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I see you in the clouds, I feel you in the wind, I see you on the mountain tops my angel. I can't stop missing you. I want to hold you again so badly it hurts. I can still feel your soft head and smell you. I sing to you every night. Do you hear me? There is nothing but solitude, desolation, rain, darkness, clouds, and despair in my heart since you left me. I am trying so hard to get better, but I just seem to get bleaker and bleaker at not having you. The cancer has taken so many things from me, but mostly it took you. Is it possible to hate something so very, very much. It is just so unfair. You were such a good little boy. You didn't deserve what was done to you. Sometimes I doubt my faith in God. Why would He do this to someone as good as you. Someone who brought so much goodness into this wretched world. Today is one month since you left us and it seems like just yesterday. Everywhere I look, everything I do, I think of you. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know dear how much I love you, so please don't take my sunshine away. Do you hear mama singing that to you every night? There will never be another like you my precious angel. I miss playing blanket monster with you. If only I could for one more time. I would sell my very soul, but then It wouldn't be enough. Until we meet again, angel boy, my precious little man. Mama LOVES YOU TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH
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Dear Bennies Mom:
I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling for your precious Bennie. I know you loved Bennie very very much. I understand all different things you are feeling. You will see Bennie again and will share happiness and love again. I have had some of the same feeling you have and I too look up into the sky and see my sweetheart Meister. I feel the pain will never end but i know I will see him again also. I will be thinking of you today. I know I can't take away your pain. I will pray for you and Bennie. Hugs Mary Meisters Mom
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Oh, Maria, I am typing through my tears. I know how terribly difficult it has been for you since you lost Bennie, and my heart just breaks for you. He was your sunshine, just like my Betsy was mine. We both sang that song to them. That is a melancholy little song, as it is a plea not to take them away. But, they had to run ahead of us to the Bridge. Like someone else on this board said, "It is a temporary separation." But, boy, does it hurt like nothing else!
You are in my thoughts and prayers today as you mark your Bennie's BridgeDay. I lit a candle for him under the name BEN. May it bring some comfort to your hurting heart. BELOVED BENNIE, HAPPY ONE MONTH BRIDGEDAY!! I HOPE YOU HAVE A CELEBRATION WITH ALL YOUR FRIENDS AT THE BRIDGE AND LOTS OF YOUR FAVORITE TREATS. MY BETSY WILL MAKE YOU ROASTED CHICKEN AND MISS MOLLY WILL SERVE HER FAMOUS BISCUITS. PLEASE VISIT YOUR MOM IN HER DREAMS AND LET HER KNOW YOU ARE OKAY. Sending hugs and peace, Melissa Betsy's forever loving mom
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The love that you have for your Bennie shines through your words. You two have a very special bond.
I too hate cancer for what it did to my sweet Molly schnauzer.
May you find a little peace in a special memory of your precious Bennie today.
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I know how you feel on this day as I passed the one month since Peach made her journey. It was some what prolific that you said I see you in the clouds. As I was sitting outside here on a sunny Sunday in Oklahoma as white clouds rolled across a clear blue sky I looked up and saw one cloud standing out above all others for as to me it looked like a gigantic paw print, what I would have given to have had my camera. I thought it may be Peaches but it was too big for her so it must of come from all our departed soul mates to all of us who are thinking about them today. I am sure your precious little man was joining in. God Bless.---Jerry in Oklahoma.
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Bennie hears you every time you sing him his song and knows the love you have for him. I am sure that he really loved when you sang him his song.
I know that having just one more time with them just wouldn't be enough, it would never be enough. Maybe if we could just see them and know that they are okay and not missing us as much as we miss them, that might be enough? I don't know. I hope you find some peace for yourself. As I said once, cry when you need to and smile when you can. It is all we can do now... Helen
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Dear Bennie's Mom:
I am in tears trying to respond to your post. This grief we have for our babies is just overwhelming and never ends. Christopher has been gone for over 15 months and the pain is still so overwhelming. I still cry for him every day. Each night I talk to Christopher's Star. As I speak to him I can see his Star sparkle brightly. I know that he is listening and can hear me. I can hear him say, "I Love you Mommy. Please don't cry; close your eyes and you will see me. I miss you too." And when I close my eyes I can see him dancing for me like he did every day; I can see him running down the driveway with me chasing after him; I can see him laying next to me on the bed. So I know that Bennie can hear you. Hopefully some day you will be able to hear him too. I am so sorry for your loss and for your pain. I wish there was something I could say that would help, but as you probably have guessed I have found nothing that works. You and Bennie are in my Prayers. HAPPY ONE MONTH BRIDGE DAY PRECIOUS BENNIE. STAY SAFE FOR YOUR MOMMY UNTIL SHE CAN GET THERE. MAY GOD'S ANGELS WATCH OVER YOU FOREVER. Sending Big Hugs and Prayers Your Way Georgeann and Christopher Forever
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Dear Benniesmom – I’m thinking of you as you remember your sweet little man Bennie on his 1 month anniversary at the Rainbow Bridge. I, along with all of us here, understand your grief. My pain is as raw and fresh as the day my kitty Rusty left me 18 weeks and 2 days ago. And there are some days, like today, that hit me so hard, for no apparent reason, other than I miss him so terribly. I too question why our higher power makes our sweet babies suffer so much, and then take them from us . . . it is questions like those that I believe, can and will forever haunt us. Dear Bennie – your mommy loves and misses you so very much and she sending extra special kisses today on this, your first anniversary at the Rainbow Bridge. Stay warm and safe sweet little Bennie. With much affection, Rusty’s Mom – Allison.