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brenrae

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Hi Har Har

This is the week that you started staying at the vet's office. I thought it would be for a few days, but, it was longer, and you never got better. I remember going to see you every day before work, and if I could, after work. You was always so happy to see me. You probably didn't understand why you had to stay there. It always made me so sad to leave you, and I would be crying as I left. It was like I was leaving my child, because to me, that is what you was, my son. I wish that I had been able to bring you home for your last night, but because of work, I wasn't able to. Perhaps it was better that way, for you would of been uncomfortable all night, and perhaps it would of been selfish for me to bring you home for the night. Perhaps it would of been more for me than for you. I still wish that things had went different for you. I wish that you had gotten better, but, it wasn't to be. It was so hard for me to let you go, and I still have those hard days. I wish people would understand that losing a "pet" is just as devastating as losing a person. But, then, there are those that do understand. Perhaps it is harder to express your feelings to people, because they do not always understand how you feel. Or perhaps people are uncomfortable with your grief. I wish that animals had as much of a lifespan as we do, but, perhaps because their lifespan is shorter, the time we spend with them is cherished, and we have to make the most out of the time we may have. I will always be blessed, because I had you in my life, and I can never regret doing so. And, though I had to go through the pain of letting you go, I would do it all again. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

Your bridge day is getting closer, and I can't help but to think of the days leading up to it. All our hopes that you would get better just washed down the drain. The sadness of each passing day, as we waited for them to say that we could take you home. All the false news that you was better, and having to always take you back. If it had been something we was expecting, I wonder if it would not have been so hard to let you go. We always expected you to get better. I try not to dwell on those days, but, sometimes my mind goes down that path, and finds those memories. You was the hardest one for me to let go. You really had a way of worming your way into our hearts, didn't you? Not a day goes by that you don't enter my thoughts. I can imagine you up there, just walking and enjoying all there is to offer you, or perhaps just sitting on a rock, and watching all your friends as they play. Maybe you, Roy, and the others are sitting by a small steam, and Roy is fishing, and you all are just sunning yourself, or romping around him. I am sure there is so much to enjoy there, but, I miss you so much. Please visit me in a dream soon. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy
brenrae

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Hi Harry,

I can't believe it, but your bridgeday is almost here. Almost another year closer to our reunion. I am on vacation now, for this is a hard time for me. Do you know how hard it was for me to let you go? Every day, I prayed for a miracle, that never came. Every day, I prayed for the phone call that said you was better. It wasn't to be though. I think part of what made it so hard with you was that it was unexpected. I still wish to this day that you hadn't gotten sick. I still wish for a few more years with you, but, you know what, no amount of time would of been enough for me. But, all the what-ifs will never change the outcome. If I could of changed the outcome, you would still be by my side.  I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, kisses, and cuddles sent to you on the wind. Love Mommy 
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

I hope you like the poem I did for you. I always like to write to you, and though you are no longer by my side, you are always in my heart. I just want you to know that. I also want you to know that I will never forget you, no matter the amount of time that passes. I always think to myself that you would love this house where we live now. There is so many windows for you to look out of. And I am sure you would love watching the deer that come to our yard. I probably wouldn't take you out any more, nut, I would always open the door for you on those nice days and you could lay in the sun as much as you like. I guess you get a lot of sun there where you are, and one day, I will be with you again. But, for now, I will live my life as best as I can, and when I think of you, I will try to remember just the happy times, but, it can be hard at times. I know when we lose a loved one, our lives are never the same, for a piece of our heart goes with them. But, I also know you would not want me to be unhappy. I feel that you sent Sandy to me. You knew what I needed, didn't you. He needed me, and I needed him. I love you, so much, my sweet, handsome boy. Always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, Mommy 


brenrae

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Hi Har Har, 

I watched a show the other night, and one of the sayings was this," No Matter how far they are, a Loved One will always watch over you." I found that to be beautiful, and so true, for I feel you are always watching over me. I may no longer see you with my eyes, but, I can still see you with my heart. You know how much you are loved, and will always be loved. I still miss you, my boy, and I always will, but, I live each day, for I know each day is one day closer to us being reunited. The first few days, weeks, and yes, even months was so hard for me, for I felt so guilty if I found joy, or even humor in anything. How could I feel these feelings since you was gone. But, as the years went by, it got easier. And though I will still have my sad days, I can still find joy in the day. I still feel that I was blessed for you was there by my side. I can now share my memories of you, and not cry. But, sometimes, when I am alone, the tears do come. Perhaps I cry more for me. I cry for the time we lost, the time I felt we should of had. But, I guess that no matter what, no amount of time will be enough. You was the hardest one for me to let go. I always thought you would get better, but, when it came to the time that you wasn't going to, I knew that I had to say my farewells to you. I was so depressed after that. I so much wanted to just die. Perhaps some people do not understand how a person can grieve so much for what they consider to be just an animal, but, you was so much more to me. You was my son, my friend, my companion. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. love, mommy
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

I am going to be off work for a couple of weeks, because I decided to take the leave that they offer for covid. Mostly because the cases are skyrocketing, and I have a heart condition that would make it hard for me if I was to catch it. There have been quite a few cases in the businesses close to where I work, and I know those people also come to where I work. I wish you was here with me, I know you always enjoyed having us home with you. I never wanted to let you go, I kept praying for a miracle, but, it never came. I guess sometimes the answer was no. I cried so much after I had to let you go. I so wanted to follow you, but, it wasn't yet my time. I guess that right now, I am still needed here. I know that you will be waiting for me when I get there, but, until then, have fun, but, also please send me some signs so I know you are still near. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy

PS  We have also had a baby deer in our yard, hidden in the trees. We have kept watch over it, though, I am sure its mom was close by. It still has its spots. I guess the mommy deer feels her baby is safe here. 
brenrae

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Hi Har Har,

I saw a poem yesterday that I wanted to share here, for I remember how you always waited at the door when I came home to greet me. It made me sad when I would think of you no longer being there to greet me. Here is that poem:

Waiting at the Door

I was just a kitten when we first met, I loved you from the start.
You picked me up and took me home, and placed me in your heart.
Good times we had together. We shared all life could throw.
I know how much you miss me. I know your heart is sore.
I see the tears that fall when I'm not Waiting at the Door.
You always did your best for me. Your love was plain to see.
For even though it broke your heart, you set my spirit free.
So please be brave without me, one day we'll meet once more.
For when your called to Heaven, I'll be Waiting at the Door.


I do not know who wrote this poem, I do know there is also a dog version of it. And, yes, I do believe you will be waiting for me when I come through the door, and you will greet me with a meow, and a purr. I will be able to give you cuddles again, and kiss the tulip on your head. I know it will be a while before this happens, but, it gives me something to look forward to. I will always miss you, my sweet boy, and I will always think of you with some sadness in my heart, but, along with the sadness, there will also be joy. I got to have you with me for so many years, and so many memories we made together. And, I will always wish that I had more time with you, but, no amount of time would of ever been enough. I love you, my sweet, handsome boy, always and forever. Until we meet again, here is some hugs, cuddles, and kisses sent to you on the wind. Love, mommy

 

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