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We lost Lola our beautiful collie on Friday.
I was at work. It was about 4.45pm and my husband had been playing with her and her brother in the garden and had gone inside the house for a moment when she got into the orchard by the garden gate and through the hedge and onto the lane where the local farmer hit her with his pickup truck and she died instantly We live on a quiet lane but she always wanted to go for cars so probably ran out on purpose.
I didn't find out until I got home at 7.30pm. My poor husband had to bear this until I got home knowing that I would be hysterical.
The past few days have been so full of pain and tears we are both exhausted.
We got her aged 1 as a rescue dog only 7 months ago with her brother. My husband has waited all his life for a collie and she was quirky, unique and beautiful.
I am consumed by the thought that we didn't protect her enough. I blamed my husband at first but I know that I have been outside with her and she has got out of the garden - she was determined and feisty and always wanting to see what was in the next field or through a hedge.
The pain and guilt are overwhelming and I can't bear the thought that she lost her life on our quiet lane.
I'm trying to hold it together for her brothers sake but the pain in my chest is my heart breaking.
She was a larger than life character and I can't think of the future without her in it.
I have lost people but this is grief like I have never felt before.
I have to go into work tomorrow and try and function but I just want to curl up and cry.
Thoughts of what ifs are consuming me and none of it will bring her back to us.
Registered: 1515548302 Posts: 123
Hello Sahar, My heart goes out to you at this saddest of time. Your emotions are raw understandably. Know that in the short space of time since her being adopted by You, she was Special and had a good home and good Life ! Accidents do occur, a fact of Life. Heartbreaking is the loss---For the Love of Our pets---Forever in Our Hearts. I feel your sorrow. Sherry/Perryx
Registered: 1431299507 Posts: 32
you must feel devasted...so alone in your grief as you mourn the loss of your dog Lola. I had a collie growing up and they are precious and sweet.
the anguish you feel about not protecting Lola is perfectly understandable. as you go over the facts, you see ways where this could have been avoided. and as a result, your torment is turned up to high velocity. I think anyone would feel the way you do. you are sick inside and can't stop thinking about why and how. feel free to take time off for work if you want to. god bless you. I am so sorry for your loss.