made me feel relaxed, and content. Perhaps that is weird, I don't know, but I didn't care if it was. I miss having you sleep beside me at night, and today has been a nice day so far, lots of sun, and a gentle breeze. I am sure you would of enjoyed being outside today. I love you my sweet, handsome boy. I wish you was here. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent on the wind. Share them with Baby Kitty, and the others there with you. love, mommy
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Brenrae, Harry is looking down on you and sending lots of love your way. Sweet dreams.  ((hugs))  maxsMandD
brenrae

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Hi Harry,

Well, it is Thursday again. Another nice day, perhaps some storms later. I know how much you always hated those storms, which I believe has to do with something that happened to you as a kitten. I think that you got caught in a flood, which unfortunately made you sick, I don't know for sure, but I do know that you had a great fear of water, to the point of hyperventilating if we had to give you a bath. The person that I got you from, the town she lived in had flooded after a big storm. I can just imagine how scared you was a 3 months old, and suddenly caught up in the flood waters. The reason I think this is because you was soaked when they finally found you again. I am glad there is no rain or flooding where you are at. It was funny though, you didn't mind going out with me to watch the rain, as long as I was holding you. I guess you felt safe in my arms. I dreamed about you the other night. You was with some other cats, and I was trying to keep you all in the house so that this big dog wouldn't get you. I have been having a lot of dreams with you in them. Perhaps it is just me, or perhaps you are sending me your love, and letting me know you are always close by. I love you my sweet, handsome boy. You will always be my special son, no matter how many years I am apart from you. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy

 I wrote this poem for you, and I hope you enjoy it.

DREAMS

On soft padded feet
In my dreams, you come to me.
 
Softly you bestow upon me 
a whiskered kiss.
 
You bring with you
the wonders of the garden.
 
You let me know,
that you are always there.
 
You stand beside me, 
silent and unseen.
 
Your presence I feel.
It comforts me.
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Well, it has been a gloomy week so far, with storms and gray skies. Today is a misty day. I remember that sometimes, though you didn't like to get wet, you would still go in the back yard and walk around. I guess the mist didn't bother you too much. I always went out with you, even if it was a bit chilly. That was one of our "together times", just walking around the back yard, and watching the traffic and people go by. In the fall, you would try to catch the leaves as the fell to the ground. I remember one morning, we was out early, before 8, it was still a bit dark, there was a big ole wolf spider. You wanted to catch it, but I wouldn't let you because I didn't want you to get bit by it. I didn't know if it would make you sick or not. That spider kept jumping at you if you got too close. I finally got you interested in something else, and the spider went back to its home, I guess, because it was gone by the time we went back in. This summer, there has been a salamander crawling along the wall back there, and I know you would of been interested in it, thinking that you had found a new toy. I would not of let you catch it either, mostly because I would hate to see you kill something, though I know that you are a great hunter. Yesterday, I felt something like a raindrop touch my cheek and forehead. But, it wasn't raining, or misting, plus I was in a covered area. I am thinking that maybe it was you and you gave me a kiss to let me know you are still close to me. I also saw that black butterfly again. I'm not sure if it is the same one, but, when I am thinking of you, and feeling sad that you are gone, I see one. Are you sending me butterflies to brighten my day? But, I can also smile and laugh when I think of the funny things you would do. All these wonderful memories I have of you, they outweigh the sad ones of when I had to let you go. People often tell me, "Well, he is healthy and young again, and not in any pain." which is true, you are healthy, and I know you are happy there, and I would never want you to be in pain, or be sick, but, I still miss you, every day, I miss you. But, I am glad that I had you with me for 12 years, for those years are worth any sorrow I may feel now. I love you my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Tomorrow Jeannie will be here. Did you and Meme send her a kitten a few weeks ago. I bet you and Meme did to help her with her sadness and loneliness with her husband being gone. You always tried to help us feel better if we was down. I would also like to ask you to take under your wing Katniss, the little kitten that died a few days ago from burns set to her by someone. I have been sad thinking of how she suffered at the hands of someone, but, I feel she is now with you, and you are showing her around. I didn't know her, as she was in a different city than where I live, but, I feel sad for her never getting to have a full life with someone that would love her and not mistreat her. She was only 8 weeks old, and all she wanted was love, just like what you got from us. It makes me mad and sad that someone would do such a horrendous thing to a living being. I am glad that I was able to get to you that day, and you had a chance to know love and happiness with us. Yes, I know that you would get annoyed with us at times, but you were always such a gentle and patient boy, and you would never hurt us. I love you my sweet and handsome boy, always and forever. I still sleep with your blanket, and I still kiss your picture every night before I go to bed. You will always be my special boy. I have seen some movies on that I watched when you was here, and you would be laying beside me. It makes me sad when I think that you are no longer here to do that.  But, I will forever be thankful that I found you that day, and that I was able to keep you. You brought so much love into my life, and you loved just about everyone. If you didn't like anyone, there was a reason, and they say that you can tell a person's character by how our four legged friends act around them. Thank you Harry for showing me that I can be more than I am, and the true meaning of love, and for bringing laughter into my life. I will love you always, and I will always keep your memory alive, and try to honor your life, rather than dwell on your passing. I admit that is hard at times, most of the time, actually, but, I will try. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Har Har, It is me again. Saturday is my birthday, it will be my third one without you here. I think that I will watch some of the videos of you that I have, and perhaps I will feel your loving presence close by. It seems like these years keep on going by, and with each day that passes it is further from when I last saw and held you, and gave you kisses and cuddles, but each day also brings us closer to our reunion. I still miss you with all my being, I miss your smell, and your meow, though it would make me laugh sometimes, for it reminded me of the cowlicks on spyro. But, it was so cute the way you did it, and I would just have to reach down and pick you up for a big hug. I miss that meow, and those hugs, and the kisses I would give you on your forehead. I guess truthfully, there is so many things I miss about you. And, I will always wonder why we couldn't have more time together, but, there is nothing that can be done when the time comes, I guess, though we tried, me and the vet that was taking care of you at the end. I love you always and forever. Here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent on the wind. I will try not to be too sad on my birthday. Love, mommy
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Brenrae, I wish you a very blessed birthday. I know it will not be the same without Harry but his spiritual presence will be right there with you as it is each and everyday. It is so hard without our fur babies especially on special occasions. I hope your birthday brings you much peace, comfort and health always.

Hugs to you
Donna
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Dear Brenrae,
I wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday tomorrow... as Donna said, it will not be the same without your sweet Harry there to help you celebrate - but I hope that you have a good day and that watching Harry's videos brings you some smiles.  

May one of your gifts be a visit from your baby....
Hugs,
Melanie (Lee Lee's Mama)
NancyMarie

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Dearest Brenrae,

Happy Birthday,  I'm wishing you a  peaceful day filled with beautiful memories of your sweet Harry. Birthday, holidays, milestones will never be the same without our sweet furbabies but I hope when you close your eyes and think of Harry you feel his sweet presence all around you.

May Harry come to you in your dreams tonight.

Blessings, peace and comfort always.

A big warm birthday hug to you.

Nancy
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Today has been a nice day, though it started out cold. It was a good day to stay snuggled up in bed, and share our warmth. I remember how we would snuggle on the bed, and sometimes I would be "reading" a book, but I spent more time petting you and snuggling with you, and I remember how you would purr so loudly. I would fall asleep with that book in my hand, and snuggled up to you. I don't read in bed anymore, because I don't have you to snuggle with, and the ones I have now don't really snuggle. I guess it was one of our things, huh? I miss you, and I still wish that you had gotten better and was able to come home but, I guess it wasn't in the stars for you this time. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you, and I will never forget you, you are and will always be my special boy. Soon the holidays will be coming, and I still cannot put up the big tree. I remember how you would always help me with the lights and the ornaments. I bought nonbreakable ornaments so you would be able to play with them, because I knew you would. I remember how you climbed your first Christmas tree when you was a kitten, and it would fall over. I guess you really liked climbing. I had to put it back up every morning and night, it seemed like. Finally, as you got older, you quit climbing, but you still played with the ornaments. I got some that was especially for you to play with, and I would put them near the bottom. The holiday can never really be the same anymore, but, I do try to enjoy them. I will probably do something with my sister, but it isn't the same as when you and Jean was here. The say life is full of changes, but why do some changes have to hurt? I love you my sweet, handsome boy always and forever. Here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Until we are together again, you will always live in my heart and soul. Love, Mommy  
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Hi Harry, well, tomorrow will be 29 months now without you, and the holiday season is now upon us. I can't believe that it is now over 2 months since you have been gone. I never wanted to ever live without you, but, I am, and I still have so many sad days, but I do have good days also, when I think about you, and all your little ways. I will always miss you, and you will always have a large piece of my heart. I know that you will keep it safe, and then one day, we will be together again, and my heart will be whole again. I keep seeing a shadow out of the corner of my eye that is shaped like you. Are you coming to visit? I have seen it several times this past month. I do believe that you come to see me, and I believe that you visit in my dreams form time to time. Today is a beautiful day here, now that the rain is done. You would of loved walking outside and smelling the fresh air. That is one of the things I miss without you here. Just being outside with you, and walking around the back yard and looking at the bushes, and seeing if there is anything new out there. I don't do it anymore, for it can never be the same without you here. I have also been feeling what feels like raindrops on my cheek, but the sky is clear, are they from you? I like to think they are. It seems like each month, the closer it gets to the seventh, the sadder I feel. Perhaps I will always associate that with you now. The seventh of June, in 2012, I had to let you move on a head of me, across the bridge. Perhaps I shouldn't think of it as the day that I lost you, but as the day that you gained your eternal youth, no more pain, no more sickness, and all that you would ever want. But, I guess I see it as the day that I lost my friend, my son, my companion. You helped me through so much during your time with me, and you helped me to be a better person. Thank you for that. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet a gain, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent on the wind. Love mommy. I wrote this for you. Hope you like it.

Raindrop Kisses

Raindrop kisses fall on my cheek
Sent from heaven filled with your love.
 
Butterfly caresses so soft and sweet
So gently given, without a peep. 
 
In the gentle breeze your voice I hear
Whispering words of love, forever near.
 
As I go to sleep, a bird's song I hear
Sending me a message from you I know.
 
At night, I look out at the fireflies,
Lighting my way as I journey through life.
 
I know these are your way of letting me know, 
That you are there, unseen, unheard, but always near.
 
Then, one day, a shadow will appear from the mist
You are coming to take me home, forever reunited.
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Oh Brenrae - what a beautiful poem for your special boy, Harry.  It brought tears to my eyes.

You always express your love for Harry in a special way.  I like when you send him kisses on the wind.

Thinking of you and Harry on this 29 month bridge day -

Barb (Angel Brandy's and now Miriam's mom)
~forever~
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Dear Harry,
Wish you a happy 29th month at the bridge, you are very blessed for having mom written such a loving and touching poem for you, her words speak out our thoughts...She misses you, please come to her dream!
Hugs,
Bedomom
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Dear Brenrae,
I wanted to add my wishes for your beloved Harry's 29th Month at the Bridge and to say that I absolutely love the poem that you wrote for him - I'm glad that you shared it...it is just beautiful.  I hope that you are doing okay....hugs
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~

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Happy 29 months of eternal youth at the Bridge Harry. Visit your mom in a dream she misses you so very much. Brenrae your poem to Harry is beautiful so much love is written in those words. Peace to youtoday and always.
         maxsmandD  ''forever''
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Dear Brenrae,

Another beautiful letter to your sweet Harry, there is always so much love in your letters to your beloved Harry.

Harry, Happy 29 months at Rainbow Bridge, I hope it was a day filled with all of your special treats.  Keep visiting your mom, she misses and loves you so much !

I wish you peace and comfort today and always.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy

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Hi Harry,

I was really missing you so much last night as I went to bed. I miss laying my head on you and listening to you purr as I fall asleep, and I miss cuddling with you in bed. You fit just right in my arms. There is so much that I miss about you. I miss your smell, and your meow. I miss how you would look at us with that question in your eyes when we call you. I miss how you would lower your head so that we could give you a kiss when we asked for it, and sometimes when we didn't, if we was holding you and you was ready to go. I just miss you so completely. It is true what they say, you never really get over such a big loss as the loss of a loved one, you just learn to live each day, always missing them, and always carrying them in your heart. That is how it is with you. I have never really gotten over having to let you travel across the bridge without me, but I have learned to survive, with you always in my heart and soul. I guess that is how it will always be until we can be together again. I am glad that time is different for you, and it is just a few seconds since you last saw me. I would hate to think that you are up there wondering where I am, but I guess you can look down and see me, and you can visit me when you want. I saw 2 feathers this week floating down right in front of me. I like to think you sent them to me. It is cold here today, and it would of been a good day to spend covered up and cuddling. But, you are someplace that is warm, and I am sue that you are enjoying the nice weather up there. I love you my sweet handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. I love you, Har Har. Love, mommy
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Hi Harry, I was thinking about how you would push things off the entertainment center if they was in your spot. As big as the entertainment center is, you always had to have that one spot, so we learned to keep it clear for you. It is kind of funny, you didn't want there unless we laid something there. I was also remembering how you would always wait for me to invite you up to the couch, but with Jean, you gave her 2 seconds to move anything that was there, and she had to scramble to move it before you jumped up beside of her. I don't know why it was different with me and her. I was also thinking and remembering how we would say that you had your own harem because you was the only male, with me, Jean, and Baby Kitty. Guess you was kind of like a sheik , huh? But, that is what we always said, that you had your own little harem. I also remember how you would do the head bobbing when something was put in a different place than usual. Though it was something you saw every day, if it wasn't in its rightful place, you wasn't sure what it was, I guess, or you realized that something was off. You would sneak up on it, and smell it, and give us a look as if to say, "Why is this here, this isn't where it belongs."  Sandy has laid claim to the entertainment center now, but I am sure you don't mind. He has even started pushing things off like you would do. It is weird how sometimes they would start doing the same things that others have done. Perhaps you have reached across the miles and showed him some of these things. He is doing a lot of things that you used to do. But, he still has a lot of his own personality. I know he is not you, nor would I want him to be. There is only one you, and I love you so very much, my sweet boy. I still miss you to this day, and I still cry at times because I want you here beside me. I miss laying in bed and just resting my hand on you, and having you beside me on the couch, and I would rest my hand on you as I watched tv. Life can never be the same once we have lost such a special soul. Though life goes on, the sadness and hurt remains when we have to let them travel a head of us. That is how it is now. Though I can smile and laugh, and yes, I do have happy moments, underneath all this, the grief remains, and I know it always will until we are together again. I love you, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent on the wind. Love, mommy
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Dearest Brenrae,

Another beautiful letter to your sweet Harry, all the beautiful memories we have with our beloved furbabies. I know what you mean when you say your other cats have started doing things Harry use to do, my other 3 cats are starting to do things that only Smudgie did, I thought it was strange at first as well, but now I like to think my little angel Smudgie is looking down and guiding them.  I'm wishing you peace, comfort and continued healing.

The love never ends........

Hugs to you......

Nancy
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Dear Brenrae,
   Your sweet letter to harry tonight really brought a smile to my face when I so could use one. He certainly sounded like he was the king of his castle! I wish for you sweet dreams of your boy and precious memories of him to fill your heart.
Pam
Hunter's Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

Well, here it is Thanksgiving day. I remember how excited you would get when I was cooking the turkey. You probably that that was one big bird, and you couldn't wait to get a piece. You would be right behind me as I would go and check how it was doing, and meowing at my feet, saying, "Where's my piece?" Turkey didn't really agree with you, but I would give you a small bite anyways, because you was alright if you didn't get a lot of it. Today is windy, and I know how much you hated the wind. You didn't like it howling around the house, and it would scare you. You would look at me with those big, green eyes to see how I was reacting. If I was fine, you was fine, and we would just have a day inside. The wind always bothered your ears, perhaps because you had big ears, I don't know, but if you was outside and it was windy, when we came in, you would start shaking your head, so I learned not to take you out on those windy days. You was ok with just a small breeze though, and you enjoyed it, as you sniffed the air at all the scents coming to you on that breeze. Today, it will just be me and the cats because my sister has to work late. I got a cornish hen, which I know you would of enjoyed sharing with me. I bet you are having a big dinner up there with all your friends. I bet that there will be plenty of the things everyone like,s and lots of fun games. And, I bet you will be looking down on me and wishing me a happy Thanksgiving. I know one thing that I will be forever thankful for, and that was having you in my life. Though it hurt to let you go, I do not regret finding you that day, and bringing you home with me. And, when I count my blessings at night, you will be close to the top of the list, along with my daughter.Yes, though I still feel the pain of losing you at times, I can smile as I look back at the memories we made, and I will never forget your face, and how you would look at me with so much love shining out of those green eyes. I love you my big,handsome boy, always and forever. I had better let you go before I start crying, the tears are already filling my eyes. I will see you again some day, this I believe, for what would heaven be without you and my other fur angels. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy  
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Dear Brenrae,

What a sweet letter to Harry,  your words form a picture in my mind of your beloved Harry following you around while you cook the turkey, so sweet.

Today was my first Thanksgiving without my beloved Smudgie,  and I got through the day by picturing all of our furbabies running around Rainbow Bridge, with full bellies from all their special Thanksgiving treats.  These beautiful little souls bring such happiness and when they continue on their journey without us,  we are left with countless sweet memories which we hold close to our hearts until we see them again.

I wish you peace for your heart, comfort for your soul and sweet dreams of Harry.

Blessings to you this Thanksgiving.

Hugs to you.....Nancy
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Hi Harry, I spent the last two days with your "sister", Jean. It was her birthday so I wanted to visit with her. I am sure you know she has a kitten. Perhaps you and Meme had a way of sending it to her. I am glad you did. I guess you knew she needed Nico. I know that if you was here, and I had gone away for 2 days, you would of been so mad. You would of been giving me that snub you do, where you look at me out of the corner of your eye, and ignore me when I say your name. I remember when me and Jean went away for a small vacation when we first got you, you was about 6 months old, I think. When we got back, you was so mad at us, and gave us that cold shoulder. Well, at first you was happy we was home, but then I could see those wheels turning in your head, and you was like, "Hey, They left me". It didn't matter that you was well taken care of, the fact remained that we was not there with you. But, luckily, you never stayed mad long. We always laughed when you gave us that look, and we would try to figure out why you was upset, especially if we didn't think there was a reason for it. But, perhaps there was a reason according to your thoughts. It was one of the things we loved about you. In a few more days, it will be another month since you had to leave me for the bridge. It seems like these months go by faster and faster, and at times, it seems like time has stopped. You are never far from my thoughts, and you will always live in my heart. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy. Always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Harry,

It has been a hard week for me this week. I have been missing you so very much. I miss having you to cuddle with as I go to sleep. I remember how you always seemed to understand what we was saying. If I said, "well, let's go to bed", you would run in and jump on the bed as you waited for me to join you, and in the mornings, I would say, "well, time to start our day", and you would get up and run to your food dish. If I told you to wait a few minutes while I finished whatever I was doing, and we would go out, you would lay down and wait patiently, then when I was done, you would run to the door, with your tail held high. Yes, I do believe you understood what was said. You were always a smart boy. The Christmas season is here, and it can never be the same without you here to supervise the putting up of the tree. You had to supervise everything that was being done, even if workers came in to work on something, you had to be right there. And, you would always go with me to the door if the doorbell rang. Not sure if you was protecting me, or just curious to see who wanted to enter your special domain. I always said you was my watch cat. I hope you have been showing Abby around the bridge and making her feel welcome there. One day my sister will come for her, and I will be there with you, but until the time comes, I hope you all have a good time exploring. I miss you so much, my sweet, handsome boy. I love you always and forever. My love for you will never end. I just wish you was still here. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy
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Dear Brenrae,


Oh how I love you letters to your Harry......your Har Har.  The love you had between the two of you is once or twice or if we are lucky enough in life to have three times hence.  Your words write poetry in my heart.   They say what I would like to say....but can't seem to get there yet.  My Har Har....is Cashmere....my beautiful cashmere boy who left me in Feb...along with his golden sister  ( a golden retriever) who went to heaven 12 days apart.

Just know that  the words that you write are incredible...they are what I think and would want to say....your special love for Harry is beyond....is just beyond.  I am wishing  and Har Har and very Merry Christmas...and may Harry come to you in dreams...sugar dreams.    I really think, Brenrae, sometimes in life we are given special gifts, we are given stewardship of holy souls.....Harry was one....

Both of you will be together again...as I said to Cashmere...  ' kind of lickety split"

Have a Merry Christmas.


My heart is with you ...
Karen.....Cheyennesmom and Greta's and Cashmere's
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Dear Brenrae, 

I'm sorry you're having a hard time lately, missing your sweet boy so much especially during this holiday season. I used to call Buddy my "little man involved" because he always wanted to know what was going on...always wanted to be a part of everything and in the middle of everything. It sure sounds like your Harry was the same way...supervising when it came to putting up the Christmas tree, how he understood the words when you talked to him. It's so hard not having these sweet babies right here with us so for now we just have to settle for the hugs and kisses on the wind, as you love to say...until we are together again forever. 

Wishing you much peace and comfort during Christmas and the year to come. Sending hugs to you and sweet angel Harry.


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Dear Brenrae,

I love your letters to your sweet Harry,  the love the two of you shared is just so beautiful.

I know Christmas is so difficult without our sweet babies, I feel like I'm just going through the motions to get things done but without really putting my heart into, I think we all feel the same way.

During this magical time of year I hope you have sweet beautiful dreams of your beloved Harry.

I love the way you end each letter to Harry by saying "kisses on the wind"......I've borrowed that line and I now tell Smudgie the same thing.

I wish you peace, comfort and healing for your heart.

Sweet Harry, come to your Mom in her dreams, she loves and misses you so.

Hugs to you......Nancy

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Hi Har Har,

Well, I got the Christmas shopping done, but no tree put up yet. Christmas is next Thursday. I bought a few gifts for Sandy, Jinx, and Gabby. I know how much you always enjoyed your gifts, or maybe it was just the gift bag they came in that you enjoyed. We would hide your gifts in the tissue paper, and as you found each one, we could see how excited you would get. Yes, you had hunted down your prey, and then it came time to play with what you had found until you got tired of it, and the hunt would be on again for the next wonder you would find in your bag. It brought so much joy and laughter into our hearts to see you acting like a kitten and playing with your new toys. I was also thinking about how we would give you treats, either by letting you eat them from our hand, or by throwing them for you to chase. You would wait for us to throw the ones you liked to catch, and we could see the joy in your eyes as you waited for each piece to be thrown. We didn't throw another until you had found the first one.  That is something I miss, and guiding you to where it was if you couldn't find it. I always seemed to understand and with our instructions, you would find the treat that was trying to hide from you. Then you would come back and wait for another one to be thrown. I hope that your special angel that is caring for you until I can be with you is doing that for you. On Christmas I will be looking up to the heavens and I know that you will be the brightest star in the night sky. I love you my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Thank you Karen, yes, we are blessed to have had these special ones in our lives. Perhaps God sent them to us because we needed the special bond that we have with them. I do beleive they are meant to be with us, no matter how large or small the time is we have been blessed with their presence.

Thank you, Elise. Yes, Harry had to supervise everything, even if someone came to work on something, he had to be right there.

Thank you, Nancy. I feel that Harry can feel those kisses I send to him. 
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Dear Brenrae,
   Your beautiful letter to your darling Harry brought such tears to my eyes. As I read it, I could just feel so much the ache in your heart for your sweet boy and the emptiness this Christmas will bring without him. I just can't seem to find any joy for this Christmas, even though I am trying my best. Reading your memories of Christmas with Harry though did bring a smile to my face as I was picturing him anxiously awaiting his next treat. hunter was such a little chowhound who would be so excited when treats were involved. I just am missing so desperately all the joy he brought to this home and our lives. Tomorrow would have been Hunter's 13th birthday, and I know it will be another difficult day learning how to live without him. I am wishing peace, comfort, and much love for your heart as Christmas approaches.
Pam
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