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coralie

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I thought it would be at least ten years before I would need the support I found here last August when I had to euthanase my nearly 21 year old puss, Muffin, who went suddenly blind. Muff helped me find a new baby six weeks later, an Abyssinian kitten named Jazz Dreamcatcher, who is such a precious sweetheart I thought it was too good to be true. And it is - he is dying of an extremely rare protein losing glomerulonephritis, in and out of hospital since May3, still waiting for kidney biopsy result and wondering how I'm going to pay for any more treatment or investigation if it's necessary ( I'm up to $2,500 in 17 days) - it's not about the money but it sure adds to my absolute despair. My sons were with me when Muff was put down, my 15 year old spiralled into depression after that and was just coming out of it, but now he's losing his new best friend and I hear him telling Jazz "You're lucky to be going to heaven soon, wish I could come with you" and I just don't know how to go on. Jazz isn't even one yet. I feel like we're all dying with him. I'm sorry, it's just too sad. thank you for reading



I only just found out how to insert Jazz's photo but it turned out fuzzy. I'll try again with better resolution soon
kdclairmo

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Coralie, my heart is breaking for you and your family. I am so so sorry about Jazz and that he is so ill, poor baby and so young and so soon after losing your sweet Muffin. What a blow.  I totally understand how you feel like you are dying inside as well, it is so hard losing such a beloved family member. I remember when my beagle Peanut took her last breath in my arms at the Vets, I felt like a piece of me died right then and there and went with her and I have not felt the same since that day and it has almost been a year. You have given Jazz a wonderful life and if it is his time to go to the Bridge he will be met by Muffin and he will have a friend forever. The two of them know first hand the love that you and your family shared with them both and that will bind them tightly together.  I am so sorry your son is so sad and just when he started to break free of his depression. Keep a close eye on him and perhaps seek a Drs help afterwards if you see him slipping back into it.  Do you think getting him another kitty would help things?  Again, please know my heart and prayers go out to you, your family and to sweet Jazz.

Take care and keep us posted.
Karen

Nancee

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  Sounds look your doing everything you can.I don't know anything much about glomerulonephritis but it sounds like inflammatiion of the main unit of the kidney (nephrons). Maybe there are medications to help.
  I have a diabetic cat who's had multiple problems for 4 yrs. I know all about the emotional and financial realities of these situations.It can be quite stressful.
  I hope there's some treatment that can help your pet. Take care.
Ghatten

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}{{{{{Coralie}}}}}{

i am so sorry for your and your family's pain - sometimes it just isn't fair. i know absolutly nothing about this disorder in kitties - but it sounds so very similiar to what a sweet niece of mine went through with her infant son. i do know that there is help available to ask for for the cost (only one that pops into mind at the moment is IMOM.org, but there are others that maybe others can remember and post here)

know you are in many prayers,
ghattenwolf
MusicMagEditor

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I'm so sorry for your previous loss, but 21!  Sure was well taken care of and happy!  That must have really hurt!  2 Years ago this past April I lost my sweet Demon Kitty, an all black kitty about 4 months short of his 17th Birthday. 

Now, I was just informed that his Step Brother, my best friend and companion for nearly 17 years, Wizard, has Renal Failure and will need to be put to sleep very, very soon...  I was told within a week and that was on Wednesday.  He, like his Step Brother, will be passing 4 months before his 17th Birthday.

Both Demon and Wizard have been with me since kittenhood!  Demon Born in MA and drove to Arizona where he lived for 9 years before flying back with me in 2000 and passing in New Hampshire with me in 2006.

Wizard was born in Phoenix and flew across the country with me to come home and relocate to New hampshire.  He was born in the fall of 1991 and will be passing soon.  I hate so much to see him go; hate it worse that I am having to have him put to sleep.

So, I can pretty closely relate and understand...  But a kitten....   That is so sad!

I wish you the best of luck and my heart and prayers are with you.  I'll tell Wizard to keep an eye on him when he go to Heaven and between your other kitty, my Wizard and Demon along with my Putty Tat that I lost in 1993 and Merlin in 1999, your kitten will be well taken care of.

Best Wishes!

Bob D
Wizard's Dad Forever!

Picture Taken Today, 5/23/08 - One of His Final Walks Outside....  I'll Miss Wizard!
coralie

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Thank you everybody, I feel for you especially Bob, you love Wizard so much.
I just got the renal biopsy result back and it confirms glomerulonephritis. At least it's not renal amyloidosis where he would die rapidly and painfully. But it's so rare they're sending it on to the University of Sydney - there's a vet renal specialist there researching this condition - I found out about her through contacting his ancestors owners through my breeder, found out an aunt 5 generations ago got the same thing, but at least she was 4, not 11 months. And at least now I've convinced my vets to start a drug called Fortekor to try to stop the protein loss in the urine, they wouldn't do it til ruled out amyloidosis. I have taken last week off work researching everything written by vets about this condition -(I understand most of it cos I have a medical degree and cats kidneys work much the same as people's). It won't cure him, but if we stop losing the protein he might not get fluid spilling into his lungs or tummy, which I'd have to euthanase him for. Can't do it again after only 9 months, not in a kitten. I am working on getting a better photo posted. He is the sweetest kitty. I had followed my breeder's advice to curb him suckling on my ear at night, but since he's come home from six days in hospital, he latches on from 4.30 am til I have to get up! It is so incredibly sad.
PS Karen, yes my son had to see a shrink last year it was so bad, started on some tablets that were seeming to help, until this. He is revisiting Dr. ASAP, thanks for caring.

katebock

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Coralie

I am so very sorry.  Jazz is such a handsome boy.  It is just so sad and unfair.   I lost my 3 yr. old kitty, Gus, in December.  It is always hard to deal with the loss, but it just seems so much worse, so unfair, when they are young.   I just can't make sense of it.  I wish I had words to help with the pain, but, I know there is nothing that can help when you are dealing with a sick baby.  Please know that you, your sons, and sweet Jazz are in my prayers.

Kate (Gus' mom)

WhiteEyelashes

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Oh Coralie & Family~

 

My heart goes out to you & your family & of course, your precious Abby, Jazz. I, too, have an Abby & they are truly a dear & loving breed. My Abby is having liver problems right now & we are waiting for the blood tests results to come back.....but, PeeWee (that's his name) is 11 years old & he's at an age when things start to go wrong. With Jazz being so young (he is a *handsome* boy! is he a fawn color? PeeWee is ruddy), hopefully he'll have plenty of strength to fight against this disease/condition....along with the meds. It sounds like you & your vet are doing everything possible for precious Jazz. I know the wonderful people on this site will be sending many, many *prayers* your way.......and, I DO believe in the power of prayer! I will also be sending your son positive thoughts & prayers. Some of us *sensitive* souls have a harder time coping with a loss than others. Let him know that I, too, am seeing a wonderful Dr. who is helping me. I lost my precious girl Onyx on 4/8/08 & her ashes came home on 4/22/08. Three days later, our home was robbed & the thief took so much......but, the worst by far was the stealing of my beloved dog, Onyx's ashes. Thru the Power of Prayer on this site, her ashes have been found & the inhumane robber is now sitting in jail.

Please check back & let us know how your adorable *Jazz* is doing. He is just a darling! I hope he will have many years with you & your family.

 

Many blessings & prayers~

 

Pami & the spirit of Onyx

Gruntsmomforever

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Dear Coralie,

I am keeping you, your family and your beloved Jazz Dreamcatcher in my prayers, I am so very sorry you are all going through this unbelievably difficult time.  I so hope the new medication will work for little Jazz.  He is a beautiful little boy, and I pray he will be with you for a long time.

Sending hugs,
Katharine, Grunt's Mom Forever
katndogs

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Well, Coralie, You are certainly doing EVERYTHING a loving human can! And God Bless You for it! I too empathize totally. I've had Abbys for 40 years . . they are UNIQUE to say the least ! Good on you for researching her breeding! With many purebreds, there's always a recessive gene that shows up 3rd or 4th generation. My 2 and a half year old Rottie was born with Congenital Kidney Defect, diagnosed at 6 months, wasn't expected to make it a year. We've had an amazing 2 years since then, and in the last week she's gone into advanced kidney failure. She's here at my feet now . . this is our last weekend together. (I posted under Karma and Kidneys) I pray there is a diet or medication you can give that will provide a "repreive". I wonder if these moments might be a way of teaching us Love in it's purest form . .letting go.
I don't know. It hurts deeply, that I do know! Hopefully the breeder will offer to replace . . I KNOW there's no REPLACEMENT . but the only "cure" for death is Life. Don't give up . . you're very special to be doing all the research you're doing. I sent prayers and healing light to you,& your son . . there's something to be learned here.
Blessings, Katndogs
coralie

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Thank you Pami, how sad then uplifting about Onyx's ashes. I think your prayers must be very powerful, thank you. My Aby is tawny, I am trying to upload a higher resolution picture, but I.T. illiterate. In his pedigree there are 2 USA Grand Champions apparently - I don't care, knew nothing about Abys til I fell in love with him at a cat show - now I am well and truly smitten.But I would be too scared and sad to get another one (breeder already offered) because he is just irreplaceable.
Sweet Katndogs, I am so sorry this is your last weekend with your baby. I have posted best wishes on your post, and am praying for you and Karma.
Thank you Kate and Gruntsmom.
Jazz isn't eating today. I spent the last 6 years of my Muffin's 20 years trying to get him to eat 12 times a day, and never being able to have a holiday when my family did, really thought I'd be let off the hook for at least a few years with a new kitten, but now it's even worse. It really sucks. At least everyone on this site knows that and it helps.
I had a "friend " say yesterday, "Well when you average out Muffin's lifespan with Jazz's it's about 10 years, so now you've just evened out the score.." I hope he felt really bad when I burst into tears.

Christine

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Dear Coralie,
I read your post, and because it moved me, went back and read it again.  I am holding you in my thoughts and prayers - I can relate to much of what you spoke of in your post.  We can only do the best that we can do, and I just feel that you will do the absolute best that you can do - and that is all we can hope for.
I wish Jazz a miracle and hope that all will be OK.  May inner peace come to you all.
Hugs,
Christine
Snuggy's Mum
coralie

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Jazz has stopped eating completely and fluid is spilling into his abdominal cavity. We have had to stop the medication which was only experimental anyway. It seems the end is near, I am dying with him
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katebock

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((((Coralie)))))

Sending you hugs, prayers and tears.

Kate



rupertsmum

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Dear Coralie

So sorry to hear about Muffin and now Jazz being so ill.  My cat Rupert was on Fortekor for kidney disease.  He died in January and he was on it for over a year.  The vet reckoned it helped him but in the end the kidneys gave in.  He was 15 years old.  Still too young to die in my eyes.  He was dying before my eyes and I had to pts.  I made my children stay in the house because by this stage I was near hysteria myself and I couldn't let them see me like it or Rupert.  They saw him for a few hours before the vet came and they kissed him and said their goodbyes and then they had to go in the house. I begged to Rupert to die naturally but it was not to be.  I was a total mess myself and could not image my ten year coping with that.  Even this morning he was crying about missing Rupert.

May be your son is too raw to handle this again.  I dont think I can do it again.  The thought makes me feel sad and tearful.  Ruperts sister is not well.  Something wrong with her eyes and not eating well. I am scared of it again. When Rupert died I wanted to go with him but my kids were so worried about me I had to buck and face the world. Now I cry when they are at school.  It is probably harder when you are 15 I am sure.

My thoughts are with you and your son at this time. 
Gruntsmomforever

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Dear Coralie,

My heart aches for you, I am praying for you and your son, and special prayers for your Beloved Jazz.

Hugs,
Katharine, Grunt's Mom Forever
dianae2002

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Dear Coralie, I'll be praying for your Jazz and your family. Poor little guy, and you have been through such a difficult times... it's not fair, Jazz is such a wonderful cat...
 
Diana, Jessie'and Neko's mom.
katndogs

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Coralie,
God help you through this horrid time . . let Love be your guide . .not fear . . be brave for him . .
you can do this !
Blessings and prayers for a smooth Transition,
Katherine
WhiteEyelashes

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Oh Coralie ~

 

My heart is breaking for you. I wish I could do something to help. All any of us can do is be here to offer you support, love, understanding, love & kindness. Apparently, this is what is needed right now in your life is some *comfort* while you are going thru this difficult time with Jazz.

His lastest photo is so *Abby* & I just love his precious face. I pray to the heavens above that a miracle will happen & your beloved Jazz will have a turn-a-round & get better. Miracles to happen every day......I so want this one to happen for you & *Jazz*. Please keep us posted.

 

Much love to you & Jazz ~

 

Pami & the spirit of my precious Onyx

coralie

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Thank you everybody. Jazz started to eat after 72 hours - not much but enough to start tablets again. He goes for more blood tests today to see if there's any improvement from the tablets he was able to have. He has had vomiting and diarrhoea, so i'm not very hopeful. But I feel your prayers and am very grateful.
Dearest Katherine, I read with great sadness about Karma's passing, but that she left you on her own terms is so special. Much love to you - when Jazz passes he will love to play with a Rottie- his best mate before he got sick was our little poodle puppy Echo which we got at the same time. At least he is still well and will be there for my boys to cry into his fur. Thank you Pami - yes he is so 'Aby', loving and gentle and mischievous.
Thank you diana, gruntsmom, rupertsmum and Kate. what a wonderful site to join animal lovers around the globe.

Loudpurring

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I am so sorry. Jazz, what a beautiful handsom special little cat. It is not fair. Death does not have any pity to the good, the young or the innocent. I hate death for this reason. It is not fair. People can say over and over anything they want....It doesn't change and it doesn't make it any better. And I am no better than everyone else searching for something to say to make it okay...there is nothing. Please know that you are not alone in this most devestating of times. Keep the memories you do have of good and the beautiful little soul of Jazz keep this next to yur heart and nothing not even death can take that away from you ever.

darrylnugget

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Two weeks ago I found out that my one-year-old Darryl was in kidney failure.  Dr. said it was glomerulonephritis.  For eleven months I gave my little boy a life, and on Monday morning I took his life away.  I don't know how I am gonna go on without my little cross-eyed nugget.  I miss him so much. 

I wish I could figure out how to insert a picture of him. 

I know what you are going through, and hope that you have better luck with your baby. 

hugs...


darrylnugget

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my little nugget, darryl.
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