Registered: 1214617008 Posts: 2
I lost my Felix last week. He was the best cat that had ever decided to love me. Years ago I lost another cat, Fritz. And I came here and everyone made me feel better.
This time it is worse. Why do I feel so guilty about feeling so horrid about losing, just a cat? He wasn't just a cat. When I lost Fritz a few years back, I thought forget this... no more. But my older boy needed someone so I gave in. And because I was set on another orange tabby manx... I waited and waited for adoption. Then I got Felix. He fell off the balcony last week. The IDIOT. I am so mad at him. He was our baby. Smart. So goddamn loving and at the WORST time in our lives (we are about to lose our home and haven't had a good business deal in months so...) he went and left us!!! This really sucks and I have no one to talk to about this. I loved him so much. In this time there were days I went without food or drink to make sure my boys were ok. And then he left me. I think I am saying all this wrong. I'm just dying inside because I miss my little baby so freaking much. I know you all out there know what I mean. And the worst is is that I haven't even cremated him as yet. I can't afford it until next week. I feel like such garbage. He was found in a dumpster before I adopted him... I can't throw him back into one. So he sits in my cold garage waiting. Thanks for letting me voice my guilt. I should have never let him outside. I love you my Feewie. My little man. Freckle lips. Mommy is so sorry. Your brother, Daddy and I miss you terribly. Forgive us. Mommy.
Registered: 1208508336 Posts: 820
So sorry for your loss.
You are grieving for Felix. The pain is so very raw. For me Rupert has been gone 23 weeks and it still hurts and I miss him with all my heart. He was not just a cat, he was your friend and companion and that is what you miss. How old was Felix? When you feel a little better, post a picture on here. Ruperts Mum
Registered: 1193533588 Posts: 991
Please accept my condolences on the loss of little Felix. You rescued him and loved him. He loved you back. Freak accidents do happen; kitties do love to climb and jump. It wasn't your fault; there was nothing intentional about the event.
When you are up to it, come and share your memories of your life with Felix. You say he's an orange kitty; orange kitties have a unique purrsonality. We'd love to hear about his. Post a picture. It helps us as well as you.
Try to focus on a happy memory today with which you can honor Felix.
And come here often to talk. It really does help.
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Sorry about your little Felix. Sounds like an emotional time for you in many ways. Hope things get better for you. Take care.