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KarmaBoosMom

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Yesterday we said goodbye to our baby girl Boo after learning she had 2 large tumors in her intestines. She had begun vomiting, shaking, and lost control of her bladder and stools. It was awful to watch her hit such a wall and not be able to function anymore. For months we had been treating this as Inflammatory Bowel Disease with little to no improvement. Learning about the tumors yesterday made her symptoms and behavior make a lot more sense. But what a hard blow to take. I can’t stop wondering if she was in pain all these months. How could we not have known she was so sick? It breaks my heart to think about. She was put to sleep last night at our house surrounded by everyone she loved.

I woke up at 5am this morning and realized she was gone all over again. My heart is crushed and I don’t think either my husband or I will get out of bed today. I miss you my sweet girl, rest well.

Denise
TrekysMum

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I’m so sorry for your loss.

Cindy
Trishataz78

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I’m so sorry your baby was sick. When you love your pet it’s impossible to let go of the guilt. I’m crying out I’m sorry in horrible anguish every day. I keep thinking I was stupid for not knowing and it’s killing me. Hoping and praying for your peace in this very sad time 🐾🙏💕
KarmaBoosMom

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Thank you both TrekysMom and Trishataz78. Yes exactly, I feel stupid for not knowing. And as her Mom I feel like if anyone should have known it’s me. I feared it may be cancer all along but my husband didn’t want to put her through the surgery for the biopsy. The Dr. that delivered the bad news said there may not have been much we could have done even if we caught it earlier. I’m so sorry your living with this guilt and heartache too. I’ve been laying in bed all day crying off and on. I don’t even know what to do now that she’s gone 😢
Trishataz78

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The cremation place just called me and I can’t go until tomorrow since I’m on my way to work. I know work helps to distract but I just want to stay in bed with his picture next to me. I’m going to make one of those photo blankets so I can curl up with his furry sweet face. 🐾💕🙏
KarmaBoosMom

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That’s a great idea, I was thinking of doing the same! My husband and I have been cuddling her favorite blanket all day as it still smells a bit like her. The realization of our first day without her has just been so hard. How long has it been since your pet passed?
kclaura

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I am so sorry.  And I understand you sorrow.  We'd been treating my sweet cat Moody for bowel problems. Until 11/27, when the vet let me know that my boy had a large growth in his abdomen.  The guilt from not finding this sooner, not being able to FIX him, to SAVE him has been hard to deal with.  We had to put him to sleep on 12/10.
We love them so, and always want to save them.  And when we KNOW, then they tell us that it is time to let them go, it is so so hard

The holidays will be so different without our little loves.

But please, be gentle with your self.  Love YOU like your Boo loved you.

My thoughts are with you.
Trishataz78

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My baby passed away on Sunday the 23rd I’m definitely making a blanket of his furry face so I can cuddle with him
KarmaBoosMom

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kclaura, I’m so sorry to hear about your boy Moody. It sounds a bit similar to the situation with my Boo medically speaking. We thought this had been inflammatory bowel disease all along, we didn’t know about the tumor until 2 days ago. We definitely have a guilt and are still asking ourselves if we did the right thing by saying goodbye. There was an option to put her through surgery to remove the tumors, reconstruct her bowels, and start intensive chemotherapy. But there was a good chance she wouldn’t even survive the surgery with as sick as she was. We did what we thought was best for her. To give her as peaceful and pain free of a send off as possible.
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