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My little boy Champ went to kitty heaven last Friday, March 2nd, 2018. It was one of the worst days of my life and such a hard thing to have to make a decision to let him go. I know I loved him as best I could and did everything I could for him but I still feel horrible that I made the decision to let him go.
He was almost gone last May but I was able to get him some treatment and learned to care for him at home by giving him fluids and special food. He had kidney failure. He lost a lot of weight. All the way up to his last day he was a fighter. He ate well, went potty, and walked on his own even if he clearly was slowing down and looked like an old man at times. He rarely complained and I think we actually grew closer over this last year. He loved his daddy so much and I loved him. This is so hard. I sit in my "man cave" where we both hung out most of our nights and weekend. It is so empty now. I still look for him and call his name but realize he is never coming to daddy. I can barely type this right now. It is so hard. Champ was my little boy. He was almost 20 years old. We were together nearly half of my life. He was my first pet that I had completely on my own. I picked him out at a local hobby farm where he was born in a barn. I raised him. I later heard that Champ was the only survivor of his siblings. I am so greatful I had the chance to have him in my life, I just wish I had one more day, on emore hour, one more minute to hold him. I will always love my little boy.
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I am so very sorry you have lost your buddy Champ! It is never easy to lose a special companion, especially one you literally raised from a kitten and cared for as he went through his battle with kidney disease.
I too lost a kitty to kidney disease. My Blackie had it and, like you, I gave him sub-q fluids and medicine. Blackie was such a trooper and did not complain too much about the fluids. I too believe that we grew closer during our last year together partly because of the disease and his trust in me to help him feel better. Kidney disease is such an awful experience. In a way they really do grow old before your very eyes. And you know that all you can do is give them supportive care because it will eventually take its toll on them and they will pass away from it. And when they finally do pass away, it leaves such a huge hole in our lives, in our hearts and our daily routines... I hope you will eventually find peace in your heart knowing that you did everything you could to give Champ the best life possible and that he passed away knowing, without a doubt, that he was loved and cherished by a very special person. Take care, - Kelly Angel Blackie's mom Angel Squeeker's mom
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Champ, A silent tear from here...... It was meant to be, Champ & Yourself and to be 20y !!! A lot of TLC from you to have him enter the twilight years and beyond. To be the only survivor out of his litter. I feel certain he had a good Life. Yes, the pain is real and intense and the emptiness felt felt is beyond words. Now 2 mnths since my wee chihuahua of 16y had to be put to rest. It is a traumatic ordeal ! All the years of companionship and unconditional love they give to US is certainly worth the grief process in the end. We will Always long and miss their Presence. The one that gave Us the best Memories become the Memory. Cherish them All. Again, feel so sad for you at this moment. My best to You... Sherry/Perryx
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I understand. I had to send my dog Braveheart to Heaven this past Saturday, March 3rd. This has been the hardest 4 days of my life. Yesterday was the first day that I actually didn't cry too much, because the sun was shining and it was beautiful outside. But today, today has been so devastatingly hard. I miss Braveheart so much, my heart hurts so bad. My soul hurts.
I miss that bright little face. God bless you, my friend. Take care of yourself, and know that you're not in this alone...
Registered: 1520401474 Posts: 12
Thank you so much everyone. I am up and down these days. Tonight has been so hard because Champ would usually be laying by me right now as I prepare to watch some Sunday shows and gripe about going to work tomorrow. I have read some other stories on this forum and each one makes me so sad. I feel so heart broken for everyone. I am a really big lover of dogs and cats and it sucks to have to go through this.
I'm not sure a grown man is supposed to cry like this but my little boy was so much more than just a cat. He was my family. I don't have children and although I understand an animal is not the same as a human child, he was still by little boy and part of my daily life for 20 years. It is so hard knowing I will never be able to hold him again and I can't stop crying over that. I wish you all the best and thanks again for your support, it means more than you will ever know.