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Al_B

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It's been 15 yrs since I was here when my Sam died. Unfortunately I am back here again. My best friend Bear just passed on Monday. He was 14. I'm having a very tough time. I'm feeling the guilt. Over the past few months, I've shown my frustration. I hated seeing him get old and sick. I wanted my young guy back. We got him when he was 8mths old from a local shelter. I saw his picture on petfinder.com and had to see him. They asked if we wanted to see him in the yard. He ran around and ran around. So much energy. Then all of a sudden, he came over to me. I was sitting on a bench and he sat with his back to me, lifted his head backwards and gave me a big wet kiss. That's all it took. So many good times. He made us laugh all of the time. I wish I could relive again and again. Then he had a seizure when he was 12. That changed everything. We did all we could to keep him healthy, warm and loved. He spent the next 2 yrs trying his best but couldn't take it any more. I miss him and can't stop crying. Not sure if this pain will end.
cosesmom

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I am so sorry that Bear has gone to Rainbow Bridge. It seems that you both shared a very beautiful journey together in life. It's hard when you look at you loved one and say "when did your muzzel turn gray and I hadn't noticed the silver on your ears." My Termy was 16 and I had to let him go last September. The pain is still sharp and I miss every thing about him just as you said "I hated seeing him get old and sick" The last couple months were tough on both of us but I wouldn't have traded all the extra care he needed for anything in the world. Sadly life catches up with our babies way before we are ready to let them go. It's a wonderful thing how they pack so much love into such a short time. I think it's because they know that there will come a day when that's all we will have left. Hold onto those memories as I do because they were made with love. I too came here over 17 years ago when I lost my soul mate, Dakota. Then I shared my life with Termy and shared a journey with him and now I am back also. Termy had seizures too. It sounds to me as if Bear was so deeply loved and cherished. Grieve all you need and cry as often as you want to, it helps.
Love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
stronics

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Al B,
I am sorry to hear of your loss. I have had the same heat ache. It just hurts so bad to think we will not see them again. It don't take too much to set me to thinking about him. Today I went to the drive up window at the bank and the lady said "Where's your Buddy today"? I cried all the way home.
David
Always__there

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Hello Al_B...
For the love of an animal, Bear most certainly knew he was loved, as you Both picked each other from the start. Wonderful memories made throughout the years and in the blink of an eye they become seniors and to include my darling chihuahua 16y. Hard to accept the ageing right before our vision.  We do everything in our power to keep them healthy and to no avail. Heartwarming to know that Bear was very much Loved !! Do try to see the span in it's entirety and not the final snap. This is my view. Warm wishes your way..                                                                           Sherry/Perryx
Al_B

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Thank you all for your precious words. I cried reading them. I have been writing a letter to my boy since he left. This morning I wrote that there were replies so I'd better get more tissues. It's like you knew him and the bond we had. One of the things I miss most of all is our early morning walks. It was just us. That's why mornings are so tough right now. But reading your words helps a lot.

I am going to upload a photo of him when it becomes available on the site. I would really like you all to check back here so you can see him. Still can't believe he's gone.
Al_B

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I uploaded 2 photos. Click on my ID in the left corner to see them. One is the first day we brought him home from the shelter. He was so excited. And that's the tongue that closed the deal. And I always wondered what he was thinking in the picture of him lying down in the yard. I'm hoping it was something like "I'm in my forever home. I will give my unconditional love to my mommy and daddy and know I will get it back 1000%". And when I say unconditional love from him, there were some conditions. Daily walks, daily treats, daily kisses and the one that I treasure the most was our Saturday morning rides to go get him a donut. For some reason, he knew when Saturday morning arrived. I wish I could do those conditions with him for the rest of my life. Not getting any easier. Dreading today as a week ago it was our last full day with him. And tomorrow will be the toughest. Hope I have the strength to get through it. Thanks to all for listening and looking at pictures of my boy. He was loved and I miss him a lot.
Emma_Lees_Mom

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Al_B, What sweet pictures of your Bear. From what you have shared, you gave him an amazing life. The story of you picking each other from the shelter is so special. If only they could live to be 100. I hope time eases your pain and your wonderful memories of good times with your Bear take over. Take care.

Emma Lee's mom
Always__there

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Al B.....
Such ''handsome'' photos of Bear !!!... The look of, see all--know all, the look of total devotion shines through, loyalty abounds and wearing his ''Star''. He was and still is the Star of Your Life. Bear lives on* your Heart. We on the Forum understand your despair. Thankyou for sharing.        Sherry/Perryx
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