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JackieTeller

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Hi Everyone, 

Today is 21 months since my sweet Rosie left for the Rainbow Bridge.  I am feeling a bit down but I know she is watching over me and waiting for me.  It is a chilly, sunny day here in Boise.  I am going to take LuLu for a walk on the Greenbelt.  Will hear back regarding her heart echogram next week.  Hoping it's positive news.  

My Sweet Rose, 

It has been 21 months since you passed.  Maybe that's why I found myself up this morning at the same time we made our last drive with you sitting in my lap to a place where you could run and be healthy again.  I downloaded the pictures from our road trip in 2014-2015, including the ones in Tipton, GA and St. Augustine, FL.  Oh how you loved the beach!  Quite a walker and security guard you were, sitting on the dashboard of the RV surveying our surroundings!  Not a day goes by that I don't say good morning and good night to you.  I will love you forever!

Your mama, 
Jackie and your siblings, LuLu, KitKat and Blossom

P.S.  Please make sure LuLu is okay.  
Barefoot1

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Her friends,
Rainy and cold that the story here. More rain than we have ever gotten. Yesterday I had to take Annie for a walk in the mist and cold so she could burn off some energy. Just like Miss B no matter how long I worked and was tired I had to take her for a walk or she was up all night. I miss those walks with her but I do like walking Annie,its just somehow not the same. Alot isn't the same but I'm ready getting used to it.
Anyway how is everyone. Diane I really like your funny post on facebook keep them coming. Ok folks we have kinda slacked off on the post. I know we may not go here as much as we have but come I love hearing about your stories. Please come back and keep writing. Well goodbye from cold and rainy Columbia. Love yall keith.
diane772

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Hello to all my dear friends, It has been terrible here weather wise. This weekend it is supposed to get much warmer, can't wait. The last few days days have been hard for me, I am coming up on 2 years without my beloved Brandy. I still talk to her everyday and I would give anything to hug her one more time. Pearl is doing her best to help me. She does something silly everyday. Thanks for listening. Love Diane
Barefoot1

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Well apparently the powers that be did like the fact I put my ph number on her for Tina if she ever needed to talk to someone. I just sd I read where she had a plan to be with her fur babies after they pass away.. and gave my ph #. Well let's try this again. Friend request me.on facebook. Then we can talk. Anyway happy almost mon. Uggghh.
cosesmom

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Hi all my friends,
I am sorry to have been absent for a while. Things have been a bit hectic for me and my husband. He just had surgery, again for a hernia. One step closer to his reversal of the colostomy. Doctoring my foot and tons of changes with my job. Stressful for me but change is good.

Diane,
My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know how very hard it is. Every year that passes still hurts. I'm approaching a three year mark in a few months. I am sending you my love and understanding and want you to know I am always here for you. I still talk to Termy every day also. Some how it helps sooth the soul and I know that they hear us. They talk to us too all we have to do is close our eyes and listen with our hearts and we can hear the message that they send us. Our Brandy and Termy have never deserted us, they are always by our side. I am so happy for you that Pearl can give you a little love and attention when your heart is heavy. They understand. Thor has been my life savor and brings me smiles everyday.

Keith.
I am glad that you are there for Tina. I hope you can help her. I understand her grief but she needs to pull herself out of the deep depression that has a hold on her. If she plans to end her life to be with Parker after her other babies are gone, she needs to understand that if she does this that God will not let her into Heaven because her mission on earth isn't full filled. That's the reason I didn't join Termy all those months ago. Knowing I couldn't be with him scared me enough to live and when my number is up then I can join Termy but not until I am called home. I am so happy that you and Annie are bonding. I know she will never be Miss B but she can surely help make you smile and lighten your heart. I know walking Annie isn't the same as walking Miss B but while your walking her just close your eyes and you will feel Miss B at your side, jumping up and down saying " Oh, daddy this is so much fun, Me walking with you and Annie" Keep it up no matter how tired you are, I do with Thor every day.
Jackie,
How is LuLu? What kind of news did you get. I bet with Rosie watching over her, everything was okay. Rosie will always take care of you and LuLu. I see you are remembering the journey you shared with Rosie. Keep the good ones close to your heart.

Well, guys. Gotta run for now.
Love always
Bonnie
Karmacat

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Hello dear friends

Well after much procrastination, I did finally get in to talk the psychologist, which was actually quite interesting. It was in a way, the first real opportunity for me to talk at length about Karma cat's passing to another person, and gosh the session went on for almost 2 hours (because she also had no other appointments that afternoon).

First thing that surprised me was that I didn't tear up at all in the session. It was also intriguing to find out that in her 26 years of practice, I was the first person ever to see her regarding the death of a cat! Mind you, she did have many instances of dog owners going in for counselling, but never a cat owner. In another twist, as I was recounting my constant weeping for almost 2 years and lamenting my weakness, she suddenly commented that I was rather resilient! Resilient because I had been able to wait for such a long time in distress before seeking help. That was certainly a different perspective from mine. Perhaps I'm not altogether a wimp...

As she plotted the various losses I had experienced, namely the death of two of my ex girlfriends, and the death of both my parents, of my previous cat in the 80s, she commented that I had experienced a significant amount of loss in my life. More than 'normal', in her view, which again was surprising to me. I had always thought being 60+, losing these family and friends was really quite normal. But she said no, it wasn't.

So I came away with a couple of different perspectives from my own. As expected, there was no magic bullet to fix the grief, and she didn't feel that it was necessary to schedule another session, since I had quite a clear understanding of the problem. She also said that the sadness wouldn't really ever go away, which is what I feel as well, and what I have observed from the experiences of others here on this forum. She shared that she too lost her sister in 2014, and to this day she still thinks of her every day, and the pain is always there.

So that's the latest adventure over here. Before I go, I'd like to address the matter that Tina brought up recently. Tina, when you said you were done with this life, and only just seeing through your responsibilities with your remaining fur babies, I totally got it cos I kind of feel the same way. For me, my distaste with the state of existence runs to an absurd level. I just find the brutality of life and nature just distressing and unacceptable. Where the rabbits must die everyday do the wolves can survive etc. Of course, it is totally foolish and ridiculous to reject reality, but I really do have a quarrel with it. And so, it would be kind of cool to be out of the system, when my time runs out. But having said that, I would never really contemplate jumping off a building. I will try to find a spark of something to keep going. There are no answers probably, but I'm going to keep thinking and searching for one. In the meantime, every morning that I wake up and see my Botti cat one more time is one small moment of joy for me, as I'm sure it is for all of us here.
Karmacat

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Tonight I finally felt strong enough to look through my photos of Karma cat, which is something I've avoided for 2+ years now. I can feel the resolve to put together a small album of her photos growing in me. I won't lie, the photos do bring the tears and grief, but underlying that, there is just a slight hint of positivity. Perhaps from seeing the pictures of her when she was well and healthy and content, before the horror of those last weeks.

So this feels like a small step forward. Soon, I think I will write a long letter to Karma cat, expressing all of my sorrows, my regrets, my wishes and dreams for a different reality. This was suggested by the psychologist as a way to clarify my own thought processes, and it seems like a good suggestion.

Hope everybody is keeping well. Things always seem to be getting darker, especially now again with this growing pandemic. It's not easy to keep positive and think happy thoughts.
diane772

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Dear Karmacat, I wish I could say something to help with the pain but there is nothing. I do feel you are going in the right direction. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I really think the letter will help, in fact I may do it myself. It always helps to put your feelings down on paper, I think it helps to heal the soul. Please be well love Diane
Barefoot1

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Hey guys, kcat I have also written not so much a letter to B but almost a diary. I started soon after I lost her. I write tell her every few months just venting about how I miss her and how life is now. I dont thi k anyone but myself will ever read it nor do I want them to. It just helps me go back in time when she was on the back of the couch and I talked to her like my best friend. It helps and it's just between B and myself.
Anyway I hope everyone is doing good as winter is coming g to an end ( at least here). Not that we've had a winter. We've had more rain than we've ever gotten. It rains for many days in a row and is very depressing. I'm sorry Jackie I havent called but training for this new job is very time consuming,but I will. Diane , Bonnie I hope y'all are doing good Bonnie you've been very quiet please drop a line. Well goodbye fir now,best friends Keith.
Barefoot1

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Oh lord Tina I meant to tell you to write us. I am worried about you. In general what part of the country , or world for that matter ,do you live. Just like to have an idea where everyone is from. I myself live in hot steamy s.c. let us hear from you. Keith.
cosesmom

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To all my friends,
My life with Thor is wonderful. He helps me in so many ways. There are a lot of things he does reminds so much of Termy. I know as I live and breath that Termy has so much to do with this. Thor has his own personality but he has a lot of quirks that Termy had. He loves walking with me and we go out every night as long as it's above 20 degrees. Today it was 60 degrees and we (Darla and Thor) took two walks. We totaled 3 miles. Monday Darla has an appointment at the vets for her six month check up and some booster shots. Next month Thor has to go.
I have some exciting news to share. I ordered a DNA kit for Thor to see what mixed breeds he is. I'm so excited to get the results back. I'll let you guys know when I get the results.
Hubby had his Hernia fixed and now March 13 he gets some of his tests he needs to get the reversal. His attitude is so much better. Things are looking up.
Works been busy. The day just fly. Racing season is coming up soon and I can't wait. I have enough vacation to take off early very Friday for the whole summer.
I see Chihuahua rescue on Facebook and I want to help all of them, knowing I can't. It's so sad to see so many pets that people just throw away.
Hey maybe we could do a friend request on Facebook. I know Keith and Diane already are friends. Could I be your friend to?
I hope that Jackie, Diane, Tina, Karma cat and Keith that all of you are doing good. I know we all have healed and have learned to live our new normal but Keith is right we forged a friendship and need to continue to always be here for one another.
Love you guys
Bonnie
MyLittleOneIsGone

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To Bonnie, did you get an additional dog? I think I'm out of the loop. I read something you like racing? Car racing? Do you go to them? I live in northeast PA near Pocono Raceway. Then I read something you wrote about Chihuahuas, a rescue? My 2 boys were/are Chi-Beagles, but everything Chihuahua except Porter is more of a Beagle with other animals. My sweet passed away Parker could care less. He was 100% Chihuahua. I was looking on Petinder and Aoldopt a Petfor small fosters for Leroy's company, but they can't look like Parker. The only 2 were taken. I am afraid to adopt and go through a loss. As it is Leroy (Beagle) needs a lump removed next week. He showed perfect liver and pancreas profile. I worry more about Porter's health and risk. He needs dental cleaning badly. I'm looking at firstcwerk on April. So very scare. It's too soon for a loss for me. I'm not a Facebook person. I dropped off 4 years ago because I found it superficial.

I guess they have rescues like that all over. It would really be for Leroy who lost his best friend. If I ever get a fatal disease, before I go I will pay a mobster to bust the legs, arms and head of that vet who I know in my heart and with the state sales he broke, that he killed my Parker with negligence and malpractice. Karma will persevere. ~ Parker's Mom, Tina
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hi Keith. I am in NE PA, the lovely Poconos -- Mount Airy Lodge all that crap. We moved here to get away from the city and dumps, and they come here anyway on weekend trips to shop. I'm sure our time is coming when they bring Coronavirus with them and their usual crud. I always stay clear of them. We have puny mountains and not much to see. It's mostly shopping outlets, some toy store gambling. I'd say The Sands in Bethlehem is the best. They come up with an attitude as if they are staying high class at Reno or Lake Tahoe. Yeah, right. With no snow. We've had mild winters, no winters. Skiing was not in my picture. Last year I had a season pass and I never used it after what happened to Parker. I am no way close to getting over that. I get urges to strangle that vet for murdering my dog, my friend, my child. That's all right. He got a letter from Parker on Xmas Eve, the anniversary. Next month Parker will speak to him from the grave on his birthday and remind him how young he still is. I don't want him to forget what he did.

I hope you are hanging in there.

Parker may be with Miss B and maybe hooked up with my first dog, a dapple Dachshund named Max. If there really is a place. I have days I have doubts and that's when I lose hope.

~ Parker's Mom, Tina
JackieTeller

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Hello to all my friends, 

I have been AWOL for awhile but you have all been in my thoughts.  Oh God, how I can relate so well to what everyone has said.  

KCat - I'm in the same perspective as you.  I carry on but this world is going down the tubes...and fast.  I watch my savings melt away, people dying from the Corona Virus, our "so-called president".  I could go on and on but I think we all know. 

It has been very stressful here in Boise.  Before I left Seattle almost six months ago, I lived within walking distance of the nursing home that is where so many people have died.  So this health pandemic hits very close to home for me.  

Nothing in Idaho yet but it's a matter of when...not if.  I am cutting back on my activities because I am in the age bracket that gets really sick.  Even though I consider myself relatively healthy, the constant barrage of information from the media is making me sick.  

That and watching my savings lose so much money...on paper.  I am still unemployed and don't know if I want to look for a job right now.  I think I just want to go away to a tropical island with my furbabies and no people and be a hermit for a year.  

LuLu's heart scan came back okay.  No meds yet but keep an eye on her.  She is on a diet but is such a garbage hound and begs so badly it is stressing me out.  But I know it is for her benefit to lose the pounds.

Love you all, 

Jackie in Boise....where we finally had rain and cleaned the dust from the air.  Hurry up Spring!  
Barefoot1

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Bonnie yes I want to be friends with all our group. I'm keith barefoot And yes there is a few. I wouldnt have thought there were any others with my name but there is. I'm the one with the little dachsund over my shoulder on the couch. I like seeing Diane's post they usually give me a good laugh. Kcat send me a friend request. And Tina sounds like you are between Bonnie and Diane. Good to know where everyone is from. Yall take care and let's meet on Facebook. Friends Keith.
diane772

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Hello to all my friends, I would love to be friends on facebook. Diane Riley in NH. My photo is a picture of Brandy. Please send me a friend request. Jackie I am so happy about Lulu. Try carrots for her treats, I used to give them to Brandy raw or boil them with a hotdog and throw the hotdog away. Love to all Diane
Karmacat

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It's great to hear from everyone! Bonnie, I was very happy to hear the good news coming out from your end, it actually cheered me up!

Keith and Diane, I've just sent you a friend request on fb. It's really nice to see your actual faces after getting to know you kind folk on this forum. Jackie and I are already hooked up on fb.

Jackie, I know well the feeling of seeing the bank account shrink - I've been going through it for years! Anyway it looks like there is a real crisis coming down upon us now, with health and financial climates looking bleak so do try to manage your situation carefully.

Tina, you have every reason to feel angry and bitter at the vet who was responsible for what happened to Parker. Some say, forgiveness is a gift we give ourselves. Perhaps at some stage you might consider this. It sounds trite I know, but there could be some truth in that saying.
JackieTeller

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Hello to all my friends, 

Well, I had to take a break from seeing the world "go to hell".  Try to muster some positivity.  KCat, I so agree with you regarding forgiveness.  I have a small framed plaque that reads, "forgive others not because they deserve forgiveness but because you deserve peace."  

That says it all for me.  There are so many people in my life who have basically sh*t on me, including my own two kids.  Ex-husbands who abused me and drained my finances, ex-bosses who ranted at me when I tried to improve service, kids that are now entering middle-age that haven't spoken to me in years, the government, etc. etc.  It gets me nowhere.  

That is ALOT of evil and adversity in the world.  There is also ALOT of goodness.  Friends like all of you, Keith, KCat, Bonnie, Diane and Tina.  My beloved furbabies, LuLu, KitKat and Blossom.  Strangers who extend a hand of kindness to me.  Mother Nature in all its magnificence.  I have to remind myself there is more positive than negative in this world.  Otherwise, what is the point of living?  

I am not trying to dismiss the negative....but when I go there it is not good.  That is one of the main reasons I left Seattle.  A beautiful place scenic wise but a hell hole otherwise.  

I feel blessed to take a breath today.  

Love to all my "family"

Jackie in Boise
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hi All,
We here in the US, and all around the world, are struggling with this virus situation and its repercussions. We need to support each other mentally to get through this.  It's hard enough when we lose our closest furbaby friend(s) and the grieving process lowers our immune system, but now we have this to worry about. 

I'll tell you that I am truly afraid of this. I am over 63 and I am basically healthy, but I don't go out much which probably makes me less immune to the usual germs.  I hadn't been out for a while and last week a bomb hit me. I was sick for a couple of days. I didn't have the virus symptoms I read about last week, but today I am reading about other symptoms and they include what I had last week. I just read that Tom Hanks (who is diabetic) and his wife have the virus. The symptoms they described were the same I had last week. I am reading the true viral symptoms can take up to 14 days to show up. Now I must be tested tomorrow. If I am positive, both my husband I will have to be quarantined.  I hope that is not the case. 

My husband works for the airlines. I've been worried about his health at the airport. The flights have recently been empty. Management talked about layoffs and relocations the other day. After the President's request tonight that flights are suspended from Europe for 30 days (and who knows if it will be extended), this weekend my husband will find out if he will be laid off. He doesn't have a lot of seniority.  I am retired. I will look for work if that happens. 

I've read that a dog in China contracted the virus from its owner. The dog was fine, but it's scary if anyone gets it and has pets.  I wish the news would warn people not to get too close to your pets if you test positive. 

Things have been so surreal since I lost my little Parker. I have lived in a fog since then and in a feeling of unreality.  With the world the way it is today, I really feel like it's more surreal.  Just as Jackie wrote, I am watching my life retirement savings shrink. I agree that at our age, it's scary to know that it can take many years to recover if the financial market stays like this. 

Sorry to sound like a doomsayer, but the numbers are out there and they keep going up. 

I still have my 2 little boys who I love so very much and I never stop thinking of Parker.  My Beagle Leroy needs a lump removed Monday, 3-16.  I do have a good vet. I am keeping my fingers crossed Leroy recovers with no incident. I can't go through another loss especially with what's going on in the world right now. I feel for everyone in every town, city, state, country, province, and nation. I believe we in this world are all family and I am praying for everyone.

I am not on Facebook so I will continue to communicate here.  Please take good care of yourselves. I believe wearing eyeglasses whether cheap $1 plano or prescription glasses can protect our eyes from airborne droplets entering our system. Our eyes are connected to our nasal passages so I believe they can be a route for germs. I'm not a medical professional, but when they tell us not to touch our eyes, why should we leave them uncovered an vulnerable to airborne germs?  Hold your loved ones tight, animal and human and let's get through this.  Thinking positive things will soon be back to normal.

~ Tina - Parker's Mom
JackieTeller

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Hello to all my dear friends, 

Well today I woke up to find that Idaho is one of the six remaining states that does not have a positive corona virus victim.  I feel like we are just waiting to be picked off.  Of course it probably already is here; just a lack of testing kits!

I am 64 years old and I am worried.  I pray for all of us and Mother Earth.  I live in an apartment complex with lots of refugees, kids, and younger people.  Since I have major sinus and allergy issues and am older with high blood pressure, I definitely do not want to get sick.  I don't want to be paranoid but practice common sense; however in this age of gloom and doom, it is hard not to panic.  

Because I moved from Seattle to Idaho only six months ago (today actually) this really hits home to me personally.  My daughter still lives there.  I have friends and acquaintances there.  My daughter has a small coffee shop in West Seattle.  It is HARD right now.  

My furbabies instinctively know Mom is upset.  KitKat pooped on my kitchen rug yesterday and looked at me as if, "the world is going to hell in a hand basket...who cares if I pooped on the rug."  Blossom has been out of control; running and jumping on everything.  For such a little cat, she almost knocked the tv off its stand last night!  LuLu is there for me but she has become extremely needy; to the point where I feel like I need a break.

So there you have it folks.  I am grateful to have you all as my friends, my furbabies, and relatively healthy right now.  Today is sunny in a world of "gloom and doom" but I am going to make the best of it.

I also don't do Facebook much.  I don't know why, but I don't.  Love and prayers to all of you.

Jackie in Boise with Angel Rosie, LuLu, KitKat and Blossom 
Barefoot1

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Hello to everyone,
Kcat and Bonnie it's great to see both of you. Kcat you look like you have a good time playing music. Whwt kind of music do yall play? Wish I could come down and hear yall play. Bonnie you look like you would fit in great here in S.C. You look like a good ole country girl. That's the best kind so glad to see you.
Well we have the virus down here to and everything is closing up hopefully that will slow if not stop the spread. Annie is sitting here staring at me like she's wondering what all the fuss is about. Sometimes I think it would be better to be a dog. You know eat sleep and poop. Well actually that's what my retirement has been like. I hope I start working soon not really for the money but to occupy my time. Sitting around with alot of time to ponder the world is not a good thing these days.
Tina maybe it's good you dont go out much it's better not to be around to many people these days. Please let us know what your test results are in praying for you.
Diane I hope you are doing good. Dont go out if you dont have to. Geez this sounds like one of those apocolyptic movies doesn't it. Man I hope it doesn't get that bad. Jackie you stay safe young lady I don't want to hear about you catching anything. I know you've had a bad time with your biological family but remember you have a 2nd family here. That goes for all of you please do what the medic people say and we will get thru this. Please stay safe everyone and now more than ever stay in touch. Keith in getting hot already S.C.
Karmacat

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Hello everybody

Keith, I play all types of music, and also play five different instruments. Not a professional musician by any means. Now I'm starting to rue the loud rock music I used to play when younger since I have this wonderful ringing in my ears constantly. And drumming without ear protection in my senior years was kinda dumb too.

Day by day, the nightmare scenario is getting more and more real. I can't believe how the numbers had exploded in Europe all of a sudden. We really are stepping into an uncertain future, and this pandemic is at all our doorsteps now. I'm quite sick of meditating on my bed already but looks like that will have to go on.

I'll take the liberty of sending you who I've friended on fb a recent short clip that is quite funny. Hopefully it might just brighten the day a little. Please take care everybody and be in good health.
diane772

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Hello to all my friends, everyone has been quiet. I know that these have been tough times with all that is going on in the world. Please everyone stay safe. I am missing going out and talking to people. I used to go shopping and you could talk to strangers about the weather or anything else but now no one talks. I don't blame them or myself for being cautious. I guess I am just connecting with all of you. Pearl is getting a little tired of me talking to her and telling her of my day. She wants her beauty sleep. Please all of you be safe and healthy. Thank you Love Diane
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hello everyone,
I hope you are all safe and healthy. It's cold here. I'd like to know where Spring is?  Early Spring according to a dumb groundhog. Certainly untrue.

I get a flu shot every October. I don't get sick often.  When I do, I get some kind of virus, but it clears in a few day to a week. I take Mucinex and Tylenol.  This is the first time I've had some kind of virus for over 3 weeks.  I have the chills, sore throat, rundown.  Yesterday I woke up the first day without a sore throat or chills.  Then last night it came back. I was freezing, pumped up the heat, and used 3 blankets. Today I am very tired, cold, and rundown.  I don't think it's gone.  I am willing to bet I have this coronavirus.  Why, do you ask?  Because on 2/28, I had routine physical with a doctor who I last decided I would not return to and I did again, this time because I couldn't reach my new doctor and I got tired of pressing 1, 2, 3, etc. and not getting through. I went there with a suspect UTI. I wasn't feeling sick with any cold or virus. I'm alone in the waiting room in the corner. One guy with BO sits on my left. A mother and her child sit on my right. In my mind, I am amazed that with an empty room, these people had to sit right next to me. I should have moved, but I knew I was next and I would be called soon. Finally, I was called. The doctor starts poking me all over, the usual, check my hand strength for arthritis, etc. Then I think to myself, "I didn't see him wash his hands."  I was okay for a couple of days. That was Friday. On Sunday night I was a little rundown. Nothing serious. Monday I had errands to do. That day it was unusually warm, 60 degrees here. I left in the morning with a winter jacket. By noon it was 60 and I was freezing, in my car, with the heat blasting, and my heated seats at full speed. Now I know I got something. Then came the back ache and body aches on my way home. It was like a bomb dropped on me. You can imagine how much I cursed out that doctor. I knew he gave me something. How many people did he poke all day before seeing me late in the afternoon?  Without washing his hands?  I have been sick ever since then. Yesterday I thought it was gone. It's not. I don't fit the criteria for a test. I'm not in the hospital. I wasn't around a "confirmed" case, and I am not over 65, but I am 63.  I am a healthy person, so it's unusual for me to have some kind of virus for over 3 weeks. 

My Beagle, Leroy successfully had his cyst removed on 3/16. Yay!  He's a trooper. Wearing a cone for 3 weeks again for the second time in 4 months. I have to give him credit for being so good about it. This coming Monday, 3/23, Porter needs 2 extractions. It was discovered 1 of his tiny teeth fell out and there are 2 that are loose and he is in pain. He has perio problems. I have asked my dog Parker, in Heaven or wherever he is, to once again, watch over his other brother this time and get him through this without a hitch.  Of course I'm on pins and needles since Porter has underlying pancreatitis, but he hasn't shown recent symptoms although last week's liver and pancreatic profile showed higher than normal numbers. Porter had similar numbers last year and he may just run high.  I hope that's really it.  I am dreading Monday, due to what happened with Parker, his brother, but then, I have always believed that was human error.  I'm still concerned about Porter and until tomorrow afternoon, I will be pacing, worrying like I do about everything, and I will be thinking positively.  

I want to pass along how I am feeling about this crisis.  I am sorry for everyone who is going through this awful time. For those who are losing their pets, and who have also lost family and friends to this awful virus.  Being of Italian descent, I am so saddened about the Lombardy region in particular which has lost so many.  I early retired from Sanofi who is a leader in vaccines and one of largest pharma companies. They manufacture vaccines 10 miles from my house. I am seeking work there as a a temp. Haven't heard anything yet. I am giving blood on 3/27. (I hope I don't faint from the sight.)  I want to help as much as I can with this. It's not for the money, although my husband works for United and he's most likely going to be laid off or lose his job. They are losing $100 million a day. He said the planes are empty, and that's at Newark, a huge airport. 

Keeping all of you and the world in my heart that this goes away quickly and that we all can go on with our lives again.   Be careful out there. I've heard from reliable sources on TV that if someone has it, they can transfer it to our pet's fur and then we can get it even though our pets are not symptomatic.  I think that's how it's been going with children who are not symptomatic, they may be carrying it.  Scary time now.  Stay safe.  Practice the Japanese bow and you won't have to get close or elbow greet someone who just sneezed into their elbow.  (I never thought that greeting idea was very smart.) 

Write when you can to let us all know how if you are well and safe.

With love,

~ Parker's Mom - Tina Love (my married name)

*I just realized. I don't think I can donate blood if I am not feeling well and possibly have this virus. 
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Hello to my dear friends Keith, KCat, Bonnie, Diane and Tina, 

Well, I am somewhat at a loss for words as to what is happening in this world right now!  And THAT is very unusual for me!  I pray all of us gets through this and I pray for our furbabies.  A neighbor of mine said you could get corona virus from dogs.  I thought, "Hogwash", but when I took LuLu to Quinn's Pond the City of Boise was there and told me I couldn't walk with LuLu unless she was a service dog!  Well, she is, but at this point I don't know who is servicing whom...  

The "new normal" sucks.  There is no lockdown here yet...but I suspect it's coming soon.  LuLu and I went for a drive last night after I picked up my meds and it was like the Apocalypse had arrived...restaurants closed, etc. etc.  

On the 18th it was 22 months since Rosie passed to the Rainbow Bridge.  I still miss my little girl EVERY DAY.  I have kept up a brave front for LuLu and the Pussycat Sisters, but I feel like if I think about Rosie to much, I will break down.  I am so grateful FOR ALL OF YOU....you are the family I never had.  All of you understand what it's like to lose a child; as Rosie was definitely my little girl.  I cry tears now.  I hope to God there is a Rainbow Bridge and an afterlife where we are free of suffering.  It is the one thing that keeps me going in these dark times.

Love to you all...  Keith, I should have moved to North Carolina.  I may end up there.  My allergies have been HORRIBLE since I moved to Boise six months ago.  

Love, 
Jackie
Mama to LuLu, KitKat, Blossom and Angel Rosie

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Hello dear friends Jackie, Keith, Bonnie, Diane and Tina,

Firstly, it's great to hear from everybody. The situation we are facing is grim indeed, and unprecedented. The word that keeps coming up is in conversations about this pandemic is 'surreal'. Just seems like it couldn't be true, but then it really is happening.

It was tough enough for us still struggling to cope with the loss of our loved fur babies, but now, it is another whole layer of stress and fear to navigate. Plus the isolation from our friends and family, from our entertainments and social activities..

I guess there is really nothing I could add that hasn't already been said. I've been actually quite solitary and isolated for years now, but even so, it's really starting to grind on me. I have crossed another small milestone in that I've been able to look at Karma cat's photos recently, which I just couldn't do before. I invariably tear up, but it usually doesn't last for very long. And sometimes, seeing the pictures of when she was well, healthy and happy, she does look like a right proper pampered lady there.. And just for a brief moment, I feel a short moment of calmness. But that does not last either.

Anyway, I can just wish everyone to stay safe and healthy. Tina, I sincerely wish you did not catch the covid bug. Statistically, the probability is very low, but of course that is no guarantee against infection. Hope this nightmare lifts soon.
MyLittleOneIsGone

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Hi Karmacat and all,

Yes. I do believe I was infected with the virus and I am almost positive where I got it. From a doctor who never washed his hands -- at least not in front of me. I was there for a routine physical and 3 days later it was 60 degrees and sunny, and I was in a black car with black interior with a winter jacket and the heat blasting with the chills and body aches, and for 3 weeks ever since,. Headache, tired, and all. Not a flu. Not a cold. Definitely some kind of virus. I still have the chills, but I am getting better each day. I never smoked and barely drink and I'm sure that's why it hasn't traveled to my lungs and I am able to fight it. Plus, my WBC was low and showed I had some kind of infection or inflammation. To much of a coincidence. That doc is off my list. Unfortunately, I will not be giving blood because I was sick. It's a shame because I am generally very healthy. I have a strong immune system. 

My little guys, Leroy and Porter have successfully recovered from their surgeries. Yesterday Porter had to get 5 teeth removed which were loose and he was in pain. It's over and I am so glad they are both back to their crazy selves. Both of them have underlying medical conditions and they did fine, including Leroy who had 2 surgeries in 4 months. My dear Parker had no known conditions, never sick, always healthy, ate the same food and drank the same water as my other 2. He didn't survive a routine dental and the only difference was the vet.  So, it was the vet, not my dog. All of my dogs are healthy and strong. Parker was left to die. I am still waiting for the state to bring the hammer down on this guy.

I hope you all are well and "keeping your social distance."  I have always been isolated here so I have always kept a social distance, but not on purpose!  

There is so much going on and every town, city, and state, and country has a story and many stories. We are all in the same boat, trying to get through this. One day at a time. Prevention and medicine takes time. Unfortunately, it won't be overnight.  Every day will be a struggle for people on the front lines -- medical, etc.  I commend them for being there for the ill and those in need.   "Code Blue" is a horrible thing to hear once.  Imagine hearing it all day long?  The stress must be unbelievable. 

Thank you all for your efforts.

~ Parker's Mom - Tina


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Hi Tina

How are you doing? I hope your suspicions about being infected have prove to be unfounded and that you are in good health.

Friends, the situation in your country has deteriorated dramatically in the last few days. I just pray all of you will do your best to avoid contamination and stay well and healthy. On a lighter note, having a companion dog, cat or other animal helps tremendously at this time of isolation and fear.
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Jackie Boise a 6.5 earthquake. What the hell did you feel it are you ok?. Is it Yellowstone about to blow. Isn't rhat the last thing this country needs is a large earthquake. I hope it's not a sign of something worse to come. I do hope you and the babies are safe. Lets us know if the quakes continue. I would say come south but we are about to start hurricane season. With the luck our country is having this might be a bad storm season. Well Tina Diane and Bonnie I hope yall are all well. Jjst remember hall dont live that far apart. If you need to yall huddle up together with all the furbabies. Then yall could take care of each other
Yall really need to talk and see if you could meet somewhere.mid way. Yall could have a blast with all the little babies. If I lived closer I'd love to come up there.with yall. Matter of fact if you give me the address id.trt to make it up there with supply. You know 3 my toilet paper. Hmm the food stuff. Well stay safe me friends and stay indoors
Love.keith

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Hello to my friends from Corona Virus Earthquakeville, 

Yes, Keith, the earthquake was something else.  A neighbor, Will, yelled "Earthquake" while I was at a neighbor's apt.  We all ran out of the building like lemmings!  Kids, moms, dads, dogs barking, cats meowing...etc. etc.  I have to say I haven't felt one like that since I lived in Seattle 20 years ago.  Before that I was in THE BIG QUAKE of 64 in Alaska where entire towns were swallowed up.  All this excitement and sheer boredom is taking a toll.

Not working and holed up inside is getting to me.  And the toll here (not death) is climbing to 700.  I am financially okay but mentally a wreck.  LuLu has been right by my side.  So have the pussy cat girls.  

I'm going to get outside today and drive to a near by park.  Keith, I may still make it to North Carolina.  Boise is starting to get to me.....

Jackie in boring Boise....
Karmacat

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Jackie, good to hear you are okay. You do indeed have a way with words. Your "hello from Coronavirus Earthquakeville" really cracked me up and made me laugh out loud for a good 30 seconds. That was an extremely welcome respite from my gloomy state, so I thank you for that.

Meanwhile, wish everybody a happy isolation, and stay from the virus and other deadly stuff.
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To all my friends, Hello.
I know I have been quite lately but I have been reading all of your posts. Keep them coming. I haven't read any other posts for a while on Petloss. On the advice of a friends I've backed off. I am so tired of being sad. I know I will always have a sadness deep in my heart for Termy but I want to remember the good times to. When I read of the losses that others have or are going through what we've all experienced it makes me relive Termy's last few months and his last day on earth. His life was so much more than those last few months. I know this may sound selfish of me and I apologize if it does. I know we all suffered a huge loss in our lives and we will never be whole or the same. A friend of mine had to let her "Georgie" go last week and I sobbed like a baby. It touches my heart so deeply when a fur baby gets their wings. I wish I could be stronger, but I'm a big softy and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I know it's normal to have a sadness when we think of our fur babies but I don't want to hold onto the sadness every waking moment of my day. I still go out every night, as I have done for 2 and a half years and talk to Termy. I tell him that I love him and miss him so much. I also wish him a good night and blow him a kiss. I think,of all of you guys everyday and fondly remember Miss B. Brandy, Rosie, K Cat and Parker. I hope you all can understand why I am doing this. I will always check in with you and drop a line. I'm still working everyday, for now.
Please know that I cherish all of you and love the friendship we have.l
Always here for you.
Bonnie
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Hi Everyone,
Thank you for asking about me.  Jackie, I'm sorry to hear about the earthquake. Unbelievable. Of all places. I was surprised to hear about it over there.  I am glad you are okay.  I heard about the other one in Utah a few days earlier. That surprised me, too.  Oh boy, I don't know one place on this Earth that has perfect weather and/or conditions. There seems to be something in every place.

Bonnie, I'm sorry about your friend's pet loss. It must stir up emotions for you.  I hope all is well with you Keith, Karmacat, Diane, and forgive me if I've left anyone out.

I am feeling much better. It seemed every other day I would be freezing, shivering and tired and the next day I would feel okay.  I think the worst is gone, whatever it was.  I think I mentioned  that Leroy had a cyst removed on March 16 and he is doing great. His cone and stitches come off on Monday. Porter had 5 extractions on March 23 and it only took him a few hours to be back to his lively self.  

I may have mentioned that my husband (Bob) works as a mechanic at Newark Airport. They consider the airport workers "essential", at least in NJ they do.  He has a sign "essential worker" in his car.  They airline talked about layoffs, but it sounds like that could happen in September. Maybe now would be better and safer for him because of things that are happening there right now.  Two weeks ago a healthy 52-yr old ramp worker went to the health center because he was falling asleep and didn't feel right. They sent him home. He began having breathing trouble. Went to hospital and died a few days later. Some guys in Bob's shop have been quarantined at home.  There are quite few who are home. They used to always wear the N95 mask when doing jobs, but they have no masks now. Masks are only for flight attendants.  Today he went back to work after a few days off. Someone in the next shop, who he used to work with, got sick last week. Had been in the hospital since then and died today from the virus. He was in his 50's.  Everyone in that shop is home on quarantine for 2 weeks.  He told me 2 other guys are on ventilators. He thinks they are in their 40's. He said some others are home with the virus.  No masks. People are sick. People don't know if they have it. They are not being tested. So, my husband started talking about how he wants to go and getting a will and a trust.  He had to go. He stays there overnight to work 2 doubles. He will be home tomorrow night, I hope. I know I won't be able to sleep. I know some of the guys in his shop. I'm always making bread, cake, habanero sauce, candied jalapenos, and more for them.  I am troubled by this.  His airport is in the epicenter of the NY/NJ coronavirus. We live in PA, 90 minutes from the airport that's why he stays there. Most of the guys come from the NYC area, and NJ, where most cases are. You've probably heard about it on the news.  I don't know what to think right now. He will be home for a few days, but then he will be back to work again, no mask, no test. My husband doesn't smoke and rarely drinks. He's 54, but that doesn't mean anything from the new information we have been told by the experts.  I lost my dog and it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through.  I still miss my little Parker. I had a meltdown the other day because I was calling for him. I must be losing it with this whole virus situation, thinking about everyone in the world who is going through hard times.  Dr. Chris (my vet) did everything right when Leroy had 2 surgeries in 4 months and with Porter's extractions. I felt lucky.  Now, I am worried (natural worrier, by the way), that I may become a widow.  Another loss?  Could that really happen to me?

I hope you are all well and healthy.  I feel physically good.  I want to hear that you are all well, too.  I wish this was all a bad dream. I always hoped it was a bad dream when I lost Parker, but reality set in and I had to go on with my life. Not long after that, this horrible thing was put upon us.  Now this raging virus is stealing our happiness and inflicting mental anguish on us, especially those in the front lines.  I applaud all of them. Keep in touch. I want to know how you are all doing. I hope I never have to bear any bad news again when I post.  Once was enough for me.

You all, or Keith, should I say, "Y'all" take care. Peace, health, and happiness be with you.  Many events and plans have been canceled because of this virus.  Life and happiness are only postponed. We will get through this. The world will join together with our strength and fortitude.

Sincerely,
Tina ~ Parker's Mom 

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Hello everyone, first of all I want to say thank you for posting your thoughts, well wishes for everyone and what is going on with all of you. It helps me hearing about your lives. Tina my prayers go out to you and your husband. Bonnie, it sounds like you are doing better. For that I am very happy. Karmacat, I often think of you and wondering how it is all going in your part of the world. Please keep us informed. Jackie, with all that is going on with you I love the fact that you still have a sense of humor. Sometimes that is all we have so stay strong and keep finding humor in life. Keith it was so good to hear from you. Sounds like you are holding it all together. I am doing well, it's funny I have always been a homebody but when someone tells you to stay home all of a sudden you want to go somewhere. Pearl is keeping me entertained with her playful nature. Lately she has decided 1:00 am is a good time to play. She likes to play fetch with a rolled up piece of paper, so she brings her paper in and puts it on the bed. I still miss Brandy every minute of every day and I am sure you all can relate. Everyone please take care and stay safe. Love Diane
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