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LCLCDM

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I gave my 17 year old dog a supplement that caused her to stop eating and drinking ( in retrospect it probably upset her stomach). On her 3rd day of being dehydrated I took her to an emergency vet. He gave her subcutaneous fluid and an appetite stimulate. I was going on a trip the next day and asked if it was safe to take her on the plane...he said yes. I looked back at her blood test from that night and she was already dangerously dehydrated , should NOT have gone on the plane....she should have been on IV fluid. I so regret not taking her to my regular vet that day. The only vet available all day was someone I didn't like (cold and was not nice to my dog one time). Again, at that point, she really should have been hospitalized. If she was hospitalized she would likely be alive today. I took her to VCA hospital the following night. . I was very worried about them putting Sugar in a small cage because she was pacing (another effect of the supplement). I kept asking how they could accommodate her. The vet tech kept going in circles and not answering my question. I asked to speak to the vet.... waited and waited...and finally left at 230 am. I now regret leaving because, at that point she likely would have recovered. She needed hydration and needed to figure out how to get her eating and drinking. The following day I took her to another ER. They gave her subcutaneous fluids and I started giving her CliniCare by syringe. She fought it...I don't think I gave her enough. The following day she was in the hospital for 5 days getting IVs. She recovered from the dehydration. I did sub q at home but found out today she was still not getting enough fluid to sustain her which may be why she relapsed. She paced that night, the next day. I don’t understand why I didn’t take her back to the hospital when she was pacing. She seemed distressed but I stupidly I waited until 4 pm because I had an appointment with a local vet. I shouldn’t have waited. Right before I left for the vet she collapsed. I went to the vet appointment ( should have taken her to the hospital instead). He said he didn’t think her qualify of life would be good because, at that point, she looked like she was in a coma. Now I am wondering if she was just dehydrated again, just needed more IV fluid and possibly a temporary feeding tube until she could eat and drink again. I so regret not getting her help sooner. I regret taking her to the vet down the street, and not back to the hospital. He didn't have the full picture and recommended I put her down. I have since done research and realized the dehydration could have caused the pacing and collapse. I didn't realize she could have been saved and could have recovered even though she fell into a coma. The collapse happened 5 minutes before I took her to the vet. She was still breathing ( in fact she was snoring but was not responsive). I feel completely responsible and am in such pain. I don't know how I will ever forgive myself for making so many terrible choices. I feel like I caused her death.
Pawprince

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I am so sorry for the loss of your dog. Probably you weren't thinking as clearly as you would have liked, because you were very worried an upset. Hindsight is 20/20, they say.  I don't know what to say that will sooth you, except I am sorry this happened. ((hugs))
cosesmom

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I am so very, very sorry and I feel your pain and heart ache. It sounds like you really really tried. You weren't given enough help and no compassion from the vets. I know you were so very stressed and so very upset at the time. We never think clearly when we are under duress during this time. We all try and after words we "what if " our selves to the point that our guilt eats us up. I did the same thing with Termy, I thought if I helped him go to the Bridge his suffering would end but then I did the "what if" and played out all the different reasons I should have done, maybe tried after I let him go. I deal with this guilt everyday but with professional help I am trying to move forward. I know you loved her very much and you gave her a very good life and YOU TRIED!!! You really did. I know you are hurting and you feel it won't get better but Please forgive yourself, you did your best just as I did.
Love and doggie hugs
Termy's mom
LCLCDM

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Thank you to both of you.  I haven't been on here for a while.  I am still having a hard time, going over all of the things I should have done differently.  If she had the right help early on she would still be here.  I am not sure how to ever forgive myself for that.
Pawprince

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LCLCDM,I'm sorry you're going through this. Try to practice self compassion.Try to see you did the best you could at the time. I'm sorry your beloved is bo longer with you, but beating yourself up... won't help. I know your wonderful dog, and all of us who feel your pain here, want you to take good care of yourself and hopefully smile again. I understand the loss is very difficilt, and we are all here to listen if you reach out. I hope you find some peace soon. God Bless
LCLCDM

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I would like to stop feeling this guilt, blame and regret but I don’t know how. I welcome any advice
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