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Bedomom

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Wish you a Blast on your 19th weeks anniversary, Smudgie! You are such an adorable Angel with a unique look! I know mommy is still hurting and missing you as you are a BIG PART of her and she loves you endlessly! Please come to her dream Sweetie! You had a wonderful earth home and now you are up there painfree and surrounded by our Angels with love!  You will always be looking down at mommy with a smile because there is so much pride in your loving bond!
Yes there is ice cream and exotic fruits at the RB! when we are loved, we have faith and we believe!
Hugs
Bedomom

NancyMarie

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Dearest Bedomom,

Your posting made me smile, thank you, I needed to smile today.

I love reading your letters to Bedo,  they are beautiful, they truly show what a wonderful loving relationship you had with your little sweetie pie.

And yes, lots of ice cream, exotic fruits, and whatever other treats all of our sweeties love to eat.

Thank you again for the smile.... :)

Big Hug back......

Nancy
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Such a beautiful letter for a beautiful girl. Such an absolutely perfect name! You said it so well, there are a thousand little things that every baby does that are so unique and belonging to that special baby only. I still so miss all of Sammy's unique behaviors that are absolutely irreplaceable and endearing. Isn't it the truth that every thing revolves around when our babies were with us. I recently painted an outside bench that Sammy laid on sometimes and I did not want to cover up the old paint, because he had laid on it. I still empty the vacuum outside instead of in the garbage, just incase some of his fur may be in it and it has been almost a year. I just couldn't bear for any of him to be put in a garbage! Happy 19 weeks to you Smudgie!!! I will think of you now whenever I have ice cream! Beautiful story!!
NancyMarie

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Dear Northernlitez,

Thank you so much for the kind words, your post made me smile...I do the same thing with the vacuum.

I'm sorry for the loss of your sweet Sammy, I hope Smudgie and Sammy are at Rainbow Bridge enjoying their treats together.

I wish you peace, comfort and continued healing.

Remember, the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy



NancyMarie

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My dearest Smudgie,

Today at 8:30 a.m. it's 20 weeks since you went to the Rainbow Bridge.

How did almost 5 months go by without me seeing your beautiful little face.

Have an extra helping of vanilla ice cream with your friends today.

Mama loves and misses you always and always and always.......

I will light "our" candle today at St. Paul's Chapel, I hope you can see it in heaven.

The following poem is for you and for all the beautiful furbabies that have passed.

Please tell everyone I said hi and I miss them........give Max a special hug from me and tell him Grandma misses him so much, we all do.

Remember Mommy's love will never end.......

Hugs and kisses baby.....Love Mommy

and Calie, Jade, Sparky, Uncle Rob, Grandma, Grandpa, Aunt Jeannie





I Only Wanted You


They say memories are golden

well maybe that is true.

I never wanted memories,

I only wanted you.


A million times I needed you,

a million times I cried.

If love alone could have saved you

you never would have died.


In life I loved you dearly,

In death I love you still.

In my heart you hold a place

no one could ever fill.


If tears could build a stairway

and heartache make a lane,

I'd walk the path to heaven

and bring you back again.


Our family chain is broken,

and nothing seems the same.

But as God calls us one by one,

the chain will link again.


Author - Vicky Holder

goofygirlinva

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Hi Nancy,
I love the poem you posted for Smudgie - it rings so true in so many of our hearts and always will until we are reunited with our loved ones. 

20 weeks seems like forever, doesn't it? Yet it's just a blink of an eye in the larger scheme of things. That's the thing about time - it can be so cruel. On the one hand, there are times where we want time to stand still so we can cherish and stay in the moment forever. Yet when we are most struggling, time keeps marching on regardless of what we want or what we do. And then before we know it, a month, then two months, half a year, a year, and then many years have gone by and we are often left wondering what the hell happened, how could those memories we keep tucked away in our hearts have happened so long ago.

Yet there are things time can never conquer. As you often say, the love will never end. Love knows no boundaries such as death or time. Love will always be there, no matter what happens. And I guess that is what we cling to as we go about our lives after we've lost those that are so dear to us. We cling to the love we have and to the promise that we will be reunited and the chain will link again.

Thinking of you and your precious Smudgie...

- Kelly
Blackie's mom

Marpar

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Dear Nancy and all,
What a beautiful poem to sweet Smudgie! Tears rolled down my cheecks as I read it, thinking of my sweet Oscar, your Smudgie and all of our dear companions who have gone before us. It is amazing how our minds and bodies continue to function while our souls weep. It's been 2 1/2 weeks since Oscar passed yet it seems so long ago that I held her. I just don't know when this hole in my heart will mend - if it ever will. I see all the endearing things she did, in my mind's eye, and I just miss her so much.
Nancy, I love the way you lit a candle at St. Paul's Church for Smudgie. I have prayed for Oscar (and all our other friends and companions on this site) each Sunday in church. Next week, I, too, will light a candle, as well.
Thank you, all, for the comforting words and support you provide to everyone who is struggling so hard with the loss of their companions. It is such a tremendous help.
Peg
NancyMarie

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Hi Kelly,

Thank you for the kind words, it's amazing it's 20 weeks.  You are so right,  20 weeks does seem like forever and on the other hand sometimes it feels like the blink of an eye. But now I notice more and more of her beautiful happy memories are coming through, when she first passed all i could think of were her last weeks when she was so ill.  Now little by little I'm having happy thoughts again,  of course those happy thoughts come with tears...... but I'm trying.

Thinking of you and your sweet Blackie.

and.....

remember the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy

LeeLeesMama

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Happy 20 Weeks Little Angel Smudgie!  Come visit your Mom and let her feel the touch of your sweet little paw...

Dear Nancy,
I happened to see your post this morning at almost exactly 8:30... I know it must hurt your heart to see that time on the clock...I am so sorry...hugs... 

The poem that you posted for your beloved Smudgie is just beautiful, it is one of my favorites...there are no truer words...'I Only Wanted You'...  And I love the idea of lighting a candle at your Chapel...I am certain that your angel sees her candle's glow, I wish there was a place nearby that I could do that for my Lee Lee.  

My thoughts are with you tonight...I wish you peace...
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~


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Nancy,

I'm so terribly sorry about your loss of your beloved Smudgie what
an adorable name he had I love it. It looks like you went through a lot with your Smudgie and that you loved him dearly. He was very lucky to have a mommy like you that loved him and cared for him. It does help a lot when we happen to write about them or even dedicate them a few words. I saw the poem that you dedicated to your Smudgie and what a coincidence I also dedicated the same poem to my beloved princess. Its a beautiful poem and since the first day I saw it I loved it to be able to express it to my baby. I'm not sure how long it's been since the loss of your Smudgie since I'm just viewing your story today. But I completely understand how much you miss him and you need him by your side. I'm not sure if you have pictures of your Smudgie I will love to see them if I'm able to.


Sincerely,

Mayra
NancyMarie

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Dear Melanie......

Thank you for your kind words and the hugs and for wishing my Smudgie a happy 20th week bridge anniversay.

I love candles, I think they are so peaceful and soothing. You mentioned that you wished you had a place nearby, when I'm not working and i can't get to the chapel I light Smudige a candle from home.  I bought a candle that has an angel on it from Yankee Candle and sometimes when I'm having a really bad "miss you so much" day, I light the candle and tell her I love her....it really helps me.

Peace and Blessings to you and your sweet beloved LeeLee.

Remember the love never ends.

Nancy

NancyMarie

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Dear Mayra,

Thank you so much for your kind words.

Smudgie got her name because she is all white but has black markings and one of those markings are on her nose.  It's been 20 weeks (yesterday) since she passed and not a day has gone by that I don't think of her and tell her I love her. 

I'm so sorry about your loss of your sweet princess and yes you are right it's such a beautiful poem and I'm sure the words ring true for all of us.

If you go to page one I have two pictures posted of my sweet Smudgie.

Thank you again.

Remember, the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy

Lasweetbaby33

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Happy 20th week Anniversary angel Smudgie! I bet you an my baby princess are right now playing together at the rainbow bridge. Awww Nancy I saw the pictures of your Smudgie and he's so cute and adorable. I love his black marking on the tip of he's nose is so cute. An thanks for the kinds words towards my little girl and definitely love never ends. Hugs to you.


Sincerely,

Mayra

Princess mommy 4ever in my heart <3
NancyMarie

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Hi Smudgie,

 

I just came from St Paul’s Chapel,  Mommy lit you a candle for your 21stweek anniversary at the bridge.

 

Can you see the beautiful flame of the candle in heaven, did you hear Mommy whisper "I love you". ?

 

Oh how I  hope they have beautiful water bowls in heaven.......

Oh how you loved to play in your water bowl,
oh how you loved to flip your water bowl.  

At times it would drive Mommy crazy because I was afraid you and your 
sisters wouldn’t have anything to drink while

Mommy was at work.   I remember the large ceramic bowl that 
you couldn’t flip but you figured  out if you pushed

it around the room with your head all the water would splash out.
Or the extra large galvanized bowl guaranteed not to

flip but you figured out if you push it up against a wall real hard
making the bowl kinda go up the wall all the water would spill out. 

 I still remember when I bought that bowl, the sales person
asked me if I had a large Rottweiler and I told him no, a small 5 pound cat,

he looked at me as if I were nuts.
Oh how you made me laugh, you were always so determined to flip or put your paw in anything

that had liquid in it,  water
bowls,   my drinking glass,  my cereal bowl and your all time favorite the toilet bowl.  Mommy would

give anything to have
those days back with you and now whenever I change your sister’s water bowls I whisper “go ahead Smudgie, flip it over"

 

Oh how I hope they have beautiful water bowls in heaven...........

 

Mama loves and misses you so much baby !!   Kisses....kisses.....kisses......

NancyMarie

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My dear beloved Smudgie,

Today is August 4th, which means it's 5 months since you went to Rainbow Bridge,  my heart hurts today, I miss you so much, I miss your beautiful

face and your crazy antics.

I know you live in my heart and always will, but I so miss seeing you.

I was shopping and noticed the stores are already putting out school supplies and Halloween decorations,  Fall was always my favorite time of year. When

I would see these things in the store it would bring a smile to my face because I knew fall was coming soon.......but yesterday when I saw all the decorations

it just made me sad because you're not here with me to enjoy.   I have an angel candle that I light for you during the Monday night ceremony and also every

Tuesday (the day you passed),  I bought a Pumpkin scented candle that I will light during the Fall months so we can both enjoy our Fall memories together.

I hope all the trees at Rainbow Bridge change to the beautiful fall colors, I'm sure it will be  absolutely breathtaking!

I miss you so much baby, remember Mommy's love never ends.

Kisses and Hugs sweetheart........Love Always Mommy, Uncle Rob, Grandma and Grandpa, Calie, Jade, Sparky and Aunt Jeannie.

goofygirlinva

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Hi Nancy,

You have such a beautiful way with words. I can so clearly see the images and stories you spin with your writing - such a delight to read!

I can so very much empathize with you when you write about how seeing the fall decorations makes you sad because Smudgie is not here with you to enjoy. Thanksgiving is like that with me. The first holiday Blackie & I spent together was Thanksgiving and we were by ourselves for that holiday - both my roommates had left for the break and it was just me & Blackie in our apartment.

I remember how I decided at the last minute I wanted to make a turkey, so I went to the store & got a turkey breast and make it along with sausage stuffing and some other things. I remember how, when the last of my roommates left, Blackie was so happy that it was just the two of us - he practically pranced into the living room area and laid down on the floor with a special spark in his eyes. And then when I made the turkey and gave some to him to enjoy, he just gobbled it up like he hadn't eaten in days! Other than have a small Thanksgiving dinner, we really didn't do much else that weekend other than spend extra time with each other. But it was our first holiday together, and that made it particularly special. And now, whenever Thanksgiving comes around and I give my kitties their turkey plates, I always think back to that first Thanksgiving Blackie & I shared and hope he is looking down on us and enjoying some turkey of his own and remembering that special weekend we spent together. Just as the fall reminds you of Smudgie, I will always think of Blackie whenever Thanksgiving approaches and wish we could have spent just one more turkey day together or shared just one more plate of turkey.

Thinking of you & your beloved Smudgie,

- Kelly
Blackie's mom

Marpar

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Nancy, what a beautiful tribute to Smudgie! I lost my Oscar on July 4th so it's only been a month for me. I know we will always miss them sorely but I hope the intense pain will diminish with time.
I will remember your Smudgie tonight during the candlelit ceremony.
Peg
Bedomom

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Dear Smudgie,
I wish you having fun on your 5th month anniversary at the RB! With mom's love, the color of at the RB is the color of love and it will keep you safe and warm! Mom misses and loves you endlessly! It was Bedo's anniversary yesterday and you kid would be having one party after another! Have a blast Little One!

Dear Nancy,
I know how hard it is to see things that reminder us so much of our beloved babies! I drove by Bedo's first Vet after all those years by coincidence on his anniversary yesterday...it brought back so much bitter sweet memories, Bedo was there having his tooth removed...the joy of picking him up after treatment and being able to hold our babies in our arms is such a wonderful feeling..I am so sorry...it is hard...wish you peace and comfort in sweet memories of your Beautiful Angel!
Hugs
Bedomom
NancyMarie

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Dear Bedomom - Thank you for the kind words to me and my Smudgie, I'm sure Smudgie and Bedo celebrated their anniversaries eating vanilla ice cream with delicious figs.  I thought of you and your sweet Bedo last week when a street vendor in New York was selling fresh figs, it made me smile  because it brought to mind your beautiful story about Bedo and the figs.  I bought some and while I was eating them I whispered " these are for you Bedo".  Thank you again for the kind words and I wish you peace, comfort and continued healing.  Hugs back.....

Dear Marpar - thank you so much for the kind words and Happy 1 month anniversary at the bridge to your sweet Oscar.  The intense pain will slowly subside, the loss is always there and a small piece of our heart will always be missing, but the happy memories that we shared with our beloved babies will make us smile again. I wish you peace, comfort and continued healing. Hugs to you.

Dear Kelly,  thank you so much for the kind words,  they are so greatly appreciated. What a beautiful Thanksgiving story,  I know your sweet Blackie will be looking down this Thanksgiving  and thinking back fondly to your first Thanksgiving together, it sounded like a very sweet special day for the two of you.  I wish you peace, comfort and continued healing. Hugs to you.

Remember, the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy
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Dear Nancy:

I'm sorry I missed Smudgie's special day yesterday.  I'm sure his party was just wonderful with all the friends around trying to flip water bowls.

Fall is my favorite time of year too, and Brandy always loved it when the weather turned cooler.  She got so lively and frisky and wanted to walk and run forever.  Last Fall was hard when she wasn't there with us, so I lit extra candles too, just to feel like she was near.

Dear Smudgie:

Happy 5 months at the bridge!!  Maybe the rain we had here last night was all the water that was tipped from your water bowls.

Sending hugs to you and angel Smudgie,

Barb (Angel Brandy's and now Miriam's mom)
~forever~

NancyMarie

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Hi Barb,

Thank you so much for the kind words and for wishing my Smudgie a happy 5th month anniversary at the bridge.

It's so hard to think about the changing seasons and the holidays and not have our beloved babies physically here with us.

But I know they all live on in our hearts and their sweet spirits are waiting for us at the bridge.

There is just something special about lighting a candle, it really makes me feel closer to her.  I bought a Pumpkin Yankee Candle, the

scent just reminds me of fall and now Smudgie and I can share it together.

I wish you peace and comfort and continued healing.

Remember the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy

NancyMarie

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Hi Sweetiepie.....

Yesterday you were 5 months at the bridge and today at 8:30 a.m. it was 22 weeks.

Maybe it's silly to count each week,  but for whatever reason I feel bad not acknowledging each and every milestone, I guess because it keeps you still

in my daily life.

Mommy misses you so much, I miss that pretty face and I miss that little snort thing you did.....Mommy always knew when you entered the room.

I love you baby, kisses and hugs.

Mommy's love will never end.

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Far from being silly, I think counting the weeks as you do is extremely touching and endearing.  I also think it is a great testament to the love Smudgie and you share, and the special relationship you guys have.  Not only that, your tales of your time with Smudgie really bring him to life and although I never had the good fortune to meet him nevertheless I feel that I, at least in some small way, know him and what, like the vanilla ice cream and his battles with his water bowls, truly make him unique.  I hope the ensuing days bring you more happy memories of Smudgie.   
NancyMarie

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Dearest Soothspader,

Thank you for the kind words and yes Smudgie was very unique with all her crazy antics, I would give anything to see an overturned water bowl again.

Thank you again for reading my posts,  they help me keep her in my daily life.

I wish you much peace and comfort today and always.

Remember, the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy
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Happy Five Months Angel Smudgie!  I know you enjoyed a special day with all the other babies...Come visit your Mom soon...okay?

Dear Nancy,
I'm so sorry that I missed your sweet Smudgie's Five Month Anniversary - I know how difficult all the passing months and weeks are...I count them too, for my Lee Lee... I asked a friend once, in the early weeks, when would I stop 'knowing' exactly how many days it had been, she said... "When it surprises you."  

Thank you again for your kind reply today... The past week has presented me with three hurdles....all unavoidable, out of my control...all three enormous 'firsts' for me.  You had no way of knowing...but I had thought of the very thing that you mentioned...that this was just another sign from my angel...giving me another nudge forward. 

Hugs and peace...I hope Smudgie comes to see you tonight...
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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Dear Nancy,

I'm so sorry to be late in wishing your sweet baby Smudgie a happy five months celebration at RB. I love her picture in the beautiful collage that Bedomom so lovingly made for us...she is happy now, with our big gang having lots of treats, playtime and meeting new friends!

I know the fall will be so difficult emotionally without your sweet baby right there by your side. I lost my boy in late summer last year, and although I love the fall and love the beautiful colors that the trees turn here, it was nothing but something to just get through, unbearable because he wasn't here to share it with me. I hope that you can enjoy the parts of fall that you love the most this year. You honor your sweet baby with your candles of remembrance. You will both be cherishing your memories during the fall season, and I have a feeling those beautiful trees in heaven are the most astounding colors imaginable!

Sending you hugs of peace and comfort,

Elise, Buddy's mom
NancyMarie

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Dear LeeLeeMom - Thank you so much for wishing my beloved Smudgie a happy 5 months at the bridge, it means so much to me.  I'm glad you got past the hurdles you faced this week - remember baby steps. And I truly believe that was another sign from LeeLee,  she knows you are seeing all of her wonderful signs and she knew you would pick up on her sign to let you know "it' OK to share your love". Thank you again for the kind words, I wish you continued peace and comfort. Hugs to you !!

Dear Elise, Thank you so much for wishing my beloved Smudgie a hapy 5 month anniversary at the bridge and yes Bedomom's collage was so beautiful, it brought tears to my eyes to see my sweet Smudgie with all of her new friends.   Fall will be hard, but having the support of all the wonderful people I've met through this site will help me get through it like they've been helping me for the past 5 months - I wish I could give each and every one a big hug.  Again, thank you so much for you kind words and support. I wish you continued peace and comfort.  Hugs to you !!

Remember, the love never ends.

Hugs, Hugs, Hugs......

Nancy
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Smudgie, happy late 5 months at the bridge. Please pay a dream visit to your mom, and perhaps you can show her all the wonderful sights you have seen. I believe that whatever you want, you will get at the bridge, and if you enjoy the change of leaves, and the smell of fall weather, I bet that you will have them.

Nancy, I also have a hard time during certain parts of the year, though Harry has been gone over 2 years, those times of the year hit me like a rock. I think that is how it will always be. They leave behind so many wonderful memories, it seems like there is something every season. The winter is when we would snuggle in bed, and take long naps on the days that I was home, and in the fall and spring, when the weather was just right, we could spend a lot of time outside just walking around the yard, and enjoying the fresh air. Summer was the time we got up early and did things outside before it got too hot, then spent the afternoon inside, side by side. Yes, I am sure you have so many wonderful memories of Smudgie for every season throughout the year. I enjoyed the story of Smudgie pushing that bowl around. LOL, I bet it was a sight to see. These memories like this is so worth it all, aren't they. Though I know you would never want the pain of losing Smudgie, I know that you would live your life with her again.
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Dear Brenrae,,

Thank you so much for the kind words and for wishing my beloved Smudige a happy 5 months at the bridge.  You are so right, I bet at the bridge the fall colors are magnificent!

You are absolutely correct,  even if I knew the outcome I would live my life over with her again, she was my little soulmate and goof ball.  It was so funny to see this little 5 pound cat pushing around heavy waterbowls with her head, she was so deteremined....now I would give anything to see a water bowl turned upside down. I guess our wonderful memories of our beloved babies will have to be enough right now until we are reunited with them again.

I wish you peace and comfort today and always.

Remember, the love never ends.

Kindest Regards,

Nancy


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A sign from my sweet Smudgie.................

Sometimes the reality still doesn't seem real that you're not here.  Yesterday, I was having a sad "smudgie" day and when I have those days I drive into work so I can cry it all out before I get to work. When Mommy does drive to work I take the short cut through the old historic cemetary to see the pretty statue of the angel.  She is an old statue, she must date back to the 1800s, she is a bit worn and cracked but I think that makes her more endearing. 
You know Mommy loves angels (you're my little angel now)  so when I pass her I always say "hi angel".   Yesterday Mommy was feeling so sad she got out of the car and walked over to the angel , Mommy  whispered to her how sad I was feeling and I really needed a sign from my little soul mate and in my mind I kept thinking about butterflies.  I looked up towards the large old trees rustling in the wind and I though I saw a butterfly but it turned out to be a falling leaf. Mommy whispered to the angel to please take care of my Smudgie and to please give me a sign because I was so sad.  I touched her wings and got back into my car.  As I started the car up, I glanced up and saw a beautiful yellow and black butterfly fly right up to my windshield,  it flew back and forth in front of my windshielf for a few seconds and then just flew in the direction of the angel statue.  I was so dumbfounded I just sat there for a few seconds questioning myself, did that just really happen.  Was that a sign from you sweetie? It was just so perfect, thank you.

I miss you sweetie, Mommy's love will never end.    

 

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Dear Nancy...
Absolutely YES! That beautiful butterfly is a wonderful sign from your sweet Smudgie...how awesome!  She was clearly right there with you and listening as you asked the angel to take care of her...and she let you know that she is just fine, perfectly content and always near to her Mom...  I am so happy for you sweetie!

Good job Angel Smudgie!! ...Keep those beautiful signs coming to your Mom..she loves and misses you so much.

Hugs Nancy...your sweet baby loves you so much...my heart is smiling for you!!!

Lee Lees Mama ~ Melanie
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Dear Melanie,

Thank you so much for your sweet words.

When it happened, I thought about you and all of precious LeeLee's signs.

 I have to tell you, it truly made my day.  I was so dumbfounded when it happened, I couldn't react quick enough, otherwise I would have taken a picture. I just stood staring at this amazing beautiful butterfly dancing in front of my car when just 20 seconds ago I wished for a sign and I was thinking butterfly.......so very cool, I'm still smiling.

Big Hugs back to you Melanie.......

Nancy

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Hi Sweetie,

Having a few bad days,  Mommy so wishing you were here.

Happy 23rd week at the bridge,  have an extra helping of vanilla ice cream for Mommy.

I hope you are having fun with Max and all your new friends.

I love you so much ! I miss you so much!

Kisses and Hugs Smudgie.

Mommy's love never ends.
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Dear Nancy,
I'm so sorry...I know how hard it is to be separated from your beloved Smudgie.  It is such a hard adjustment to try to make...struggling to go on without our babies...searching for some purpose and just a little bit of joy.  I hope that you can take comfort in remembering that wonderful butterfly that your baby sent you to let you KNOW that she loves you and that she really is okay.  

Happy 23 Weeks at the Bridge Angel Smudgie!  Enjoy your celebration and that delicious vanilla ice cream that you love so much.  You Mommy loves and misses you so very much....please visit her in a special way and let her feel your sweet presence.

Sending you a great big hug my friend....I am thinking of you and your beautiful baby...
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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Dear Melanie,

Thank you so much for your very sweet message, it means a lot to me.

And yes,  I've been thinking about that beautiful butterfly, I love those signs as I know you do as well !

You take care my friend and thank you for thinking of me and Smudgie.

Big Hug back to you.

Nancy

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Hi Mama,

It's 24 weeks today that you went on to the bridge and Mommy misses you like it was just yesterday.

I'm sorry baby I missed last night's candle lighting,  the last few days have been a bit crazy, but remember sweetie Mommy carries you always in her heart.

Mommy has your angel candle burning today.

Please keep sending me your signs.

I love you always .....Mommy

NancyMarie

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Hi Smudgie,

Mommy is having a bad day, missing you so very much, it's been 24 weeks and two days but today's saddness felt like it happened yesterday.

This morning the door bell rang and it reminded me of all the times you would bolt upstairs when the bell rang.  You and your 3 sisters would all be relaxing on the couch and the bell would ring and they would look to you as "their leader" and the second you would bolt up the stairs they would follow you. You were so little you could fly up the stairs without touching a step.  And it wouldn't matter if it was the door bell on  TV or the actually door bell, you would all stampede upstairs.  I so miss all your crazy little quirks, but most of all I miss snuggling with you at night.  I would lie on the couch and you would climb up to my shoulder and gently lay your head on my shoulder and fall asleep.  I love your 3 sisters with all my heart and soul but you will always be my "little soul mate".

I know in my heart that we will meet again but until then please keep giving me your special signs.

Remember sweetie, Mommy's love is never ending.

Kisses and Hugs.........and please give Max a big kiss from me.



Bedomom

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Dear Smudgie,
Your anniversaries are always filled with lots of love from heaven to earth! Mommy misses you endlessly, please stay close to her sign her a sweet sign! I know our angels from the rainbow bridge will be with you, you little guys, medium guys and big guys are running freely, playing safely in heaven! earth is a challenging place to live that's why you all need our moms and dads...but we are only humans and we miss you angels so much!

Dear Nancy,
Thinking of you and your Beautiful Smudgie! Bedo is with her and she is OK! I know how much you miss your Sweet One! wish you peace and comfort while sharing the beautiful memories that Your Angel has left deeply in your heart!

Hugs to a Sweet Mom and Angel Hugs to Smudgie, a very very Cute Girl!

Bedomom
NancyMarie

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Hi Nance,

Awwwww, thank you so much for the sweet words and yes sweet Bedo and all the precious furbabies are together happy, healthy and playing at the bridge.

 

I know someday we all will be together,  but sometimes something triggers a memory and I just can’t help but to wish she was here.

 

Fall is my most favorite time of year but as the days start getting shorter and the air a bit crisper and the stores start displaying all the Halloween and Fall

 

decorations  I’ve been feeling so melancholy.  This is my first Fall without Smudgie and nothing seems right without her.

 

But I have to say,  everyone on this site has been such a blessing, it’s my safe haven when I don’t know where else to turn, we are all going through the

same thing, 
cycles of ups and downs and we are all here to help each other through them.

 

A great BIG HUG to you Nance !!

 

Nancy




LeeLeesMama

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Dear Nancy,
Reading your story of Smudgie racing to 'answer' the door bell made me smile....you mentioning the door bell on the TV reminded me of Lee Lee....she would sometimes start barking if she heard something on the TV...anything that sounded like a knock would send her racing to the front door. She had the deepest, most gruff voice for a girl...SO LOUD!!   Wow...we miss them don't we...all those little things...little everyday things....

I hope that you are feeling a little stronger today....I send hugs....
Melanie
~Lee Lee's Mama~
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