My Dearest Braveheart,
Today's date is February 28th, 2019, and it has been almost one year since I was able to touch your soft and golden fur. On March 3rd, 2018, I had to let you go. That one year mark is now quickly approaching, and I cannot begin to explain how much I miss you.
My sweet boy, you had a hard life. Before I adopted you, you spent the majority of your life in a puppy mill; cold, alone, and unloved. To this day, I still do not know exactly how old you were when I adopted you; however, the vet told me that you were most likely 10 years old.
10 years old.
10 years of your life you had to witness and survive horrid conditions that I cannot even begin to imagine. I am sorry that I did not find you sooner, my sweet and loving friend; nevertheless, I am glad that I did find you in time.
I was able to spend 3 beautiful years with you, and I loved every minute of it. I remember I always thought to myself, "Wow, this little boy has been through so much pain, torture, and neglect..how is he still so sweet?". I couldn't believe how sweet you were despite all of the pain you experienced in that puppy mill; yet, I know why: because you had (and still do have) a brave heart. That is why I gave you the name Braveheart.
I learned so much from you, my sweet boy. You taught me that it was possible to remain joyful and to love, despite all the bitterness the world throws. Those 3 years I got to spend with you were the most beautiful years of my life. Some may say that you were "only a dog", but you were my bestfriend. You are my bestfriend.
I wish I could have been able to spend more time with you, but those harsh years you spent in that puppy mill took their toll. You had a heart problem which we were managing, but the dementia is what took you away from me. Mom and I tried everything. We tried every possible medication we could find, as well as every natural remedy we could find; however, nothing could reverse the fading of your mind.
Do you remember what I told you that day I adopted you? I told you that I would never again let you suffer the way that you had suffered in that puppy mill. Unfortunately, I had to keep true to my word; for you. You were suffering so bad with that dementia, and I knew it was time. My heart still skips a beat, and it is still hard for me to catch my breath when I remember that day on March 3rd that I had to let you go. When you passed, I felt your spirit brush against my face as you traveled to Heaven. Some people call me crazy when I tell them that story, but I know what I felt.
In the Bible, it talks about how we will get rewards for the things we have done right in our life here on Earth. If the only reward that I ever got in Heaven was to spend the rest of my heavenly eternity with you, Jesus, my family, Lucy, Mya, Smudgy, and Princess...then that would be enough for me. I don't need gold, I don't need silver; all I need is you in my arms once more...for eternity. I pray to God every night that he would tell you how much I miss you, how much I love you, and to give you a hug and kiss for me. I hope that makes you happy up there in Heaven. I hope you know how much love I have for you. You will never again be a homeless dog suffering in a puppy mill. Never again. You will always be my boy. You will always be MY Braveheart.
You beat this cold and cruel world, my sweet boy. You won. You are so Brave.
I cannot believe that it has been almost one year since I got to see your beautiful face. I am glad that you are now finally healthy and painless up there in Heaven. You deserve it, sweet boy.
I just wanted to type you this letter to let you know how much I love you. I have not forgotten about you, and I never will. One day, as the natural life cycle goes, it will be my time to pass away from this Earth. When I do, I cannot wait to see your beautiful golden fur greet me in Heaven. I cannot wait to pet you again, my sweet and loving boy.
I do not like to talk about you in past tense terms because I know that you still live on; just in a different dimension. You are up there, beyond time and space, running with the animals in Heaven, and spending time with the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.
Thank you for everything you taught me, and thank you for letting me be your person. I am honored, and I feel very blessed that God led me to you.
I love you with my whole soul, my whole strength, my whole heart, and my whole might. What a beautiful creation God made when he made you, Braveheart.
I love you; forever.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!