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BeausMomma

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Beau went to heaven April 10th at 10:37pm. I am LOST! I lost my Mother 3 years ago also on April 10th. I adopted Beau less than a year ago from a rescue. But I can honestly say he was put on this earth for me. I suffered from anxiety attacks and depression after losing my Mom, Beau changed all that. We had an instant connection. He was my friend, my shadow, my comfort.
It all happened so fast...one minute he was fine and the next was traumatizing for my whole family. He was running outside with our other dog and he must have stepped wrong because he made this terrible sound and went down, he was paralyzed from the waist down. My husband and I took him to an urgent care right away praying and hoping that they would fix him up and we would be going home. My husband went in and checked him in, I sat in the back with my friend and I looked him in the eye and said I love you bud and I promise to do what is best for you.
When the Vet came in and said that Beau had a ruptured disc that compromised his spinal cord and he was paralyzed I was devastated. He gave us all of our options...all which seemed to be in MY best interest not Beau’s, even on pain meds he was panting and obviously in pain and uncomfortable. I didn’t want that for my friend, after everything he did for me, I felt this was my way to thank him, to be there for him when he needed me.
Needless to say, I am devastated...there are no other words...I can’t sleep...he used to sleep in bed with me, I can’t move because he was always by my side. I can’t imagine life without him and don’t know how to stop the tears. I keep going over the last few hours of his life seeing how much different my life would be if I did things a little different. Would he still be here? I am heartbroken and I miss my friend so much! He knew me, he loved me unconditionally and was a Momma’s Boy!
Rheena

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I am so sorry. I know those words my seem not much but I feel you exact pain and hurt. We had to but my baby to sleep on April 9th for the same issue your Beau had. It hurts so much and the pain seems so unbearable.
grievingmom

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My heart goes out to you. 
Rockies88

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I am so sorry for your loss! I lost my sweet girl Suzy Q who was a Maine Coon mix. I adopted her from a rescue as well last year. I had only 11 and a half months before she became very sick last week with Chronic Kidney Failure she was only 7 or 8. I had to have her put down on Friday. I spent over $2,000 for her to do fluid therapy and to stay with the vets for 4 days. She was doing so good and then within 12 hours or so after the 3rd day she declined rapidly. I was and still am devastated. She Showed no signs of feeling ill. She had some bad kitty breath but I had absolutely no idea that could be a sign of kidney failure based on what the vet told us. I was devastated because had I known and the overprotective person that’s i am I would have gone as soon as I noticed which was a few months before.I have had cats in the past that had bad breath and one died at 22 years old a few years back so I thought nah it’s just kitty breath and she acted like herself and didn’t act off at all. Im still devastated because I just want my sweet girl with me by my side. She always waited for me to open my bedroom door in the morning to come up on the bed, headbutt me, paw, make her quirky noises and purr telling me to get up. She slept by my side at night until I fell asleep and it’s been challenging and Heart breaking ever since because she’s not here now. I’ve been beating myself up and crying every day wondering what if I noticed sooner or if I knew could I have saved her! I have all these what ifs eating at me which I know I shouldn’t. Like you I had a very special bond with her and I’m lost with out her now! I hope that with time you will be able to heal and find comfort. Just know that she is watching over you now and that our pets knew and still know how much we loved them and always will! They know they will always be in our hearts and that one day we will meet our precious fur babies again.
BeausMomma

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Oh Rheena I am so sorry! It is so difficult...he was perfect and happy one second and then he was in so much pain. I promised him I would do what was best for him and although I feel like my heart has been ripped out I know I did what was best for Beau. I will be praying for you and if you ever want to talk I am here!
Rheena

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Thank you BeausMomma. You are in my prayers as well.
BeausMomma

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Rockies, I am so sorry for your loss. Rescues I believe are very special animals. I have been playing the what if’s over and over again...I will be praying for peace and comfort for you!
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