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I am in so much pain as, my gently giant, a newfy, died yesterday. Her legs did not want to work anymore. She was 11yo. She had been in serious pain for the last couple of weeks. Finally on Saturday, during the night, we heard her cry and call us. We came down, and slept the rest of night with her. I knew it was the last night. In the morning, we gave her her favorite treat, and we took her to the Dr. She passed away at 10am in my arms. She was my soul-mate. I miss her terribly. I has been very difficult for me to be in the house without bursting into tears. My whole body hurts with pain. It is like someone took a piece of my heart. I know it's a process and I have to go through it. For all you who have posted, I now understand your pain. She was my first dog. She was incredible. Thank you for reading my post. Martial in CA.
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Dear Martial, Your bond with your beautiful girl will never be broken. Though they are not with us in body they are with us in spirit and the bond that formed while we were lucky enough to have them here will never end. When we let them fun free we give them the final gift of love. A gift from pain and suffering. The gift of freedom to run ahead and be happy as they wait for us to join them one day. They take a piece of our heart with them but they leave behind a piece of their heart with us. I know just how you feel now because I like many here had to give that gift to one I love with all my heart over 3 years ago. My Golden angel was my guide dog for nearly 12 years and was 13 years and 5 months old when we both knew it was his time to leave. Like you I held him and was there with him at the end. I know that he will run to my waiting arms one day just like your girl will run to yours. May you find the comfort and support you need here and may there be peace in knowing that your baby is now happy and watching over you from Rainbow Bridge as your guardian angel. Love and Peace, AurichWolf Kathy THE FINAL GIFT OF LOVE Through our time together we made so many memories. Long walks in Summer sun and Autumn's gentle breeze. Watching from the window Springtime rain and Winter's falling snow. We never thought about the time that I might have to go. Through healthy years of playful days and all the joy we shared. Your loving touch in final days would show how much you cared. You gave your strength when mine was gone and I tried so hard to stay. Then came the time you understood I had to go away. For I had given all there was and so had you my friend. We looked into EACH others eyes and knew my time was at it's end. You gave the gift of dignity as you sadly let me go. As my eyes closed for that final time your tears began to flow. Fear not my friend for I am well and happy waiting hear. My love for you has not gone away for that please have no fear. I dwell now at the rainbow's end and this is where I'll be. One day I'll run into arms when it's your time to come to me ©~ AurichWolf aka Katie~2008~
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Dear Martial, I'm so sorry for your loss. It is so difficult to let go a fur-friend that has been with you for so many years. I know how you feel, for me, is almost a month since my baby Jessie is gone. And I still cannot believe it. I cry because I miss her so much. You think of those happy memories together and then you realize that the house is empty, is so heart-breaking. I hope that with time your pain will ease and that you might feel better knowing that you baby is now happy and healthy on the Rainbow Bridge. Diana, Jessie's mom. My Jessie, I miss you so much!!!
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Hi. It hasn't yet been a full day since we went thru a similar experience, so believe me, we hear you and understand your pain and wish something could be done. It is a living nightmare. One day they are here and the next they are not, and things seem to happen fast, a little too fast, no time to think it through, it just happens, and my heart goes out to you for what happened. I wish we could all do more than just tell you that we understand. But we actually share the pain of people who post this kind of thing and those of us who have been there, and there are plenty here on this board, we do know how it feels. It doesn't lessen your pain any, but at least you know there are people who do care about your pain and your situation. Our hearts go out to you today and forever.
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Martial: I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my Sam about one month ago. Time does help to heal - but it does take time. I teared up when I read your post - and Aurich wolf's poem ! Oh wow! I too cried everytime I came home and no Sam to greet me - even if she was getting old, and I had to greet her in her old age - she couldn't hear me come in the house any more. She was 12 years old and with me for 10 years. My heart still aches for her -
You did what you did for your dog out of love and it took tremendous strength and generosity of spirit to do for your pet what you knew you must do. Selfishly, we want to keep them with us forever - but we know we must do what is right for them. Your newfie will be in your heart with you forever - and as time passes, you'll be able to smile and think of your buddy without crying so hard. It's a testament of our connection with them and our loving bond to be so empty when they are gone. You've found this website whose people will be a great comfort to you -we've all experienced the hurt and loss. You're in my thoughts - take care. HUGS!!!! Ann (Sammy's Mom)
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You've just suffered an enormous loss and now the pain of grief will only just begin. I'm sorry you lost your sweet dog. I know how you're feeling..like your heart has been wrenched out and your life has lost meaning. It's unbearable when they leave us. And it's the price we pay for such a priceless companion who always saw us as the most wonderful thing in their life.
That beautiful spirit did not die and she will be waiting for you and watching over you. She'll be at the Bridge with all our precious ones and forever with you.
Sending big hugs,
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I lost my gentle giant 7 years ago, and I will never forget her. She was a Shepherd/Leonburger. Leonburger were bred from Newfoundlands and St Bernards. She had many of the traits of a newfy, she was my darling, my angel. I adopted her at just over 3 years old, and my vet warned me at the time, that the bigger breeds rarely live into double figures. I lost her when she was 11 and a half years old. I feel that I was so lucky that she lived that long. Unfortunately, however long we have our babies, it is never long enough, we never want to let them go. You held your darling in your arms as she passed, as I did mine. She felt the love and knew that you were helping her. I am so sorry for your loss. When you feel up to it, I would love to see a photo of her. I am thinking of you. I hope that she has met my Sorcha. She loved big dogs, but rarely met any. She loved playing, but was often too big and clumsy for smaller dogs. I am so, so sorry. Much Love Di xxx
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I am so sorry that you lost your precious baby. I lost the love of my life on March 3. His legs didn't want to work anymore either. I KNOW what you went through, and I UNDERSTAND how hard it is to watch them get to the point where they can no longer walk or play. It is just horrible and heartbreaking, and there is nothing we can do to help them. The fact that we can't help them, no matter how hard we try, is one of the worst things about the whole situation. You just watch them go before your eyes and you are powerless to stop it. My heart and my prayers are with you. Steffi Dakotah's Mom
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I'm so sorry, my heart breaks for you and your loss. Newfies are such beautiful teddybears. They have such huge hearts. It is just not fair that they have such short life cycles. I know that your baby treasures that you spent that last night with him. She takes all the love and memories that you've shared thru the years with her to the bridge. She knows what a hard sacrifice you made to help free her body of pain. It is so difficult the first few days, weeks and months. I'd love to hear more about your special baby. Please tell us about her when you can. Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers. Huge hugs, Golda's mom
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I am SO sorry for your loss. I know what you must be going through today. It will be 2 weeks tomorrow that I lost my first dog...Sparky. Like your baby, he was my soulmate and the emptiness is unbearable. Please try and take some comfort in knowing that she is now in a beautiful place watching over you. You are in my thoughts. SparkysDad (David)
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Thank you so much for all your responses. They are comforting. There is strengh in numbers (I guess I never associated such saying with the pain of losing a companion). My heart also goes out to all of you who lost a dear one. My newfy, Nimes, enriched my life for 11 years. A piece of me left with her. I will be getting her ashes back in 10 days -- hard times are still ahead for me, but with this community's support I will get through it. You, all, have already helped tremendously (I know, somehow, my gentle giant guided me to this forum/website).
Thank you so much. Martial
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I am so very sorry you have lost your beloved companion Newfy, Nimes. It sounds like you and she share a bond that it so deep it will never be broken. I know your heart is aching so intensely right now. I know that pain so well. I lost my beloved little 16 year old terrier, Betsy, three months ago and my heart is still so heavy. Just like your Nimes, my little girl's legs stopped working. She suffered dementia and grew progressively weaker. The dementia also silenced her joyful "WooWooWoo" yodel.
I have lit an internet candle for Nimes at AurichWolf's Light a Candle Here thread. It will be under "Nimes" and will burn for 48 hours. The wonderful people on this website have really helped me with my grieving, and I know they can help you as well. Please tell us more about Nimes when you feel up to it. We will be here for you.
Sending hugs, Melissa Betsy's forever mom My Beloved Betsy Noodle, Light of My Life
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Dear Martial – I’m so sorry to hear about your baby, your beloved Nimes. "Gentle Giant . . ." when I read your post, it made me think of our Bernese Mountain dog, Bingo that we sent to the Rainbow Bridge 5 years ago on New Year’s Eve. She too was a gentle giant and she was only 4½ years old when she left us and it broke our hearts. When I think about it now, even though she was with us for such a short time, it was time filled with such love and goofy antics. We held her as she sighed her last breath. I’m grateful, when it was her time, she went peacefully, with us loving her, as you were with your Nimes. They are very smart and they know just how very much we love them. More recently I sent my sweet 21 year old kitty Rusty to the Rainbow Bridge 9 weeks and 4 days ago, and I’m quite sure my heart will never be the same. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts. Rusty’s Mom.
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I AM SO SORRY TO HEAR OF YOUR LOSS....WE LOVE THEM AS OUR CHILDREN AND NOTHING CAN BEGIN TO PREPARE US FOR THEIR PASSING. PLEASE KNOW YOU WILL IN MY THOUGHTS....TANYA, MO'S MOM
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Thank you again for all of your support. Just a note to give you a little update. I got my gentle giant ashes back. In some ways, it was not as hard as imagined and more comforting than I thought. I find confort in having her back with me in the house. Getting her ashes back gave me new strength. I still feel her around the house and miss her terribly. Thank you again.