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diane772

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Jackie I am very sorry about the job but I wish you all the luck in the world on your new adventures. Keith it was very good to hear from you. I was witing for warm weather around here and we are getting it now but not that hot thank goodness. Everyone take care, love Diane
Barefoot1

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Jackie. Make sure you let me know when you are flying to Greenville. Make I can meet up with you.
JackieTeller

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Hello All, 

Keith, I'm putting it together now.  Will be in touch.  
 
Jackie

JackieTeller

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Hello to My Friends Bonnie, Diane, Keith and KarmaCat, 

I am having a really hard time today.  I miss my Rosie.  It is pouring down rain outside and I am really depressed.  I had a talk with her but I miss her so much.  I want to be where she is.  She was my life and my little soul mate.  It has not been an easy week and she was always there to give me the strength to carry on.  I can't believe it's been over a year now.  I love you Rosie so so much.  When you died a part of me died and it will never be replaced.  I am very tired of my life right now.  I have no one here in Seattle and my adult children...other than Christmas...have not talked to me in months...decades.  I hate the holidays; they just make me more sad and depressed.  I lay in bed and just want to sleep all the time.

Plus that job.  I so had my hopes up and to have them squashed like a bug and fired because the supervisor was too lazy to train me is so awful.  I am completely demoralized by it.  I took their cheap little severance package because I am too old and tired to fight with a giant corporation.  I can't believe how little I was valued.  

So today I am having a good cry.  I've tried to keep a stiff upper lip but I want my baby back and I want to feel productive and at least, content.  I feel none of those.  Thanks for letting me vent.  Oh Rosie, Rosie, I love you so...I miss you so...to hear your bark one last time...to see you chase a squirrel one last time...and to sit in my lap for a drive...one last time...I would give ANYTHING!

Mama
JackieTeller

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Oh My Rosie!

Since you went away,

I miss you so much every day,

There’s not many days that do go by,

That I don’t just sit and cry,

I love you so, I miss you so,

I know it was your time to go,

But that doesn’t make it any easier,

My tears fill a river for you, my sweet little girl,

You were my rock, my strength, my joy, my world,

Your spirit and mine so intertwined,

It’s so hard to live without you, you were mine!

I look forwards and count the days, when I see you again,

My heart will leap with joy and we will be together in eternity my precious little friend.

 

Mama

diane772

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Jackie please feel better. Lulu is depending on you. I can relate to how you are feeling because I miss Brandy like that but Pearl depends on me. I need to take care of her and love her and she helps me get through the days just as Lulu helps you. You need to take care of yourself so you can take care of her. My heart is with you, Diane
cosesmom

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Jackie,
Please hang in there. I know life can get so over whelming at times but we are here for you as well as Lu Lu. She needs you to be strong. Remember you are all she has and she loves you.
You are the person Rosie knew you are and she knows you will come out fighting. You are not going to let life step on your happiness, Rosie won't allow it.
There are times when all of us here feel as if there is no reason to keep trying but we all step back and remember that there are loved ones pulling for us. Termy, Miss B, Brandy and yes Rosie are our angles watching over us. Keep writing poems to Rosie, I get the feeling that it helps you to cope and I know I really love reading them. They pull at my heart strings.
Please, let us know what we can do to help
Love Bonnie
Barefoot1

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Hello,
Well the heat here is miserable and shows no end. Over 100 everyday. I used to try to keep Miss B inside on days like this but she had to go outside even if for a few minutes. Then she'd come in and lay her belly on the cool floor and be ready to go out soon. The good ole days. Not alot of them anymore just days. Diane how have you been is pearl keeping you on your toes? Glad you have her she will keep you occupied and just the fact that yall probably need each other.
Bonnie hope your doing well. Yep I think it's safe to say that Mr. Terminator is very proud of his mama. You seem to keep going strong even without much moral help. Keep it up young lady.
Bonnie you've got Lulu that needs you just as much as little Rosie still does. Take care of her as you would Rosie. She is her own little self love her that way.
Kcat hope you are ok. Havent heard from you in awhile. Please drop a line e en if it's just to say how your doing. As for me I'm walking Annie almost everyday( past few days just to hot). And feeding her to much. This weekend it will be a year since I got her. She has really grown on me. I didn't want her when she came over but we have both adjusted. And she has grown I got her at 29 pounds now she is probably close to 50. I like to see her happy. Anyway stay in touch friends it makes life bearable. Keith.
cosesmom

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Keith,
Thank you for your kind words. I try to stay strong. there are times when I have a melt downs but no one knows. I grieve alone and cry when no one is around. I only share my hurt with you guys, because you understand. And thank you, all of you.

As I said in my last post, that I would share with you all the nick names I hung on Termy. I think that if we all try to recall all those names we gave our babies, we may smile.

Boo Boo
Boo Boo Snarski
Meat head
Snoot Boy
Sissy Boy
Billy Bad Ass

I'm sure there were more but these are the ones that I used the most.

I hope all of you are doing well. Please write when time allows, I need to hear from all of you.
Love and doggie hugs
Bonnie
JackieTeller

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Hello Everyone, 

One Day At A Time.  My names for Rosie

Rosie Roseanna Danna (remember Gilda Radner from SNL)
Rosebud
The Princess
Rose

Doing better.  Tired.  Will write more later.

Oh for LuLu,

Lulee Lou
Chunky
My Angel

Jackie

Karmacat

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Hi Keith, Jackie, Bonnie, Diane

So sorry for the silence. Just didn't really have anything new to report. I still tear up very frequently - it is over K cat, but sometimes it's not specifically over K cat, if that makes any sense. Glad to share my nicks for the cats. I have often marvelled at how this process takes a life of it's own. Of cos the fur babies couldn't care less, but we humans surely enjoy this name game a lot!

Karma cat
Karmic cat
Karmical
Karma toes
Comatose

Botti cat
Started as Bood Bood (no longer in use)
Botti (coined by a friend actually, only used for official purposes)
Paw chit (dunno how this came about)
Bot not (most in use currently)

Though I've been silent recently, I did keep up with your posts. Jackie, I was sorry to read about the job, but perhaps you're just not meant to stay on in your present town. You may be much happier moving to and living in a different place.

Diane, Bonnie, Keith, all of us are still missing and grieving our pets. As others have reported, it gets better but it never really goes away...
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hello,
I was referred here by Jackie T.  I've been on this forum for a couple of weeks.  I am empty and lost.  I'm still grieving for my healthy 6-year old dog (Parker) who passed on Xmas Eve, of all days.  It was a tragic passing.  My holiday will never be the same.  It happened because of what he vet did or didn't do. A lot unanswered questions. A lot of lies and violations on his part.

I can't believe it my baby is gone. I'm watching over his 2 brothers. They are the only reason I go on. I know if I had kept my little guy home that day, he would be here today. I don't know where I failed or why I failed. I never wanted him to go there that day. I screwed up. Now he's gone and I cannot get it together. I'm sorry for all of your losses.  I don't have the right words to say because I'm still a mess. I cry every single day.  I'm hoping my dog is watching over me because I need his strength. He was stronger than I am. He was my hero. I wish he was here. I need to tell him i'm sorry.  

I am sorry for all of your losses. I wish I could be the one to make it better for everyone. 
~Parker's Mom
JackieTeller

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Hello Parker's Mom, Diane, Keith, Bonnie and KarmaCat, 

It is a sunny day here in Seattle and LuLu and I went shopping for a modem.  I am really trying to pull myself together.  Getting fired from the job I had such high hopes for really sucks.  Then I read the 10 page "agreement" to getting two weeks severance pay and wanted to throw up.  Of course their attorneys made sure I can't say anything negative about the company or it's employees and have to eat crow.  But in the end, I am not going to battle a big corporation over a "hostile work environment" or "age discrimination."  It's just not worth it.  As I've gotten older, I've learned to "choose my battles."

Parker's Mom, you are in a very loving place with our little group.  We try, we fail, we cry, we struggle but in the end we all give unconditional love and support to each other just like our furbabies did.  I still cry pretty much daily over Rosie.  I know I have to be strong for LuLu...oh, another nickname(s), LuLu Lupita and my Little Enchilada.  I have to be strong for KitKat and Blossom.  All three snuggle up to me at night and it gives me comfort.

I agree Karma, I don't think Seattle is my town.  My lease is up in September and I have no intention of renewing it.  When people ask, "where will you go?", I say, "I'm not sure but I really don't want to stay here," so that is 50% of the battle!

My Rosie says I have to be strong.  She says "you can't stay in bed all day Mama."  She says you need to take care of the other children....I am fine.  I am happy, healthy and free.  I still miss her SO MUCH but I know she is right.  She lived a good life and I have to carry on but I know it is a void that will never be filled.  I love you Rosie forever and ever.

And I love all of you guys forever and ever.  You have given me strength to carry on.  I worry when I don't hear from one of you.  You are my best friends even though we have never met in person....because you all are here for me.  

Well, time to take a walk with my "Little Enchilada."  She has been depressed because I've been depressed and it isn't fair to my little girl.  I hope you all have a good weekend.

Jackie, mama to Angel Rosie, LuLu, KitKat and Blossom
diane772

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Hello dear friends and welcome Parker's mom, It is so good to hear from everyone. I was reading all the nicknames and it brought a smile to my face. Here are some names I gave Brandy over the years, when she was young she was my puddle pup. There was also The Queen, Pumpkin Pie and a neighbor always called her Elvis so all my neighbors who knew her and loved her called her Elvis. The one I used the most was my Precious Baby. Karmacat you are right, it does get better on the outside, you don't break down and cry in front of people. The pain still rages on in the inside, my heart is still broken and it always will be. Take care everyone love Diane
JackieTeller

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Hi Everyone, 

Since we are going through nicknames, I have to tell you two others for LuLu.  Rosie of course was the Queen also, but I call LuLu my "little chalupa" and please laugh....I also call her "The Licker", because she always wants to lick me.  I don't need to take a bath, LuLu will give me one.  So watch out for "The Licker"!

I also call Blossom, "Houdini", because she can squeeze in and out of everywhere.  KitKat doesn't really have any nicknames although I've had her over 10 years.  She is a tuxedo cat that looks like she has white flames shooting up between her eyes.  

Jackie ...enjoy the weekend.  I think I might take the ferry tomorrow to Whidbey island.  
Barefoot1

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Hello to everyone,
Hello to Parkers mom. Dont be to hard on yourself for what happened to Parker. I know that's hard but I to feel my Miss B would have been here longer had I not taken her to the vet. She may not still be with me as she was almost 16 yrs old but she didn't have to go the painful way she did. I miss her so much everyday but I know she is back in that youthful body now playing with Brandy,Termy, Rosie and Karmacat. Maybe she has gotten to like cats she sure used to love to chase the neighbors.
I only had a few names for her Missy B,The Queen, and the beester. My brother called her the little brown barrel. Yes she was over weight but she was happy. I only have one for Annie its Miss Annie B. She seems to like that just fine.
Again Parkers mom welcome and I'm sorry we had to meet under these circumstances but you are at a good place. Say what you want because one of us has already said it or we have all thought whatever your feeling. Your friend Miss B's dad.

JackieTeller

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To My Dear Friends Diane, Bonnie, Keith, KarmaCat and Parker's Mom, 

Please say a prayer for my dear friends Amy, Jason and their beloved black lab RJ.  They had to put him to sleep last night.  He was only 2 years old.  He got sick very suddenly and despite their best efforts, he passed to the Rainbow Bridge.  They think he had leukemia but are not certain. 

They are both devastated as am I.  I knew RJ personally.  He was a Great Dane/Black Lab.  He played so gently with LuLu and the pussycat sisters.  When Amy moved to Kennewick to be with Jason, it was so hard to say goodbye....not only to Amy but to RJ....a loveable goof that was so kind and gentle.  Keep him in your thoughts today as I release a balloon for RJ.  

Your friend, Jackie.

P.S.  When Amy moved in January, I gave RJ his pick of what toy he wanted to take as he had several sleepovers with LuLu.  He chose a little blue toy that totally contrasted his size.  Now he is in Heaven at the Rainbow Bridge.  Please ask Miss B., Brandy, Termy, KarmaCat and Parker (along with my angel Rosie) to welcome him where he can run free and be without pain.  
cosesmom

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Hello, everyone.
Welcome, Parker's mom. It's good to have you join our group. We have formed a bond even though we have never met. This is place to come and pour your heart out or share something with all of us who care and have been where you are. We all still mourn our loss but somehow we pick each other up and offer the support that we so desperately need. Write what ever you are feeling. We are here for you.

Jackie, I will talk to Termy tonight and ask him to take RJ under his paw and show him the ropes. I know all of our kids will be there for RJ. Please tell Amy and Jason that I am sending them my love, support and understanding. Also please tell them how very sorry I am for their loss. I know it sounds like a cliche' but coming from one of us, It's heart felt. I am sorry for you to. I know the big heart that you have and I also know you feel their pain. Rosie is so right. You have to be strong even though it's really hard sometimes. You will get your reward for being the great person you are.

I would like to share my nick names that I have hung on Darla. (Termy's sister)
Darla Doo
Doo
Darla Mcdogal
Prince ass
Licky Lou
Hard Head
Just to name a few. I'm sure there is more.

Night before last I was outside at my usual time talking to Termy. I was looking at the clouds as I was talking to him and I saw a perfect heart. It didn't last but it was there. Just when I feel that there is no hope and I will forever miss my boy he does something wonderful for his mom. I so much want him to visit me (like I read on posts) but so far he never has but the feathers, coins and and messages from my spiritual reader helps me keep the faith and know that Termy has really never left.

Diane, Keith and Karma Kat,
I am so glad to hear from you all. Thank you for your responses and for sharing your hearts with us. You all are wonderful and I can see why Miss B, Brandy and K Kat loved you guys.
Love you all very much
Bonnie
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hello everyone in the Miss B group,
I'm glad to join this group. Thank you for your warm welcome.  I am missing my little 6-year old Parker (Chihuahua-Beagle).  My guilt is fading a slight bit, but it does linger.  I had some nicknames for him, too.  He was the pack leader of our 3.  He was very energetic, crazy, loved to tease his Beagle brother, Leroy, who misses him. I see it in Leroy's face. He was always shy, and Parker brought out the spunk in him. Now Leroy seems to be going back in his shell.  I feel so bad for him. I feel his loss as much as I also feel my loss of ParkerParker would groom him which made Leroy felt so loved.  When Leroy was sick, Parker was right there to kiss and groom him. He knew Leroy was sick and did all he could to make him feel comfortable.   Parker would tease him and it was all in the name of love. When Parker's blood brother, Porter was recovering, he did the same to make him feel loved and comfortable. He groomed him and shared his love. It was his love that made his brothers get well. We all miss that. It's hard for me some days to believe he is not here. That's when I break down a cry a river.

I miss that little guy. I used to call him Little Peanut. His feet were about the size of my thumb. He was a small dog, 13 lbs., but all muscle, very good health that's why I don't understand how a vet could let him die. There was nothing wrong with him. I have been devastated over this whole thing. This vet not only took away our dog, he took his life from him and from his brothers.  It's so very unfair.

I also called him My Little Hero because he once chased away a huge Rottweiler who came charging at all of us, the 3 dogs, me and my husband. I never forgot that day. That Rottweiler could have torn apart his little brother, Porter who was his blood brother and small like him.  

I wish he was here. He should be here. There's no reason on this Earth that he should not be here. I've been told that by my first vet. He said if this other vet performed the standard of care, that he would be here.  My first vet knew Parker, and how healthy he was. He had no doubts he would have survived if they did the right thing.  I regret every day we took him to that other guy and not our first vet.  A big, big mistake that I will have to live with. ~ Parker's Mom
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Parker, My Little Peanut, Mom is so very sorry.  Please forgive me.  I never meant you any harm. I saddens me that you are not here with us.  The light in our home is dimmer without you.  I would do anything to have you here again.  Please watch over your brothers. Porter needs your love to keep his pancreatitis in remission. Please look for us when your brothers and I come to Rainbow Bridge to see you again.  Have fun with your friends in the meantime. You will always be My Little Hero.  I Love You, Mom
MyLittleOneIsGone

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My other 2 dogs (Porter and Leroy) have never been the affectionate type. Parker was the loving one, full of kisses, all the time.  All you had to do was get close enough and then came the kisses.

The other night I was tucking in his brothers and telling them how sorry I was.  I always kissed my dogs goodnight. In the past, Porter would be cranky, wanting to just go to sleep and not be bothered. Something that night was different.  Both he and Leroy gave me kisses, very unusual.  They're not like that.  I thought maybe it was Parker coming through them.  A sign or something. I never had to ask Parker for a kiss, he would shower us all with kisses.  I hope it was him showing me something. I need a sign he forgives me and that he's here with me. I'm waiting for him to show up in a dream. I will continue to be alert for signs.  Does anyone think something like that is possible?

I can tell you that today they were back to their old self. Turned their heads. Not the kisses from the other night. Could it have been my sweet little Parker that night?
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Parkers Mom,
Yes you will see signs everything's from bird feathers to Porter and Leroy giving kisses. Yes it's possible absolutely. Hopefully you will see parker In a dream. Although it took me months before I saw Miss B in a dream. And by the way do t blame yourself. I took Miss B to the vet and he gave me some medicine to give her 4 naysayer she was gone. It will eat you alive so do as I've been td and try to thi k of all the good memories. Your friend Keith.
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hi Keith (Barefoot1), What would bird feathers signify?  I never heard of that.  My guilt does tear me apart. I mostly feel it because the night before, I chose him to be the one to go there. I could have chosen his brother, and the same thing could have happened, so I would still feel like this. I don't really know what happened, but the magical word that would have kept both of my boys safe, would have have been NO. The answer to whether they would go there, would have been NO. I neglected to keep him home. There was no need for him to be there. It was not medically necessary. I live with this. It hurts. I believe in fate, but I also believe we have control over things that we put thought into, and this was one I failed at controlling. I didn't think enough about it and I neglected my choices. I'm trying to get to the good memories, if I can only let go of my self-blame.

What happened to your Miss B?  Was it a bad vet, too, like I had?  
Barefoot1

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Parkers mom,
It's best to talk to Bonnie about the significance of feathers and such. I just believe they are signs from our departed. Miss B had arthritis in her back legs and I wanted her to feel better maybe her that youthful spring back in her step.the medicine is like Ibuprofen for dogs. The vet td me if I see a black stool to call him. I never saw one til the morning I took her to be killed. It was 3 days later. I ga e her the pills that made her suffer it was terrible. She went from healthy to being put to sleep in 3 days. Because I gave her medicine I was assured was safe. She did suffer alot it really destroyed me because she depended on me to keep her safe. Anyway I live with that and it hurts so much. I just wanted to help her.and I killed her. Everyone here has there own story. Well now that I'll have that thought all day I say goodbye. Your new friend in s.c. Keith.
cosesmom

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Dearest Parker's mom,
A  good book to read about messages from our pets is "Signs from pets in the after life" by: Lyn Ragan.This is were I Learned about the feathers. I asked Termy for feathers and boy have I gotten a ton of feathers. Each color means something different. I never noticed feathers before as I took my walks, now I see them in the most unlikely  places. I bet I have over 500. I know they are from Termy. If you see a Cardinal, it means an Angle is near. Believe that Parker has never left you. He is always near. Love never separates us, because love lives on forever. You were loved and you loved so very much. Please let go of the guilt. It doesn't honor Parker to hold onto something that happened. You did the best you could at the time. Parker has nothing to forgive you for. If you were to ask him now he would say "mom, I know you meant me no harm, it was my time and I love you" I am only saying this because I was where you are at a while back and I held onto the guilt for a very long time. I choose to have Termy put to sleep but there were still the I should have waited, maybe I could have done more but in my heart I knew it was his time and I couldn't see him suffer anymore. Having to say goodbye is never easy no matter the reason. Our situations are different but the hurt and heart ache is the same.

Keith,
Darn it!!!!!!!!!! You didn't kill Miss B so stop thinking that way. You trusted your vet and he let you down.But it wasn't your fault. Miss B knows that all you did was for love and out of love. There is no blame from our pets, they know we did our best.

Remember we are only human and do our best. Life isn't perfect.
Love always
Bonnie
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Keith, please listen to Bonnie. We all feel guilt but we all did the best we could at that moment. When we think back there will always be things we think we should have done or asked. The truth is we can't go back. Losing my Brandy breaks my heart everyday but I try to remember the good times instead of dwelling on that horrible moment. We all need to focus on the babies we have now. They need our love and we need to give our love. Bonnie has helped me so much, I see signs from Brandy all the time and gives my heart some peace. We all need to keep our minds and hearts open to presents from our babies.They are letting us know they are happy and at peace. Please everyone take Bonnie's words to heart. Love Diane
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Dear Jackie,
I am very sorry about young RJ, your friends Amy and Jason's dog.  So very young, and tragic. I'm sorry they are going through this loss.  Please accept my condolences for them.

~Parker's Mom
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hi cosesmom (Bonnie),

It's interesting what you said about a Cardinal.  It's been years since I've caught a glance of one here, and I'm not sure if it was a Cardinal. We mostly have Robins, Blue Jays, sparrows here. In the fall we see woodpeckers and wild turkeys.  Yesterday, on Monday, I was on my deck and as clear as can be, I saw a Cardinal perched on my deck railing, it stayed for a second and then flew off to a nearby tree. I did think it was odd that out of nowhere I would see a Cardinal, and so close-up.  I thought to myself that I wished I had my camera, but now that you say that about a sighting of one and the connection with my sweet Parker, could it have been some kind of sign?  I am going to be alert and look for it again. I'll look up that book.  

Sometimes I think I can get through the day, but today like many other days, I couldn't.  It hits me out of nowhere. Today while I was driving. Then I couldn't help but think how unfair it was for him, not me, but for him. He never had to go there, he wasn't supposed to if it was up to me. It always comes back to me that I still let him go there and I messed up. How I miss him so much. He deserved to be here.
~Parker's Mom (Tina)
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Barefoot1 (Keith),
Could you be describing Carprofen aka Rimadyl?  I have used that in the past for my dogs in small doses and only a few times, but I heard recently from other people that Rimadyl is bad stuff. It's an NSAID. A real bad one. I looked it up after reading horror stories. I won't give it to them again.  If it was that stuff that got Miss B sick, then I can see why.  It's poison. I'm very sorry about Miss B.  I am losing faith in vets, although I do still trust my first vet who we should have never drifted away from. We see him again, but it was that time we went to that bad vet only a few times, and that's all it took for him to kill my baby. I can't forgive myself. He was not supposed to go there, and I failed to keep him home.  ~ Parker's Mom (Tina)
JackieTeller

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Good Morning/Afternoon my dear friends, Keith, Bonnie, Diane, KarmaCat and Tina, 

In less than 2 weeks I leave for Alaska for 9 days.  It has been stressful trying to arrange sitting for LuLu, Blossom and KitKat.  It costs almost as much as my vacation!  But they are my dear children and I want to provide the best for them.  

I am releasing a balloon today for RJ, my friend Amy's dog.  I have to tell you because I feel you understand.  I was distraught when I heard about RJ.  He had many sleepovers here.  I texted Amy and she said it was "weird coming home from work and RJ not "bothering her" anymore."  Quite frankly, I was shocked.  Maybe I took it to heart too much.  Anyways, his balloon will go up today and he is in heaven with his namesake.   
I saw a feather on the trail I walk LuLu on the other day.  Rosie is sending me yet another sign that she knows I am traveling.  Amazing I still have one feather under my visor in my car and Rosie's collar on the mirror.  I am taking some of her ashes to Alaska to spread in Fairbanks.  

Finally, I am sending up a balloon for all my furbabies I have had through the years.  So Rosie, Miss Pippi, Angelica, Shep, Buster, Ginger, Frankie, Foo-Foo and my pet chicken....this heart is for you.  I wrote a poem on it to share....

To All my children through the years,
It makes me glad to have you here, 
Through good and bad, through stress and strife,
You loved me throughout your life, 
I remember you all with love, 
And know that you're with God Above

Love, Mama

I know this is long but please bear with me.  Keith and Tina, you can drive yourselves crazy thinking what the vet did and didn't do.  I certainly have my issues with my former vet and no longer go there.  But the bottom line is...it just drags out the agony.  We feel like we "killed" our children.  That is not true.  We showed our love for them as unconditionally as they did for us. GOD has a plan; whether we like it or not.  KarmaCat, Termy, Miss. B, Brandy, Rosie, Parker and RJ.  You will NEVER be forgotten.  

And with that I would like to start a new subject.  So I ask you all, share a time when you had a happy memory.  I'll start. 

Rosie was a very aloof, regal Jack Russell Terrier.  Actually she was a Parson's Terrier that I got from my son.  He found her as a "stray"...or so the story goes and..when he went away to College many years ago and I was living in Portland, OR., he asked me if I would watch Rosie "for a couple months."  I already had two other dogs and I looked at this little "shark-eyed" white dog that said, "You better say yes."  So I did.  She loved squirrels.  There never was a squirrel she didn't want to chase.  She didn't even have to see the squirrel, all I would have to say is. "Rosie....I think there's a squirreell..over there.  My God, she would go bananas.  

So that is one of my happy memories with Rosie.  Please share yours.  

Jackie in Seattle, mama to Angel Rosie and many others,  LuLu, KitKat and Blossom



cosesmom

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Jackie,
What a wonderful idea. Sharing a happy memory. Mine is somewhat similar to yours. Termy loved chipmunks and birds, at least chasing them. I would look out into the yard and say "Termy there's birds in your yard". I would open the door and he would shoot out and run really hard down the yard, barking as he ran (as fast as he could go) and chased the birds out of the yard. If fact he would be going so fast that he would almost run out of yard and make a sharp u turn at the last minuet. I would laugh so hard. Then at times I would see a chipmunk running along the top of our fence and I would say to Termy "where's the chippies?" He would race around the yard looking for them. It's funny that just saying birds or chippies would perk him right up. In fact that is how he broke his leg. Jumping off the deck when he saw a chippie. He must have jumped off that deck hundreds of times. But this one time he didn't land right. Silly Boo Boo. He also knew all his toys names. I would ask "go get cowboy" and he would bring me cowboy. I would say "go get horsy" and he would bring me horsy. There are some other toys that he knew to. It's wonderful to remember those things. Better than the sad ones.
Thank you Jackie for your idea.
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Jackie, you came up with a good idea. My favorite memory of Brandy is watching her run as fast as she could to our neighbor. Every morning he would come out of his house with his dog Daisy and he would take them both for a walk. Brandy loved them so much. I would just say Travis is outside and she would go crazy. I opened the door and she would run out as fast as her short legs would go. She would run right to him, he would hook the leash on her and off they would go. It was the same when he was outside in the yard. If we went out before they were outside she would scratch at his door like she was saying we are outside so come outside. They both passed away before Brandy so it gave me comfort that Travis and Daisy were there to welcome her. I have so many fun memories of Brandy, basset hounds are true comics. I would give her a treat and she would take it out and bury it in the yard. Later when we went for our walks she would have to check and make sure it was still there. After a few years the checking on all the treats took a long time. She never forgot where they were. Thank you Jackie and I love hearing all the good memories so everyone please keep telling them. Love Diane
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Friends, one summer B kept sticking her head in a hollow piece of firewood barking going nuts. This lasted 4 or 5 days and finally she kept on til she pulled out a small snake. It was only about a foot long but she grabbed it a slung it around so hard it head flew off. She was so proud of that kill everyday she would run out when I got home and run over to the corpse and bark and bark. Fit I had to put it in the trash cause she tried to eat it. Anyway she would hunt for anything lizards,skinks,snakes and frogs. She loved to crawl all over the wood pile hunting for criders. I used to have pics on my phone of that little girl on this huge woodpile like the victorious Queen. I guess I lost them when I changed phones. Boy to I miss watching her do that. Well goodbye Keith.
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Hello everyone. Jackie, this was a good idea but I found it rather a difficult one. Whenever K cat comes to mind, tears usually follow, and I had to struggle to recall some good times.

Frankly, I took in K cat grudgingly, pretty much the same with Botti cat two years earlier. One incident signalled the change that was coming. One night I came back, and didn't realise that K cat had dashed out of the apartment. I couldn't find her in the apartment that night and felt somewhat unsettled. In retrospect, it was a starting point of me getting attached to her. Anyway, I just turned in, figuring she was just hiding out in some secret place. The next morning, I still could not find her, so I ventured out of my apartment. And found her sitting on a ledge outside , six storeys above the ground. I felt so happy and relieved to find her, and I started to realise I was falling for this girl too. At this point in time, she would often try to dash out of the door whenever I opened it, so I had to make sure that it didn't happen. Interestingly, a year or so later, K cat became such an indoor cat, that wild horses couldn't drag her out of the apartment. That was a dramatic change!

The other good memory I have, is of this senior cat chasing the laser pointer like a young little girl. I really wished I had kept up at it, but for some reason or other, I stopped that play after a few months. But it is one of the nice images of K cat that I have in my head. I miss her so much.

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Hello everyone in the Miss B group.  I hope that you are all feeling some peace and doing better.  I have my moments, some are meltdowns. There are a few days a week I let it all out, not by choice. Each day is a struggle missing Parker, the sunshine in our home. I am still very broken.  I see the loss in his 2 brothers' faces. He was my Beagle, Leroy's best friend. Leroy came out of his shell because of Parker. My middle name "guilt" still hasn't changed. Keith, do you think we can ever banish it?  I dream of a time machine invention in my lifetime.  I can dream, can't I?

Jackie, That was thoughtful of you to send off a balloon for RJ. I'm sorry again. Your Alaska trip is almost here. I've never been there and always wanted to go. Seems like a tranquil place. Will you be on a cruise or land travel or both?  I wish you a fun trip and a lot of relaxation, and no worries.

Wishing all of you a good week filled with happy memories of our lost ones.  Give your current loved ones big hugs, and for me, too. 
~ Parker's Mom (Tina)
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Hello all, yes Tina I wish we did have a time machine. I would go back to 2 years ago. That summer Miss B was still active and we sat outside alot. The weekends were great I didn't have to work alot of overtime. It just seemed like the best of times just not alot of worries. Now well I just don't have that same zest anymore.
Anyway i hope everyone is doing good will write more later.
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Hello, my dear friends.
I thought I would write and let everyone know that I am thinking about all of you. We all struggle with our grief but lending support to one another is a gift. Thank all of you for being the best friends I could ask for. I miss Termy so very much and I always will but being able to share his wonderful life with all of you has helped me. The ones that are the closest to me seem to not care or think I should be able to move on because it's coming up on two years. No one but you guys understand the bond I have with Termy, just as your bond with Rosie, Brandy, Miss B, KCat and Parker.
Thank you.

Here is two memories that I have of Termy:
I remember when I would give Termy the cottage cheese container to lick clean. I would set it down in the kitchen for him and if I left the room he would pick it up and carry it to where ever I was. Then he would set it down and wrap his paw around it, tip it to the side, just right and lick it clean. There were even times he would jump onto the bed with so he could be near me. I wish I had a video of him doing this but I guess that what memories are for. Videos in our minds.

Then there were times when he lost sight of me and begin looking for me. If I was in the basement, I could hear him frantically trotting through the house looking in each room. Then when he looked into every room I would hear him coming down the basement stairs and the look on his face was "Oh, my I though I lost you" I would pat him or pick him up to let him know I was always there for him. Then there were times when he was looking for me and all I was doing was standing in another room and it was if he just over looked me. When he saw me you could just see the relief wash over him. He was so devoted to me and I miss that. Now he is where he can always see where his mommy is and he'll never have to search frantically for me.
Please, everyone let me know how you all are doing.
Love always,
Bonnie
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Good morning to all my dear friends, I know the feeling Bonnie. Brandy always had to know where I was. When I did have to go somewhere without her coming home was one of my greatest memories. She would cry and howl and wiggle from head to tail. Then I couldn't get out of her sight for many hours. Thank you for bringing that memory to me. I had a very strange dream last night. Many years ago I adopted an old horse. He had been ignored and forgotten. He had a severe ear infection which I had the vet treat but he always was very shy about touching that ear. He was a wonderful old guy, very sweet and kind. He passed many years ago but last night he came to me in a dream. The dream was so real, I was giving him a bath and brushing him. I loved that dream. It just proved to me that all our babies are waiting for us. Jackie I hope you have a wonderful time. Keith and Karmacat and Tina I hope all is well with all of you. Take care everyone, love Diane
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Thank you Bonnie for sharing those lovely memories of Termy. For me, it's been 18 months since K cat left, and I still miss her so much. For every time that I smile when thinking of her, there are still at least 50 times when the memories bring sadness. I wish I could change that...
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Hello everyone,
I was sitting at work today and talking to a friend and something she said triggered a memory of Termy that I had forgotten. I would like to share it with all of you. It made me smile when I thought of it and I didn't cry, I actually smiled. I could almost see Termy again.

Years ago when he was younger we used to share our popcorn with him. He learned to associate the sound of the popcorn popping in the microwave and run to the kitchen and whine until it was done popping. We would then go to the living room to share. My husband taught him to catch a piece when he tossed it to him. He hardly ever missed. The quirky thing he did was eat the popcorn but spit out the kernel. He would eat it until gone but never liked the hard kennels. I would have to pick up all those when we were done but what I wouldn't do to see him catch popcorn again.

It's hard to believe that the things that our babies did when they were part of our life we took it as matter of fact. I know somewhere in this gray matter of mine there are so many more things he did that made sharing my life with so very very special. I wish I could rewind my brain and bring every moment of his life back. I know that I will recall all those little things he did that made him, him!

Karma cat,
I understand where you are coming from. There are plenty of times I remember certain things about Termy and a tear will fall. Most of those times are at night on my nightly visits to him and I tell him about them and say "I remember, I remember" and I cry. Then there are times when I read your guys posts or someone else's posts and a flood of sadness will fall around me because I recall all the hurt and emptiness that I felt that awful day and know someone else is going through what I did months ago. I guess this is what makes us special. Our love for Kcat and Termy. Diane, Keith, Jackie and Tina all have the biggest hearts and know what real love is all about. Brandy, Rosie,  Miss B, Kcat, Parker and Termy knew we were worth loving and sharing their lives with us. We were the lucky ones, they choose us. 

Please all you guys, write some more memories to share.
Love
Bonnie (your friend in Pa)
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Bonnie, your right there are so many memories of B that I have a trouble recalling. I just cant and probably never will get past her terrible death. Its simple I just had a good life with that little girl. I enjoyed taking care of her it gave me a good purpose. Now Annie is my new Buddy but shes not B.
Well Jackie hope your trip is or was good for you. Diane,Bonnie,kcat and now Linda hope all is well. I tell you guys I just need a change in work or in life that I dont think will ever come. So the world turns. Thanks for reading. Friends always Keith.
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