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We brought Beth home 9years 3months ago as a companion for Sam our 11year old black labrador. Right from day one she chose to follow me around, Sam was daddy's boy. As a pup she would delight in taking the top off the fountain and hiding it, so we would have a gushing torrent instead of a pretty cascade. Beth was the gentlest of a gentle breed, she became 'mom' to a stray 2week old kitten I'd brought home, and would sit for hours as it climbed over her head or jumped on her tail. One day I found her sitting on the roof of my car with my other cats enjoying the sun. I think she was a small dog in a big dog's body because she loved to sit on my lap. Of course this didn't happen very often and had to be well prepared for, i.e. sitting on the floor surrounded by cushions, but we managed and she would get as much of herself as she could on my lap and put her head on my shoulder and sigh. Since Beth went to sleep I have had the most incredible urge to stand by the gate to the field next to our garden. We live at the head of a valley and there are no other houses around so Beth could run where she wanted. I stand there and call her name, hoping for something I know cannot happen, but, miracles happen, maybe one day. Thank-you to everyone who replied, you've enabled me to write this, and I'm crying, I don't think I will ever stop.
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It's hard, I know. It's like losing your child. Our furbabies ARE our children. They share our lives with us, and we share theirs. Although we are grieving terribly now, I am grateful for the privilege of being Jackson's mummy, even if it was for only 12 years. They were wonderful years.
They give us so much unconditional love. And we miss their pure hearts terribly. When my grief eventually lessens, my love for my boy will be even stronger, and I will smile at the happy memories that he has given me. You DO find yourself standing and 'waiting' for them, as if by some miracle they will appear physically to us again. Talking to my baby helps me. I tell him how much I miss him and how much I love him. I know he can hear me. I say a prayer for you and Beth, and a prayer for myself and Jackson. One day we will all see each other again. Be kind to yourself. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Shiannon, Jacksons mum.
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Bethy, I am sitting here reading and rereading your post and want to say something that helps; but I can't think of anything as I'm still in a grieving process myself. I guess all I can say is I'm glad that we can share our pain here as people here understand this kind of ache in our hearts. It seems to lift for a while, then comes back again.
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I am deeply sorry for your loss of sweet Beth. It is very hard to deal with the deep pain we feel. I loved the stories you sent about her. Talk to Beth as much as you can. I know she can hear you and loves you very much.
It is so great how we can share this special love with our pets. Please let all of us here know how you are doing and pictures of Beth would be wonderful. I will pray for you and Beth. Many hugs, Mary Meisters Mom
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It sounds like you had a glorious life with Beth, one of pure joy. They have a way of giving us just what we need; their love.
I understand what you mean by waiting for them, maybe they will come back if we call them enough. I still expect to see Chancey and Digby walk down the hallway to see what I am doing. I wish there was more I could say to help you, I guess just keep coming here and talking about Beth to us and telling us about her great life... Share if you can and want to it really helps. Helen
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I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby Beth. I have gone back and read your other posts as well and have tears running down my face as I write this post. She sounds like an absolutely wonderful girl. My dog Issi, whom I adopted when she was six years old two years ago in August, used to lived with three other dogs. Now she lives with six cats. Three of the six absolutely adore her and two of them sleep with her and kiss her all the time. Hard to believe she was never around cats before and harder still to believe that at least two of the cats, had never seen a dog before. I know after I lost Drew, I would look out the window of my bedroom thinking I would still see her playing out in the woods behind the house. It was her favorite place to be. She is now layed to rest in her favorite place. Like you, I cried for weeks. At first, it seems as though the pain will never leave your heart. Eventually, it will. I always say not to rush the grieving process. There is no time limit on our grief and we should cry as much as we need to and most especially, we should talk about it. Everyone here truly understands and cares. Take care and know that we are here for you. Your friend, DrewTenderHeartWolf http://www.catster.com/cats/311365
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I am so sorry for the loss of your Beth....she was your soulmate and your best friend. She was so much a part of your day and now she is gone life will never be the same. I too know what it is like to look out the window and wish to see my boy lying in the sun....now we are alone we remember all the cheeky and beautiful things they did, we would not have had them any other way.
I know that your girl is watching over you now with so much love....she misses you as much as you miss her, but knows that one day you will be together again and then never will be apart. I hope my sweet Nugget had befriended your girl....you have come to the right place here, I have got so much comfort from everyone here, I hope we can do the same for you. A big cuddle to you, Nuggetsmum Alana
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I am so sorry for the loss of your Beth. You have come to the right place. This place has helped me so much. I sometimes write my thoughts to my precious Bennie here, as if I am speaking to him directly, and this too helps. I also speak to him every night. I know what you mean about hoping for miracles. I keep hoping that this has all just been one long bad dream and that I will awake to my Bennie at the foot of the bed. Peace and prayers to you.
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Sweetie, all of us know how you feel. I am so sorry for the pain you are suffering. Try to remember that your Beth is not suffering, but is enjoying her new and perfect life at Rainbow Bridge. Someday you will cross that bridge with her and enter a valley of love and life that is eternal. Talk to Beth, I am sure that she will hear your voice. I think the angels caring for our precious babies somehow carry our special messages to them.
God bless you and keep you and help your hurting heart to heal. Love and prayers, Marsha (Twinkiesmom)