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basil

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Dear Smarlies,

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby.  I have made it a new message subject so that you can, if you feel able, tell us a bit more.  Glad you found us, Love, Di xxx
smarlies72

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Thank you so much!!!! My face just lit up seeing this new post. I can't begin to tell you all how good it is to know that I'm not alone in missing a beloved pet. I work with people who really don't understand - some people will never be "animal people" I guess. Tonight I had to face going to my mum's home where our Jesse lived and it was terribly hard - I couldn't stay and I couldn't bring myself to open my eyes, yet I felt that I was being mean to the memory of our girl. But I just know I'm not ready yet. My spotted dalmatian angel was 3 months shy of 13 years, but as much as she had a very full life, I still wish I could have given her more years. But so sadly, her body had reached its limits. We miss her and every night I wish she would appear to me in a dream, but she doesn't - she was always a wilful girl ;o) and I guess she is just having so much fun swimming, bounding over hills, and playing with all the other doggies and cats and birds, that she's just making me wait. She was such a challenge at times, but she sure gave us so much unconditional love, and special moments during her life that I would never swap that time for anything in the world. I wish I could have her back so much, but I know that she needed to find peace and that it was her time. The pain is still so raw for us right now and I don't see that changing for a long time yet, but thank you all for such lovely posts and comfort. I really look forward to reading more about others as special as my girl Jesse.
basil

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I am so glad that you saw the post.  I made it because you had posted about your Jesse on other posts and I didnt want you to be overlooked at this sad time.  It is so hard to let them go.  My little man was 19 or 20 when I had to let him pass before Christmas last year.  Needless to say we had a rotten Christmas........The wolves have made me 2 memorial pages for all of my babies at the Bridge, my Basil is the little ginger dog, if you get time, please click on the link and you will see all of my precious angels.  http://petsupports.com/a01/sorcha.htm  I still cry over all of them, I miss them so.  All the love and the fun they gave to me, I have been blessed.
I am sending you a rainbow from your Jesse to let you know how much she loves you.  So glad that you found us.  Much Love, Di xxx

  ALL MY LOVE TO YOU, THE BEST MUMMY IN THE WORLD, FROM JESSE  XXXXXXXX
Loudpurring

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Hi Smarlies,
I am writing in fire engine red ( well you know why ) The whole fire truck dog thing.
 
The first dog I had ( that came to live with me after I wa born ) was a dalmation named Buttons. She was the bestdog ever. What a clown.And kind of didn't respect other peoples food. But anyway. We all loved her so. I had her from the time I was 3yrs old, till she and I were both 12years old. I love dalmations. Unfortnately they don't seem to go much past 11or12years.
 
Great dogs. I know you must be so sad. Please post here as often as you need.
 
And don't worry about other people like the ones at your work. THEY JUST DON'T GET IT Really I used to get upset, but they really don't get it. They are missing so much.
smarlies72

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Thank you so much! I love the fire truck red font and the rainbow!!!! You are both so lovely. It's been a really, really tough day today - each day seems to get harder rather than easier. My beautiful girl's ashes will be returned to us at home tomorrow and we are dreading it. As much as we want her back in her home, seeing "her" in this way is torment. But we thought it better than having her buried in our back yard especially when it's been pouring with rain of late (she never liked to get her fur wet!! ;o)

Because she loved to run and was always wanting to get to the next place when arriving at one, we thought it apt that we spread her ashes over the river where she loved to swim and play. Of course I don't know if I'm ever going to be ready for that day when it comes, but I'll try, because I know that's what she wanted. Do you guys ever find yourselves questioning whether you did the right thing by them, whether you should have done more tests and more tests just to rule out other things and give them another shot, or am I just being selfish? I don't know, I guess I just miss her terribly. I can't get her out of my mind.

Any words of wisdom/advice is gratefully appreciated...

;o)
basil

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I think we all wonder if we did things at the right time.  More tests whatever.  Just bear in mind that you did what you did out of love.  You would never have hurt your baby because you loved her, as she adored you, and still does.  We are only human, we make decisions on what we know at the time, and yes, we always wonder because our babies cant actually voice how they are feeling. 
The thing is, we just dont want to let them go, and that is the bottom line.  We want them to stay with us forever dont we.  I am thinking of you, Love Di xxx
smarlies72

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I can't begin to tell you how comforting I find this forum - it's helped me more than anything to come to grips with how to deal with the loss, the resulting guilt, the pain etc etc. My tears still come to me in waves - it's like the tide - one hour I'm fine, the next I'm a mess.

I would give anything to have my Jesse back. It's funny how signs often crop up too... Just yesterday my next door neighbour said she saw a dally come from the bottom of my street and run across the road on its own - no owner in sight. I had shivers up my spine because the only 2 dallys' in my area are ALWAYS with their owners and on leads, so it was really weird that only a few days after my Jesse left our world, this unaccompanied Dally was in my street... probably coincidence but you never know. And today as my Mum got off the bus at her stop, there was an unaccomanied dog waiting to greet her at the stop - no owner in sight. He wasn't interested in anyone else, except my mum - it's like Jesse had sent him there to pass on a few licks and tail wags. Of course we'll never know, but gee, wouldn't it be nice.

Jesse's Mum
;o)

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