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My Maya was laid to rest yesterday. She was 11 and was diagnosed with hermangiosarcoma. We had less than a week from diagnoses until she was so ill we had to make that dreaded decision. We are so devastated. My heart is truly broken. I know we made the right decision but I am angry and hurt. Our family feels broken and I don't know what to do to. I loved her more than I thought you could ever love a pet. She was more than that to me. She was my friend, my companion and my devoted side-kick. I hope time passes quickly so my broken heart can adjust to this new reality faster. If we had had more time, we would have more holistic methods. As it was we were barely able to start a regiment of omega3 and low carb diet. I guess Labs and Lab mixes are more susceptible to this type of cancer but I had never heard of it. Now it has claimed the life of my beloved Maya loo. Cancer - 1, broken hearted, left-behind mom - 0.
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I am so sorry for your loss. This grief for animals is beyond anything i have ever known. Again, I am so sorry for your sudden tragic loss.
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I am so sorry to hear that you have lost your darling Maya.My Becky who I lost 3 weeks ago was also my friend, my companion and my devoted side-kick.She followed me everywhere and I am so lost without her.The first few days I was absolutely devastated and I couldn't stop crying. With the help of all the good people here I was able to cope.Now even though the pain is still raw I can get through a day without crying.I know that Becky is now free from pain and is running about again and playing at Rainbow Bridge.I would not wish her back to suffer again.I hope you will slowly begin to feel easier as the days pass. Love and (((hugs))), Margaret
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I am so sorry you have lost your beloved Maya in such tragic and swift manner. Hemangiosarcoma is a dreadful cancer that is so deadly. It usually gives you no time to prepare. The only silver lining in your dark cloud is that your beloved girl is no longer suffering. I lost my beloved little 16 year old terrier, Betsy, to dementia and muscle wasting just four months ago and my heart is still heavy. I know your pain.
The journey of grief you and your family have just embarked upon is fraught with twists and turns, boulders and potholes. You will likely pass through agonizing phases when you will second-guess yourself, maybe even blame yourself, and feel guilty. This is normal grief. We have ALL been there. Please lean on us and we will help you get through this.
Sending prayers and hugs, Melissa Betsy's forever mom
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I am so sorry for your loss of Precious Maya. I lost my little Angel Christopher over 13 months ago and still cry for him every day. I would never have survived this long without all the amazing people on this site who truly understand. We are all here when you need us.
Big Hugs Georgeann and Christopher Forever
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Nine years ago my cat Kitty died at the vet's office from the same thing, I had never heard of it and when I researched it afterward I found out it was not even that common in cats. Kitty had been slowing down recently but I thought it was due to her age. When she starting vomiting and hiding I took her to the vet and after she died I had a necropsy performed so I would know what happen to her. She was only about nine years old, being a stray that we adopted in 1991. Just four weeks ago tonight I had to pts her son Weenie who was sixteen, he also died of cancer. Even though it has been nine years since Kitty passed I still think of her and it will be the same with Weenie. Try to remember the good times you had with Maya and not the way it ended, that is what I have tried to do, although it is not always easy. Mary
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I am so sorry for the loss of your baby, Maya. We are here for you. I will keep you in my prayers. I hope to see you at the candlelight ceremony tonight. Big Hug, Piggy's Mom
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I am so very sorry for your loss of your sweet girl, Maya. How terrible for you to lose her so quickly! What a good parent you are to have had the courage to make such a loving and difficult decision to let her go. I also had to make the same decision for my 11 year old Shih Tzu, Max, back in December. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, although I knew it was the right thing. We just have to try to find comfort in knowing that they are in a beautiful and pain-free place now, restored to health and vitality. It is so hard to go on without them, I know, and the pain at first is so very raw. I hope you will come back and share your feelings and stories of your girl as you are able. This is such a supportive place to come. I will keep you and your Maya in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and healing thoughts, MaxsMom
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I am so sorry about losing Maya so quickly. Losing a beloved family member is so difficult. At times the pain seems unbearable. I lost my beloved Barkley almost six weeks ago. I have some good days and some days that I felt like she left our lives yesterday.
Again, I am so sorry for loss. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Barkley's Mommy
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Our prayers are with you.
We will include Maya in our future candle light names list. In Sofies memory Barry and Susan.
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I'm so very sorry for your loss of Maya. I know how devastating it is, first to get the "news" of a cancer diagnosis, and then to have to deal with the decisions to make. I went through that with my girl, Molly, although I had her much longer than anyone could have anticipated, for which I am forever grateful. You made a loving and compassionate decision to free Maya from the pain, even though it breaks your heart. I hope that time will heal the raw wound of this loss, although, like Georgeann, I am not sure that time can ever heal the heartbreak completely.
My thoughts and prayers are with you during these days without Maya. Please try to remember that she is with you forever, in spirit. Nothing can take that away ever...
And when someone asks you, “Where has Molly gone?” you will tell them “Right here, right now, Molly is in my body and in my soul, she is in the pupils of my eyes,
she is in the dance of the seasons, the rhythm of the days.”
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Dear Maya's Mom,
I'm so very sorry you lost your precious girl, Maya. Getting a diagnosis of cancer is a shock, and no doubt you were still reeling when you had to make the agonizing decision to let her go - I am so sad for you. I too felt so angry and hurt when my husband and I had to let our boy, Grunt go - his illness spanned many months, but I still had hoped there was something more we could do for him, more time. We loved our babies so much we could no longer allow them to suffer. I keep you and your family in my thoughts, and send you my deepest sympathy, Katharine, Grunt's Mom Forever
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I'm so sorry that you lost your beloved Maya Loo. It must be especially terrible to loose her so quickly. I've read of so many people here that have lost their babies to this particularly awful form of cancer. We lost our golden, Golda just over a year now. It still really hurts to be without him. I remember how terrible it was the first weeks and months. Please know that you're in my thoughts and prayers at this most painful times. Huge hugs, Golda's mom
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I am so sorry for your loss. We lost our yorkie, Maxie, to cancer also. It is so hard to be without them. I hope that you find a way to handle your grief. It has been really hard for me. This Thursday, May 7th will be two weeks.
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Many thanks for the kind words of support, condolences and prayers. It saddens me to know that so many of you know how I feel because you have walked in my shoes. Maya was a wonderful, beautiful dog who filled a room when she was in it. My house seems dim now that she is gone. But that is how I know I will find her again, I will just follow her light!
The Candle Ceremony last night gave me hope for feeling better. Knowing so many people shared the same emotions I do, cared the way I do, made a difference. The faith of all that attended last night filled me with confidence that my Maya Loo was safe and and would be waiting for me upon my exit from this world. But it also made me realize that I still have an obligation to my other dog Cisco. Cisco is 12 and needs to see a vet for a check-up. But what happened with Maya has broken my confidence that her vet could be trusted with Cisco. I felt that they had misdiagnosed Maya since I had been taking her there for months and the diagnoses was always infection due to allergies. I removed all the records for all my pets today from that practice (including Maya's) and found that I had cause. Maya's blood work going back one year was abnormal. In fact, indications that she could have neoplasia were present one year ago and I was never told. How's that for a kick in the gut! So, we have an appointment to take Cisco to a holistic veterinary hospital next week. I will insist on seeing all exam results from now on. I will insist on receiving copies and I will compare them. I will question their findings and recommendations and I will always follow up on any sickness 2 weeks later with new lab work. And as for me and my family, we will attend the candle ceremony next week as well. My Maya's name will be on the bridge list and I will have her ashes home by then. I bought her a special candle that I plan to light every year. Maya was my one and only dog-companion/friend/soul-mate. Forever in my heart, forever in my soul.
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My animals aren't "pets" either, they're more than that--like kids with fur. It's awful hard, I know what you're feeling.
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Today is my mother's birthday. Cancer took her life 4 years ago. She died of the aggressive lung cancer, the one that is inoperable. She died one year after diagnosis. She was my best friend. When she died, Maya was the one that comforted me. Maya filled the space caused by the absence and became more than just my canine best friend, but my source of solace and comfort. Now Maya has joined my mother. The skies here are still gray and I feel as if I will be swallowed whole by this grief. I woke up this morning like in days gone by, thinking to myself, "Hurry up and get up, Maya needs to go potty and eat," because she always woke up ravenous and if you weren't quick enough, she would come let you know by letting out big yawns in your face. But she wasn't there and then I remembered what day is was - 5/7, and my heart shattered.
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Oh I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I know you're pain - I've been there. I lost both of my labs last year. Labs are such special creatures aren't they? They have an amazing ability to reach into you and latch on to your soul. I've never loved an animal as much as my Luna and Gypsy. Luna was only 4 when she died (cancer) in January 2007, but Gypsy made it to 13 (she died in September 2007). I miss them terribly. I'm sure they welcomed your Maya at the bridge with open paws and are playing with her now. Again I'm so sorry - you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs.
Gerlie (Luna & Gypsy's forever mom)
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Dear Maya's mom
I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts to lose one that is so special. Maya sounds like an absolutely wonderful girl. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs, Kate (Gus' mom)
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My heart goes out to you. We had to put down our dear little Pepe today. He was a cockerpoo and was nearly 13 years old. He had very bad arthritis but at the end he could not walk and was dragging his legs behind him. He would often yelp in pain and we knew the time had come.
It is good to have this wonderful site to come to and know there are others who also loved their pets. Take care.
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Gerlie: The picture of Luna and Gypsy is beautiful. One of my many regrets is not getting more pictures of my family. Maya was so black that it was hard to get good pictures of her indoors and hard to keep her still outdoors. I will have to find a picture of her to post.
I read yesterday that 60% of retrievers die from cancer. What a terrible statistic for such beautiful creatures! I do not think any other species has a worse affliction. What has happened to these magnificent companions? I am so sorry for all your losses. You are such wonderful people!