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MaxsMom

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Dear Max,

This morning the sound of birds singing told me that the long winter is over and spring is here again.  I looked outside at the almost-gone snow and saw the grass in our back yard and thought of you and how much you loved to go outside with me to work in our garden. You would happily wiggle around the yard, sniffing out bunnies and squirrels and letting them know that this was your turf.  And though you weighed only 15 pounds, they knew that you were mighty!  Even last year, when your eyesight was failing and you were getting weak from what I now know was congestive heart failure, you managed to warn away a big old groundhog - without even barking!  In early spring he was lounging around and eating up the new shoots in our garden, but as soon as it was warm enough for you to go out and scout the yard, he left and never bothered us again!  He could tell what a mighty little soul you were!

This year the changing season brings with it a sense of deep sadness because I will no longer have my "little dog" to help me in the yard, and to keep me company on our swing.  On December 9th, your spirit left your tired little body for the Rainbow Bridge. (I still wonder if I made the right decision in letting you go!) My heart went with you on that day.  Although I miss you every day - miss your soft little self, your kisses, your sweet little face, your loyal and cheerful companionship - each holiday that passes, each change of season, I feel your loss more deeply.  Tomorrow is Easter and you won't be here to get your Easter basket filled with bones and squeakers.  The morning will be less joyful and we will miss you so. 

I don't know how I will get through this summer without you.  I know that it will be different and so very lonely.  I will tend to the flowers that we planted over the years and think of you every day.  I will plant a new garden plot in your memory back near the bird feeder under the tree (your favorite place to rest), think about all of our times together, and I will wish you were with me. 

Your spirit never fades.  You made such a difference in my world, Little Dog.  I will hold you in my heart forever and pray that we will be together again one day. I hope that you are running free and happy with Grandma.  I love you, Max!  Happy spring!

Love to you always,
Mama

  
wolflover

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Dear Maxsmom,

What a beautiful letter. I am so sorry for the loss and the deep sense of loss you feel at this time of year, a time of rebirth and hope.Max sounds like a mighty warrior I hope that his memory will bring a smile to you and not a tear. The loss of a loved one such as Max lives with us for seems like forever and it sometimes is forever. No other dog or other pet can replace Max but one day, when you are ready, a new "little dog" will come into your life and you will have a sense of completion once again.


I know Max is at the Bridge with my Dakota and they are waiting for us to join them one day when our tired and worn out bodies are ready for the rest.

Joe
aka Dakotas dad
wendywoo

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Your letter made me cry. I so wish I could do the same for my Zippy, but as soon as I start it, I feel a pain so deep, I cannot continue it.
My garden is where I miss Zippy more than any other place. I have so many pictures in my mind of him there.
Wendy xxx
mssavion

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Dear JoAnn, what a lovely letter to your precious Max, and what a great idea to plant a flower garden in his memory.  That will bring you a lot of comfort, and I'm sure you will feel his presence as you watch it grow.   I know how painful the first few months are after a loss so devastating....I lost my little golden girl last summer, and still miss her terribly.  I still am not ready to bring another fur baby into my life....maybe one day.  I hope that your Max has found my Nike, and that they have become good friends.   She will watch over him, and make sure he is warm and comfortable.  I hope that Max comes to visit you in your dreams, and until the day that you are reunited with him, I wish you many fond memories to sustain you.   Hugs from Houston, MsSavion

WooWooWoo

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Dear Joanne,

What a beautiful tribute to your beloved Little Dog, Max.  You painted such a vivid picture of him scouting about in your backyard as you worked in your garden.  It is obvious he was such a wonderful loving little companion, this Little Dog with the mighty soul!  I know without a doubt that his strong spirit is right beside you as you go about your day.  The two of you were just too connected for it to be any other way.   I know you miss him with the whole of your heart and soul.   I lost my beloved little terrier girl, Betsy, just ten weeks ago and each day is a struggle for me.   We are never ready to bid our devoted little companions farewell when it becomes clear they must run ahead of us to the Bridge.  I am finding out all we can do is pray for the strength to  make it through each day, each month, each season without them. 

I think your plan for a little memorial garden plot for Max is just beautiful.   He would be so proud that you are memorializing him with his own special place in the garden where he loved to spend time with you.

Sending you hugs and wishing you peace,
Melissa
Betsy, Easy, Ralph, and Gracie's mom

MaxsMom

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Dear Joe, Wendy, MsSavion & Melissa-

Thank you so much for your kind and comforting words.  It was so helpful to read your responses and to know that you know and understand. I want you to know that your responses mean so much.  For some reason, I am having a bit of a hard time sharing my grief over losing Max (uncharacteristic for me because I am usually very open) and when I do, I very eagerly look forward to any response that I may receive.  I can't tell you how much it helps me when I do receive one...it's like I am then able to move one more step forward.  Thank you for taking the time to offer your wisdom, share your experiences and extend words of support.  I truly appreciate you. 

Everyone here is so caring and so willing to reach out to others.  I am not always able to come on as often as I might like to, but when I do it is invariably such a positive experience.  I have truly come to learn what special people animal lovers are...how generous and nurturing.  Although I wish (as I am sure that we all do - no matter how unrealistic that wish may be!) that I never had a need for a grief forum, I am very thankful to have found this site.  I am so appreciative and so admiring of the wonderful people I have encountered.  I hope that I can return the blessings that I have received here. 

Joanne - MaxsMom
RustysMom

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Dear MaxsMom (Joanne)

 

I read your letter to Max and it made me cry.  I could feel your connection to one another.  I understand the passage of the “firsts” of everything.  I’ve been writing letters to my kitty Rusty since the day he left me on Feb. 16, 2008.  I too will always wonder, for the rest of my days, if I made the right decision at the right time.  But when I search and dig down deep, VERY, VERY deep, I know I made the right decision for my sweet little baby. A few days ago, I wrote as if he were doing the writing.  I surprised myself when I wrote “Mommy, I was tired and I just wanted to be peaceful . . . as much as I love you and you love me, I couldn’t stay with you and I trusted you to help me because I as it turns out, I didn’t have the strength to leave on my own . . . thank you for sending me on my way . . . for that I will be eternally grateful. . .”  I’m trying to convince myself that those words hold his heart & soul truth.

 

Tend to your new garden with love and even though your sweet little dog isn’t next to you in his physical body, know that Max’s mighty soul is your soul and you will forever be tucked in his heart and he in yours.

 

To our babies that have gone before us to the Rainbow Bridge. . . we love and miss you so . . .

 

In thought Joanne . . .

 

Rusty’s Mom.

carewolf

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What a beautiful letter for your beautiful fur-angel. I could just see Max playing in the garden.

I know he was a big help. I hope you saw the

thread on the Events-Parties-and More board

about celebrations. Everyone there celebrates everything and they do it in grand style. The bunnies passed out baskets, had an egg hunt,

and every resident of the Rainbow Bridge had a grand time.

Shezam, my Lhasa, met Max at the bridge and has been showing him

around. They have beautiful gardens

to work and play in at the bridge too.

When it's time to dig a hole,

you wouldn't believe the volunteers.

They have to hand out numbers.

 

http://www.websitetoolbox.com/tool/post/edw/vpost?id=2530227

 

 

 

 

 

Your pictures will be posted

on the Rainbow Pics board

Photo Gallery.  

 

Love and blessings,

Carewolf aka Carol

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

MaxsMom

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Dear Carol,

I am writing this with tears in my eyes.  Today was a beautiful, mild day here in western NY...the tulips and hyacinths are in bloom, the trees finally have leaves, and the birds that Max and I fed each day are back and calling for us.  I missed my sweet boy especially much all day.  Feeling lethargic this evening, and avoiding going outside, I logged onto this site and found your comforting message and beautiful pictures of Max. I can't tell you how happy they have made me feel! I just know that Max and Shezam are fast friends, and Max is so lucky to have such a wonderful friend and guide!  You have filled my heart today, and I thank you so very much.

Hugs,
Joanne - MaxsMom


Dear Rusty's Mom,

I am so sorry that it took me so long to find your reply to my post!  I don't know how I missed it!  Thank you so much for your words of comfort and for sharing your feelings about Rusty with me.  I am sure that when you wrote in Rusty's words, he was speaking through your heart.  It is unspeakably hard to make that final decision for our sweet ones, and I think our moments of doubt are natural, but that our babies needed us to help them to go to a place of health and peace. I believe that what you said is true, my soul is forever entwined with my little Max, just as yours is forever one with your sweet Rusty's.  I will hold on to this thought as I plan Max's garden.

Hugs to you-
Joanne - MaxsMom




carewolf

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Dear Joanne,

I have tears in my eyes too-just knowing that I have helped you makes it all worth while. after I read your beautiful words, I knew i had to let you see Max as he was on Easter. We are moving to

a fresh thread on celebrations at the bridge because it is getting so hard to scroll through their events. I hope you join in with Max.

 

 They have put him in charge of planning one of the gardens if that is OK.

 

carewolf@wolfpack10.com

 
Meriam

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Dear Joanne,

This has been a wild Spring in Big Sky Country. Hershey also loved the fell of the grass in the yard, riding his buddy Al around the pasture for a giddy yap and chasing the squireels with his earth brothers Sil and Moz.

Your tribute to Max brought tears to my eyes. Please know that he and Hersh are thingking red, white and blue for Flag Day and the 4th of July. Hershey loved the Great Falls Symphony Patriotic Concert and is boning up on some Jphn Phili Sousa. He has Max interested in playing a Sousaphone.

Hersh will be at the Bridge 6 months on May 4th. he and Max are a pair when it comes to excavation and harden design.

My thoughts are with you.

Peace.

Meriam, Silver, Mozart and Kuggel
MaxsMom

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Dear Meriam,

Thanks so much to both you and Hershey!  Max always has loved music!  His favorite was the music of Louie Armstrong - especially "What a Wonderful World".  Whenever it came on he would run to the speaker and lie down right next to it...it was so weird, but so sweet! If I can ever find the heart to adopt another baby (maybe next year), he will be another Shih Tzu, and his name will be "Louie Armstrong"!  I'm very happy that Hershey has gotten Max involved in actually playing an instrument.  What great friends they must be, and Max is lucky to have a musical mentor like Hershey.

I will think of Hershey on May 4th, his 6 month Bridge Day.  I know that Max will have a great surprise planned for him!

Happy 6 month Bridge Day (early) Hersh!!!

Hugs,
Joanne - MaxsMom
RustysMom

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Hi Joanne –

 

Just wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you and your Max as you get ready to plant your new garden plot this spring. Remember he’s right there next to you . . . always.

  

With warm affection and many warm hugs.

 

Rusty’s Mom.

MaxsMom

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Dear Rusty's Mom,
Thank you for your thoughts.  Yes, I think that Max is with me always.  I am having a hard time getting out back though...it seems so empty without Max.  My heart sinks when I go out there and I haven't done more than look around so far.  I am hoping that as days pass and the weather continues to improve, I will just go out and get started.  Maybe that will break the ice and get me past the initial hump.  Max loved our yard so much.  Last year his sight was quite poor so I would carry him out and he would lie in the shade of our big maple tree while I weeded and planted.  Once in awile he would sniff around, but always he was right beside me and I would talk to him and show him things (my neighbors must have thought I was crazy!).  He was such a loving and loyal companion and I miss him so much!  It will be 5 months on Friday since he left for the Bridge.  What a hard winter it was this year.  All of these "firsts" without him hurt.  I know that I will get through it all ~ this is part of life, no escaping that ~ but the "getting through" is still tough.  I know that everyone here can relate.

Sorry to go on so!  Seems once I got started, I couldn't stop!  Thank you again for your reply to my post.  Your words and thoughts are so appreciated.  I know that you know how I am feeling...

Hugs,
Joanne - MaxsMom




RustysMom

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Dear Joanne –

 

I’m sending you a big virtual hug right now . . . all of is here know how hard these things are. But I also believe that when the time is right, you will make it out to your garden and it will fill your heart with so much love, because you’ll be doing if for your Max. After Rusty died, I couldn’t bear to look at his pictures – and that made my pain even greater because I missed him so much. But one day, 6 VERY LONG weeks, and 4 days later I woke up and I just knew it was time. And it was. I turned all of his pictures back around and have my most favorite picture of him right in front of me when I do my morning writing. I’m telling you this because I think at some point it will happen for you . . . you will just wake up and know – today is the day. Take your time Joanne and your Max will be waiting for you right under that beautiful maple tree.

 

Please don’t ever feel the need to say you’re sorry . . . our love & loss of our babies is so profound, and we all need an outlet in which to express our feelings.

 

With warm affection Joanne –

 

Rusty’s Mom.

MaxsMom

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Dear RustysMom,

Your supportive words mean so much to me!  Thank you for taking the time to write and for extending such kindness.

I am so happy that you are now able to find comfort in your sweet Rusty's pictures.  Reading your threads and posts, it is so clear that the two of you have such a strong bond that goes far beyond the many years that you spent together on this earth.  I remember that you told me awhile back that you were yearning for a sign from your Rusty. I believe that every morning when you write, and he is so close in your heart and so strongly inspires your words...that is his sign to you that he is there, his soul entwined with yours. 

Thank you for your understanding and caring.  I wish you only good things.

Hugs and Peace,
Joanne - MaxsMom
RustysMom

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Dear Joanne –

 

I want to thank you from the very bottom of my heart for opening my eyes to something I had never even considered . . . that Rusty has indeed providing me with signs, everyday through my writing. I’ve been so blinded by my utter sadness that I couldn’t see it. Sometimes it takes another person’s perspective to help us, and that is exactly what you’ve done for me. Of course, the realization is almost too much to take – to imagine that he’s been right there next to me this whole time . . .

 

Thank you again Joanne. It’s the amazing kindness of strangers, like yourself that have helped me through this awful time.

 

Peace to you and your heart.

 

Warm affection always.

 

Rusty’s Mom.

carewolf

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Max and the other members of the gardening club

did such a wonderful job with the gardens.

My Brandy is so impressed she wanted you to know.

 

Love and Hugs,

CareWolf

Georgeann

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Dear Max's Mommy:
I do not know how I missed your post, but it brought tears to my eyes as I feel the same as you.  The pain never ends and I doubt it ever will.  We will miss our Precious Angels Forever.  I just wanted you to know that I am thinking about you and Max and praying for you too.

Big Hugs
Georgeann and Christopher
Forever
MaxsMom

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Dear RustysMom,
That is exactly what I was thinking when I wrote to you ~ that you are so close with Rusty that the two of you are like one soul and that this is why you haven't seen Rusty's signs to you ~ your words from his spirit.  Remember when you wrote in his words?  I believe those WERE his truths from deep inside your heart where he lives ~ always.


Dear Carewolf,
You have made me smile yet again!  Thank you!  (tell Brandy that those red roses that Max planted are undoubtedly for her!)

Dear Georgeann,
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  I know that you understand ~ our little guys were and are so very special to us ~ our very hearts.  Truly, Georgeann, your Christopher is one of the most beautiful babies I have ever seen - I have shown his picture from this site to several friends and family members who have stopped over when I have been logged on.  Everyone just falls in love with him!  He is precious!

Many Hugs,
Joanne - MaxsMom


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