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I lost my best friend Bentley yesterday. It makes me break down to even type this but I have to say it, because I can't accept our time is over together. He was only 4 and got hit by a car in front of our house. I was 1 day from finishing his fence and my guilt is unbearable. I watched it happen and can't get the image out of my head. I loved him more than anything and feel like this pain will never fade. Even looking at my second dog Piper kills me because they were best friends.
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I think the way Bentley died is a big factor too. And I am so terribly sorry this has happened.
You clearly loved him dearly, you were even working on a fence for him. - Stephanie
Registered: 1587134571 Posts: 28
I'm so sorry . That is so traumatic. I don't know if there's one person on this board that hasn't felt guilt. I know I went over my Tiger's passing over and over. It's like I'm trying to find myself guilty. When in your case it was an accident- I'm so sorry.
Registered: 1587136122 Posts: 5
I am so so sorry about
Bentley. It was definitely not your fault, you clearly love him very much. Give Piper extra hugs and love. You can comfort each other. The pain may never go away completely, but it will fade. Believe me. It doesn't feel like it right now, I know. Right now I am on a merry-go-round of emotions every day since the loss of my Yoli on Monday. I go through sadness, anger, love, happiness, guilt, devastation, hope, despair, denial, anxiety, and confusion all in a day... sometimes in a matter of minutes. I cry uncontrollably. I stare for hours at the wall. I sleep. I watch way too much TV. I read through posts on this forum. I try to reach out to others. We are all stuck inside because of this covid thing, so there is not even anywhere to go for distraction. It will get better. I have lost other dogs and it felt like my world was ending. I'm still here. I wouldn't have traded my life with them for anything else. I treasure the time we were given to spend together.