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NancyMarie

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Dear Brenrae,

Another beautiful letter to your beloved Harry and I bet that was Harry stopping by to wish his dear Mom a Happy Easter.

I'm so sorry you are having one of those sad weeks,  I hope you have a peaceful blessed Easter filled with beautiful sweet memories of your Harry.

Harry will live forever in your heart and as you said,  "you are 3 years closer to your reunion".

The love never ends,  we carry them in our hearts forever.

Hugs to you and Angel Kisses to Harry

Nancy, Angel Smudgie's Mom and Mom to Calie, Sparky and Jade
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Brenrae,

Have no doubt, that was definitely your sweet boy visiting you. What a wonderful, priceless Easter gift that was for you. So sorry you are feeling sad these days. I can certainly relate to that. I hope that you will continue to have these precious visits from your darling Harry.

Warm hugs of comfort and peace to you.      

Hugs and kisses to Angel Harry

 
Donna
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Hi Harry, I keep seeing your shadow out of the corner of my eye. I am glad you are visiting me, though I still miss you a lot. With great love comes great grief, and we shared such a great love. You are, and will always be my boy. I hope that you had a good time on your 34 months, and I hope you shared with Baby Kitty, for it was also her bridge day, just more months than you. One day when my work on earth is done, we will be together again. That is one of the things that keeps me going, is the thought of our reunion. I am sure you can see me from where you are, and for you the time apart isn't so long. For me, it seems like an eternity since I last got to hold you, and talk to you, and tell you how much that I love you. If I could turn back time, I would go back to those days before you got sick. Perhaps I could find a way to have you with me for longer. But, they say for everything there is a season, a season to live, and a season to die. Why did your season have to come so soon. I expected so many more years, after all, you was well taken care of, and well loved. But, there are things that we don't control, though we may want to. One of them is when the time comes to let go of a special family member. I love you my sweet handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love mommy
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Dear Brenrae,
   Such sweet letters you always write to your precious Harry. I truly feel that was your little guy coming to you to reassure you that he is o.k. and always close by his much loved Mom. Your comment about how there is a time for every season is so true, but like you I feel the same about Hunter. I constantly find myself wondering why his little life had to end when it did, when that feisty little guy who loved life so much ...still had so much life to live. I guess there is just no easy or right answer to that question. we are just left with this big aching hole in our hearts, our life, and our homes where once there was joy and happiness. I will keep you and your sweet boy in my thoughts and prayers and pray for peace and comfort for your heart.
Hugs,
Pam
brenrae

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Hi Harry,

Thursday is here, and it is a rainy day. It seems like these weeks keep going by, don't they? I still miss you as much as in the beginning. I still feel like you should still be here, but, I wasn't in control of that. And, though I look at your pictures, it isn't enough. I want to be able to have you here again. The one thing is true, if there was a stairway to heaven, I would go up and bring you back with me. But, I know you are healthy again, and no longer have any pain, so that will have to be enough. When my life here is done, I will see you again, and then we will never be apart ever. You took a big part of my heart with you when you went, and you hold it safely to give back to me when we should meet again. I don't know why, but it seems like the closer in the week that I get to Thursday, I feel sad, perhaps it is because that is the day of the week that I had to let yo go. Maybe it seems weird after 34 months that I still feel this way, I don't know. I love you always and forever, my sweet, handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy  
brenrae

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Hi Harry, I have been really missing you today. It may be because it is getting closer to your 3 years at the bridge. We had a storm soon after I got home, and when the storm was done, there was a beautiful rainbow. It made me happy to see it. Jean is the one that saw it first, but, I like to think that maybe you was sending us a sign and letting us know that you are never far away. I love you so much, Har Har. Sending you some hugs, kisses, and cuddles on the wind. Love, mommy
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Well, it seems like it is going to be a hard month for me. It is getting closer to the date that you first got sick and had to stay at the vet's, and when I think about it, I feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I keep telling myself that it will be all right, but, it isn't. How can it be all right when I had to finally make the decision to let you travel to Rainbow Bridge a head of me? But, I will continue to honor you in any way I can. I will give the love I have to Gabby, Sandy, and Jinx, for they do make me happy, and they have brought so much love and laughter in my life. Thank you, my sweet boy for sending them my way. Your 3 years is coming up soon, June 7th. I have been trying to figure out what I can do to honor your life, and the love you gave to me. I really can't believe that I have had to live without you for so long. It seems like an eternity since I last held you and heard your purr. I have seen a rainbow twice this week, I like to think you are sending them to me, as a way of letting me know you are always near, and watching me still. I still do the ritual before I go to bed, and I still sleep with my arms wrapped around your blanket. If during the night I have discovered that I have lost it, I tear the bed apart until I find it again. It is one of the things I have that help me feel closer to where you are. I love you, always and forever, my sweet, handsome boy. There is nothing that can ever change that. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses, sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Harry, Sometimes it seems like it has been forever since I last saw you, and held you, and hugged you, and got that special kiss from you. Other times it seems like it was just yesterday. For some reason I was thinking about you the other day, and I just started crying. I was fine, and then whammo, here it comes, and not just the silent tears that stream down my face at times, but hard, loud sobs. One thing is true, the only time an animal companion breaks your heart is when they go to heaven, and you sure broke mine when I had to let you go.  We took Nico to have her claws trimmed today, and there was a lady there with a small dog. She had lost her dog, Daisy 2 weeks earlier, and she couldn't stand how quiet her house had become without her furry companion, so she adopted a rescue dog. Believe me when I say that I understand the feeling. I hated coming home because you wasn't there to greet me at the door. I still miss you waiting for me. Yes, Sandy, Gabby, and Jinx are always happy to see me, and I am happy to be greeted by them, but, it doesn't mean that I miss you any less. There is so much that I miss with you being gone from my sight, but, I still carry you and your love with me, no matter where I go. Yes, I am feeling a bit sad today, but that's all right. I can still laugh and find joy, but, every now and then, the sadness comes over me, and covers me like a thick fog, but, I will find my way out to the other side, where the sky is clear. I think it is normal t feel this way every so often, for I had lost such a big part of my world when I had to let you go. But, one day, our worlds will be joined again, and we will never be apart anymore. For now, I need to finish the job I need to do here, and then I will see you again. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent to you an the wind. Love, Mommy
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Dear Brenrae,

  As you probably know, but it needs to be said, as I read your words, they resonate with me so completely.  It is so very normal to feel grief long after others think we should be "healed".  I was thinking today that we are the lucky ones, the ones who had our hearts broken.  I truly hope to have my heart broken again, because that will mean I truly loved unconditionally again. 

  We have a picture of Tuffy and Toby on our landing.  I don't always stop, but today I did, as the girls ran past me down the stairs.  I bowed my head to my boys and shed a tear, and shared some words. 

  Coming home has changed for us too.  It is no longer quiet.  Our new fur kids don't replace our old, and we never ever stop missing our heart dogs.  Tuffy was my entire heart dog, but Toby took a good chunk too, it just took me a little longer to realize how much I miss him too. 

  You are right, you still carry Harry wherever you go, in your heart and he is a part of you.  You lost a big part of your world and life is never the same again. 

  Love never dies and Harry is in your heart forever.  Until you meet again .. imagine the joy when you see him bounding towards you as you meet at Rainbow Bridge. 

Hugs,
Tuffy and Toby's Dad

brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Well, here it is, your 35th month at the bridge, one more month and it will be three years. I could never imagine my life without you, and yet, here I am, almost 3 years later. I hope that you and your friends all have a wonderful time there. It is Baby Kitty's bridge day also, and I know that you and her share it together. She had to leave us 5 years before you, but for some reason it seemed easier with her. I think because we knew she was ready, and she was so miserable that last night with us. But, with you, you was always the same happy boy, and always so happy to see us when we visited you. Your buddy, Roy, my sister's bf, may be joining you someday soon. Me and Jean sit and talk about you, as we remember all the things you did. I think about you every day. I miss you every day. But, I have learned to live without you, which was so very hard. It seemed like I was depressed forever. Now, it isn't so bad, now, I can think of you with a smile at times, and not tears. It seems like the years just slowly drift by. I hope that you will greet Roy when he crosses over. He still talks about you also, him and my sister. I'm not sure when that will be, but he is not doing well with the chemo, it isn't working for him now, and I know he will be happy to see you again. You and him was always such good buddies. Yes, I know that Cuddles will be there also, but, I am sure that the two of you are friends now. For, aren't all friends at the bridge? I like to think that is so, for it should be a peaceful place where you can play, and eat, and sleep, and explore all you want. I was listening to "Time in a bottle" by Jim Croce the other night, and I thought of you. I started crying as I listened. I don't know why but some songs make me think of you, and I start crying, I guess because they say how I feel. Yes, if I could save time in a bottle, I would spend my days again with you, for you are worth it, all the pain that came with having to let you go. I have been truly blessed that I had you in my life, and that I carry your love with me wherever I go. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy
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Happy 35 Months Angel Harry!

Your words "...I can think of you with a smile at times, and not tears" - that gives me hope....  I also wanted to tell you that just last night I was reading the words to that very song you mentioned..."Time In A Bottle" - and thinking that is what I would do also...  

I'm sorry to hear about your sister's bf Roy... I will keep him in my thoughts and prayers... along with your sister...

I know that you still miss your beloved Harry so much - I think that will always be.... but I am so glad for you that you are feeling a bit better...  

Hugs...
Melanie ~ Lee Lee's Mama
NancyMarie

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Dear Brenrae,

Harry – Happy 35 months at Rainbow Bridge sweet one & Happy Bridge Day Baby Kitty !

Brenrae-  Your posts to your beloved Harry are always so touching.  I’m so very sorry your sister’s BF is not doing well, my prayers go out to your family.  I truly believe that when it’s our time to move on, whenever that time might be, we are met by all of our loved ones and I know our beloved furbabies are right there in the front of the line.  

I’m the same way with music,  the song that always makes me think of my Smudgie is “The Dance by Garth Brooks”, I can’t listen to that song without breaking down.

Wishing you peace and comfort and beautiful dreams of your Harry.

Hugs to you and to your beloved Harry and healing prayers go out Roy.

Nancy, Angel Smudgie’s Mom and Mom to Calie, Sparky and Jade

 

 

brenrae

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Nancy, The dance is another that I have a hard time with. When I was travelling to get my daughter and bring her back here, the song came on and I had to change the channel. But, as it says in the song, I would not of missed any of the time I had with Harry, and I know we all feel the same way. I also believe that all our fur angels will be there to greet us, and that is a day to look forward to after we finish our job here on earth.


Melanie, there will always be some tears from time to time, for we have loved so deeply, and they are worth the tears we may shed, but, our fur angels would like us to remember that they lived their lives to the fullest, no fear, and no tears, and they would want the same for us. But, if there had been a way to have him still with me, I would of done anything for that chance. Loving them is worth it all, isn't it?
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Harry, this week I found a feather with your coloring in a store, just laying there as I was walking . It was in perfect condition, and I took it to be a sign from you. Yesterday, I saw a butterfly, again with your coloring, it was flying around me, almost touching, then it flew up in the sky. I believe you sent it to say hi, and to let me know that you was thinking of me, the same way as I have been thinking about you. I miss you so much, and though the days are easier, the missing you never ends. It seems like it has been forever since you was here beside me, but, some days, I feel like it was just yesterday. It is funny how time keeps on moving forward when your world as you knew it has ended. But, I guess that is how it is. Kind of like the song by Tracy Lawrence, Time Marches On, and that is how it is. Though there are changes some good, and some bad, the one thing that remains the same, is that time keeps moving forward. But, as time moves forward, it brings me closer to when I will see you again, and all my other fur angels that are there with you. That is all we can do, keep moving forward with this scar on our heart, and live each day to the best of our ability, isn't that right, my sweet boy? I know that you would like me to, and I try, even when I have those sad days, I try to live life the way that you would. I remember how when you had to go on a head of me, there was so many things that I couldn't eat, not for a long time, about a year, because I remember sharing them with you. There are still shows and movies that I don't watch, for they make me think of you. Perhaps that seems weird, but, you would lay beside me as I watched them, and I just can't without the tears welling up in my eyes. I love you always and forever, my sweet, handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy
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Dear Brenrae,

This letter to Harry must have warmed his heart, through and through. I know he receives every single hug, kiss and cuddle on the wind and I know he looks for them every day from mommy.

It's so true, that time in this life marches on. But we do not go along without a purpose, and I know that it makes Harry so happy that you are doing your best each day.

Sending hugs to you and Angel Harry,

Elise, mom to Shiloh and Angel Buddy
NancyMarie

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Dearest Brenrae,

How beautiful that your sweet Harry sent you such special signs and as always your letters to your sweet one are so very touching.

I think we all can relate to the various triggers that we now avoid or try to avoid in our day to day lives.  I will go out of my way to avoid certain things that I shared with my beloved Smudgie, but sometimes they just happen and I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

Time does march on,  sometimes it feels like it goes so slow because of the longing, but then months and years have slipped by in a heartbeat, but as you said each day brings us closer to our reunion with our love ones.

Wishing you peace, comfort and beautiful memories of your beloved Harry.

Hugs to you and Angel kisses to your Harry.

Nancy, Angel Smudgie's Mom and Mom to Calie, Sparky and Jade
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Brenrae,
your letter to Harry is so warm and beautiful. I know exactly what you mean when you say there are certain things that are hard for you to do now. Since Bella died I have not been able to listen to any music. I used to always play music and sing to her and hold her and make her dance now it has become very difficult for me to enjoy music any more. If I go somewhere and music is playing I start to feel really depressed whereas music is normal situations is supposed to be up lifting.  I wish you peace and comfort and sweet signs from your beautiful Harry, stay well, Donna
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Hi Har Har,

It has been a hard month for me, because this is the month that you got sick, a few days after Mother's Day. It seemed like things just getting worse for you, though you always stayed in high spirits, and was always the sweet and loving boy that I loved, and still love. I have often wondered why it is that when we find a love so pure as the love that our fur babies give us, it has to be taken from us. But, I read a story about a young child that answers it, and in the story, his dog had passed away, and he heard his parents asking what I have always wondered. He tells then that we are sent to learn to love unconditionally, and with all our heart, but they don't have to stay as long, because they already know how to love unconditionally. So, I guess you got to go sooner that I would of liked because you loved so completely and with all your heart and soul. When I looked in your eyes, I could always see the light of your love shining through, and you filled my heart with joy. I couldn't wait to come home each day, because I knew that you would be there to greet me, then, the day came when you had to leave me behind and my world was blanketed in darkness, the light of your love was taken away. But, it was still there, as I looked around, I could see the signs you sent letting me know that you are never far away. On my sad days, you always find a way to reach out to me. Sometimes it would be in the form of a coin, sometimes a feather, sometimes just a light touch, and nothing would be there. And, I found two feathers on the same day, I guess you was making sure that I knew you was there with me. When I look at the night sky, and see the stars, I feel that one  of those stars is your special star, and you are watching me form there as I journey home in the dark evening hours. But, even with the signs, and knowing you are close, I still get the sad days, but, then I think of how you would ant me to be, and I try to be the person you have always believed me to be. I love you Har Har, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
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Hi Har Har,

Well, it seems that your 3 year bridge day is inching even closer, just a week from Sunday. I was thinking of the Tuesday after Memorial Day, you was able to come home, because they thought you was doing better, but your wasn't. You was so uncomfortable, just walking from place to place. We were trying to watch a movie, but we wasn't able to because we was worried about you. I have not been able to bring myself to watch that movie, though it was one that I really wanted to see. When I see it on tv, all I can think about is how miserable you was that night. Perhaps someday I may be able to watch it, I don't know, but not now. I really wish that you had gotten better, I was so looking forward to having you home, and I was so happy when my sister came and told me they had sent you home. But, it didn't last long, did it? All I really wanted was you to be better, but, instead I had to make the hardest decision that I would ever have to make. I had to choose to let you walk a head of me to the bridge, and stay here to continue on without you. I keep thinking back to the last few weeks, and I will always wonder if maybe this had been done, or that hadn't been done, would you of gotten better, or better yet, never gotten sick. But, there is no way of really knowing how things would of went for you. Perhaps God only wanted you to be here for a few years, and you had done your job in the time that you was here. The only thong I do know is that you had so much love to give, I could see it every time I looked into your eyes. I wish that I could look into your eyes now, and I wish that I could see your little head bop as you meowed to me when I would call you. It was your way of saying, here I am. I would say, "Where's Harry?", and you would come out from where you was, and look at me like, "What?", and do the head bop and meow, as if to say, "Here I am". I do miss that. If I was to write down everything that I miss about you, it would take up so many pages. You had such a big personality, and there can never be another you. To me, you are special, and always will be. I miss you so much. I love you my sweet, handsome boy, forever and always. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Dear Brenrae,

What a beautiful tribute to the love you and Harry shared by continuing to post letters to Harry for 3 years, it truly shows the special bond the two of you shared.

I looked at Harry pictures, he was so beautiful, such a handsome boy.

As Harry's 3 year anniversary approaches, please know I wish you peace, comfort and beautiful dreams of your sweet boy.

Hugs to you and to your beloved Harry.

Nancy, Angel Smudgie's Mom and Mom to Calie, Sparky and Jade
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Hi Har Har,

I mowed the yard this morning. I don't mow as early as I used to when you was here, because you aren't here to go outside anymore. I used to mow early so that I could take you out before it got too hot. Well, Sunday will be 3 years. Can you believe it? I guess time is different where you are, and it is only seconds for you, but, it seems like forever to me. My daughter showed me a tribute cartoon that a woman had done for her cat. It is how it was for us, I loved you from the time I found you, and I still love you to this day. The years have not lessened the love I have for you any, and they never will. You are my heart and soul cat, always will be. Yes, there are others that I love, but, love does not diminish, it only grows stronger. I love you so much, my sweet, handsome boy.  If my love could of saved you, you would still be here. I would of given just about anything for you to have gotten better. But, I guess it wasn't in the stars, I guess it was time for you to travel home, to be with the angels. I was also thinking about the time we was outside early in the morning, the sun wasn't fully up yet, and you found a wolf spider. You tried to play with it, and it kept jumping at you, and you would back away from it. You was probably wondering what was wrong with that thing. This was the first time you had seen one of these. Right now, there is a lizard that comes and lays on the pavement when it is cool, and I could imagine how you would react. You would probably be doing your head bobbing thing as you tried to figure out what it was. I always enjoyed watching you do that as you tried to figure things out. Your head would bob, and move back and forth. I guess you was trying to see it better. You always did it if my shoes was not in their normal spot on the rug. I guess everything had a place, huh, boy? I love you forever and always, my sweet handsome boy. Here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy  
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Hi Harry,

Yes, I know it is a little late in me writing to you. I feel that you understand how I feel without me actually telling you, but, I like to write to you anyways. I went over to Laura and Roy's and we had a cookout, and we talked about all the things we remember about you. Though you are not with me here, the memories you left are the treasure that I will always carry and the love we shared will live forever in my heart. Can you believe, it has been 3 years, and I have thought about you every day for those three years, and I have missed you all of those days, over 1095 days that I have had to be without you.  I remember how hard it was when I couldn't see you for one day when you was at the vet's, let alone over 1000. I will always be glad that you got to be with me, I am glad that I was able to help you when you needed help as a kitten. You touched my heart so completely just by being you. I love you so much still, and I miss you so much. But, I know that you are in a place with no pain, and no illness, and I am glad for you. And I know that you can see me when you want, though I can't see you, except when you visit in my dreams. I love you, forever and always. Here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har, it is another Thursday. I am not sure how many Thursdays this is now. I do know that I still miss you so much, and I know that I always will. Earlier this week, I drove by the vet's office on my way to pick Jeannie up, and it was late at night. I saw how dark the place was, and I began thinking about when you was there. I know that they had people to take care of you, but, I was thinking about how lonely you must of been, and you was probably wondering why you wasn't at home in the nice soft bed, but stuck in a cage. I guess you know now that you was there to get better. I started crying thinking about you there. I thought that I was going to have to pull over as the tears welled in my eyes. I still wish that you had been able to be at home. You being there for your last weeks was not how I wanted it. I wanted you to have a peaceful going away at home in your sleep. I would of still been sad, but, at least you would of been in a familiar place, and not been surrounded by strangers during your last weeks. Yes, I know that I came to visit as often as I could, before and after work on some days, but, it wasn't like us being together 24/7. I guess this has been one of those kind of weeks, with me missing you so badly. You know that you will always be in my heart, you are one of those special souls, and I am glad you came to be in my life. I wish that I had taken you out more, but, you always got so tired after being outside. And as you got older, you had the breathing problems a lot more. So, I tried to be careful of when I took you outside, so you wouldn't have them. I love you always, my sweet, handsome boy. always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy   
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Hi Har Har,

There is some words from a song, not quite word for word, but they convey what I feel. These words say basically that if I had to do it again, I would do it all over again with you. And I would. Every thing from day one. You have made such an impact on my life just by being you. You and your little quirks, though I admit some were a bit irritating, but, I would do it again. It seems that I have been finding dimes in some odd places, are you leaving them for me to find. Sometimes it is like they just appear, for they wasn't there a minute ago. Or perhaps I just overlooked them. I do like to think they are from you. Today I saw an insect, I am not sure what kind it was, but I thought it was a wasp for a minute, and then it landed on the door to the laundry room. It had beautiful blackish purple wings, and I was thinking that maybe you had sent it. These last few days have been ones that I have been close to tears, and I have been thinking of you a lot. But, then, you are never far from my thoughts. I bet you and Baby Kitty are having a good time up there with your friends. I still miss you and her, and I am thankful that I have so many wonderful memories. I wish I had more pictures, especially from when you was still a kitten. You was so small that I could hold you in one hand, but you had so much personality, and so much courage. You was a fighter, and was able to beat whatever was wrong with you then. The love you gave me is worth so much more than any money can by, for it was and is a true love. You loved with your heart and soul, and to me, you was always special. You still are. I love you always and forever, my sweet handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy  
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Dearest Brenrae,

I'm so sorry the last few day's you've been close to tears, I get like that at times, I could be fine and then it just hits me, it's hard, so hard. 

I smiled when you wrote about Harry's quirks, some being irritating, there were things that would drive me nuts that Smudgie would do; like turning over all the water bowls, but what I wouldn't give now to see those water bowls all turned over, I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.

I love Harry's signs,  I remember someone either telling me or reading it here, that their cat passed on 11/11 and they would find eleven cents in the strangest places. I bet your sweet Harry sent you those signs to let you know he is never far away. 

Wishing you peace and comfort and beautiful signs from your Harry.

Hugs to you and Harry,

Nancy, Angel Smudgie's Mom and Mom to Calie, Sparky and Jade
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Hi Har Har,

It is a rainy day here today. I remember how much you didn't like storms, but you was ok as long as we were, even to the point that I could hold you in my arms and take you on the front porch to watch the rain, just for a few seconds, because I didn't want to have you out in it for too long. You would sniff the air. I think that you liked the smell of the rain, just not the thunder or the wind. You never did like the sound of the wind when it was whipping around outside, and your eyes would get so big, but I would pet you and hug you, and tell you that every thing was all right and you would lay down and go to sleep.. I wonder how you would of felt about my Jean's cat, Nico. You never did seem to mind other cats being in the house, so I think you would of liked her. You was always a friendly boy, though you was possessive of what you considered yours, and that included me. I miss you so much Har Har, my little cuddle buddy. Though Jinx likes to cuddle, she isn't as still as you was when we were going to sleep. I miss laying my head on you and just hearing your purr. Today would of been just a stay in bed kind of day for us, or just sitting around watching shows on the tv. I miss that too, just having a day of doing nothing but enjoying each other's company. I love you so much, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
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Hi Har Har,

It has been so hot here, but, I know the temperature is just right for you where you are at. I still miss you, and I still have those bad days that I cry for you. I was talking to a woman the other day that had to let her cat go about 6 years ago, and I could see she was close to tears. That is how it is for me. I guess that when you miss a special someone, it never goes away. You will always have a special place in my heart. You are my special boy. I know that with each day that drifts by, we are one day closer to being together again. But, I guess that I still have work to do here, and, until my job here is done, I will just have to miss you, but, I will always carry you forever in my heart. I bet that you are doing those perimeter checks up there like you used to do down here. Just walking around, and smelling, and seeing that everything is the way it should be in your world. My world was changed dramatically when you left to go to your home at Rainbow Bridge. I know that life is full of changes, but why is it that some have to hurt so bad. I will never get over having to let you move on a head of me, but, I have learned to be without you, though the pain remains. I am so glad that we got to have 12 years, for that is more than some people get, but, I will always wish for more time. I love you, forever and always, my sweet, handsome boy. Until we meet again, here is some cuddles, kisses, and hugs, sent to you in the wind.  Please share them with others. Love, Mommy
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We finally came to our journeys end,

You will forever be my dearest friend.

Our time together I will never forget,

I prayed every day don’t let the time be yet.

It came so fast and I was trying to hold on,

To something that made my life so fond.

You fought every day for me I know,

For you my baby I had to let go.

I seen in your eyes how the pain was great,

And held you so close in your final state.

Never a day I will forget your love,

Rest my baby in heaven above.

One thing I promise with all my heart,

You never will be far apart.

I will think of you and you of me

That’s the way it will always be.

I Love you with all my soul

DAD.

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Dear Brenrae,

The woman you spoke to about losing her cat 6 years ago reminds me of my Mom.  Growing up with had a sweet little dog named Max, my Mom said Max was her third child.  Max was only 4 years old when he passed and it broke all of our hearts and he is forever remembered in our hearts and that was in 1972.  My Mom still gets tears in her years when she speaks of him, or sees another dog that looks like Max or hears that name,  love truly never dies. It truly doesn't matter how much time goes by, their memories, their love, their presence will always live on and that's just the way it should be. 

Wishing you peace and comfort and sweet beautiful dreams of your beloved Harry.

Hugs to you my friend and Angel kisses to Harry

Nancy, Mom to my little Angel Smudgie and earthbound Calie, Sparky and Jade


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Dear Brenrae 
Such a sweet letter to your precious Boy. You are so right, it doesn't matter how much time goes by it doesn't change the void or the pain. To me it seems like the pain gets worse at times. It is a never ending sad journey that we are traveling until we are reunited with our babies. Wishing you sweet, beautiful dreams of beautiful Har Har.
Peace and blessings to you
Donna
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Hi Harry,

How are you today? Right now the song that I have been listening to that makes me think of you is "See you Again" by Wiz Khalifa. The line that really gets me, is "It's Been a long day without you my friend, And I;ll tell you all about it when I see you again. That is the part that runs through my head when I think of you. You are my friend, and my family. You are so much more than "just a cat". I know that there are people that do not understand how I can still grieve for you, and still miss you, for they do not understand that you are so much more to me. These are the people that will never understand that a "pet" is family. To me, you was never a pet, you was like my son in so many ways. No, there is no getting over a love like yours, for you loved so completely, with no holding back. All that I am doing is living through my days, knowing that I will see you again. I will try to live my life the way you would, to the fullest, no holding back on the love I have to give. I believe that is what you would want me to do. I will still miss you though, and yes, I will have those sad days. This is a quote I saw "When I get to heaven, the first thing I am going to do is find you, the second thing is never let you go again". And, that is what I am going to do. Wherever you go, I will be right behind you, as you show me all your favorite spots. Here is another quote that I read, "Heaven must be beautiful, after all, you are there". And that is so true, you made my life here beautiful, and I know that you are doing the same in heaven. I love you so much, my sweet, handsome boy, forever and always. Until we meet aqain, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent on the wind. Love mommy 
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Hi Har Har,

I hope you are doing all right. I have been spending some time with my brother and his family, but, I wanted to take some time and write you. I think you would of loved my brother and his family, and I think they would of become a part of your tribe. I wish they had been able to have gotten to know you, for to me, you was so perfect. Yes, I know there was some things that you did that could be irritating, but, I loved you all the more for you was just being you, and that is all that mattered. You loved us so completely, and when I had to let you go, I felt like a piece of me went with you. That piece will always be gone until we are together again. it is kind of like one of those necklaces where you keep a part of it, and your friend keeps a part of it, and then when you are rejoined, the necklace comes back together. That is the way it is now for me. I love you so much, my sweet handsome, boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy
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Brenrae, I love the necklace analogy....perfect... I hope you are doing okay and enjoying your visit with your family.... may your dearest Harry visit you very soon....
Hugs,
Lee Lee's Mama (Melanie)
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Dear Brenrae,

What a beautiful letter to your sweetest boy. I know he would have blessed your brother and his family so very much. When you mentioned about the necklaces where one friend keeps a piece and another keeps another piece I thought of those broken hearted ones. I remember one of them that said, "Even when we are apart, you are always in my heart"...I know that is so true for you and your Har Har.

Sending hugs and wishes for a nice time away with your family,

Elise, mom to Shiloh and Angel Buddy
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Dearest Brenrae,

I love reading your letters to your Harry, they are just so heartwarming and so full of love.  I too love the necklace analogy, it's just so fitting.  I know in my heart your sweet Harry is right by your side while you visit with your brother and his family.  Until you meet again, he is forever in your heart.

Wishing you peace and comfort and beautiful sweet dreams of your beloved Harry.

Hugs to you and Angel Kisses to Harry

Nancy, Angel Smudgie's Mom and Mom to Calie, Sparky and Jade
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Hi Har Har,

It has been a pretty busy week for me, with my brother and his family visiting, and work, but, you was constantly on my mind. I like the quote that Elise wrote about, and it is so true. Though we are apart, you are always in my heart, and there you will stay. Today is a bit worm, but there is a nice breeze, which helps it to feel a bit cooler. I am sure that you would of enjoyed some outside time today. So many things for you to see. I always enjoyed exploring the back yard with you, and when we are reunited, we will explore heaven. I am sure there is so many places there that you would enjoy sharing with me. We went to Ruby Falls with my brother and his family, I bet you would of enjoyed those caves, but, I would worry about you getting lost in there. But, there was so much for you to explore, all the hills, and caverns. But, you probably would not of enjoyed the falls so much, because you never did like water. But, I can imagine us living someplace like that, just not as big. You would probably be climbing the rocks as much as you could. I guess you really would be a cave cat then, huh. We always said that about you, when you did your grunting if you saw another cat in the back yard. We called it your cave cat grunt. I remember the first time I heard it, I couldn't imagine what it was, then I discovered that it was you. It was cute how you did that. So territorial you was, especially about the back yard. I guess that was your domain, but, you was ok with cats that came in the house like when I watched my sister's cat, Cuddles, you was fine with her.  Even when she would hiss and growl at you, you would just look at her as if to say, "And what is your problem", and just walk away. I love you so much, my sweet and handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy 
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Hi Harry,

Today I saw a picture that said, " I sure wish that Rainbow Bridge had visiting hours." I was thinking, me too. If it did, I would visit you as much as I could. I sure do miss you, and all the things you used to do. But, most of all, I just miss having you here where I could cuddle with you, and give you a kiss on the top of your head, and lay my head on you. I miss those things. I miss every thing. The way you smelled, and the peace you brought to me, just by letting me cuddle with you a bit. You didn't like it, but, you always put up with it, because you knew we liked to hug you. LOL, perhaps that's because you was a big boy, and big boys don't like hugs so much, but, deep down, they love it. I miss you pushing things off the entertainment center if it was in your spot. We had to keep that area clear at all times. It was funny how you would do it. You would look us straight in the eye, and use your head to push it over the edge. All things must go, and you would do it till your spot was clear, whether you wanted to lay there or not. I miss how you would sit so politely, and wait for me to invite you onto the couch, and I always did. I liked having you lay next to me. There is so many things that I miss about you. Me and Jeannie talk about you often, and we laugh over some of your antics, but, sometimes it brings me close to tears because you are not here to make more memories with, so I have to cherish the ones that I do have of you. As long as I am here, you will live on, for you live forever in my heart. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, forever and always. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy
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Dearest Brenrae,

Your sweet post brought a smile to my face, thank you, I needed a smile today. I could just picture you sweet Harry pushing things off the entertainment center with his head.  My Smudgie also would push things with her head (mostly water bowls) , awwwww such sweet memories.  My cat Jade loves to sit up on my cable box and there is this plastic card inserted into a slot on the cable box that reads “do not remove” and Jade is just fascinated by this plastic card. She takes every opportunity to sit on top of the box and flick the card with her paw, telling her no goes in one ear and out the other.  One day she was just staring me in the eye, flicking away at the card and it goes flying across the room and needless to say the cable went down and I thought, well now I know what happens when you remove the card.  These beautiful precious animals bring such joy and laughter to our lives and their crazy funny antics will live forever in our hearts.

I too wish there were visiting hours at Rainbow Bridge, but if there were we would probably never want to leave.  I hope you sweet Harry has a nice entertainment center to sleep upon and I hope my Smudgie has lots of water bowls to push around with her head.

Thank you again for sharing Harry’s antics, it brought a smile to my face.

Hugs to you and Angel kisses to your sweet Harry

Nancy, Angel Smudgie’s Mom and Mom Calie, Sparky and Jade

 

 

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Hi Harry, I am missing you big time today. I miss you every day, but some days it is worse than others. I don't know why that is. Me and Jean was talking about you last night, and all the things we miss about you, perhaps that is why. I remember when I first started letting you go outside on your own. I thought you would stay in the fence, but you didn't, I would find you in the neighbor's yard. I would look and find all your escape routes, and cover them so you wouldn't get out, because at that time, you wasn't able to jump as good as when you was younger, but still, you would find an opening. I couldn't figure it out, so one day, I watched you, and you could sure shimmy your body to get through that small opening. But, I covered it up, and you was happy to stay in the yard then. I know that you just wanted to explore, so I would walk around with you, and we would explore the back yard over and over again. Sometimes a squirrel or a bird would come in the yard, and you would get in stalk mode. but I never would let you catch them. Right now, we have some lizards running around. I bet they would really catch your attention. You would probably be thinking that you had found a new toy. In the summer, I tried to take you out early, before it got too hot, and as the weather got colder, I would wait till it had warmed up. If it was too hot or too cold, we would just stay inside, you laying beside me, and me, watching tv, or taking a nap. You also tried to help me clean, and what a big help you was. You would always get super hyper if I started to clean, and run around every where. It was fun to watch you. I miss all that. And, when we brought home groceries, you had to check it all out. I remember one time, I didn't put the bag of cat food in the cupboard fast enough, and you scratched a hole in it, and was eating from the bag. I learned from that to make sure that I put it up as soon as I walked through the door. Yes, you taught me so many things, but the main thing is to love unconditionally, and to live life to the fullest, as if there is no tomorrow. I love you my sweet handsome boy, always and forever. Thank you for coming into my life and making it so much brighter than it was. I miss you always. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles, sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy  
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Dear Brenrae,

We owe our sweet babies so much because they have taught us the true meaning of life - unconditional love. It is no wonder we miss them so very much.

Sending hugs and wishes for a sweet visit or special dream from Har Har,

Elise, mom to Shiloh and Angel Buddy
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