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MusicMagEditor

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I hope no one minds my posts here over the next few days as I prepaire to loose my best friend and nearly 17 year companion my wonderful Wizard Kitty!  A sweet and very handsome boy....

After nearly 17 years with my loving boy Wizard he has gone into Renal Failure and his numbers are too high to prolong his life comfortably  So, the vet told me he isn’t in pain right now, but he’s uncomfortable.  So, they gave me a bag of fluids so I can put a little under his skin every couple of days and a prescription for something so his stomach isn’t upset and told me I should “make a decision within a week.”  So, it appears that I will be having to put my sweet little Wizard, my best friend and companion, to sleep forever within a week.

 

I just got this news yesterday but today he’s thrown up a few times and I am starting to think it may be sooner.  I really don’t want him to go and I hate the fact that I’m putting him to sleep…  But I’d hate it worse thinking or knowing he was in pain.  I know he’ll miss me because it’s obvious how much he loves me.  However, he’ll be with his step sister Putty Tat (1982-1993) and his step brother Merlin (? – 1999) and step brother and bestest kitty friend of his Demon (1989 – 2006).  He’s be in no pain, no more throwing up and illness and he’ll be playing in the spacious sunny, warm meadows forever.  One day, I truly hope to see him and my other kitties again   . 

 

Among The many, many, many other things…  Things I Will Miss…..  Coming home and driving down the driveway to see Wizard in my bedroom window; watching him perk up because he sees my truck, then run to the other window where I park and start meowing to me as I get out of the truck….  Then, as he sees me coming toward to door, jumping from the window and run over to the door to greet me!

 

Also, I’ll miss the companionship of him sitting in my lap while I work on the computer or laying on my bed as I read or work on the computer.  Then, of course, there are all the times he’s sleep on my chest or on my legs when I was sleeping and the times he’d come over and start licking my face.   Days I worked around the outside of the house, he’s be in the window chatting with me as I went by and stopped to say hello…  When I came in and laid down, he’s jump on me and start licking me to give me a bath…  it was so cute.

 

Then, of course, there was the “string!”  Just saying the word “string” would get him meowing and wanting to play…  I’d drag it around and he’s chase it, jump after it and have a great time…..   So many more things too….  Just too many to list….. 

 

I love my Wizard, am so saddened knowing he isn’t feeling well and devastated knowing that I’ll be loosing him within a few days….  I LOVE YOU WIZARD!!!

 

Bob

Wizard’s Dad


I'm REALLY going to miss you Wizard!  Daddy loves you sooooo much!
EmptyNow

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I'm sorry Bob that your baby boy, Wizard, is going into renal failure. I lost my 16-year old love of my life to renal failure on 4/13/08.

I know you will miss your sweet little boy and I can tell you two truly love each other. Please know that your baby will be pain-free and happy at the Rainbow Bridge.

He will always be with you in spirit.

I'll keep you in my prayers as you prepare to deal with this very difficult task.

Big Hug,

Piggy's Mom



JasminesMom

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Dear Bob:

So sorry about your beloved kitty's illness and the decisions you will either have to make on your own, or that will happen without intervention.

There's no easy way to get through this type of situation.  We all here have faced it one way or the other and again it's just so painful.

But what has saved me and countless others is the support and love you will always receive here whenever you need it.  We all treasured our animals and miss them and can relate to one another in all the ways we need to, in our time of despair and sadness.

Take good care.  Sending my thoughts your way and hoping you will continue to come here and post.

                            Hugs to you both, JasminesMom (Kathy)

MrMeowgy

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Of course no one minds. We want you to post about your beloved Wizard. We want to help you in anyway we can to get through this horrrible time. My beloved Mr. Meowgy went very suddenly 11 weeks ago today. I had no idea. He had diabetes so I figured I would have time to prepare, that the diabetes would take him little by little. He had a heart attack, maybe two and that was it. I was in shock, may still be in shock. I can only imagine the pain and sorrow you are feeling knowing what is happening. Please know you and your baby Wizard are in my thoughts and prayers. Please come back to this site. The people here are wonderful and many have gone through the same situation. They will bring you comfort. Believe me. I lit a candle last night for you and Wizard. Love him to pieces and savor every moment.. Donna, Mr. Meowgy

mykittygirl

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Dear Bob,

I'm so sorry..my heart breaks for you because I know the pain so intimately.
Your Wizard is a handsome and amazing boy.  That love between you doesn't die and when your love sets him free from his broken body you will be releasing his beautiful spirit.

There's a saying on this site...

"I am sending you on a journey free from pain not because I don't love you but because I love you too much to force you to stay"

Spend your precious moments with him..he knows how much you love him but tell him how important he is to you. 

Your pain will be enormous and this is the place to come.  Again..I'm so sorry...this is the absolute hell about life.

Many hugs,

Donna


                                 

                                         
PJHawkeye

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Hi Bob,
I too just recently lost my kitty Hawkeye to renal failure on March 19. Your story with Wizard sounds almost exactly like what happened with me and my baby boy.
We too had a week together before his appointment and by the time those 7 days were up, he was ready to go and I too was ready to let him go as I couldn't stand to let him go on the way he was. Not eating, not able to get around without falling over or down, sleeping all the time, still trying to be a good boy and get to his litter box....watching him get worse and worse every day was just heartbreaking. I gave him as much love as I could in those last days and took photos every single day of just him and of us together. I lost my PJ very unexpectedly and had no time to say goodbye to her, with Hawkeye I did and I'm so grateful for those last days. It was time to let him go be free and to be with PJ and I know it was the right decision. As hard as it was to let him go, I knew I had to do it for him, it was the right thing to do.
I hope you take these last days to give all the love that you can to Wizard and do whatever you can for him to have his last days happy ones. Let him eat what he wants, give him treats, let him do things he'd enjoy. My last day with Hawkeye I will never forget, I spent the night before downstairs with him, he in his bed beside the couch. That morning I brought him up to my chest and we just layed there together for a few hours, he sleeping, me just watching him and talking to him. When he was younger, I used to put him on a leash outside and he LOVED it outside! He hadn't gone out for years but, on this day, we went outside and I let him walk in the grass and got some photos. We also just sat outside in the sun for quite a while. It was just a perfect day for us. One that I hope he will always remember too. Now he has gone on to meet up with his beloved PJ and they will be forever together. I can't wait to see them again one day at the Bridge.

God bless you Bob, I've been in your shoes and know exactly how you're feeling. My thoughts and prayers are with you today and in the days ahead.
Sending love from PJ and Hawkeye's mommy
Diane
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Bob, I posted below to your other thread and then saw this new message. I am so so sorry about Wizard, he is such a beautfiul boy.  Take one day at a time. See if the vomitting continues, see if you can get him to eat something bland and keep him hydrated with the fluids they gave you. Yes it is so very hard trying to decide when do make the decision because you keep questiononing yourself shoud I or shouldn't I.  Yes you don't want to see your sweet guy suffering and just keep a close watch on him.  It is sometimes very hard to know when they are suffering because they try to hide it from us because in the animal world it is a sign of weakness and they would become prey in the wild. Just spend as much time with him now as you can, lots of pictures, hugs, love and words you want to tell him.  Look into his eyes and he might just tell you when he has had enough. If not you just use your best judgement and do what is best for Wizard, even though it is not necessarily the best for you, as a furdaddy you need to put him first as I am sure you have always in the past.  My prayers are with you my friend. You post here whenever and as often as you need to. We are here and we share this pain with you.

Karen

MusicMagEditor

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Diane, thank you so much for the idea.  I found my first cat's leash (from Putty Tat who passed in 1993) and took wizard out for a walk today on the lawn.  He went out the forst time last year and seemed to enjoy it.  So, your idea was great!  I put the leash on him and let him stroll all over the yard.

He usually loves to eag grass, and he tried chewing some today, but he just couldn't.  I bought him some Sara Lee Oven Roasted Turkey Breast though as he loves that.  He doesn't have an appitite now though and only eats a little tiny bit of it.  Sometimes it kinda falls out of his mouth and he looses interest.  But he seems to enjoy what he gets.

I had to give him his first fluids today and it was hard...  Jabbing under his fur with at big needle...  He didn't even flinch or meow!  He stood there but, I think, the IV bad was cool and the fluid going into him was cold and he didn't like the feel of it.  So, he started pulling away.  Plus, there was getting to be a big hump on his neck and I thought I was doing it wrong so I removed it.  He only got about 20-25% of what I was supposed to give him.  I hate to have to jab him with the needle and do it again.  So, Im going to see how he does today and maybe wait until tomorrow before giving him more fluid.

Taking him out for the walk in the sun on the lawn...  It was great!  Wizzy loved it!  He was all nervous explore mode!  Ears up, next out and cautions steps forward with occassional stops the smell things or try to check on a little grass.  We walk all the way across the font lawn, then around the side and back to the front.  Then he walked down by the driveway and strolled along the top of the Railroad Tie wal for about 75 feet!  He was enjoying himself.

I didn't want to overdo and I forgot my camera so I brought him in.  Hopfully I can bring him out again tomorrow and get some pictures.

I love Wizard so much and will miss him soo bad!  I know he loves me and doesn't want to leave, so he's trying.  That is making it harder for me to put him to sleep.  But, I don't want to see him get worse.  If he is for sure dieing, I want him to have some really fun days, get out and about and then put him to sleep so he passes happy.  It's so DAMN hard though!

Bob
MusicMagEditor

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Diane, thank you so much for the idea.  I found my first cat's leash (from Putty Tat who passed in 1993) and took wizard out for a walk today on the lawn.  He went out the forst time last year and seemed to enjoy it.  So, your idea was great!  I put the leash on him and let him stroll all over the yard.

He usually loves to eag grass, and he tried chewing some today, but he just couldn't.  I bought him some Sara Lee Oven Roasted Turkey Breast though as he loves that.  He doesn't have an appitite now though and only eats a little tiny bit of it.  Sometimes it kinda falls out of his mouth and he looses interest.  But he seems to enjoy what he gets.

I had to give him his first fluids today and it was hard...  Jabbing under his fur with at big needle...  He didn't even flinch or meow!  He stood there but, I think, the IV bad was cool and the fluid going into him was cold and he didn't like the feel of it.  So, he started pulling away.  Plus, there was getting to be a big hump on his neck and I thought I was doing it wrong so I removed it.  He only got about 20-25% of what I was supposed to give him.  I hate to have to jab him with the needle and do it again.  So, Im going to see how he does today and maybe wait until tomorrow before giving him more fluid.

Taking him out for the walk in the sun on the lawn...  It was great!  Wizzy loved it!  He was all nervous explore mode!  Ears up, next out and cautions steps forward with occassional stops the smell things or try to check on a little grass.  We walk all the way across the font lawn, then around the side and back to the front.  Then he walked down by the driveway and strolled along the top of the Railroad Tie wal for about 75 feet!  He was enjoying himself.

I didn't want to overdo and I forgot my camera so I brought him in.  Hopfully I can bring him out again tomorrow and get some pictures.

I love Wizard so much and will miss him soo bad!  I know he loves me and doesn't want to leave, so he's trying.  That is making it harder for me to put him to sleep.  But, I don't want to see him get worse.  If he is for sure dieing, I want him to have some really fun days, get out and about and then put him to sleep so he passes happy.  It's so DAMN hard though!

Bob
Gruntsmomforever

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Dear Bob,

I read your post yesterday, and started to answer but the words just wouldn't come out - I am so sorry that your Beloved Wizard is so ill, and that you are going through this very rough time.  You are doing the best things now for your sweet boy.  I loved reading about your walk together, he really enjoyed it - didn't you just feel so good when you could see that he was loving it?  When my Boxer boy had his last walk, it made my heart feel so good (even though I was dying inside) that he was doing something he really loved - he was so weak, but he wanted to walk with his Dad and me because it was something we enjoyed so much together.

My heart breaks for you - even though you know you have some time, you know what's coming, and you know you must be strong and help your best friend out of his suffering.  I keep you both in my prayers.

Katharine, Grunt's Mom Forever
netwolf

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Bob -
Thank you so much for your response to my post about Harrison.

I am disconsolate for you - and I know there is no amount of sorry that is solace. All I can give is this virtual companionship in shared sorrow.

I do know what you are going through. Not only with this inconsolable loss of my Harry, but also more identifiably, with the loss of Maya - my sweet soulful gorgeous loving 155 pound arctic wolf-hybrid lapdog.

I had to make that unspeakably gut wrenching decision to put her down on Feb 13 2007. Hopeless, unstoppable, bastard ravenous bone cancer. 

I laid down with her on a blanket on the vet floor. Stretched alongside her huge little body, held her head in the crook of my arm, we pressed forehead to forehead.

The departure was very fast and actually peaceful. I could feel her pain slip away. She relaxed into me. She opened her eyes and looked directly into mine. And then she left with a slight puff of a sigh.

No more suffering. I kissed my baby. I held her there for quite a long while.

The vet and her staff were very patient with me, they gave me time - they handled her body with gentle care and respect.

I grieve.
As you do.
Kiss your baby.

~Harrison's mom

TDawg

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Bob,
 
I'm so very sorry about your Wizard. Last May we had to give my sweet Nikki sub q fluids because her kidneys were to starting to fail. My Nikki had lymphoma cancer. She was prescribed 2 different meds for her cancer treatment. What my husband would do with the bag of fluid so it would not be so cold was put just the bag in the sink with luke warm water. We did this for about 1.5 months before it quit helping Nikki with her and her eating. The last 2 weeks of her precious life on Earth she would hardly touch food, maybe some juice from wet food. She got so skinny towards the end that I think she had a stroke. We were not home when this happened and to this day i feel so guilty for not being there for her. So on June 26th,2007 at the age of 16yrs.+4mos we had to put her to sleep. This was such a hard decision for me but we both knew she was not getting any better. I miss her so very much that my heart still aches for her. When Nikki went to the Rainbow Bridge i feel like a part of me died with her, the tears are now falling down my face just writing this to you. Give your Wizard as much love and hugs and kisses as much as you can. I know how you are feeling. To this day it still sometimes feels like it was just yesterday that she left this place called "Earth". My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Wizard. Let me know how Wizard is doing... Lots of ((((((((((((((BOB&WIZARD)))))))))))))))))))). I'm thinking of you my friend. Again I'm so so very sorry about WIZARD.
 
Take care,
((((hugs))))
Terri(UWHusky-NikkisMom)

Nikki MOMMY MISSES YOU SO VERY MUCH. Until we meet again on the Rainbow Bridge. I LOVE YOU MY ANGEL.
 
WooWooWoo

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Dear Bob,

My heart was breaking for you as I read your post about your beloved boy, Wizard.  There is just no way to prepare to say farewell to someone who has been a devoted companion for so many years.   He is a part of your heart and your mind.

Four months ago, I had to make the gut-wrenching and painful decision to have my beloved little 16 year old terrier, Betsy Noodle, put to sleep.  She was in the last stages of dementia and was starting to fall when she walked due to muscle weakness.  But, she was still eating like a horse when I hand-fed her at her bowl.   She was the light of my life.  "WooWooWoo" was her the joyful little yodel that was silenced by the dementia.  On her last day, my husband lovingly and carefully bathed her little body and we fed her roasted chicken and hamburger meat, her favorites.   Then we made that last trip to the vet's.   It was the worst day of my life.  But, I had to put her needs before my own and let her go with the angels. 

I just read your post about Wizard acting uncomfortable when you injected the subQ fluids without warming them first.  Did the vet explain that you should warm the fluids first (I am in human medicine so I am familiar with these procedures)?   I found this on a reputable site and thought it might help you and him:

Warm the subcutaneous fluids by first putting the bag in a container of warm (not hot) tap water. Since room temperature (at around 72 degrees Fahrenheit) is 30 degrees colder than a cat's normal body temperature, warmed fluids will feel much better to the patient.

My thoughts and prayers are with you as you face this tragedy.   There is just no way for me to make it any less painful for you.   Just remember how much you love Wizard and how you are giving him his angel wings.   He loves you so and deserves no less.   God bless you and Wizard.

Please let us know how you are doing.  We will be here for you.

Sending hugs,
Melissa
Betsy's forever mom 

       My Beloved Girl, Betsy Noodle
             Forever in my Heart
             Always on My Mind 

Loudpurring

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Sorry, I got on this late.
 
You absolutely MUST give him his fluids. He will not be comforable with out them. None of this Oh, I gave 25% of what he is supposed to have" You have to give him all of the fluids. You see what is happening is that his kineys are not working. Therefore his kidneys are not doing their job in keeping him hydrated. He is dieing from the toxic buildup that his kidneys cannot filter out and from dehydration. The only hing that can offer him some relief is the fluids. Not some but all of them you are supposed to give. Do not give more, do not give less. It is so important. I can't stress it enough.
To make the fluid giving less hard on both of you:
 
Make sure you are useing 20 gage needles. if they have given you 18 gage it is okay for now, but get 20 gage as soon as you can. I am the only one that feels this way, but the 18 gage is to big a needle. It has to hurt some. I feel the 20 gage works just fine. Before you are ready to give the fluids fil up the sink, or a bowl with warm water. A little warmer than you would use for a shower. You can always use a digital thermometor to measure the temp of the water. Turn the fluid bag with the dripsystem in place upside down so the part where the drip set goes into the bag is up and place th bag part only into the warm water. 100degrees for the water is fine. Let the bag sit there for about 5 minutes, till the water starts to cool. Now take the bag out of the water, shake the bag up very well so there are no hot pockets in the fluids, dry it off with paper towels and turn it back upside down again so the drip set is on the bottom of the bag. hang the bag as high as you can on the to pf a door is fine there is a little loop in the top of the bag and you can get an over the door hanger and hook the fluid bag on that. open the valve the little roller and let the fluids run for about 30 seconds to a minute so as to clear the fluid drip set line. Test the fluids on your skin so as to determine that they are not to hot. To cold is better thn to hot s you can burn them. Place a new needle on the drip set an run the line again for a couple of seconds. With a sharpie draw a line on the fluid bag for your starting point draw another line where you should stop. get a towel and your kitty. Sit on the floor with the kitty. Let gravity do the work . The further from the fluids the kitty is the faster they run. Also make sure there is no air in the line. The fluid temp should feel comfortable to you. Never hot. when you place the needle keep the bevel up and insert it in the skin above the shoulder blades pointing away from the head in a lateral position. To do this  pick up the skin above the shoulders so there will be a little triangle of skin between your index and thumb fingers you insert the needle bevel up and lateral into that triangle of skin. hold it there about 30 seconds you will feel the buble of fluid under the skin start. If you are placed lateral and paralell to the back the needle will never be pointing towards anything other than that triangle of skin. After the buble is large enough in about 3 minutes you can rlax a bit and you dont have to hold the skin up any more. Pet your cat at this time and talk to him. if he likes catnip you can try that too. it hould not take more than 5 minutes depending on how much you give and keep watching the bag so you dont give to much. That could cause heart failure in extreem cases. When you are done pull the needle out and put on a new needle and either leave the bag there or store it on a coat hanger in the closet in the same fasion that it is hanging.
Good luck
katndogs

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Mornin' Bob, Hope you and the Wiz had a good night! Thank you for your reply on my post for Karma and Kidneys . . I replied to you THERE just now.
Praying for ALL of us owned by Cats and Dogs,
Katherine
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