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I posted this in my other thread, but I wanted to do it here as well in case anyone missed it over there. We were scheduled to have Sam put to sleep tomorrow, and I was dreading it. I was on here reading some posts this afternoon, and when I was done, I went to check on him. My daughter was sitting with him and loving him, and watching t.v. He was on his favorite bed, and she was giving him a nice back rub. When I looked at him I immediately knew...and out of shock blurted "I think he died." She was so upset and yelled "No mommy, please tell me he is not dead." I lost it and we just sat there crying for what seemed like an eternity. My husband called right after I found Sam, almost like he sensed it. I told him what happened and he broke down. I called my vet and they made arrangements for a cremation service to come for Sam's body. I will bring him home tomorrow. My other two fur babies looked very confused when this all went down, and my one lab actually was barking at her brother to 'wake up.' She kept bonking his ear with her nose and was really mad at him. I told her it was o.k., but she kept doing it for a few minutes. Now both of them are just laying around, and look so sad. I think I am in shock that this happened, but I also have a sense of relief that he died here, peacefully, with my daughter giving him the purest form of love imaginable... that of a child. I am so distraught, but I'm happy for Sam that he is no longer suffering. We will meet you at the bridge one day, baby boy.... Rest In Peace my love. We miss you and love you.... Love, Mommy, Daddy, sister, brother, Pasta and Pepper.
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So sorry for you loss of Sam. I know you have been in a dilema lately. It is a very difficult time for you but she died at home with you. Sam knew it was time to go.
You are probably numb at this time. Give it some time, your baby is out of pain now and running at the Rainbow Bridge. Post a photo later when you feel up to it. Ruperts Mum
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I am so sorry for your loss. I hope he is in peace and was comforted by your daughter giving him so much love. That must have been very difficult. I found reading the Rainbow Bridge to my kids helped when our dogs were no longer with us.
God Bless you and your family. Melissa
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The tears roll down my face as I read about your beloved Sam. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know the devastating pain you feel. I know Sam had so many people who loved him and will miss him forever.
When the time is right for you please send pictures and some happy memories you had with Sam. My heart goes out to you and your family. I will pray for you and Sam. You will see him again in happiness. Many Hugs, Mary Meisters Mom
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Big hugs to you and your family for your loss. He did go the way he wanted. With the love of a child stroking him. How peaceful.
Riefer was scheduled to be PTS the following afternoon, when I could have someone go with me. He passed early in the morning, in his sleep, surrounded by his momma & fur brothers & sisters. Blue was PTS this past Monday night, and I'm still in shock. Sending love to your daughter as well. Hugs; Lisa
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Mommyva, I am so sorry for you loss and my prayers are with you and your family. Be thankful that he got do die in a peaceful and secure loving place. I know Louie was probably so afraid as soon as we got to the vet. That is why I went to go see him so much because I did not want him to think he was alone. I wish he would have had the peaceful passing like Sam. I hope your heart heals and I hope your children find comfort also. I know when Louie was PTS my son was a wreck. You’re in my prayers and so is Sam. I love that name, that is my youngest name :O). ~d Louie’s Mom
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I know how hard it is to lose a baby. I am so sorry for your loss.
Let me tell you, when one has to put their precious one to sleep, guilt is immense. Your wonderful furkid got to pass away at home, surrounded by those he loves, and by those who love him. His soul will forver be at peace.
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Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. Yesterday was the most painful day of our lives. I'm going to pick up Sam's ashes soon. It's going to be so hard; I feel like throwing up. Last night before bed, I was thinking about the fun times with Sam, and I just lost it. I was wondering if he was scared right before he died, and then it hit me. The thing I fear most is not death itself, it's being left behind while everyone I love passes on. I hope and pray that Sam is truly in a wonderful place, and that we will all be there one day to join him again, where there is no pain or sadness. I feel so bad because I was so angry yesterday when he died. After the man took him away, I threw his dog bed out. It smelled like him and death, and I just couldn't take it. Is that wrong of me? I have some of his toys that still smell like him, and I would never get rid of those, no matter how old they get. Please tell me this gets easier. My husband is taking it so hard, too. I've already begun worrying about my other two furbabies, and dreading their final days. I will put up a picture of Sam as soon as I get some time and figure it out. ImissmyLou, your precious baby is so beautiful. I bet he melted your heart continuously with those eyes! :) Thank you again everyone for your kind words. I'm always sending thoughts and prayers your way, as well. Hang in there. We can all get through this together. Peace, Mommyva
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I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you for you and your family.
Heather, Hank's forever mommy
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You have my condolences on your loss. I wish you the best during this difficult time.
I am glad, though, that your beloved pet died in such a wondeful way. As distressing as it was for you and your family, this is truly the way to go. I so wished my Alex passed on at home, but instead, he just kept getting worse. I had no choice but to put him down to end his suffering. Still, I would have been relieved to have woken up one morning and found him gone, especially the nights he was on my bed. That would be a wonderful way for him to go. As it was, at least I was able to say my goodbye's and let him know I'll see him again. I couldn't be there until the very end - I couldn't take that memory. But I have his ashes, his favorite toy and his collar in a place of honor in my house. They'll be with me always. Again, I wish you the best.
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Dear Mommyva, (I posted this on your other thread but thought I would send it along again) I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Your darling Sam did not want you to have to make the horrible decision. He wanted to go on his own terms, at his own time. My beloved Mr. Meowgy did the same thing, he spared us the pain and I am so grateful to him for that. The vet said he didn't want us to see him leave. I think it is wonderful that Sam was with your loving daughter, that she was petting him at the time. Sam knows how deeply he is loved and he chose a most beautiful moment to leave for the Bridge. He will be eternally happy and will be your angel watching over you forever. Again, I am so very sorry for your loss. I lit a candle for your Sam earlier, but the words are still fitting. Donna, Mr. Meowgy's mom