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missyou19

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Hello Everyone,

My cat, Crissy Ann, passed away Sunday evening, November 3. She was 12 yrs old. What happened was she developed heavy breathing. It started a little bit on Thursday, then on Friday it got progressively worse. On Saturday I took her to the vet. He told me that she had flea anemia. Apparently the flea medicine was not working for her.

The vet gave her a capstar tablet. He gave her a depomedrol injection and also had fluids administered. They also applied Bravecto 3/mo dose to the back of her neck. They told me that the depomedrol would help her breathing. Well, it didn't help much. They also told me that the next 12 hrs. would be critical for her. She made it past the 12 hrs, but she still had difficulty breathing and would not eat or drink water.

I called the emergency vet on call and he told me to try giving her some baby food. I tried that and she wouldn't eat it either. I put some food on my finger and put it in the edge of her mouth and also gave her water with an eye dropper. She fought me on this. I just felt terrible that I couldn't help her at this point.

I knew at this point that she wasn't going to get better. I just kept trying to make her as comfortable at possible. Then, Sunday night she passed.

I just feel so devastated. Crissy was a big cat and she might have had something else going on. The vet didn't do blood work and just said after her fluids she was good to go home. This vet had a grouchy disposition. This was a Saturday morning and he probably wished he was not there. I don't know.

All I know is that my Crissy is gone and I miss her so much. I feel so devastated and feel that it is my fault.

Thank you for listening.

missyou19




missyou19

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Hello,

It has been almost a week now that Crissy passed away. I miss her so much. It seems so strange not seeing her around the house. I think about her constantly.  I remember that cold Christmas Eve when she was on my front porch wanting in my apartment so bad. I brought her in and put a blanket around her and fed her. She gobbled the food down. From that night on she was my little Crissy. I had her for 12 wonderful years.

I got her ashes and paw print today from the Vet's office. I talked with the vet while there and told him  I felt so guilty that Crissy passed. He told me not to feel that way. He said that Crissy was an older cat and that she probably had something else going on. He didn't do blood work the day I had her in there and that might have showed something.  I don't think he thought she was that sick. I remember him saying that with the medication she should start feeling better in a few hours.

Crissy was such a special cat. It is just so hard to know that she is gone. I see her everywhere in the house. I remember all the little things she used to do and she loved us so much. I have lost pets over time. I loved them all very much and felt horrible when they all passed, but with Crissy it is just so hard to take. I just feel that I will never get used to her being gone. I'll be doing something and out of the blue, I will just burst into tears. This just seems like a nightmare and I will wake up and she will still be here.

I realize that she is now in Heaven with God and not suffering anymore. I am thankful for that. Seeing her suffering last weekend tore me up. I know that my other pets have welcomed her at the rainbow bridge.

Fly high little one. You will always have a special place in my heart!

missyou19
lindsayg79

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missyou19,
I feel your pain. I read your posts, and it sounds like me talking. Tomorrow marks a weeks since my dog, Ash, passed. I had him for 5 years. I also feel like I’m living a nightmare. It’s just so unreal. I miss having him outside my bedroom door. I can’t help think that I wouldn’t mind cleaning his accidents in the house a million times, if I could see him again. My life hasn’t been the same. My daily routine has changed, I’m not even sure I’m the same person I was a week ago. I cry like a baby, and at times I feel like kicking and screaming. When I walk around the house or yard, I look around and whisper his name... “Ash, baby boy, (mijito), I love you chiquito.” The pain is almost suffocating. I have promised him and myself that I will never forget him. And I hope that when the day comes, God grants me the wish to meet him once again, so I can call his name and see him wag his tail happily. Missyou19, we share the pain.
missyou19

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Lindsayg79,

Thank you for your post. I am so sorry about the loss of your dog Ash. Yes, they are very precious to us. It has been a week and half now that Crissy Ann passed. I miss her so much. I just can't believe that she is gone. One thing I am grateful for is that I have other cats that are helping me cope. I think that they knew she was sick.

My one cat, Missy Lou's Birthday is today. She is 1 yr old. She slept by Crissy when she was sick so I think she knew.

As you know, it is really hard right now to cope with the loss. I feel your pain as well. I am so thankful for this site where we can express our feelings to people that understand. I have come here before when I lost one of my pets. They have been wonderful. No one really understands unless they have had a pet and it passed away.

I am looking forward to the day that I can see Crissy again. I know she will be waiting for me.

Mommy loves you Crissy Ann

Missyou19
missyou19

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Hello everyone,

I woke up thinking about my Crissy Ann. I just miss her so and can't stop thinking about her. I look around the house and wish she would come up to me like she always did. She followed me everywhere. The house just seems so empty without her. I just have this empty feeling now.

I have been through this with other pets, but it just seems so deep and hurtful this time. I have been depressed since she passed and really have to force myself to accomplish anything. I just feel like I let her down and this was my fault. I just feel so guilty. My feelings are just all over the place.

I have times that I feel better, but then, I just feel worse again. I wonder if I will ever feel happy again. I have other cats and they are helping me cope, but that void is still there. I just want my Crissy back and I know that is not possible.

Crissy I want you to know that Mommy loves and misses you so much. I will never forget you and you will always have a special place in my heart.  

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missyou19

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Thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving, the first holiday without Crissy Ann. It still seems so strange that she isn't here with me. This coming Sunday, it will be 4 weeks since her passing. I just feel like I am in a fog or something. The days just seem to blend together. I know that is takes time to grieve and I do think I am better than at first.

I have been going through pictures of Crissy Ann and I want to do something special. I thought about doing a collage to hang up. I want to put her pictures in a album by themselves too. Whenever I think about her, I still get teary eyed. I still cry now and then too.

One of my other cats, Abby Sue, looks like Crissy Ann. She was laying in Crissy's bed last night. I was going to put the bed up, but I am going to keep it out for Abby. I am so glad I have Abby now. She is a hyper cat--the opposite of Crissy. She used to get on Crissy's nerves. I wonder what she is thinking about Crissy now.

I do believe that having another cat/cats at home when one passes away helps the grieving process a bit. No other pet will ever take the place of Crissy. I think the other cats seem to know I am not myself right now and come around for extra hugs and attention.

I have lost many pets over the years and it has been hard every time to say goodbye. But, It still makes me feel better knowing that I was able to give a cat a good life. There so many cats and dogs out there that need homes and never get one. I know that my pets, that have passed, would want me to give love to another pet like I had given to them.

I miss so much Crissy Ann and although I wish you were here, I know you are in a better place free of pain. You have a special place in my heart and I will never forget you. I will treasure the special memories of you forever.

Love you always
Mommy








lindsayg79

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missyou19,
Like you, this is the first Thanksgiving without my little boy, Ash. This coming Sunday will also mark the fourth week since he passed. It has been a difficult month. Everything reminds me of him, of the time he was here. My grieving process has been very slow. I’m not sure how much of a difference it is from that day to today. I miss him so much. The weather right now is beautiful, and I know he would have been outside enjoying our yard and running around. He was free spirited and didn’t like to be just kept inside. I could tell he enjoyed his life and at times I felt he was proud to be where he was. I would look at him, and I would tell my husband, “ Babe, look at him. He is so (chocante).” That means full of himself. In a very cute way though. I guess he also thought he was like us. The truth is it hurts. It hurts so much, and I’ve been crying every day. I’m not sure what to do. Every time I hear a vehicle outside my house, I look outside thinking I’ll see him. But, that’s not going to happen. I don’t seem to understand that. I don’t want to understand that. I feel like I’m torturing myself, but I just can’t let him go. Dear Ash, if I would of known and completely understood what you were really in my life, I would have cherished every second with you. I feel I took you for granted because I somehow believed I would have you forever. I love you my little boy. You will always be in my heart. Love your mommy, Lindsay.
missyou19

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lindsayg 79

I know that without your precious Ash it is hard to cope. As time goes on we learn to cope, but the feelings of them being gone is still there. The way I am now is that I will feel better at times, then I get that feeling of great sadness again and sometimes cry. 

It takes time to grieve and you just never know how long the worst will be with us. I miss seeing Crissy around the house and find it hard to believe that she is gone. I know that pets have a short life span, but we get used to them being around and hope they never leave us.

If find myself looking at her pictures all the time. I still have that foggy feeling and that seems to help some. Sometimes I feel like I am in a nightmare and when I wake up she will still be here. I feel like I didn't spend enough time with her. I keep thinking that I failed her and there should have been something I could have done to avoid her sickness. Pets are so good at hiding things from us until the end days.

I feel sad that she will not be here for the holidays. I get the pets a special toy at Christmas. I would wrap it up and she would open it. I think what keeps me going is the fact that she is in a better place and not in a pain. She suffered so with her breathing that last few days she was here.


I am thankful for the memories and the pictures. She has that special place in my heart and I will never forget her.

Mommy loves you Crissy Ann                                                                                                     
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