Registered: 1583888744 Posts: 1
help... I could not stop crying. I have been crying for almost 12 hrs and could not sleep. I even skipped work today. Here is what happened:
Almost 2 years ago, I bought dwarf hamster from a shop. I got him for only 1 dollar. I learned and read about hamsters and took care of him. We were happy. I knew he was. I gave him all the toys, food and everything he needed. Last night after work, my husband and I were supposed to eat out so we met near the resto. Then he suddenly hugged me and whispered "Manchichi" in a sad voice. My heart dropped and I just started tearing up in public. He told me he was still okay by afternoon and he was eating. Then when he got ready he noticed he wasn't moving so he kept poking him but he would not move. He was gone. My husband laid Manchichi's body in his favorite box in his house and waited for me. We cancelled dinner, went home and I cried my heart out. I put his favorite things with him, 2 pennies, some of his fave snacks and all. We buried him in the backyard under the beautiful moon. When I was holding him for the last time, he looked so peaceful and I am devasted but relieved that he passed in his sleep without any pain. My chest hurts and I cry so much thinking how there won't be a little guy waiting for me every morning and waiting for me at night anymore. I will miss all those noises he makes when eating, drinking, playing. I will just miss him so much. When I hear other people at home laughing and enjoying last night, it pisses me off though I know I should not keep them from being happy if I am sad. I told my mom about it and she scoffed and told me to just get another one. Some people can't really understand the bond we have with our pets. It frustrates me. I love my mom but I wish she would be more supportive. Sorry for ranting. HELP ME How do you cope?! How do I move on? I feel like there is an empty space in my heart right now.
Registered: 1444060919 Posts: 639
The thing that gets you though this is time for one. And also talking in "great detail" about what is happening with you. You can do that here. Many of us have cried 12 hours straight. Some 12 weeks straight and some 12 months straight and even longer. So that is very normal. Grief is not one emotion. It is a combination of different emotions happening at once and physical symptoms. If someone has never experienced this experience before, it can be very overwhelming and scary. But from what you have said, what is happening to you is understandable given the circumstances. I think it is adorable you got Manchichi for $1 and learned all about hamsters. My mother loved her hamsters and said each one had a different personality. Of course you are going to miss the sounds and the way Manchichi would greet you. That's what grief is. A strong reaction to the loss of detailed things. You will get better in time. This will not last forever.
Registered: 1584143193 Posts: 3
Sorry to hear about your loss. People who have never had pets don't understand what they mean to us.