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It has been a long while since I visited the site. In the months after Paco passed I was here several times each day. I am certain that the caring and concern from the PetLoss community helped me to survive those awful first few months. For that I am so thankful and appreciative. I can't believe that it is a year today (7/9/08). The days leading up to today had me again reliving the events of this time last year and it has been so hard.
My heart is still broken over his loss. For me it has been learning how to live without him - how to adjust to the emptiness, the pain and numb feeling of grief that seems to always be with me. I think of him all the time and wish we could relive our 19 years together again. How fortunate I was to have his love for that long - exactly one half of my life. He was a beautiful, big grey tabby cat. He was clever, brave, smart, funny and we loved each other more and more each year. Without question he is the love of my life. I miss him so much that that my body and heart still ache for him and I still secretly hope that some way he can come back to me. In a card I received after his passing there was a quote "Perhaps they are not stars in the sky but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy." My life was truly better when Paco was in it. I carry his love and beauty with me in my heart and will always remember him. I love you my beautiful boy - I can't believe that we have been apart for a year already. Happy Bridge Day Paco. I can't wait until we are back together again.
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It was so nice to see your post. Every time I look at our first balloon release pictures I see Paco's balloon. Oh how I understand your pain. Christopher has been gone for almost 16 months. I miss him as much today as the day he left. I still cry for him every day. I remember how awful it was for you when you lost Paco. Having someone for 19 years then suddenly losing them has to be overwhelming. The one year mark was so difficult for me as well. It was like living Christopher's loss all over again. These Precious Angels brought so much Joy into our lives and when they left the Joy left with them. I know that my life changed forever and I am sure yours did as well. I have thought about you and Paco often. I am glad you are back and hope that you stay in touch. HAPPY ONE YEAR BRIDGE DAY PRECIOUS PACO. I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY. STAY SAFE AND WAIT FOR YOUR MOMMY. SHE WILL BE THERE ONE DAY. MAY GOD'S ANGELS WATCH OVER YOU FOREVER. Sending Prayers and Big Hugs Your Way Georgeann and Christopher Forever
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It is so hard to imagine that a whole year has gone by already. I can understand the ache from the loss of Paco, I know how much you love him. I believe that our lives were much better when they were here with us, they just made us better people and more caring people. I like the idea of your comment "Perhaps they are not stars in the sky but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy." That is comforting. My thoughts are with you and Paco on this day, Helen
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Happy 1 year Bridge Day dear Paco! I hope you had a wonderful day with Mr. Meowgy and all your new friends! Donna, Mr. Meowgy's mom