Registered: 1590361965 Posts: 2
My best friend of 11 years, Bella, a Bijon/ Shih Tzu mix, suddenly passed away last night. We came home to find her limp and barely able to breathe. We took her to the animal hospital to find out that she has hemangiocarcinoma, a very malignant cancer that had metastasized through her body. One of the tumors had burst and caused her to bleed internally. They gave us the option of a $10,000 surgery to go in and try to stop the bleeding, with no guarantees of success. If the surgery had succeeded, she would have needed chemotherapy to be guaranteed 4 months at the most. We made the very difficult decision to put her down. We did not want her to suffer post-surgery, and sure as hell did not want to put her through chemotherapy just for a shot a 4 more months. I am completely devastated, as is my entire family. She was one of a kind, the most caring and loving dog ever. We never considered her a dog due to her eerily human-like behaviors, she was the center of our world at home and we were the center of hers. I have no regrets, we gave her the best life she could possibly have had and I made it a point to tell her how much I loved her and how much she meant to me on a weekly basis. I couldn’t fathom losing her so soon, and I am still in denial that she is gone. I am completely devastated and would do anything just for a few more days with her. The suddenness of the incident left us with only a couple hours to say our final goodbyes. I will never forget her, and she brought so many joyous memories to my life. I love her beyond words can describe, I am just having a very tough time accepting that she is gone. I would very much appreciate advice from anyone who has been through a similar situation. I miss her so much already, and am heart broken.
Registered: 1589111874 Posts: 12
I have been through almost the exact same thing as you. Hurley became limp and was having trouble breathing out of nowhere one morning three weeks ago, the vet suspected poisoning but in the end thought it was a stomach ulcer causing internal bleeding. He went down hill quite quickly and I made the decision to euthanise. He was 10 and was my best friend. It’s been two weeks since he left. It is absolutely heartbreaking and although I can’t help you to feel better, I can say time slowly heals. Take it day by day, cry when you need to, go for walks to clear your head, just try to keep busy. In saying that I think it’s important to take moments to stop and remember them and the good times. I really believe that they stay with us after they are gone, look out for the signs and I hope that it brings a smile to your face. Take care
Registered: 1590361965 Posts: 2
Sophie, thank you for the advice, it is very much appreciated and it makes me feel better knowing I am not alone in what I am going through right now. I am so sorry to hear about Hurley, I hope that you can also get through this tough time, I send my condolences and best wishes. In the end, we get dogs to give them everything we can, and they reciprocate the same. It brings me peace knowing that she isn’t in pain now, and that she had the best 11 years a dog could have.