Registered: 1598575857 Posts: 1
Yesterday I had to make the decision to put my 6 year old German Shepard mix to sleep. He was in kidney failure and the vet said he would continue to decline. The guilt I feel for making this decision has been unbearable. I had a bond with this dog that j have never had with any animal before. I recently lost both my dad and gram unexpectedly in a 6 month period and he was what helped me to get through that loss. He taught me to love unconditionally, to smile again, to laugh and to play, he slept with me every night and was my routine. He was my child and now I am all alone. I feel so empty without him. I have his favorite dog in bed still where he left it and his dog collar. I cannot pic up his ashes or lay prints for 2 weeks. How do I get rid of this guilt. Will it ever feel normal again without him? None of my family or friends understands how much my heart is broken and his sad I am. I see his dog hair in my car and j can’t get rid of it. I can’t even imagine every having another dog- I look at his pictures on my phone and it does comfort me but also makes me sad... how does one survive this heart ache?
Registered: 1595506920 Posts: 14
You survive it moment by moment, day by day and over time the heart does heal. It takes time, sometimes an uncomfortable amount of time because we want the pain to stop. It takes as long as it takes. You loved your pup and made a decision out of pure love for him so he wouldn’t suffer. We all want the pups to go naturally where they fall asleep and not wake up...a peaceful way to go, but unfortunately most don’t go this way. You made certain your beloved baby went peacefully and that took courage. Grieving is a natural response to the love you had. Don’t let people make you feel you need to get over it...you will but in your time not theirs
Registered: 1208639458 Posts: 115
So sorry for the loss of your loved best friend.it even hurts more when we have to end their pain putting them to sleep.I just put my 17 yr old pug to sleep who was in failing health but I feel the guilt like you.But our loved pets werent gonna get better and to end their pain we have to free them and not let them suffer they don’t deserve to suffer just because we want them here with us.It gets better in time think of the good times and how much love you two shared.Take your time you will grieve but remember you gave him a great life and he is a lucky dog he had you to love.take care