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I sent my 13 year old Bull terrier across the bridge on 9th Dec.
I thought I would feel relief at helping her with her severe arthritis and kidney failure. She also had lost partial control of her back legs. Instead I am in such intense pain and guilt. I just want to feel her soft fur and look into her eyes. My chest is literally aching so much I thought I had a chest infection. I cant stop crying and now fantasise that i tell the vet to stop and bring her home instead. I have been reading this board all day and it has bought me a little relief, thank you.
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My heart goes out to you. Our fur babies fill our hearts. And the hardest thing about loving them is when it is time to say goodbye. You gave her the gift of forever. Forever pain free, forever in your heart. And HER love is with YOU forever.
The guilt is part of our loss, our grieving. I'm glad that you are finding a some relief. Treat yourself with kindness. Love yourself like SHE loved YOU. hugs
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MOGIRL, Kclaura has said it Beautifully, You gave your darling bull dog the Gift of Love forever, forever pain free, forever in Your Heart, Her Love is with you F-O-R-E-V-E_R. TREASURE THE MEMORIES. Peace be with You, Sherry
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I feel your heart ache and pain. Loving them is a special emotion that we, who love can only understand. Letting them go is very hard. We do the best we can at the time. Guilt is a normal part of grief. I grieved for Termy for a hard six months and wanted to be with him.It's been fifteen months now and I still cry and miss him very much. I too wished for him back and regret ed my decision but as I look back I know it was the right thing to do. You will get to this point but it will take time. All of us grieve differently so be gentle with yourself and remember the journey your shared and all the memories you made, together.
Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom