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Barefoot1

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Hey,
I had thought I was doing better with Miss B I hadn't been sad when I thought about her. But I realized today I hadn't thought about her death and that day lately. I did today and I havent progressed as much as I had thought. Well maybe i never will,actually i don't want to stop felling this way for B she deserves that. Anyway have a great cover day friends.Keith
Karmacat

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Hi Keith

Although K cat doesn't come to mind so much lately, over the last few days, I did think of her. And each time, I cried and felt a deep sadness and pain, just as what happened to you. I think, time will gradually fade her from my mind. I'll always love and mourn her, but I will eventually think of her less and less, as the days go by.

I thought about my parents recently, who both passed on a long time back, and in not very pleasant situations. I also thought of two previous girlfriends that I loved a lot, who had both also gone. I thought also of my close friend who passed away suddenly last year. There was nothing. There was no explosion of emotion, almost no grief, it did not shift my emotional state at all. Then, I thought of K cat, and the world shattered and crumbled into a thousand pieces. It is quite strange how I miss and mourn K cat so much more than any family or lover or friend. The world turned irrevocably darker when I lost her. I never really intended to love K cat that much, but it just happened...
cosesmom

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Hi to all my dearest friends,
I said I would write more at another time and here I am.
Oh Keith and KarmaKat,
I truly get both of you. I do tend to get through my days with out the sadness and tears even though I think of Termy throughout the day. Every time his pendant bumps my chest it reminds me that he's gone. This weekend it was really hard for me. I know each and every one of us has had melt downs. Mine was this weekend, I cried until my chest hurt and my eyes turned red. I even said out loud that there had better be a Rainbow Bridge. I don't think I could get up everyday and go on with life if I knew that there was no chance of ever seeing my sweet Termy again.I believe that everyone of us will always have times in our lives that we will just break down and be right back where it all started. We all have each other and are understood. My deepest sadness is that I cry alone and grieve for Termy all by myself. He made an impression on everyone he met and no one even mentions him anymore, except me. I know people move on but wouldn't it be nice if just person we know would say "how are you really doing"? and give a hug when the tears start to fall. I don't think of that last day hardly anymore just the emptiness in my life. If I do go back to that day I relive the guilt and I don't want to go back feeling like I didn't do enough. I know I did all I could and I gave him the best life any dog could ever dream of. He was my boy. My joy and sunshine. I cherished him to the ends of time as he cherished me. I will always cry and miss him but I am so happy that he picked me to be his mom and shared his life with me for over 16 years.
Everybody, hold tight to the journey and cherish what we shared. We loved and were loved.
Love Bonnie
Barefoot1

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Bonnie,kcat,just a short message I to can get thru the days easier now. But I dont want to ever get to the point were i dont think of her at all. We were partners in this life. She was my little girl and to this day I love her more than anyone can imagine. Bonnie you are so right there better be a bridge because I want to see Miss B and be with her so bad I can't stand it. To have her and my new girl Annie forever would truly be heaven. Yes Bonnie it would be nice if someone else would mention B sometime but her memory is safe with me. That lite girl that touched my heart so deeply will never ever be forgotten. Goodbye for now friends.Miss B's dad.
JackieTeller

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Hello to all my dear friends, Keith, Bonnie, Diane, KCat, smkh (?) and Tina, 

SMKH It is easier for me to connect with names.  I've probably gotten your  moniker wrong.  If so I apologize.  

KCat, you speak such words of wisdom and have so much intuitive thought that I look forwards to your posts.  You are very wise and I need that wisdom. 

Well, I turned the big 64 on Saturday.  Actually it was a very pleasant day.  A friend took me to dinner and the next day I went to service and then to Lincoln Park in West Seattle where my sweet Rosie sent me 4 feathers!  Two black, one white and one grey.  The grey one really blew me away.  It was like she had sent it down from heaven because it was stuck like a dart in the ground.  

It's been 2 birthdays without my girl now.  But I am really trying to look to her as my guardian angel and not be so sad as much.  I know she doesn't want me to be sad.  She is pulling me up by my bootstraps from above.  I will always love and never forget that dog.  I hope to someday get to the place where I can remember more good times than sad.

I officially got LuLu registered as an emotional support dog.  My doctor wrote me a note.  So now, when I travel, I can take her with me instead of leaving her at home.  She is still recovering from my leaving her.  It will never happen again Miss Lu.

Well here in the PNW, a heatwave is sort of here but not really.  We have had some beautiful weather.  My lease is up mid-September; I have to let them know by mid-August if I am staying and I am still jobless....partly because I haven't looked much.  

I have on my bucket list to visit each of you someday.  

Your friend in Seattle, Jackie
mama to LuLu, KitKat, Blossom and angel Rosie
cosesmom

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Keith,
I get what you say. I never want to ever forget Termy, ever. Don't get me wrong, I never want the day to come that I never think of Termy, (never happen in this life time). I do want to put Termy's last day, last minute behind me. It just brings a huge sadness to my heart. I do want to remember that he left this world in my arms and hearing me tell him that I love him so very much and that I was sorry I couldn't fix him, that I made you a promise and I was going to keep it. I left him go held in my arms, him knowing that I loved him. That's the memory I will hold onto plus all the others we made and shared. I want to recall his huffing in disgust when he was bored, Me helping him up and down the stairs, watching him sleep and chasing chippies in his dreams, riding on the motorcycle and falling asleep, him barking his head off if he didn't get to go on the motorcycle, and all the little things that I will recall as time goes by. As you said he (she) was my little man and to this day I love him more than anyone can imagine. Just as you with Miss B.
I guess I need to ask you how you are doing. Keith, how are you doing and here is a huge cyber hug.

Diane,
How are you doing? Here is a cyber hug for you too.

Tina,
How are you doing? here is a cyber hug foe you also

SMKH
How are you doing? Here is your cyber hug too.

Jackie,
Good to hear from you. I am so happy that little Lu Lu will always be at your side giving you the comfort and support that only she can do. Happy Birthday dear lady. Wow, we are just about the same age. Nice to know that we have another connection. I got eight feathers yesterday from Termy and a tiny little gray and a huge black one today. So Rosie and Termy love sending us feathers. Does it make you smile? I do and I thank Termy for each and every one I find. You will get to that place where you will remember more good than bad memories but they will bring a small amount of sadness to. I love feeling the breeze and hearing the trees rustle because I think it's Termy sending me those peaceful feelings to help me.

Karmacat,
You will never forget nor will time fade her memory. She was connected to you and your hearts are as one. She watches over you and her soul remains near you. I too mourned the passing of my sister and felt a deep loss but not as deep or as sad as losing Termy. I loved my sister very much and I don't mean to lessen her life but the connection and love I had for her is a complete different feeling than I have for Termy. Our pets love us so unconditionally and ask for nothing in return except to be fed and a pat on the head or a scratch behind the ear. You loved K cat and were meant to be. Some where in the heavens it was determined that you two would share something wonderful. You bonded.

To all of you, I am sending a cyber hug and ask all of how you are truly doing. I care and want to see that you all can get through the day, the month and the next year knowing I am here for you. Together we can live each day while we support each other.

Love you all
Bonnie (forever Termy's mom)
skmk

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Hello All,    cosesmom thanks so much for the virtual hug.  I've not been getting any messages from this message board and I don't know why.   Can anyone tell me how I can get them back?   I am doing fair.   Still very sad not just about Dickens but other painful things going on in my life.   Please if anyone can tell me how I can get my messages I would so appreciate it.

skmk (Susan)
JackieTeller

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Rosie –

 

Oh My Rose, it hurt me so,

To have to accept reality and let you go,

But just as I said the night before,

Mama loves you dearly, I couldn’t have asked for more,

Your time had come it was plain to see,

I wanted to do the best for thee,

You had been such a wonderful companion for so many years,

Oh God, how I wish that you were here,

But it was your time and as I promised you,

I’d let you go….it was the right thing to do,

I know that you look down on me from above,

And shower me with feathers and other signs of love,

Oh please Rose, don’t ever stop sending me those signs,

Even though I do cry at times,

I’ll never forget you Rosie, you were more than a dog,

You gave me purpose and I know you’re with God.

 

Your mama,

Jackie

cosesmom

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Hi to all my friends,
I just found something wonderful at a store and had to tell you all about it. Most of you know and have seen my picture of Termy's Memorial garden and I add to it here and there. Just today I stopped at the Christmas tree store and found solar lights in the shape of paw prints. Off course I had to but them. I just put them down by his flag and can't wait to see them lit up. Just buying them made me smile and tonight when they are lit up I will most likely shed a tear or two. But I know Termy will be able to see them from the Bridge and will know I did it just for him.

Love you guys
Bonnie
diane772

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Bonnie that is wonderful, take pics if you can. Jackie you should be a poet, it was so sweet to read. It is very hot here for NH so Pearl hasn't wanted to go out much. I know you all can relate to how I am feeling but I am missing Brandy so much. I still can't believe she is not here. I know she is still with me but I so want to hug her. Love to all of you Diane
cosesmom

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Jackie,
Your poem is absoluetely wonderful. I was wondering if you could write a poem for me about Termy. I would cherish it forever.

To all my dear friends,
Here is a picture of the solar lights that I added to Termy's memorial garden. I took the picture at night so it's a bit dark but you can see the flags in the back ground. It was a wonderful addition to the memorial garden. I told Termy that now when he looks down he can see where mommy is and where al the love I have for him grows each and every day.

I also wanted to share with all of you a post that Fioanasmum wrote in a post. She made such a profound insight to what we all are suffering from. I really would love for all of you to go to 'Grief support and read her reply to "How do you handle the guilt" . I read it and I found peace. I felt a ton of guilt over having Termy put to sleep but after reading her post I put the guilt at the foot of "old age" . I was a wonderful fur mom and I gave Termy my all. I have no need to feel guilty for ending his suffering. Yes , it hurts that he is no longer with me and I will never get past the lonliness of living each and every day with out him but I know I did all I could and I am going to try never to relive his last day on earth with me. All his love was spread over 16 years and we had one hell of a walk through this life TOGETHER. Please read her reply, I think you all may find some peace and acceptance.

Here is my picture. [pawprintsolarlights] 

I hope you all can smile as I do every night when I take my nightly walk to talk to Termy.

Your friend in Pa
Bonnie
JackieTeller

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Hello to my dear friends, Bonnie, Diane, Keith, KarmaCat, Tina and Susan,

Bonnie, here is Termy's poem....

My Little Boo Boo

Oh my sweet Boo Boo,

It’s been almost two years since you went away,

I still think about you every day,

It broke my heart to let you go,

But I did the right thing, you know,

We had a grand and glorious life,

So many happy memories, so much love,

I know you look down on me from Heaven above,

A little man with such a big heart,

You were my Terminator from the start,

Oh Termy, I love and miss you so, but it was your time, I know.

I cherish all those memories,

The popcorn, kisses and cottage cheese,

Laying with me on the bed,

Your beautiful dark eyes, my little meathead

My heart with jump with joy and glee,

When I see you in heaven, running towards me.

I know you see the dog prints from above,

I send them to you with all my love.

We were quite a pair, oh it is true,

It won’t be long, I’ll be patient, I will see you.

Your Mama Forever


Bonnie, I love the doggie lights!  I'm sure they have Termy's seal of approval.  You know Rosie passed on the 18th also.  This month will be 15 months.  She too had a heart murmur and I had her on meds but she was older; also about 16 I think....as I got her from my son and she was a couple years old.  The last year she was alive, I saw her suffer.  It would have been inhumane to let it continue.  Both Rosie and Termy were little dogs with huge hearts.  I have found so many feathers that show me Rosie is still watching over me.

Well, my friends, I am making a trip to Asheville, North Carolina.  I am leaving with a friend on September 1 and returning September 6th.  I want to check out the area; although I really haven't heard anything negative about Asheville.  So Keith, are you listening?  I am still unemployed.  I gave my notice at my apartment complex.  I am still looking for jobs here but I feel it is God's will that I go to the Carolinas.  It is all in God's hands.  I have to be out of my apartment by 9/11...how ironic.  If a job I love materializes here, I will stay.  If not, I'm packing my uhaul and heading to Asheville.  At least I will be on your side of the country so I can visit you all.

It is a scary and daunting task for a 64 year old single woman but I believe God and Rosie are calling me to make this trip.  Rosie's rose is in full bloom and has such a sweet smell.  I am keeping all the feathers.  Boy, are they adding up!

Blossom killed a bird this morning.  I cried and cried.  I want to bury that little creature with Rosie's rose.  She was only doing what cats do.  

Enough for now,  please everyone I would love to hear how you are doing.  As time goes by, LuLu becomes more and more precious to me.  Completely different personality from Rose but what a little love.  

Your friend in Seattle (for now)....Jackie
Mama to Angel Rosie, LuLu, Blossom and KitKat 
cosesmom

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Jackie,
I am beyond words. I am so blown away with the poem you wrote for me. Needless to say the tears flowed hard. You said in words what my heart says everyday. You are truly a wonderful and caring friend and I thank you.
I wish you all the best on your trip to North Carolina. I hope with Rosie's guidance you will find everything your dreams are made of. I will think of you when you go.
Bless you my friend and Rosie's mom
JackieTeller

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I wrote another poem from Termy to you.  It hasn't shown up.  Here it is.  

Mama,

My dear mama, I love the lights,

It shines your love on cold, dark nights,

I know you gave your all for me,

And I cherish all the memories,

I know it was hard for you to let me go,

But it was my time you know,

My little heart….it just gave out,

You tried so hard to extend my earthly life,

But in the end, you did what was right,

Now I can jump and play and be free,

But I have to tell you about this other doggie,

Her name is Rose and we have become friends,

So many things in common her and me,

She has become my family,

Mama, I love you so much, it pains me to see you grieve,

But it shows your love for me,

I am still close, I am quite near,

Just watch for the signs and you can shed some tears,

We’ll be together, time will pass,

I’ll be waiting for you, on Heaven’s green grass.

Your son,

Termy

cosesmom

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Oh,Jackie!
What angel you are. It's as if Rosie was talking to you about Termy and had you write the words that melted my heart. Yes, I cried, a lot!!!! I had to read it several times because the tears were making it a bit hard to read. I was sitting outside reading the poem again and a Cardinal flew in and sat on a limb near me and chirped away. Termy was visiting me while I read the poem.
Again thank you so very much. You made my heart swell with love.
I am so happy to think that Rosie and Termy are the best of friends waiting for you and I to join them.
Love always
Bonnie (Termy's mom)
diane772

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Hello everyone, Jackie you are an angel. You made Bonnie so happy which I enjoy. I can feel the lightness of her heart. I hope you find happiness in North Carolina. I think we all need an adventure. Some of you have been very quiet, I hope all is well with all of you. Please Keith, Susan and Karmacat drop a line when you can. You friends get me through the hard times which seem to be happening a lot lately. The weather was beautiful today so I was sitting outside with Pearl and all of a sudden it hit me so hard how much I miss Brandy. I just felt so lost and helpless. I tried to think of good times but the sadness just would not go away. Then I read your posts and I feel better so thank you very much. Love to all of you   Diane
cosesmom

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Diane,
Yes, Jackie made my day. It's as if she were reading my heart and put those words to paper. Your right everyone is to quite. I wonder why. Keith made me a bit uneasy with his last reply when he ended with "good bye". I'm hoping it didn't mean anything big just a bye for now. That was 12 days ago. I am hoping that Jackie's little adventure with be a life changer for the good. Lord knows she's tried and she needs a break. Keith, You better be on the lookout for her in September. I'm excited that she is going to be in your neighborhood. Maybe for good. Diane the weather here is hot with a lot of humidity which makes being out doors from 11 on until 7 hard. I mow the grass early and pick black berries in the evening. I don't even think of walking Darla until 7:30 after the sun goes down. I know you think of Brandy a lot. I read your posts on Grief Support" . I understand how missing her hits you like a rock and just how lonely, lost and helpless you feel. I know  that thinking of good times helps but like you the sadness just hangs on. I do know that walking outside at night and seeing the lights and flags does bring a smile. I wish you could find something that you can do that would help bring a smile to your face when memories of Brandy brings sadness to your heart. I know it's hard, lord knows I'm not that strong and my sadness for Termy does hit me hard at times. It's because we loved them so much and our love was so deep. There is a connection that time will never let us forget.

Keith, Tina, Susan and Karma cat did you all forget how to log on and write to us?
Love you all
Bonnie
JackieTeller

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To my Dear Friends, 

Bonnie, I am so happy it made you happy to read the poems, even though you cried.  I cried as I wrote them as I can feel how much you loved and still love that little dog.  I think it is wonderful that you have created a memorial for him.  Anything I can do to lift your spirits takes me away from my own pain.  

Diane, if you would like I can write a poem about Brandy.  

Keith, you better be around dude cause I plan on looking you up when I land in Greenville.  

I am ready to leave here my friends.  It isn't without sadness and today I "hid in my shell in bed" but I know it is the right move to make.  In the time I am in the Carolinas, I am checking everything out.

KarmaCat, Keith, Tina and Susan.....are your typing fingers broken???  Even if you have nothing to say, just check in with, "I really don't have much to say."  I love and care about all of you.

The little bird Blossom caught I buried in Rosie's Rose pot and covered it with petals from her rose.  That is her little resting place and Rose said it was okay.

Love to all, 
Jackie

MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hi everyone,
I started writing something about a week ago, but I did not get to post it.  I have not been doing well.  I tried the therapeutic route by writing my dear Parker a letter on my page.

I did experience something good last week. My Beagle, Leroy is recovering very well from 2 minor cysts removal surgery. Waiting for biopsy result.  He's wearing a cone until 8/19.  He also had his teeth cleaned and I was told his teeth were extremely clean before they started and he only has 2 small (3mm and 5mm) pockets. (I have more and bigger pockets that he does.) That was good and bad news. Good news because it means brushing his teeth has paid off. Bad news although a good thing, it was also alarming to hear that his teeth were that clean 8 months after he had a pre-op for scheduled dental cleaning last December, so that means his teeth were more clean at that time, and he really did not need that scheduled cleaning in December. Which means that most likely (I'm will bet my life) my other dog Parker did not need it either, so he died for nothing. It was not a higher power that decided it was Parker's time. He was left to die or killed by a charlatan vet. It was not an option to make an informed decision when that inept vet did not look at either of my dogs' teeth and did not discuss the Informed Consent according to the law.  Yet he made the time to take my money for the pre-ops and expected to cash in on 2 dental cleanings. He must have thought he had a live one when we scheduled 2 dogs. Oh, how I was fooled. I can handle being a fool as long as it does not cost my dog his life.  I was duped and paid a painful price. Leroy has lost his best friend, Parker who gave him confidence and courage, and cherished him. Now Leroy has fallen back in his shell. I am making it a point to continually bond with him to relieve his lost and confused feeling.  He is a good dog. All 3 are/were good dogs.

That's where I am at these days. Not to sound dramatic, but I struggle. 

I saw that Jackie, you will be heading out to North and South of the Border not long from now. Happy Belated Birthday to you, by the way.  Thank you Bonnie, for the hug.  Hello to all.  Best of health and love to you all. 

Missing My Little One,
Tina
Barefoot1

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Hello best friends,
Yes I am still here. Its just hot and miserable here. Jackie i will meet you in Greenville or Ashville at least it will be cooler in Asheville. So we will be in touch see ya there. It's just another day I hate this job but yet I am stuck. I guess it will be several years before I can actually get out of here. Anyway I'm just tired of the same ole same ole. Missing Miss B is the hardest but Annie is trying hard. Anyway I'll stay in touch. Keith
JackieTeller

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Hello to my dear friends, 

Keith, I look forwards to meeting you and hopefully Annie!  I am flying into Greenville but staying in Asheville.  I have your phone number so I will call you in the next week or so.  I am very excited about the trip.  

Tina, I am so so sorry for your struggles.  I can understand how it is hard to get over Parker's passing when it seems so unnecessary.  God had a reason to call Parker home.  I know that is easy to say but to continually beat yourself up over what happened only brings you down.  It pains me to see that.  You did what you thought was best for the sake of Parker.  It is a tragedy what happened but IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT.  Horrible things happen.  Leroy feels your guilt and sadness.  Furbabies are very aware of our emotions.  Yesterday being a bad day for me...LuLu, Blossom and KitKat would not leave me alone!

To everyone else....the hermit crab (me) has finally crawled out of my shell.  As I came to the computer this morning a feather was lying on the floor next to it!  So Rosie is watching out for all of us....my little Rose.  

Love to you all and Keith, I so look forwards to meeting you and hearing about Miss B and Annie.  

Your friend Jackie in Seattle....for now
Mama to Angel Rosie, Blossom, KitKat and LuLu
Karmacat

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Hello dear friends

Apologies for the silence. I do come in to read your posts on a daily basis, and keep updated on all of you.

Lately I have not been doing particularly well. On the one hand I'm mostly on an even keel, but whenever I think of K cat, it still really hurts and the tears always start to flow. Yeah, so it still hurts just about every day, and of course, I miss her so much.

I try to do a little better job taking care of Botti cat these days. She's not a very sociable kitty and keeps pretty much to herself, except when she wants to be fed. But that's alright and I adore her all the same.

Recently I reconnected with a friend who also has cats. He has lost a few well loved cats along the way, and currently had two remaining ones. He told me he is not going to take in any more cats after this, because the heartbreaking losses are too tough to take. When I first took in Botti cat, all I thought about was the work and expense involved in keeping a pet. Little did I realise that the really tough part would be in saying the final farewell to them.

Jackie, those are really lovely poems you penned. I too fancied myself to be something of a writer before but my pen seems to have been frozen since the passing of K cat.

Thank you everybody for having me in your thoughts as we all still journey through the dark lands together...
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Jackie, I would love a poem for Brandy. It would mean so much to me. You are so talented and you understand my grief. I look forward to reading it when you have a chance and the inspiration. Thank you for thinking of Brandy. Hello to all my friends and I hope you are all doing well. Love Diane
Barefoot1

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Hey guys,
It's been awhile just checking in hope all is well. It's been a lo g hot summer here. We look forward to the end of summer like yall look forward to winter end of winter. I've come to the conclusion that Annie is Miss B reincarnated. She really acts just like B she is so stubborn she gets on the track of a mole in the yard and never quits. She just has so many of the same mannerisms. It kind of makes B's lose easier to take. Anyway just thinking out loud. Just wanted to see how everyone's doing. Best friends Keith.
diane772

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Keith I am glad things are going better for you. I have to say it has been very quiet here, I was starting to get concerned. I know life goes on and everyone is busy, and that can be a good thing. I hope everyone is doing good and trying to enjoy their summer and yes Keith winter will be here before we know it.  Take care to all my friends. Love Diane
JackieTeller

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Hello Friends, 

Keith, how funny to say Annie is a reincarnated Miss B.  I have begun to think lately that LuLu is a reincarnated Rosie...somewhat.

I look forwards to seeing you in a couple weeks Keith.  I'll give a call.

I actually have a job that I start Monday!  Lucrative Mom and Pop operation.  Got them to pay me $2/hr. more than their offer.  I have big shoes to fill as Barbara Farmer, my predecessor, is moving to Alaska!  It's a fire alarm company.

Hope everybody is hanging in there.

Jackie in Seattle, WA (mama to Angel Rosie, LuLu, KitKat and Blossom.


Barefoot1

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Diane,
I just read your message to Brandy. You have read my sentiments exactly. I try not to think of B when I am working because i vet so distracted. Today is the day when all my overtime starts again until next May when I can retire and come back. That's the only way we can make money before we retire for good. Everyday I get home I feel better than when I'm gone I think it is because I see Annie and I know B is near. I to have felt that my life will not be the same since I lost her. Anyway next spring I will never have to work overtime again and I can start enjoying life. I might get a wild hair and go to New Hampshire even if it is just to have lunch. Then maybe Erie Penn. Anyway life is not the same but if I can get thru this next 9 months I can maybe live o n my terms. Thanks Diane for speaking to Brandy today it helps me to.
cosesmom

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To all my friends and the family I choose,
Sorry to have been absent from our posts. I've been on my own for three weeks now. Hubby has been in the hospital for almost three weeks now. Hopefully he will home on Saturday. (I'm  praying) I will post over this weekend. I just wanted you all to know that I think of you always and cherish our bond.
Love
Bonnie
(Forever Termy's mom)
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I too read Diane's message to Brandy. It is such a lovely heartfelt one and I can feel the deep love and tenderness in her heart. For me, it's been 20 months since I lost Karma cat, and I find it still so hard to accept the fact that she's gone for good. When we refuse to accept reality, it seldom has a good outcome. I have always been a pretty realistic chap but this time I still can't or am unwilling to accept her passing. Most times when she comes to mind, I still tear up and have a good cry. At some level, I find that rather amazing. The love of a pet seems to be one of the deepest and purest loves, because our tears are shed for them almost entirely, and not so much for ourselves. To think that every beloved animal must suffer illness and death seems totally unacceptable. Now, that statement really makes no sense, but I can't help feeling that way...
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