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Hi all, I had to put down by beloved 12 year old Labrador, Barkley, on Wednesday. I have no spouse or children, only my aging parents who live in the region. My friends have been wonderful. This has really flattened me. I’m worried about my ability to cope. I’ve gone to work twice since and barely got through the day. I met a friend for dinner on Friday, otherwise have not left the house.
I just have this pit in my stomach and am a nervous wreck.
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I'm so sorry. I unexpectedly had my beloved sidekick euthanized this morning and I'm consumed with guilt, crying until I hyperventilate, and feeling a disturbingly fast-growing sense of anxiety. Just the most horrible dread!! The thought of food makes me feel even more ill than I do already.
This is not a typical sadness. Please be kind to yourself.
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Dearest Barkley's fur parent,
I feel you. Your sadness and heart ache. It doesn't matter what the age of our beloved are, it just plan kills you inside. I'm sorry you are alone in your grieving but I see your friends are very supportive. Those are good friends to cherish. Your going to have a rough go at it for a while. You need to do what makes you feel better and helps you cope. You will never be the same but you will resign yourself to living a new normal.12 years is a long time to make special memories but sadly not enough. Remember the journey you shared with Barkley . One day you can look back and see all the things that made your life with Barley so very special, you will smile but tears will fall. I think they call these bitter sweet. I lost my beloved heart dog (Termy) over 21 months ago and the tears still fall. He was my main man. There was a special bond between him and I that I will cherish for the rest of my life. Remember Barley is still and will always be at your side for his spirit remains at your side to guide and watch over you until the glorious day that you are reunited at the Bridge. Stay strong and be gentle with yourself but please let go of the guilt. You are Barley's hero. You let him go out of love. You loved and were loved so deeply, this love will never die or fade. Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom