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Yesterday I lost my poor little 8 month old calico kitten, Polly. She was one of a stray litter that we had taken in and cared for. We found them when they were maybe three or four weeks old. Right off, I knew Polly was mine. She was the sweetest little baby. She kind of split her time being inside and outside. She just loved being outdoors, chasing bugs and leaves around. Yesterday started normal. I let her out for her daily play. She never strayed far, just staying in the yard mostly. But yesterday evening we found her laying in the garage and rushed her to the vet. The vet believed she had been hit by a car. They did all they could but it was just too much. I still can't quit replaying the moment when the vet said she hadn't made it through the surgery. It's only been a day since I lost her, and it hurts so much. I still feel like I could have done something. Like if I hadn't let her out, or if I'd brought her in sooner. I keep thinking of her walking all the way home. I can't seem to stop crying. Everytime I think about her all the pain comes back. I don't even like sleeping because I know as soon as I wake up I'll realize she's still gone. It just doesn't seem like I'll ever get over this.
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I am so sorry Rach. Grieving for animals is just one of the hardest things on earth--the hardest ,I believe. Again, so sorry.
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Dear Rach – I’m so sorry to hear about your sweet little Polly. It’s so hard to lose our babies, no matter how long they’ve been with us. I lost my kitty, my love, my best friend Rusty 10 weeks and 6 days ago. He was 21+ years old and I still can’t believe he’s gone. Even though Polly was with you for such a short time, it was 8 months filled with a of love. lifetime In thought and prayer. Rusty’s Mom.
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I am so sorry that you lost your sweet kitty Polly. I know you are feeling responsible, but it was just a terrible accident. Please don't blame yourself. Little Polly knows how much you love her. She will live in your heart forever. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Kate (Gus' mom)
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I am so sorry that you have lost little Polly. We always blame ourselves for what happens to our babies even if it is not an accident. Your Polly had a lovely life with you, although too short. Unfortunately, cats are adventurers, and unless they are always kept in they are at risk.
2 of my cats died in road accidents, we lived right out in the country in a quiet village, but they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. I blamed myself for ages, but I now know there was nothing I could of done. I am so sorry, thinking of you, Much Love, Di xxx
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I am soooo sorry about the loss of your kitten. That is so sad. I can tell you, the woulda, coulda, shouldas will continue for a week then you will slowly start to recall the great times you had and how much love you felt for your kitty. My 15 year old cat died last week and I cried for 3 day straight, enough to give myself a sinus infection even! I never imagined the pain would go away...and I felt so much guilt too because he died rather suddenly. I beat myself up for days wondering if I did this right, this wrong, did I miss something, I should have been more demanding at the vets office that morning, etc, etc. I still miss my Percy, but life does start to seem normal again. It is so hard when we loose our cats so suddenly and when we know they felt pain. As terrible as it seems, I take some comfort knowing I am not alone....many of us have lost our poor pets a bit traumatically. Grieve your kitty, cry when you need to, it comes in waves but slowly the waves begin to hit with less intensity. Remember something, our little pets loved us so much...they would never want us to feel this bad. They are in a fabulous place right now, while we sit down here mourning. I know they want us to be happy! G.
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I am so sorry about your Polly, I have been where you are, my kitty was older at just over a year, but she was run over on 4th Dec 2006, so I know the pain. I know it will be very hard for a while, but I offer you hope, that things will get better gradually and one day you will be ok again. You will be changed and you will always love and miss your Polly but life will contain some joy for you once more. Polly may send you some new babies to love, as Loki did me (they are inside kitties now though). Lighting a candle for Polly may bring you some peace, she will know you are thinking of her. Also keep an open mind for you may see some signs from your sweet kitty, many here have experienced the peace this brings. Love and healing, Donna
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I am so sorry for the loss. My kitten, too, was hit by a car, and we were told there was no hope trying to save him. It is the hardest thing to grieve for, and you just have to focus on the happy memories. That is what I am trying to do. Blessings and hugs, Heather, Hank's forever mommy
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I am so, so sorry, dear Rach, that you have lost your beloved kitty, Polly, to such a tragic accident. My heart goes out to you. For a while you WILL replay those last awful moments. Unfortunately, this is a normal part of the grieving process. You will also second guess your own actions. We ALL went through this same phase. It
will slowly get better. Reaching out for support can really help a whole lot. You have come to a wonderful site for support. When you feel up to it, please tell us more about your Polly. I promise we will be here for you. You do not have to suffer through this alone. Sending hugs, Melissa Beloved Betsy's forever mommy
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I'm so sorry you lost your sweet little Polly, I have tears thinking of how terrible it was for you to find her. I know how painful the emptiness is. My heart goes out to you. Katharine, Grunt's Mom Forever