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Our 11 year old lab passed unexpected this morning. She was fine, a little arthritis in her hind quarters, but totally fine until Sunday morning, she went downhill so fast and I've got so much guilt over wondering if something was going on that I missed recently. She was at the vet for her shots and stuff back in August. Haven't really slept much since Sunday morning when my husband woke me that something was wrong. Now I regret not taking her 100 miles to an emergency vet but I just didn't think she would make it and with the noises she was making I didn't want to get in an accident. We kept her comfortable and stayed with her all night, I went to get dressed this morning and that was when she passed. I miss her so much, the house is so empty now. She was my baby, she helped me through my mom's death more then my husband and son did. I guess I'm still in the guilt stage of wishing I could have done more. I just don't know what to do right now. I'm sorry if this seems like rambling, I just wish I would have could have done more.
Registered: 1512692286 Posts: 67
I think we all wish we could/should do more. Modern medicine can sometimes make us believe that death can be an option.
I am starting to let go of guilt knowing how we can wake up in the morning feeling great and then by lunch our mouth hurts, and by evening we know we have a full-blown toothache. No matter how we slice it, we were not fine when we woke up. We just did not know how sick we were and how soon we were going to be in pain. It's the same for our friends. 100 miles is a long way to go with a sick big dog. My pit bull had a panic attack in the car last Feb. She was screaming in my ear and trying to jump all over the car. I had to pull over and walk her in an almond orchard to calm her down. I have no idea whose orchard it was, but it was the only thing I could think of. I hope we all find our peace soon. Your dog was loved... and that is important.
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Oh my dearest pet mom,
We all wish we could have done more when it comes to our babies. I to wish I could have done more with Termy, I feel I may have cheated him out of more time by making a decision to let him go. Yes he was over 16 years old but his body was failing him. His heart was in it as was mine but old age is cruel. This way she passed at home, with you by not forcing her on a ride that may have not made a difference. Your not rambling. We all have so many thoughts running through our heads at a time like this. There are so many what ifs and the guilt. It sounds to me as if you were a really great mom and gave her the best life possible. I wish I had the magic words to say to you to make you feel better but sadly I don't. I am coming up on three months and I still cry and miss my boy so very much. Talk to her, she hears you, cry when you feel like it. I understand how you feel about her being there for you when you lost your mom, Termy was there for me when I lost my sister, he to got me through. My husband keeps telling me he's in a better place and isn't suffering but I am. Keep your babies memories in your heart, she'll always be there with you. Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom