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LeeLeesMama

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Dear Nancy,
You were right - the stories of your little Smudgie's cardinals did make me smile..... I think they are such awesome signs from your sweet baby. The 'timing' of her signs to you is perfect - I'm always amazed at our precious Angel's abilities to chose signs the mean something special to us. The way she used that St. Louis Cardinal tee-shirt is great --good job Little Smudgie!!  Nancy, I know you would say the same as me...."Keep em coming!!"

I love what you said to Nance "If I live to be 100 I will miss her and love her everyday of my life...."  how true that is....

Hugs my friend...
Melanie
~Lee Lee's mama~
EliseT

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Dearest Nancy,

I am sorry to be so late wishing in wishing sweet Smudgie a happy 8 months at RB. I love your stories of "Smudgie's Cardinal"...it never ceases to amaze me how our sweet babies always find the most special ways to reach out and let us know they are near...that they are always watching over us. Truly, they are our guardian angels...

The St. Louis Cardinal's was our family's favorite baseball team when I was growing up, as my dad's father used to run the ball machine for the team when they were wintering in Florida years ago. He was friends with their third base coach and had so much fun interacting with the players and it was a nice little job for him during his retirement.

I know that Nance is right when she says we can never underestimate the power of love that our sweet angels have. And the more open our hearts are to receiving, the more blessings come our way. We have so much to be thankful for as our babies continue to love and bless us, finding the most special ways to touch our hearts...

Dear Smudgie,

Happy belated 8 months at RB sweet girl! Thank you so much for sending mommy a cardinal sign...you know just how and when to give mommy that little boost when she needs it most! Thank you for being so in tune with mommy...she loves you endlessly sweet girl! I hope you enjoyed your party, especially your favorite vanilla ice cream...I hope Buddy didn't eat more than his share, he is a golden and you know how much those babies love to eat!

Sending big hugs to mommy and soft angel hugs to you sweet girl...

Elise, Buddy's mom
maxsMandD

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Happy 8th month at the Bridge Smudgie, hope you enjoyed your day. Visit your mom in a dream she misses you so much.  ((hugs))  maxsMandD
Marpar

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Dear Nancy,
Please forgive my late response to your beautiful message to your sweet Smudgie. Eight months seems like an eternity, doesn't it, when we long so much to hold our precious companions again. I know my Oscar and your Smudgie both passed on the 4th of the month and I don't think that day will every come around where we don't relive and relive that final day. I think our hearts break all over again!
I absolutely LOVE the stories of the cardinal visits. I do believe that is Smudgie sending you love and letting you know that she is with you always. I also remember the buttlerfly you saw that day...another sign from Smudgie. I know how much you treasure those signs and they are truly a gift.
Happy belated anniversary to your dear, wonderful Smudgie, Nancy. Please know that you and Smudgie remain in m thoughts and prayers.
Hugs,
Peg
NancyMarie

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Dear Melanie,  I knew you would love the post about the signs and yes "Smudgie and LeeLee keep them coming. As I mentioned, sometimes I have a habit of second guessing the signs, but "Smudgie's cardinal" signs show up on such specific days that it's really hard not to believe it's a sign. Thank you so much for wishing my sweetie a Happy Anniversary at the bridge, it truly touches my heart. I wish you peace and comfort. Big HUG to you.

Dear Elise,  Please don't apologize for being late, I so appreciate you taking the time to stop by and wishing my sweet Smudge a Happy Anniversary, it touches my heart.  You are so right they are our Guardian Angels.  I love the story about your Dad, what a fun job that must have been for him during his retirement ! I hope Evie and Shiloh are doing good, from the pictures you've posted of Evie it shows what a beautiful forever home she is in, that is so wonderful !  I haven't been on in about a week so I have to check out your thread for updates on Shiloh. I know how proud your beloved Buddy must be of you ! I wish you peace and comfort. Big HUG to you.

Dear maxMandD - Thank you so much for stopping by to wish my beloved Smudgie a Happy Anniversary, it always warms my heart to see these postings !! I wish you peace and comfort. Big HUG to you !

Dear Peg, Please don't apologize for being late,  I really appreciate you taking the time to wish my sweetie pie a Happy Anniversary, it truly warms my heart.  You are so right the 4th of each month will never be the same, as each month passes and another month comes around I get an ache in my heart as the "4th" approaches. I use to think that it will lessen in time,  that the 4th will be just another day,  but now I know it will always represent the day I lost my very best friend, my little soul mate. I do treasure the signs she sends,  I'm always looking,  and even though I don't see them that often, when I do see them it's always around an anniversary day or when I'm needing it the most. I wish you peace and comfort.  Big HUG to you !

Thank you all again, your kindness and compassion mean the world to me.

Remember, the love never ends.

HUGS to all......Nancy
NancyMarie

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Tuesday, November 11th, 2014

Hi Smudgie......

Well another Tuesday has rolled around which means it's 36 weeks you are at Rainbow Bridge.

I was away for a few days, I haven't gone away since you passed, my heart just wasn't in it.  I went away with two of my oldest and dearest friends from childhood.  While I was there I tried to focus on the moment, to enjoy the moment, you taught me that,  our beloved pets and all animals really know the meaning of living in the moment.  One night we all were just chatting and one of my friends brought up her beloved dog Lilly that had passed a few years ago and my other friend brought up her sweet cat Rusty that passed and I started telling them about your illness and the day you passed and we all had a really good cry. It is just so healing to be able to talk about it and get all those emotions out. Sometimes we bottle up these emotions and the grief just stays within us and when we release it, it does feel better.  The trip ended up being fun, I thought of you most of the time but I also felt you in my heart and knew your little sweet spirit was with me.

Happy 36 weeks at Rainbow Bridge sweetie, celebrate with all your friends and remember one day Mommy will come for you but for now I carry you in my heart.

Mommy's love will never end. Kisses on the wind sweet little one.........

LeeLeesMama

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Dear Nancy...
I'm glad that you were able to get away for a little while....and that you have such wonderful support from your dear friends...just to be able to speak freely 'face to face' with someone who really 'gets it'.... I know that must mean a great deal to you.  True understanding (outside of my wonderful friends from this board) is hard to come by - at least it is for me.  I'm glad that you were able to find a way to enjoy your trip - you are right about our sweet babies 'living in the moment'...they are truly masters of that...

Happy 36 weeks Angel Smudgie! Stay close to your dear Mommy - she loves and misses you beyond words....

Hugs my friend....and peace for your heart...
Melanie
NancyMarie

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Dearest Melanie,

Thank you so much for stopping by to wish my little sweetie a Happy 36 weeks at the bridge.

It did feel good to get away for a bit and to also share my feelings with my friends, they both lost precious furbabies so they knew exactly what I was feeling.  But if it wasn't for this site and wonderful friends like you I really don't know how I would have coped all these months.  After a few weeks most people think you should be feeling better,  they don't realize there isn't a timeframe on grief, so here I can come and talk and express my feeling with people that know exactly what I'm going through.

Thank you again for your continued kindness and compassion.

Hugs, peace and comfort my friend.

Nancy

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Dear Nancy,  I hope your beautiful Smudgie had a wonderful 36th month bridgeday.  I know how much she is still missed.  You will always miss her but fortunately time heals the initial pain of loss and we are able to breathe again.  I hope for you more smiles than tears! 

Love,  Diane, Dallas's mom forever
NancyMarie

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Dear Diane,

Thank you so much your kind words and for stopping by to wish my beloved Smudgie a happy 36 weeks at the bridge.

I wish you peace and comfort today and always.

Remember, the love never needs.

Hugs to you..........Nancy (Mom to Angel Smudgie and Calie, Sparky and Jade)
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Smudgie, happy 36 weeks at the bridge. Your mom is right, the love never ends, it just grows with each passing day. You will always be in your mom's heart, and be a part of the person she is. 

Nancy, you are right, they do teach us so much, these sweet angels that are sent to us. We may not always realize it, but, they do have a way of making us into a better person that we are in the beginning. They teach us how to enjoy life, and to never regret anything, and how to march forward, even if the world seems to be closing in on us. I pray for you to find comfort in the days to come, and to know that Smudgie will always be with you.  
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Dear Nancy (and Smudgie):

Happy 36 weeks at the bridge!  Where does time go?  It doesn't seem possible that much time has elapsed, does it?

I'm glad you were able to get away with friends and each talk about your beloved pets.  That is a very rare thing outside of the people on this site.  As you said, most people think you should be over it in a few weeks.  I'm sure if I brought up Brandy to a few of my friends they would think it odd, especially since we've had Miriam for a year now.  But I will never forget Brandy, just as you could never forget your beloved Smudgie.

Sending hugs,
Barb (Angel Brandy's and now Miriam's mom)
~forever~
maxsMandD

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Happy 36 weeks at the Bridge Smudgie. Hope you had all your favorite treats today. Its so nice to be able to talk to be people about our pets and how much their loss means to us. That they were our family and will always be with us.

((hugs))   maxsMandD
NancyMarie

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Dearest Brenrae,

Thank you so much for your kind words and for stopping by to wish my beloved Smudgie a Happy 36 weeks anniversary at Rainbow Bridge.  You are so right, our beloved furbabies do make us better people and really do teach us the most important life lessons; love unconditional, play every day, live in the moment, don't worry about what other people think,  take a nap every day;  ride in the car with the windows down and the wind blowing in your hair,  the joy of jumping in a pile of leaves, .....my goodness I can just go on and on,  what a wonderful world this would be if we all lived life like our beloved animals.  Thank you again, wishing you peace and comfort and sweet dreams of your beloved Harry. Hugs to you......Nancy

Dear Barb,

Thank you so much for your kind words and for stopping by to wish my sweetpie a Happy 36 weeks anniversary at Rainbow Bridge.  This site has been a blessing to me, I can always come here and feel free to talk about my Smudgie without having people think why am I not over this yet.  When I went away with my friends I wasn't going to bring it up and my friend actually brought up the passing of her cat a few years ago and how she can still see his little face and one think lead to another and we all ended up crying, which is OK, I think crying is a good way of releasing our emotions, we all need a good cry now and then. You are right, I can't believe it's 36 weeks, sometimes I feel like it happened just yesterday but even if it was 36 years it wouldn't matter, I will remember and love her forever just as you will with " your Brandy". I'm glad Miriam is helping you with your healing, and it's so wonderful you gave another little soul a forever home - God Bless you. I wish you peace and comfort and sweet dreams of your beloved Brandy.  Hugs to you......Nancy

Dear maxMandD,

Thank you so much for your sweet words and for stopping by to wish my baby a Happy 36 weeks at Rainbow Bridge.  Absolutely, it is truly wonderful and a blessing to talk to people who know exactly what we are going through and who know there is no timeframe on grief.  They truly are our family and will always live in our hearts and are always on our minds.  I wish you peace and comfort and sweet dreams of Max......I think I told you this but growing up I had a dog (a little doxie) named Max,  I loved him so and still think of him always. Whenever I hear that name it always makes me think of my sweet Max. Hugs to you....Nancy

NancyMarie

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Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Hi Smudgie,

Well it's Tuesday, almost 8:30 a.m. which means it's been 37 weeks since you left for Rainbow Bridge.  Yesterday I was having a really "sad Smudgie" day, in fact I had parked my car in a garage in New York and when they brought it down there was a small scrape on the door.  I could feel my eyes filling up with tears as I showed the attendant the scrape, he was so nice about it and told me not to worry they would fix it but I started crying, really crying hard, he must have thought I was completely nuts. When I got in the car I couldn't stop crying and it wasn't because the door was scraped, it was because Mommy was missing you so much and next week is Thanksgiving and you won't be here. These next few months are going to be hard, first the holidays and then your birthday in January and then when you got sick near Valentine's day and then the 1 year anniversary of you leaving for Rainbow Bridge in March.  Mommy's heart is hurting so much, I know I shouldn't look that far in advance, I should just try to get through each day as it comes, I've been trying to keep busy and my mind off of it, but my heart rarely listens to my mind.

I miss you so much Smudgie, nothing seems right anymore. I went to last night's candle ceremony and I found out EdW and Betsy lost their beloved cat Mystery yesterday, so please you and all the bridgekids welcome Mystery to the bridge and invite him to your celebrations. You were always such a good girl at making new friends.

Happy 37 weeks at Rainbow Bridge sweetheart,  Mommy's love will never end.  I will light your special candle at St. Paul's chapel, look for the beautiful glowing candle later today and listen for Mommy whispering  " I love you".  I might be a little later then usual lighting the candle since Mommy has to find a new garage to park in.... :(

Kisses on the wind sweetheart.........Love Always and always and always......Mommy



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Dear Nancy,

Your letter to your beautiful girl is so touching...so filled with that certain sadness and longing that is all too familiar. I can totally relate to your "losing it" over your car getting scraped in the garage the other day. It sure doesn't take much to push us over the edge does it, when we are already so vulnerable emotionally. I hope that you can find some much needed joy and peace during Thanksgiving and the upcoming holiday season that follows. It is so hard because this is your year of "firsts" and everything is still so raw and painful. It is hard not to look into the future, knowing that the emptiness is going to be there and things can never be the same again. I wish there were some words that had the power to take away your pain and grief, but sadly there are none. It's just a terrible reality and process that we must all go through because we have loved so deeply and completely.

Your precious Smudgie is watching over you, Nancy...she cares so much about sweet mom and she doesn't want you to suffer and live in grief but she understands that mommy has to feel what her heart needs to feel. Your precious baby loves how much you honor her with the lighting of her candles and prayers...as you know, the love never ends...

Thank you so much for your support, for posting on Buddy's thread - I responded to you earlier today but the post hasn't been published yet or else I made a mistake in posting.

Keeping you and sweet Smudgie in my thoughts and prayers for peace and healing,

Elise, Buddy's mom

LeeLeesMama

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Dear Nancy,
I just wanted to stop by to let you know that I'm thinking about you and your precious little Smudgie.  I have had experiences similar to what you describe... breaking into tears where ever I happen to be at the moment... the raw emotion is still right there for me..but I am getting a bit better at keeping myself under control...at least until I can get to somewhere private.... It is ok... grief does that to you....  I really feel for you as you approach the 1 year mark... I dreaded it so, so badly... tried not to think about it... but as hard as I tried, I couldn't seem to 'not' think about it... I guess that is normal... "that" day changed our lives forever.  My prayers are with you my friend....

Warm hugs to you tonight and Happy 37 Weeks to your little angel...I know she enjoys seeing her candle each week...
Melanie ~ Lee Lee's Mama 
griefstricken

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Nancy, I am so sorry that I am late with this post but I want to wish your darling Smudgie a belated happy 36th month bridge day. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I know that it continues to be so hard for you without her. I know exactly what u are going through. U are so right the love never ever ends, the thoughts, emotions etc etc will always be strong for our beloved fur babies. It gets so very unbearable to deal with at times. sending you healing, peace and comfort blessings always. Stay well
Donna



(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Smudgie)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

PS. Your letter to your baby was so beautiful. She loves you so very much too.
NancyMarie

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Hi Melanie,

Thank you so much for all your compassion and support, it means the world to me.  I truly don't know how I would have gotten through these months without the support, kind words and healing messages from everyone.  I'm trying to focus on the day at hand and not think to far in advance, some days I'm OK and other days not so much. Thank you again for your prayers and kind words and for stopping by to wish my beloved Smudgie a Happy 37 weeks at Rainbow Bridge.

Big Hug to you my friend......

Nancy
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Dear Nancy,
   I don't know how in all my postings here I have managed to overlook all yours. I could have sworn I had left posts on your thread for Smudgie before, but in looking back I don't see any. I went back and read all the beautiful postings to your precious Smudgie, and each and every one was filled with so much love and tenderness.  And also so much heartache and loss which unfortunately is all so common here. How I wish none of us here had that heartache in common. 
   Like you said, nothing is the same ever again and the holidays will be so hard. Our little ones so lived in the moment and asked so little of us, compared to what they gave us in return. Your precious girl sounded so sweet and loving. Just know she is always in your heart and by your side, no matter how far apart you are. That special bond you had with her will go on forever. I will pray for peace and comfort for your aching heart
Hugs,
 Pam
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Nancy, it is so hard when the "firsts" come along. The first Thanksgiving, and Christmas, and so on and so on. I remember our hard it was for me after I had to let Harry go on a head of me. This will be my third without him here, and truthfully, it doesn't seem any easier. But, I like to think that our babies are watching from where they are, and can see all the beautiful Christmas lights, and they are close by as we celebrate the season. Perhaps they are in that first snowflake that comes down in front of us, and are stopping by to say hi, or they are in the first star we see at night, and they are waving their little paws at us, and the star shines brightly with the love they have for us. Perhaps I am being fanciful, but when I see the crescent moon in the night sky, and it looks like it is smiling, I like to imagine it is Harry smiling down on me as he wishes me a good night. Your letter to Smudgie is beautiful and filled with the love you fill for your sweet girl. I know that life will never be the same without her, but, I know your life is better for you had the privilege of knowing her, and that is one thing we can all be thankful for as we go through the season. We were all blessed with a love so great, and nothing can ever diminish it, for it is a love so true and wonderful, and it comes from the heart of our fur angels.
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Dear Nancy:

Your letters to Smudgie almost always move me to tears.  I can just feel the love you had for Smudgie in everything you write.

The holidays will definitely be hard - they were super hard for us last year and I don't see any change in that.  How could there be, with such a huge part of our lives missing.

Happy 37 weeks at the bridge beautiful Angel Smudgie - your mom misses you but her love for you will never end....

Barb (Angel Brandy's and now Miriam's mom)
~forever~
NancyMarie

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Hi Elise,

Thank you so much for your sweet posting, I'm sorry I'm replying back so late but I haven't been on in a few days.  You are so right, the "firsts" are just really hard and I've been feeling so melancholy,  but I know my sweet Smudgie is watching over us,  but I still sooooooo wish she was here.  I'm still at the stage where I keep thinking "this time last year" she was here,  I miss my little girl.

You are very welcome in regard to me posting on Buddy' thread,  I love reading about your beloved Buddy and now about Evie, Shiloh and little Peanut, you have really opened my mind to fostering. I'm not there yet,  but it is something I would think about in the future. I feel like it's a beautiful way to honor and keep their memories alive by opening our hearts to other beautiful little souls. As I've told you, I think what you are doing is amazing & beautiful and your sweet Bud Bud is so proud of his dear Mom.

Thank you so much Elise for all your support, kindness and compassion.  May the holiday season bring you peace and comfort and beautiful memories of your beloved Buddy.

Hugs to you my friend.....

Nancy

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Dear Donna

Thank you so much for your sweet posting and for wishing my beloved Smudgie a Happy 37 weeks at Rainbow Bridge.  Please no apology needed, no postings are ever late, I truly appreciate you stopping by and leaving a kind word, it doesn't matter when or how often,  what matters is you took the time to show your support and I thank you for that.  All the replies I've received or even just the people reading about her story, keeps her sweet memory alive and that truly make me feel good. Thank you for your blessings

I know the holidays are going to be hard for all of us, so I'm wishing you , peace, comfort, healing and beautiful sweet memories of little Bella.

Hugs to you.......Nancy
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Hi Pam,

Thank you so much for your sweet post, I truly appreciate everyone that reads and/or posts on Smudgie's thread , it keeps her sweet memory alive and that makes me feel so good. She was a very special little girl, she was my little soulmate and I will miss and love her for the rest of my life, but I thank God that he gave me Smudgie for 9 beautiful years,  I wish it was longer but I guess whether it's 9, or 19, or 99, it still wouldn't have been long enough.  Your prayers, kindness and support are so greatly appreciated.  I know how hard the holiday season are for all of us without our beloved furbabies, so I'm wishing you peace, comfort, healing and beautiful sweet dreams of your Hunter.

Hugs to you..............Nancy
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Dearest Brenrae,

Awwwwww, I loved your post., and I love the idea of our babies showing us signs in a beautiful snowflake or a shining star or your sweet Harry's memory in the crescent moon, how lovely. And you are so correct, my life was...is better because I had the very special honor of having my beloved Smudgie in my life for 9 beautiful years and I thank God for that, I thank him for entrusting me with her care and her love.  I just wish it was longer, but as I said in other postings, whether it was 9, 19, or 99 years it still wouldn't have been long enough.  Again, I loved you sweet post and I don't think it was fanciful, I think it was spoken from the heart, and I know our beloved furbabies show us many beautiful signs in all sorts of ways.  As the 3rd holiday season approaches without your sweet Harry, I'm wishing for you peace, comfort and beautiful sweet memories of your Harry and lovely crescent moons.

Hugs to you my friend............Nancy
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Dear Barb,

Thank you so much for stopping by to wish my beloved Smudgie a Happy 37 weeks at Rainbow Bridge and thank you for your kind words. You are so right, the holidays are so hard without our sweet babies,  I see all the beautiful decorations and in the past they would warm my heart but now I just feel emptiness without her here.  I know I will miss and love her for the rest of my life but since it is the season for thanks,  I do thank God for entrusting me with her love and even though our time together was too short, I will remember our beautiful memories always. I know how hard it is for all of us during this holiday season, so I'm wishing you peace, comfort and sweet sweet memories of your beloved Brandy and healing energy & warm and fuzzy kisses from your dear Miriam.

Hugs to you my friend.....Nancy 
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Tuesday,  November 25, 2014

My Beloved Smudgie......

It's Tuesday, and at 8:30 a.m., it will be 38 weeks since you left for Rainbow Bridge. 38 Weeks, two days before Thanksgiving and 1 month until Christmas, and I have to tell you my emotions are running wild.  Yesterday I couldn't wait to get home from work, I had to go to the ladies room twice to cry and when I was walking to my car I could feel the tears coming down.  I'm sorry I didn't attend last night's candle ceremony, Mommy just wanted to sleep, but now I feel bad I didn't attend, it always makes me feel a bit better, more connected to you.  I've been thinking about your face rubs,  I so miss those face rubs. I so love your sisters, they are my heart, but you are not only part of my heart but also my soul.  We shared a connection, a bond that I never felt with anyone else and that's why I always say you are my tiny little soulmate wrapped up in the cutest little package.  This Thanksgiving, even though you are not physically here,  Mommy is still thankful for the beautiful 9 years God entrusted me with your care and love and Mommy is thankful for the love I carry in my heart for you.

Mommy, loves you today, tomorrow and always, Mommy's love will never end.  Look for your special candle today that I will light at St. Paul's Chapel and I will be looking

for your special sign.

Until we see each other again, I'm sending you kisses on the wind........xoxoxoxox Mommy

P.S. I know your 3 sisters miss you so much, but I think Calie misses you the most and I think sometimes she actually sees you, because I see her sitting in the comfy chair  the two of you always shared and she will be looking up - just staring......and it gives me a warm feeling to know that your presence will always be around us.  
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Dear Nancy,

I'm so sorry your emotions have been so difficult and painful...it's such an awful feeling when you can't seem to get a grip on them and they just take over, regardless of where you are or what has to be done. I admire you for being able to attend the candlelight ceremony, to feel closer to your sweet girl. I tried attending one shortly after Buddy passed and just couldn't handle it, it brought everything rushing back so much, all the pain and anguish and I've never had the courage to try again.

I pray that your heart has peace this Thanksgiving, Nancy. I pray that you will have a sweet sign from your precious little soul-mate, who is still right by your side...(I know that Calie is definitely "seeing" Smudgie - she knows without a doubt that Smudgie is still with you all). May the warmth of Smudgie's presence fill your heart, this day and always.

Sending hugs of comfort and peace,

Elise, Buddy's mom



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Dear Nancy,
Wish you peace and comfort knowing Smudgie is with our beloved babies at the RB.  We are a group of caring and understanding souls and so are our beloved babies, they are taking care of each other at the RB giving each other love, Smudgie is in good hand!  One thing for sure is she will always love and remember you just like the way you feel about her.  We are just like our babies, we each have our own earthy lives and only love is eternal...the sadness, the helplessness, the pain, they are elements of love which is never ends....
Smudgie will always be with you and her beloved sisters, sharing the coming up holiday with her sweet Little spirit! 
Hugs,
Nance, Bedomom
NancyMarie

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November 27, 2014

This was the first Thanksgiving in 9 years that I didn't have my best friend and little soul mate Smudgie. I missed having her here so much this Thanksgiving but I am truly blessed to have found this site and met so many wonderful compassionate people.  Thanks to all that have read my Smudgie's thread, you keep her memory alive,  thanks to all that have posted on her thread, your words and kindness are helping me heal.  I know for all of us the holidays are hard without our beloved furbabies, so I would like to wish each and everyone of you peace in your heart, comfort for your soul and continued healing.  I wish I can give you each a huge hug......I love you all !

I heard this poem a few days ago and it touched my heart......these are my wishes for you:


From the poem May You by Bill Murphy

May you learn from the Emissaries who come from above
May you come to understand that we never die
May you realize the purpose of life and your soul
May you begin to understand it's a life long goal
May you come to understand what lives for eternity
May you come to learn what can and cannot be
May you open your hearts to only know love
May you know what is earthly and what's from above
May you know of the angels that protect you each day
May you hear their guidance so you never stray
May you always be aware of God's love, protection and light
May you offer him thanks each and every night

Blessings to all of you this Thanksgiving..............

Love Nancy
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November 27, 2014 - Thanksgiving

Dear Smudgie,

Happy Thanksgiving sweetie,  Mommy missed you so much today ! It's the first Thanksgiving in 9 years that you weren't here and Mommy's heart hurt so much.  Please remember " I carry your heart with me - I carry it in my heart - I am never without it - anywhere I go, you go" (from the poem by E.E. Cummings).  It was a quiet, peaceful day, I spent it with Grandma, Grandpa and Uncle Rob and your 3 sisters (Calie, Sparky and Jade).  We all miss you so much.

I hope all your special treats were served today and you had a blast with all of your Rainbow Bridge buddies.

I am so thankful for having you in my life for 9 beautiful years here on earth and now for having you as my sweet little Guardian Angel. I thank God he brought us together and he entrusted me with your care and your love.

Happy Thanksgiving Baby......remember, Mommy's love will never end.

Kisses on the wind......xoxoxoxox....Mommy



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Dear Elise,

Thank you for your sweet post, it truly means so much to me.

Today being the first Thanksgiving without her was hard, but I got through it, I spent it with family and it was peaceful. I am so blessed that I was given 9 beautiful years to

care and love that sweet little soul and now she is my beloved little Guardian Angel and I will be eternally grateful to God for bringing the two of us together.

I hope you had a peaceful Thanksgiving, surrounded by family, friends, Shiloh, Peanut and your beloved Buddy, who I'm sure was right by your side throughout the day.

One of my favorite poems is by E. E. Cummings; I Carry Your Heart.....I love the whole poem, but the first few lines so make me think of how we feel about our furbabies:

" I carry your heart with me - I carry it in my heart - I am never without it - anywhere I go, you go"

When I'm feeling sad, I think of these lines and it makes me feel better because I know she is with me as your beloved Buddy is with you.

I hope you had a very Blessed Thanksgiving Elise.

I wish you peace for your heart, comfort for your soul and sweet sweet dreams of Bud Bud.

Hugs to you...........Nancy



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Dear Nance,

Thank you for your beautiful post, it made me smile when you said Smudgie is in good hands, an image came to my mind of all these beautiful little furbabies running around enjoying the Thanksgiving festivities, thank you I needed to smile today. 

I hope you had a Blessed Thanksgiving surrounded by family and friends and your beloved Bedo.  You are right, love is eternal and our beautiful babies are always by our side and always in our hearts.  I hope they all got their very special treats today for Thanksgiving, I'm sure they did and all their bellies are full.

One of my favorite poems is  "I carry your heart by E. E. Cummings" ,  when I'm feeling sad I read the first few lines and it makes me think of my beloved Smudgie and it warms my heart, I hope when you read them it makes you think of your beloved Bedo.  ( I posted this poem in my last few posts so I'm sorry if I'm repeating myself, but I think it's worth repeating... :)....)....here it goes:

" I carry your heart with me - I carry it in my heart - I am never without it - anywhere I go you go"

Those lines are so true for all of us.

I'm wish you peace for your heart, comfort for your soul and beautiful sweet dreams of your Bedo.

Hugs to you.........Nancy







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Dear Nancy,
You are such a blessing....always trying to lift broken hearts even though yours is in a million pieces.  I'm glad that you were able to be with family yesterday, I know it was a hard day with bittersweet memories of past Thanksgivings. I know you miss your little angel...

Warm hugs and wishes for peace...
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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Hi Melanie.....

Thank you for your sweet words.  Thanksgiving was so bittersweet, but I know Christmas is going to be harder,  just seeing all the decorations and lights going up everywhere brings tears to my eyes, I miss her so much. I hope your Thanksgiving passed peacefully. Thank you always for your support and kindness, I truly don't know what I would have done without everyone here.

Warm hugs, peace and comfort to you my friend.

Nancy
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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2014

Good Morning Smudgie,

It's almost 8:30 a.m. on a Tuesday which means it's 39 weeks since you left for Rainbow Bridge.

I miss you.

I miss you, but I know you know that because since you left I think I probably said that a "million times".  Sometimes I'm at work and I'm not even thinking about you and a memory pops into my mind and I think "I miss you". Mommy was cleaning out a drawer yesterday and I came across a tiny little red and green stocking cap that has the words "humbug" on it and I remember how you hated me putting this on your head, it lasted about 30 seconds on your head, just long enough for me to take a picture, you looked soooooo cute,  I miss you. I was also thinking about that very "loud" snort you had all your life, I remember all the tests you went through to see why you had this snort and the vets found nothing, and after a while I didn't even notice it, but when I was on the phone you would like to rub your face next to mind, people on the other end would ask "what is that".....and I would smile and just say "My Smudgie".....I miss hearing that snort.....Mommy always knew when you came into the room, I miss you. When I would come home from work, you would be waiting at the door and if Mommy was real late, you would be waiting in the window looking up the block to see if I was coming.  I remember walking down the block and seeing you sitting next to Mommy's "fake" angel candles on the window, the glow from the lights against your pure white fur made you look like a little angel, and now you are Mommy's angel....I miss you.  I miss you, I miss you......I miss you.

Happy 39 weeks at Rainbow Bridge baby.....Mommy loves you.......and I miss you.

Remember, look for the candle Mommy will light later today at St. Pauls chapel,  I know you can see it from heaven, I will look for our special sign.

Mommy's love will never end....kisses on the wind............I miss you.
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Happy 39 weeks Angel Smudgie!  

Dear Nancy,
I think those words "I miss you" say it all... (((Hugs)))  I wanted to tell you about a photograph I saw in a gallery on our trip... it was a snowy winter shot with just some gray aspen tree trunks...and on the right side on a branch sat a brilliant male red bird... a beautiful spot of color...my thoughts went instantly to your precious girl and those awesome cardinal signs she sends to her sweet Mommy.  She loves you so....

Peace and prayers my friend...
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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Dear Melanie,

Awww, thank you so much for stopping by and wishing my Sweetie Pie a Happy 39 weeks at Rainbow Bridge.....oh I miss her so, Thursday (tomorrow)  is 9 months, and I think I can't believe it's been that long since I've seen her little face.

I hope your trip was peaceful and brought you some comfort my friend.  Awwwww, that is so sweet that you thought of Smudgie's cardinal signs while you were away, that really warms my heart - thank you.  A few weeks ago I was visiting my parents in New Jersey and I was driving my Dad's car and I was making a sharp left turn when all of a sudden this bird comes swooping down in front of the car's windshield and then soars high up in the air...it happened in an instant, and my brother who was sitting next to me said " did you see that, it was Smudgie's cardinal", now even my family is calling them " Smudgie's cardinals"..lol.  In New Jersey you see a lot of cardinals, but the way this one came swooping down right in front of the windshield and soared high up in the air was very unusual........hmmmmm, Smudgie's cardinal. They are so very beautiful, there is nothing like seeing them sitting in a snow covered tree and all you see is that brilliant red against the white. 

Peace and prayers to you as well my friend and sweet dreams of your beloved Lee Lee.

Big Hug to you...........Nancy

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Thursday, December 4th........9 Months

Dearest Smudgie,

It's 1 o'clock in the morning and Mommy couldn't sleep and your sister Calie is sitting next to me pushing her head into my arm to be petted. Mommy is sitting here thinking of all the beautiful memories we shared in the 9 years we were together.  God brought us together when you were 9 months old and God called you home when you were 9 years old and today is 9 months since I last saw that beautiful little face, 9 months, how is that possible. When I come home at night I still expect to see you waiting for me at the door, or sometimes I'll be doing something and I think I still see you from the corner of my eye or hear your cute little "snort".  These last 9 months feel like a very bad nightmare and I keep thinking I'm going to wake up and you will be here.......but your not.  I remember when you would rub your little face against my face and I would think how much I loved you and what would I do if I had to live without you....but then I would push that thought from my head because you were only 9 and that's relatively young for a cat, but as the saying goes "tomorrow is not promised to anyone".  A few months ago someone told me they would never have a pet because the pain of losing them is so great and I thought how very sad to think like that.  If I had thought like that, I would have missed out on knowing and loving my little soulmate, my best friend, my heart, my buddy, my breath.........and like everyone here, Mommy would do it all over again, even if I knew the outcome would be the same.

Happy 9 months at Rainbow Bridge my beloved Smudgie.....eat lots of vanilla ice cream and pudding and later today look for the glow from the special candle I light for you at St Paul's chapel.

Remember, Mommy's love will never end, I carry your heart in my heart, forever and forever......I miss you forever......kisses on the wind.

Love Mommy......xoxoxoxoxo
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