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Monday will have been one year since one of the worst days of my life. The day I lost my best friend Bandit. Bandit was only six years old and although I knew he would leave me one day, I always assumed I'd have way more time with him.

We were playing with his favorite toy (laser dot) and he just yelped and became lethargic. We rushed him to our vet (which also happened to be an animal hospital which was our only option as it was a Sunday). It took them about 10-15 minutes to get a stretcher out to carry him in (he wasn't small, he weighed around 120lbs). As they rushed to preform "life saving measures" we sat waiting in an exam room. About 10 minutes later the vet came in and said they had done an ultrasound on his heart and had found a massive bleed around his heart (likely caused by a tumor bursting) and he was going downhill fast. She recommended we consider ending his suffering. I decided I needed to be there for him so I was lead back to him. I wish I could have comforted him more (and to this day it is my biggest regret and torment) but seeing him like that was too hard to bear and I ended up crying in my Dad's arms. It all happened within 15 minutes.  I didn't have time to process it and felt completely numb as they began asking me what I wanted to do (bring him home or cremate him). I decided to have him cremated so I could always have him with me, and he now sits on my headboard. 

Although I did end up getting another puppy only a couple weeks later (something I never thought I'd do, but I was so lonely and would come home form work and just cry myself to sleep laying on his bed), nothing can ever replace Bandit in my heart. I've never had a bond like the one I had with him. He was my heart dog and I feel like he took a part of me with him. 

I'm not sure how I'm going to get through Monday. Hard to believe it's already been a year. I'm not sure what I should do in his memory, but I do plan to get his paw print tattooed soon. I'm glad I found this place because its honestly been too hard for me to talk about it and even writing this I'm tearing up. 

Kristen aka Bandit's Mommy 


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Hello Kristen,
How handsome is Bandit in the photo !!!! He has the look of see all and know all. The unconditional companionship, devotion and love that they give to US, Memories for a lifetime. Cherish each one. I feel for certain Bandit knew he had it made, ie: good home and TLC... An animal knows.
Soon to be one month, laying my 16y old chihuahua to rest, also health issues, as he was in his twilight years. He was 5040 days old, having got him at age 3 mnths and that seems like only yesterday when he ''eyed'' me and off we went enjoying Life. He definitely touched my Soul !. What I have done is place his  large photo in a rather heavy silver photo frame, studded with diamonds, rather zirconias, most befitting for the King that he was. His passing has left a big void and the emotional trauma that I feel is very real, as it is for All of Us on this forum. May Bandit's Memory be a Blessing, speak of his name freely....Therefore Bandit lives On.........     Sherry/Perryx

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Hi Kristen,
Thanks for sharing, you've made me tear up. Beautiful post about a beautiful boy. He looks like a great boy to just hang with and talk to. All charm!
I'm thinking of getting some kind of tattoo too, I think it's a great tribute.
Rest in peace darling Bandit. x
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