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It has been one month today that our beloved Simon left us. I miss him sooooo much and I think of him every single day. My heart is forever changed by his death. I am better than I was a month ago, but I still cry often for him. They say time is going to make it better, but honestly, it is worse because now I know for sure that he isn't coming home. Now I am faced to accept what I wish was a bad dream and that is hard for me. My husband feels the same way. He was our first child and was the biggest pile of love we ever owned. My days are busy with my children and work, but the night is hard because I am waiting to hear his jingles or his walk. He was a wonderful dog and I know one day I will see him again. I just hope he is okay and happy. I thank you all who have responded to me before. God bless all of you.
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The early months of loss are so painful. Each day you hope to feel better, but it takes quite awhile to come around. Living without our wee ones is not an easy task. Our fur babies are wonderful gifts from God and you were blessed have Simon in your life. He sounds like a very special and sweet boy.
Mare precious Christoph ~ gone too soon ~
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So sorry about Simon. I know how you feel. The busy times are good because you feel stronger and able to carry on. But when things are quiet, you know that this is the moment when our little furry guys would come jingling along , after waiting patiently for our day to slow down, looking to give and get love and cuddles. It's been 3 months for me. I wouldn't say it gets easier, but you just get so tired of being sad that you make up your mind to get better. It comes and goes, comes with a vengeance and then goes again. You will see Simon again. I'm sure God must reward us in heaven by letting us spend eternity with our precious little ones.
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Darian, Thanks for reaching out to me. I agree, it does not get easier, and yes, there are times I am tired of feeling this grief. I am not this type of down person, and it is hard for me. I am on my way to "getting better and accepting my new normal" still, very hard. I get what you mean about the grief coming and going. I can talk about Simon fine and then talk about him another time and I am a crying mess. I always dressed him for Halloween, he was like I said, our first son. Going to be strange and hard without him. There is a Heaven and I believe when I get there, Simon will come running into my arms. Thanks again. Stay strong.
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I appreciated your post very much. Why is it so easy to console someone that has gone through the same ordeal, yet we are so hard on ourselves. If we would both listen to our messages it's just unbelievable how this grieving process works.
My heart goes out to you...I know how you feel. I listen for that jingling to and the nail sound on the tile floor. I miss it so much. Sometimes I feel like a zombie....I just don't know what to do and usually it's around Buffy's feeding time, walking time and quiet time. We both know we aren't alone in this process and I thank you for your words of wisdom to me...and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that God or your higher power will give us the strength we need until we see our beloved companions again.