Registered: 1570962568 Posts: 1
Hello, I just needed something to talk to about my dog Rosie who passed away may 2nd. I have so much sadness in my heart for the loss of my dog. She was my bestest friend. I had her when I was 8 and I’m 18 years old now. She died of cancer in her leg and the pain got to her. We wanted one last night with her but ended up wishing we did it sooner. She cried all night in pain from her leg and we all slept around her. In the morning a lady came to our house to euthanize her in our home. I watched as the lady put the needle in to make sure she didn’t feel a thing then.but then she passed on. I watched as my dogs eyes were cold and her breathe was gone.she stopped breathing.the lady carried her on a stretcher and took her to cremate her. I cannot seem to separate myself from this moment I think about her eyes And how she looked and how badly I want to love on my dog again. The pain hurts so bad. I cry everyday. Little moments of seeing a dog walk by gets me sad again. I just feel so depressed and alone. My best friend is gone. At this time I feel as if there is no heaven and god hates me because I just can’t understand why my dog is dead. I want her back. I’ll never see her again. She’s gone. I wish I was with her. I will never be happy again. I think I have PTSD from that night that day and I cannot seems to be happy anymore. I keep thinking another dog would help but I am just too scared it won’t be her. It’s not her. And I need help. I am going to get help this upcoming Friday. I have nobody. I am alone.
Registered: 1569892232 Posts: 22
I'm so sorry about your dog. I lost my dog two weeks ago unexpectedly and i understand how you are feeling. I never dreamed that it would be this hard. I also want my dog back and have been through so many emotions, including being mad at God, the universe, myself. It helps me a bit to look at photos of my dog to help get the last sad images I have of her out of my mind. I have been very depressed as well; it's the first thing I think about in the morning, I think about her all day and it keeps me awake at night. Again, I'm so sorry. I never understood how hard it was to lose a pet until it happened to me. I think it's a good idea to get help and to talk to somebody. It helped me to write a letter to my dog in a Word document. Hang in there, I've heard it gets easier as time passes even though I know it seems difficult to believe right now. Hugs!