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A friend recommended this site to me 3 weeks ago, and since then, I've been reading and coping with my loss, unsure if I should post anything. This site has been so helpful in dealing with my grief, so I'm hoping that posting this may help a little more.
Three weeks ago, I had to put my Miniature Schnauzer, and dear friend Manfred, down. I can't begin to decribe the feeling of guilt over his loss. He was only 7, but had contracted heartworms. I had become distracted with so many things going on in my life: getting married, and the birth of my daughter, that I didn't keep up with his heartworm preventative. When I took him to the vet in January, the heart worm test was negative, and we thought his decrease in activity was angst over the new baby, and age. When I took him to the vet 3 weeks ago the heart worm test was positive, and it was too late to save him. I didn't realize how much this little dog had become such a big part of my life, and I miss him dearly. Thank you to all who contibute to this site. Believieng that my beloved friend is waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge has eased things a little. Thank you so much. Goodbye my friend!
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Dear Nathan: I am so sorry to hear about your loss of Manfred. My mom had am min. schnauzer, Schatzie that died of cancer about 10 years ago when she was only 10-11 years old. She was a sweet dog - I think Schnauzers are such an incredible breed of dog.
You've come to the right place to deal with your grief and your loss. Everyone here is so kind and consoling. Your loss helps to remind us the importance of making sure we keep up with the Heartworm preventative for our own pets -thanks for reminding me! Take care and give your self time to heal. Ann - Sammy's forever Mom Now Mom to Grace (black lab mix), D.C. (cat) and Boo (cat)
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I lost my little schnauzer girl Molly to malignant oral cancer just last October. The picture of your Manfred looks so like one of my Molly.
They have a way of working themselves into our hearts don't they?
We miss Molly everyday and talk a lot about her. I come here and post during the good times and the bad times.
I'm glad you decided to post. You already know what a compassionate group this is.
On another note. My husband and I like to imagine our Molly owning Molly's Fine Biscut Shoppe at the Bridge. I know that Manfred will be one of her favorite customers. I can just imagine Molly having another schnauzer to be with. She was very sociable with other animals and people.
To Manfred: MOLLY SAYS TERRIERS RULE!!! AND SCHNAUZERS ROCK!!!!
To you, my heart is with you as you grieve. Come back and share some stories about your Manni. You've seen here that this sharing helps, as well as dealing with his passing.
Peace to everyone grieving a furbaby today.
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I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. He was so young. Was it leishmaniosis, that is what it is called here. I am thinking of you. Love Di xxx
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I am so sorry for the loss of your Manfred.
I am new here as well and also trying to deal with the loss of my little Mickey who went to the bridge a week and a half ago. I believe it is normal for us to all have some sort of guilt surrounding the loss of our babies and I am feeling it as well, wondering if I could have done anything else to help him. I am praying that you find comfort in Manfred's memory.
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I am so very sorry you have lost your beloved little miniature schnauzer, Manfred. How my heart breaks for you as you deal with your grief and guilt. We lived in heavy mosquito territory for most of the time we have had our dogs. I would get so distraught if I accidentally was late giving them their heartwormer medication. A couple of times, when I was stressed, it somehow slipped my mind, but I was so lucky. I finally got a BIG calendar for my kitchen and drew a big red heart on the day the medication was due. This really helped me remember. Manni knows your heart. He knows how much you love him still. Please be gentle with yourself. We all have experienced horrible pangs of guilt over one thing or another after the loss of our babies. I am sure most of us have made mistakes along the way. I know I did. But, oh, did we LOVE our babies!!! No one is perfect, except maybe our little furbabies themselves. They love us still. I am crying as I finish this post, as I know you are suffering. Please know we are here for you. I just lit an internet candle for Manfred under "Manny"(so the name would fit--Manfred had too many characters for the box) on Aurichwolf's Light a Candle Here thread. It will burn for 48 hours. May your heart be comforted. Hugs, Melissa
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Oh, thank you so much, all of you! It truly means so much to me! It has really been such a struggle the last few days, and coming back to the computer to this is overwhelming! Over the last few days, i remember snap shots of he and I, and break down. I just can't believe I took my little friend's health for granted, and didn't keep up with his medicine like I should have. But all of you are making it a little bit easier, and I really want to thank you all. I know many of you are suffering or have suffered like I am now. I wish I could extend the same comfort you have given me. Thank you again.
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Dear Nathan, I'm sorry about Manfred. He looks so lovely, I know he was dearly loved by you. Unfortunately there some times in our lives we have to pay atention to other things that are important, your Manfred was surely aware of that busy period in your live. You gave him everything he needed and that was your love, now he is just enjoying and waiting for the day you'll be reunited again. Diana, Jessie and Neko's mom.