I made the tough decision today to let my little Freyja to rest. I feel absolutely devastated.
I remember when I first got her. Ten years ago I was home from FL for the holidays and cleaning out my mom's garage. I kept hearing a faint meowing sound. Looked under my mom's Camaro to my surprise was a tiny kitten. Probably no older than two or three months. She jumped up to me and meowed her little head off. She had been mauled by a dog and was trying to get away. I took her inside and cleaned her up. My mom said she can't keep her because of the two dogs she already had. I said well then I'll take her. She slept near my head all night and in my lap the whole 6 hrs back to FL.
She was my world and went my son was born, she took to him like no other.
A few months ago my wife noticed that Freyja was urinating blood. Not a good sign I took her to the vet. The vet told me that she may or may not have a bladder infection. They give her antibiotics and everything seemed to go back to normal. It wasn't until a few days ago I noticed that Freyja was hiding. ALOT. I found her under my bed and she wouldn't come out for anything. Come to find out she was urinating blood in random places of the house. I took her to the vet this morning to find out that she was Anemic, Liver enzymes over 1000, kidneys were barely functioning and she had Renal.
I asked the doctor to give it to me straight if she can pull through. The doctor said her prognosis is poor. Even with a blood transfusion and other medications there is no guarantees. I wanted to keep her going. I wanted to do everything that I could to save her, but to see my cat that I've loved for over 10 years in so much pain.I couldnt bare it anymore. I put her forehead to my forehead and looked into her yellow eyes to get some sort of assurance that I was making the right decision. She just looked at me like she always does. I couldn't help to feel guilty of signing her life away. No desperate plead, no howling. Just peaceful silence. The doctor administered the drugs and then nodded to me that her heart had stopped. I broke down crying and just held her for seemed like forever. It still doesnt feel real.