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I had Rocky, my shih-tzu, since he was 4 months old and he passed away unexpectedly on Friday 9/14/18 at the age of 12. My mom found him dead in his favorite hiding spot under my bed. I have not been able to stop feeling so guilty over it since. He's been showing his age lately by not being able to control his urine and pretty much sleeping all day and being extra slow but this past week he had this newfound spunk and as a nurse I feel like I should've recognized it for what it was. He was such a pain in my butt but I loved him so much. My heart and home will never feel the same without the sound of his barking or click clacking of his paws on the floor. Everything reminds me of him and I find myself crying over a random hair on the ground and washing his food bowls for the last time. Wherever he is I hope he knows I loved him so much and I'm sorry I wasn't here for him when it happened. What I wouldn't give for one last walk or belly rub...
RIP Rocky 8/5/06-9/14/18
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I feel your pain and also the love for your Rocky. Rocky felt safe and secure under your bed and this was where he chose to close his eyes for the last time. I know how you feel when you look and say when did father time catch up with you and we over look the fact some things are normal when they get older. I know when he found his spunk your were so happy you had your old Rocky back and was living in the moment of his joy. Please don't be hard on yourself, Rocky wouldn't want you to feel guilty. Rocky was your Hear Dog and it's hard to live normally because nothing is the same. Cry when you feel the need and grieve as often as you want. I feel as you do, for one last walk, one last hug. I haven't put Termy's dishes away yet and may never. It will be one year to marrow and there isn't a single day that I don't shed a tear for him. They make such an impact in our lives that it's hard to live as we once did with out them.
I wish you peace and comfort for your broken heart Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom