Registered: 1537795418 Posts: 4
I had to put down my 11 year old shih tzu soul dog Charlie on Saturday. I have another 11 year old Tzu Kelly who was bonded to Charlie. He loved her so much and we always said when the time comes, it would be best for him to go before her because he would lose it without her.
Although I love them both...there was something about Charlie. We had a special connection and he was my special love. I am 39 and have never been married and never had kids. These 2 pups were my kids and everything I did..I did for them. I bought my house for them so they would have a yard to hangout in. I cooked for them and dont even cook for myself. Every morning I would drive them to my parents home to spend time there while I went to work and picked them up in the evening. Just like kids. We would come home and I would cook for them and we would watch TV together and then go to bed. That's all changed now. My heart, life and home are forever changed. I keep looking for signs from him and just cant accept the reality that I will no longer see him. I dont feel like I will ever be the same. I feel broken and dont know how I am supposed to continue on. I have to be there for Kelly... I know my thoughts are all over the place. I keep thinking why did he get sick? What could I have done differently? But it doesn't matter now. I was crying so bad yesterday and wished for a sign that he is ok. I was lying down crying with Kelly and all of a sudden she stood up and started sniffing the air and then started sniffing the couch. I put her down on the floor and she continued sniffing the floor and went around my dining room table which she never does and stopped at one of their beds. I was watching her and crying when I felt a piece of hair in my mouth. Expecting it to be my own, I pulled it out and it was a long white piece of hair. His hair...sounds crazy but I felt like maybe that was him. Hoping this gets better but I just dont think it will. Thanks for me letting me rant. Miss you Charlie boy so much.
Registered: 1524321790 Posts: 151
Dear must love dogs,I'm very sorry for the loss of your soul dog. I lost mine in April. I wish I could say it will get better over time but I can't. I mean I still miss my little as much today as I did the day she left me. I'm not sure I want to get o e it. You will have alot of hard days ahead but that shows how much you loved your little one. Listen people here want to listen to you and share with you so keep letting us hear about the good times and bad. We are on in the same boat. Take care and keep writing.
Registered: 1529423348 Posts: 118
We miss our deceased pets so much... Don't think we will ever stop missing them.