Registered: 1512692286 Posts: 67
I still had my dog. She wasn't feeling well, but she was sleeping at my desk and the side of my bed.
Every night I look at a collection of her photos and I have a hard time with them because in those photos she is healthy. Even six months ago she could take a decent walk. My problem is the dog I put down is not the dog in the photos. Sure, I have a few photos of her in the last six months but those don't seem to help. I guess I do not get much value from looking at the photos from ways back cause that is not the dog I put to sleep. I am trying so hard to pull up memories from her last two weeks. I want to remember that dog too and I cannot seem to. and I still want her back. I don't want another dog. I want her. More hugs to all.
Registered: 1498611382 Posts: 580
I truly know how you feel. I look at photos of my dog Termy and and I see him young, healthy and all brown with no tinges of gray and then I look at the last picture I took of him and I see the old man he became after 16 years. I still say to myself I want you back but I know that that will never be. There comes the day when all we have is the memories we made of the journey we took together with out fur babies. Keep looking at all your pictures and try to recall the memory that went that picture. Someday we both can smile and say we had a wonderful trip down life's road. we miss them and our heart is still broken and we will get better in time but for now remember the love that they gave us in their life time because they knew that it is going to have to last us our life time. I am sorry that we love so much and our pain is so deep, but try to honor their love by always remembering every part of their life. Someday we both can look back and recall that journey we made with them and all the love we shared.
Love and doggie hugs Termy's mom
Registered: 1515264344 Posts: 7
We lost our 12 year old Labrador 5 days ago. I totally understand how you feel - a month ago she seemed fine, out walking, playing with her toys, happy. Then 3 weeks ago it all started changing. She was diagnosed with cushings and liver impairment and started on medications. There was some improvement but then on the 02 January she collapsed right in front of me (so thankful I was there). We took her to the Emergency vet and the decision was made to put her to sleep. I just can't get my head around what has happened, and that she is no longer here. We are utterly heartbroken. My husband is already talking about our next dog (that is how he is coping with his grief) but I just want her. The house is so empty. My heart goes out to you, It's such an enormous loss.